Comparison (2)
Clearly, back when I was still in school, I would've been rolling around my room, giddy over Golden Week. Unfortunately, the poor me hasn't even set foot in my own house and is stuck playing slave to rave reviews. Dragged here, dragged there, meeting fans and greeting them. I did swing by my home country in between, but I never even got to see my family home. Instead, if you tally up all the streets I've walked promoting the new song, I could probably circle the globe at least once. Thanks to that, I'm completely drained. One step out the door and I'd probably just collapse on the spot.
But you know, if I were lying there on the street, wouldn't someone at least pick me up? A fully grown woman who just happens to look like a girl—carried straight home with zero resistance. Or what if I'm starving and order delivery, only for the delivery guy to get tempted by my face and force his way in? ...Someone like me is worth betting your whole life on, so isn't that dangerous? As expected, I should probably call someone to protect this fragile version of me. Even if it's just to enjoy this rare break.
“Ah... he's here.”
Beep beep.
Ever the prepared one, I'd already sent the door lock password ages ago. Still, just in case, I kept my outfit simple—a plain T-shirt and dolphin shorts. Enough to look a little suggestive while also preventing any real trouble. Like Jia dropping by to nag, or the group's eldest unni pounding on the door because she wants to sneak a drink. The password's been changed recently, so it shouldn't open, but honestly, it would look suspicious, wouldn't it? ...Especially if moaning could be heard from an idol's room. Definitely.
“Juhyuk oppa, you're... huh?”
“...Hello.”
When the door unlocked, just as expected, a woman with a Kotori Beige complexion every bit as sexy as Jia's face appeared. Sharp eyes, narrow shoulders that somehow made her look like a bit of a loser, wearing a V-neck that showed off her figure and a tennis skirt. The choker around her neck seemed to embarrass her—she kept fidgeting with it. Cute, yet obscenely erotic. It was Haeun unni.
“I'll just be a moment. ...Hey, Kang Juhyuk, wait outside.”
With her body stiff as a board, Haeun unni kicked off her heels with authority and stepped into my room in white socks, stopping the massive man trailing behind her. He wore a navy shirt that somehow suited him and showed off his watch-free forearms. Needless to say, it was Juhyuk oppa.
...From a distance, they looked like a well-matched couple who'd come for a housewarming, but the reality was completely different. I'd invited one. The other had asked if he could bring someone else, and I'd simply replied OK. The reason...? It looked insanely fun. Honestly, I wasn't against the idea of sex, but physically it was impossible right now, wasn't it? I needed a lot of time. Because I'm so small.
“...What is it, Juhyuk oppa?”
“My girlfriend found out.”
“Girlfriend... Hmm. Yeah. Whatever.”
When I casually spoke to oppa, who was standing awkwardly outside the entrance, he smiled even as he admitted he'd been caught. ...Well, as long as the owner was nearby, he could probably control things somehow. All I had to do was watch the cute barking. Haeun unni might look scary, but in the end, she came out wearing a collar, didn't she? Safe. Safe. I won't get stabbed with a knife. Even if someone does get stabbed, it'll be oppa.
“Um... Ah. Please have a seat first, Haeun unni. Would you like some coffee?”
“...No need.”
She clearly wanted to talk alone, so I closed the front door, accepted only Haeun unni, and fixed my loose tank top. Haeun unni, tail thrashing and fur bristling, rejected my kind offer outright and plopped down on a dining chair. Then she looked up at me with surprisingly little intimidation and started whining.
“You're Hinami, right?”
“Yes. No ordinary idol would bleach their hair this white, would they?”
“...And you sent this text too?”
“Hmm... If you ask, wouldn't you know?”
“...”
Pointing outside the front door, I gave her a thieving-cat grin and smirked at Haeun unni. Seeing her expression twist even more at that face, I smiled wider at the irritating laugh.
“Ah, I thought it wouldn't get found out... but it did. I'm sorry, unni.”
“...”
“You went through my phone, didn't you? ...There are tons of dirty photos in there. What am I supposed to do if I'm embarrassed...?”
Then, pouring on the aegyo and exaggeration I'd learned from variety shows, I grabbed my cheeks and stomped my feet. Peeking through my fingers with elegantly curved eye tails. Teasing Haeun unni, who was furious about her master being stolen. Until she growled. Annoyingly.
“Ah, being an idol means my private life getting exposed is really dangerous. Unni, you didn't spread any rumors, did you?”
“...Am I crazy?”
“Whew, thank goodness. I was worried.”
Then, in an instant, I changed my expression, clapped my hands, and grinned like the crazy bitch I already was—only more so. Ah, this bitch is a sex-crazed psycho~ Just so she'd misunderstand.
“But why did you come? Unni?”
