The Awakening of Lust (3)
Vivian stepped out of the room and began to wander through the Rondore Castle.
Listening to the pouring rain, she tried to calm the complicated emotions in her heart.
Because it was night, she felt a bit lonely and a bit sentimental.
She had gone out for a small walk to forget someone, but someone kept coming to mind even more.
...?
As she walked through the castle, she discovered something.
Through the window, looking down at the training ground, there was something different from usual.
Frowning, she focused, and realized there were two small figures standing in the rain.
One was training with a sword, and the other was watching him.
A boy soldier and a maid?
Vivian thought for a moment.
The person who seemed to be the boy soldier was swinging the sword stubbornly, and next to him, the one who seemed to be the maid was constantly circling around the boy soldier.
The thrill and happiness that the maid felt was transmitted to Vivian watching from afar.
...It was strange how everyone was busy finding a partner like this.
Training in the pouring rain at night with just the two of them, and cheering each other on.
Love was said to be a hard-to-understand and inefficient action, but seeing that, she understood what it meant.
Just as she was about to take another step, a strange sensation stopped Vivian.
For some reason, the posture and movements of the boy soldier were familiar to her eyes.
In that strange feeling, Vivian couldn't move her feet and stared more clearly at the subject.
...Eh?
The more time she spent, her heart pounded harder.
Her expression gradually frowned, and her head tilted in doubt.
...But Vivian couldn't be mistaken about him.
...Kailo...?
She whispered.
Doubt turned into obsession, obsession into certainty.
It was Kailo.
It was hard to see well because of the heavy rain and darkness... but the black hair gradually became clear.
...When she came to her senses, she was leaving the castle.
Barefoot, in a thin nightgown.
She went out without even lying on the bed.
-Swaaaah...
Even in the rain pouring like a waterfall, she was unaffected.
It was the first time in her 15-year life that she had faced such rain without hesitation.
But this ice-cold rain couldn't affect her at all.
Her sore soles didn't hurt.
No matter what obstacles were in front, the thick flame blooming in her heart didn't go out.
As she walked, she thought.
Even if she was arrogant, she had clear conviction.
....Kailo had only herself.
Just as the person she truly relied on was only Kailo, the one Kailo truly relied on would only be herself.
They were enemies, but they had many similar points, and they read each other's minds best without saying anything.
Without saying, they didn't get closer to each other.
Kailo also didn't have feelings for her that he would protect her life for.
Guilt or debt... didn't positive feelings for her exist in Kailo?
The thing he cherished most...
...most...
....was herself, wasn't it?
Vivian arrived at the training ground and thought about the maid next to Kailo.
...But who is that?
Maybe it was Serena.
If she was there despite the warning, it was a chance for Serena to truly feel Vivian's anger.
To identify her, Vivian moved her steps.
Even if her feet got dirty with mud, she didn't stop.
...Hah.
Soon, a fierce smile appeared on Vivian's face.
It wasn't a maid next to Kailo.
It was Lani Dubos.
They had been avoiding meeting her to prevent Kailo from meeting her... but the two were meeting as if pretending not to know her.
At this ambitious night.
The time when no one could be caught, and she changed to be more emotional than anyone.
Vivian found it unbelievable and laughed hollowly again and again.
If it was like this, why had she endured it all this time? The time she had been alone suppressing it all felt stupid.
Moreover, from Lani and Kailo's relationship, it seemed more than a day or two of nonsense.
Lani burst into happy laughter and spun around Kailo like a bird.
Vivian had once envied Lani's lively personality, but now it just irritated her.
Vivian recorded their behavior and moved with calm steps.
Her hair stuck to her shoulders, rain obscured her vision, but she advanced with straight steps.
Lani then hit Kailo's arm playfully, then suddenly narrowed the distance and placed her hand on Kailo's chest.
...For the first time, Vivian felt the impulse to cut someone's hand.
Kailo was hers.
One of the few assets she had.
It was hard to forgive someone else's arbitrary hand on him.
Vivian looked at Kailo's body, the wet clothes clinging tightly.
The muscles of his whole body were clearly visible.
Whether anger or some other emotion, Vivian's heart was beating more roughly.
She didn't know when his body had grown like this, when it had become so... cool that it made her angry.
A strange feeling kept lingering in her body.
With anger, a violent mind was stimulated, and she even thought of biting Kailo's nape.
Among all these doubts, the only one that was clear was that Lani, who was touching his body without hesitation, was more annoying and irritating than ever before.
Lani was touching the body of Kailo that she couldn't even touch even if told to, without hesitation.
As Vivian's anger grew, her steps also quickened.
-Thud!
At that moment, Kailo grabbed Lani's shoulder.
And delivered some serious words to Lani.
At the same time, the expression he showed to Lani was an emotion Vivian saw for the first time.
Only concern and affection, nothing else.
For Vivian, her heart felt tightly squeezed.
Anger, frustration, and hatred exploded in Vivian's head.
Had she gotten a chance to be happy with Lani and such?
Not only was the body wet creating a lewd atmosphere, but they were meeting at night.
Since this didn't sit well with her, Vivian made up her mind to break Kailo's happiness.
"Kailo."
They didn't notice that she had come, so immersed in each other's worlds.
