Ep.7 - Again, Getting Fucked Like a Dog (1)
Ep.7 - Again, Getting Fucked Like a Dog (1)
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Helen confided her secret to me. The small favor that had tenuously linked us finally revealed itself.
She could release the power of the God inscribed on my wrist.
When she rubbed it coaxingly, the God mark would glow faintly, and pressing it to my forehead let me glimpse scenes of my past—or maybe it's more accurate to call them the future. It was bewildering; I barely understood it myself...
Scenes eerily similar to the current situation flashed by rapidly, and every one of them led toward a horrific, miserable end.
"If you had this ability, it would have been nice to know sooner. Why wait until now..."
"They surfaced little by little, ever so faintly; I had no choice. Now that I've finally remembered everything clearly, I relayed it to you, Delin-gun, as urgently as possible."
Though only a fleeting moment, a flood of emotions and sensations surged through me and then drained away, leaving my body limp with exhaustion.
Helen held me and soothed me as if cradling a child. The touch that carefully caressed my cheek was full of tenderness.
"And what you just did... wasn't that showing me the future? I don't get why you call it the 'past.' You showed things that are going to happen, right? So I can avoid them...?"
I asked Helen about those strange visions I myself felt were the past. But she only stroked me more sorrowfully and left a few cryptic words.
"Even God-nim cannot know the future, so how could we? Our lives aren't stories that flow serenely, like turning the pages of a book."
"You may not recall, but what I showed you were things you, Delin-gun, directly experienced. So please, be careful. I cannot open the past for you every time; you'll have to navigate it on your own."
"...Do not carve any more transgressions onto your body. Your soul is dying. You have become weak, foolish, and frail, but..."
And at the end of those words, she gave a final kiss, somewhat bittersweet.
"Still, you remain kind, my God. Do not crumble."
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The long past I faced in that brief encounter was quite shocking, but I had no time left to ruminate on it or savor it.
If we lingered too long, it would raise suspicion, so we had to return at once without a moment to catch our breath.
"I, Kaede, shall take the lead! Just provide cover from the rear!"
"I told you the magic hasn't been properly cast yet...! Listen to me!!"
The women, who'd been waiting quite a while, were already making a fuss about coming to find me—unsurprisingly. If we'd returned any later, a serious incident would likely have erupted.
"Seobang-nim! Why were you so late, kkiing..."
Starting with Kaede, then Chichi and Neva, everyone approached with worried faces and clasped my hands tightly.
Amid that almost burdensome concern, I struggled to maintain composure and smiled awkwardly.
"S-sorry. My stomach hurt so badly..."
"Your complexion has gotten terrible too. Didn't something happen? Delin, can you lift your face for a moment?"
Neva, who'd seemed ready to quarrel with her little sister all day, faced me with that elegant, refined face and gently wiped away my cold sweat.
"It's, it's really nothing..."
Helen had certainly wiped all the cold sweat away, but it seemed it had seeped out again during the short walk back from the communal bathroom to the room.
"..."
Neva seemed about to say something, but she gently bit her lip and lowered her head.
She straightened from the crouch she'd taken to meet my eyes, stood up, and stepped back.
"I'm glad you're alright. I was worried."
Neva's gaze shifted back to Eva. The small girl, sniffling and wiping tears, still threw a tantrum and avoided Neva, but after hesitating, Neva finally turned to her little sister and...
Even so, she kept looking back at me, unable to choose between us, before finally addressing Eva again.
By then, the other noonas were already crowding around me. Kaede was whining and licking my sweat, Chichi held my hand and chanted a spell to check my condition, and Helen-ssi stood behind me with a hand resting gently on my shoulder...
"It's okay. It's really okay now. It's nothing..."
I didn't know what feelings Neva held onto, what thoughts weighed on her as she turned away,
but the final expression she wore was so sorrowful it didn't suit her serene face...
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One hour later.
Though a commotion had erupted because of me, no matter how difficult the situation, a tired body inevitably churns with hunger.
Since a considerable amount of time had passed without enjoying a proper meal, the women began wolfing down food to fill their starving stomachs.
The dozens of servings Helen and Eva had coaxed from the innkeeper covered the floor, leaving not even a spot to step,
yet Neva and Kaede alone polished off that vast spread in no time.
"Crossing the swamplands spoiled all our food, so I truly thought I would die! To be able to taste such plentiful cooking again, I am simply filled with happiness."
Even though the dishes looked ordinary, Kaede shed tears of emotion and grabbed wildly; it was a monstrous way of eating you'd only see in a comic, and my jaw nearly dropped.