Only after raising their voices did they flinch like kids caught doing something bad.
Vivian was so angry that they were so focused on each other.
...She wanted to pull Lani out of Kailo's black eyes.
"...W-what are you doing...?"
Vivian stammered as usual.
But she had no intention of correcting it.
It was enough to handle the difficult emotions chasing her.
It had been 5 days.
5 days had passed, and it didn't sit well with her to talk to him like this.
She saw Kailo, who usually maintained composure, for the first time looking flustered because of Lani.
It was unpleasant to see him flustered because of Lani.
Every moment, Vivian's anger grew like the flame that swallowed Rondore Castle.
Kailo hesitated for a long time and asked.
"...Why are you here?"
"What about you?"
"..."
When Kailo couldn't answer again, Vivian's arrow turned to Lani.
"What are you doing?"
Lani instinctively swallowed her fear and hid slightly behind Kailo.
She grabbed his collar a bit and trembled.
It looked like Kailo had become Lani's shield.
Vivian gritted her teeth and commanded.
"Kailo, come here."
"What?"
Vivian felt her patience running out.
Because of that, her words became rougher.
"If I command you twice... I'll gouge your eyes."
The inner violence she didn't even know she had was flowing out.
Kailo stood frozen and slowly walked towards Vivian.
Lani just stood there helplessly.
Kailo approached and casually grabbed Vivian's shoulder.
Feeling the warmth he gave, she slightly came back to her senses.
Kailo said.
"...What is this clothes?"
"You... what kind of talk is that now?"
"Look at yourself and say it."
For the first time, Vivian looked down at her own clothes.
The thin nightgown was clinging wetly to her body.
Her breasts that had been growing recently and her widening hips were fully revealed.
Her navel, firm abs, thin waist were all visible.
White skin with occasional color.
Vivian finally realized that her body could be this lewd.
Looking back at Kailo's face, it was full of agitation.
She felt he was doing his best not to look at her body.
"..."
But at the same time, Vivian felt a heart that she couldn't even imagine thinking.
...It would be more comfortable if she had just seen it.
Lust was disgusting and filthy, but strangely, she wanted to accept its dirtiness now.
It was more irritating that he was looking at Lani with those eyes.
Why? Thinking about it, there was only one answer.
If it was Lani, maybe Kailo could accept her. Maybe he could release his lust for her.
But it wasn't her. Rather, if he released his lust on her, he could give her lifelong frustration.
So, Vivian judged.
But this thought didn't last long.
The anger towards him and Lani kept waking her up.
It was too irritating that they were building memories in the night rain.
There was definitely a memory in their minds of living together forever.
"...Is that important...?"
Vivian asked while dripping rain.
"Right now... who is doing this at will?"
"...Viv-"
"-You came to this land thinking you would be happy?"
Vivian swept his body up and down and whispered.
"Why, does lust boil when growing? Where should I release it?"
Her constant insults made Kailo's face harden.
Steam rose from the heat flowing from Kailo's body.
To Vivian, it was strangely sensual.
Kailo said after a long silence.
"It wasn't that."
"It wasn't that?"
"...Lust... it wasn't that."
Vivian sneered.
After seeing Lani once and Kailo again, she said coldly.
"Lie again. Really not?"
Vivian could believe Kailo saying it wasn't.
However, Lani was different.
It was Lani who had been circling him like a bird and putting hands on his body.
Even a child who didn't know lust could see that there was a flow.
Kailo wasn't, but Lani was.
There was definitely fault in Kailo who didn't push her away.
"How can it not be? Sneaking out at night with the two of them, playing with clothes wet... clinging affectionately to each other... how can it not be that?"
"...Vivian."
-Thud.
Vivian put her hand on Kailo's cheek and said again as a warning.
"Say it again, Kailo Allen. To me... lie somewhere."
They were the two who knew each other best.
They saw through each other's lies even if they hated it.
"..."
Kailo frowned but couldn't answer.
Since he knew Lani was at fault, his personality wouldn't escape saying he was no worse than her. He couldn't say it was all Lani's fault.
Vivian felt a strange surge in her chest.
She was glad the rain was coming.
To be able to hide any tears that might hang at the corners even if she couldn't understand.
Whatever it was, she had no intention of crying.
She had no thought of yielding to Kailo even a little.
Vivian declared.
"Please... Kailo. Come to your senses. Do I have to say it with my own mouth...? You don't think about living a normal life on this land. Your happiness is managed by me, understand?"
"..."
Lani Dubos finally gathered courage and ran to Vivian.
"Viv, Vivian-nim, I was wrong-"
-Slap!
As soon as Lani approached, Vivian slapped her cheek without hesitation.
The scene of Lani's hand on Kailo's chest was still vivid.
-Thud!
Kailo grabbed Vivian's wrist in an instant from that gesture.
On his face, firm anger appeared.
It was clear there was a warning not to go further.
Vivian didn't find his warning scary.
Instead... it hurt. She felt her heart hurt enough to want to throw a tantrum.
Vivian strongly masked this feeling and spat it out.
"In front of me..."
"..."
She pulled the arm he was holding.
Kailo's face came close.
Vivian looked into his eyes and perhaps leaked jealousy.
"In front of me... don't protect another woman."