Neva wasn't the least bit behind. I couldn't fathom how she could eat so much with that prim little mouth.
Recalling the days at her house, it wasn't so strange; she'd sit there for ages eating dozens of plates by herself.
Still, that fearsome appetite, so at odds with her appearance, was awe-inspiring every time. I might overlook Kaede eating like a beast and lashing her tail about, but Neva's eating truly clashed with her image.
"Delin, why aren't you eating? Hmm?"
I was the only one not eating.
Maybe my appetite had completely crashed. I absolutely couldn't chew or swallow anything.
Chichi noona looked at me worriedly and urged me to eat at least a few bites, but even so, I pushed away the spoon that came to my mouth and shook my head weakly.
"I'm fine, so... everyone, please eat a lot. I'm really okay even without eating."
There was another reason I wasn't eating.
Tonight, when everyone would fall asleep so deeply it would seem unnatural...
I'd wondered why they were falling asleep, and I reached only one conclusion.
'It's obvious Riko noona did something to the food.'
Even though I hadn't seen it, my instinct and intuition screamed at me not to swallow the food. I could tell just by looking at my thin, goosebump-covered forearms.
"Everyone eat a lot. A lot..."
Seeing me refuse the meal, Kaede and Neva looked worried and paused their eating for a moment,
"Don't worry, please eat. Eat my share, too. I think emptying my stomach will make me feel better, so don't worry..."
When I spoke as gently as possible to erase their worries, they all soon resumed eating.
Even Helen.
"It tastes good. For an inn, isn't it excellent?"
She enjoyed her meal calmly, as if accepting what was to come. She didn't avoid the food.
It was truly peculiar. It felt like I had gotten a little closer to her, yet it also felt like we had grown further apart.
I couldn't begin to guess what Helen was thinking.
"I will eat a lot and infuse you with energy, so worry not!"
If only I could live like Kaede, spouting foolishness and filling my belly without a single worry or doubt.
"Haa... sure..."
Perhaps because I was already terrified of the night that would soon arrive, I simply could not hide my trembling.
After the meal,
and after washing up,
everyone said they were tired and quickly shut their eyes,
the lights went out one by one,
even the sounds of tossing and turning faded away,
and my eyes, adjusted to the dark, began to make out pitch-black silhouettes...
"..."
When I, the only one unable to sleep, waited alone for the deepening darkness,
when I lay still and waited,
a quiet, serene breeze drifted in.
It blew in soundlessly, crossed past the women, and lingered by my side.
I watched its form and closed my eyes...
"Open your eyes."
The wind whispered against my closed eyes.
Without opening my eyes, I whispered back to it.
"Where did you go?"
"I didn't go anywhere. I was next to you the whole time. Quietly."
The wind slipped inside my clothes.
My body, which had been touched all day long, remembered that sensation and immediately reacted, flinching.
"E-everyone will wake up. Don't do this. I'll definitely do it with you later, so please hold back for now..."
"I don't want to."
"You know what'll happen if we get caught. It'll cause trouble for everyone. Please..."
"I know. No need to worry. We won't get caught. As long as you keep your mouth shut, we'll never get caught. If you keep up the act you put on today, just like earlier, they'll never imagine I'm ambushing you like this... night after night."
Riko, having claimed the space above me, quietly, gently pulled the blanket over us. Our body heat, trapped under the blanket, became entangled.
I thought that if I anticipated what was coming, I'd feel a little better, but my body only curled up more sensitive and frail, praying merely for a merciful violation.
"Save now. If you don't want to see me go crazy."
"No. Not that... hnnng..."
"Better to do it now. After you come about twice, if you try to Save then, it'll be harder to endure."
Riko got my thing fully heated up, then wrapped her strong arms around my neck and head and started a deep kiss.
There was certainly no aphrodisiac mixed in, but already addicted to her kisses, I panted and ended up embracing her dominant body.
We melted into each other.
We melted into each other to the point that pulling apart felt unnatural.
"Chup... haah, hurry up and Save. I have experiments to run, and I need to collect all the debts that have piled up in the meantime."
Speaking in a commanding tone with heated breath, she held me tight and tried to melt even my heart with her body heat.
I didn't want to admit it,
but I loved her.
"I don't want to."
I hated her as much as I loved her, feared her, and was wary of her,
"I said I don't want to..."
and yet I loved her.
Idiot, moron, dumbass.
Utterly worthless trash,
dominated in body and mind with no way out.
"You'll do it anyway."
Riko sealed my mouth with her tongue again.
I gradually became stained by her kiss, which melted away even my will to resist...