“...Can't you tell by looking?”
“Hmm... Does it mean don't have an affair with Juhyuk oppa?”
“I have to say it...!”
“Why?”
Looking up at Haeun unni, who stood up to protect her master with her tail wagging furiously, I replied with a truly innocent face.
“I haven't done anything with oppa yet. We just exchanged some dirty photos~ ...Today we'll probably just do dirty things too. There's no emotional exchange at all, you know?”
“...What?”
“Ah, don't you know? Since you're Jia's unni, I thought you'd know well.”
“What are you talking about...”
“Everyone here is like that~ It's such an exhausting place, and everyone's pretty and handsome. People who click just have sex and break up coolly. Oppa might not be extremely handsome, but he's tall and has a really good body, right?”
“What does that...”
This is normal. I casually lifted the dark underside of the entertainment industry and shook it out. Well, it's not a lie, is it? Even in our group, everyone except me and Jia has a sex friend. So I want one too.
“Lend him to me a bit, Haeun unni. It's not like he'll wear out.”
“...What?”
“...Anyway, you're not even his girlfriend, unni. You're just people who have sex with each other, right?”
“...”
...Just like Haeun unni. Well, unless she's got Stockholm syndrome, there's no way she'd genuinely like the man who raped her and took her virginity, right? It's just that his dick is so thick and amazing that she's addicted to the pleasure.
“Ah, didn't you hear from oppa? I can tell just by looking too. Whether you're dating or just mixing bodies.”
“...Crazy bitch, you fucking whore...”
“Ugh, your words are too harsh. I'm supposed to be a really innocent idol on TV.”
“Shut up. I recorded all of this.”
“What are you going to use it for?”
“If you don't cut ties with Kang Juhyuk, I'll throw it to my sister at least.”
“Ah, that's scary.”
“So if you're scared, don't contact him from now on.”
“I don't want to.”
“...”
But it was so frustrating to see Haeun unni, who'd already enjoyed that thick dick piercing her for her first thrilling experience, trying to monopolize it all by herself. We're not even dating anyway, so sharing would be good for everyone, right? From what I'd heard and seen. Anyway, she could never satisfy oppa's sex drive alone. ...Maybe the three of us would be even more fun.
“...How much do I have to say before you'll understand? I have no intention of stopping being 'friends' with Juhyuk oppa. If you want to persuade me, it'd be faster to persuade oppa instead of me, you know?”
“...”
“Ahaha, right. That won't work. ...It's embarrassing to say with my own mouth, but I'm an idol. Honestly, oppa won't give up until he tries it once, right?”
Watching Haeun unni tremble and throw a tantrum over monopolizing just one dick, it was honestly hard to hold back my laughter. Just how well does Juhyuk oppa treat her at night that her attitude makes it seem like she's developed real feelings? ...Anyway, oppa's goal is probably just her body. Puhuhu.
“...Hey, Haeun unni. Do you actually like Juhyuk oppa?”
“No.”
“Then why come all the way here and say something like this?”
“...Because if that whore's sweat gets on the dick that gets shoved in my mouth every night, it'd be disgusting.”
“...”
But seeing Haeun unni with that scary face spouting such vulgar dirty talk made my skin crawl like I was looking at those gal unnis from high school who used to swagger around when I was in middle school. Even the hair color was similar. And her Korean sounded harsher than Japanese. ...Her chest was also huuuuuge.
“Well... if you hate me that much, there's nothing I can do. ...If unni just listens to one thing I say, I'll give up on oppa too.”
“...What is it?”
“First, you and oppa aren't dating, right? ...You don't like him either?”
“...No.”
“Then you're just friends or acquaintances who only mix bodies, right?”
“...”
“...I only want that much too, so if unni can do it but I can't, that's unfair. Unless Juhyuk oppa says he doesn't want to.”
Instead, I'm much cuter, way more of a loser type, and... unlike back then, I'm incredibly successful now. Honestly, if we walked side by side on the street, no matter the body difference, way more eyes would be on me. I could hold my head up this confidently.
“So... if you show me right in front of my eyes that you're more than just a simple sex friend to Juhyuk oppa, I won't contact him via text or Telegram or anything.”
“...What?”
“...If you show me that you like Juhyuk oppa's dick way more than I do, I'll look for someone else.”
...Anyway, unlike back then, whether I win or lose, nothing changes. It wasn't even a fight to begin with. This is just an act. To coax Haeun unni, who's cute and sexy and innocent-looking enough to want to tease, but far more charming than me.
“...If you can't, I'll just call oppa who's outside right now and ask him to fuck me. ...You know it too, unni. Juhyuk oppa is such a pervert and always in heat that he'll never refuse.”
It was just acting. ...Actually, I really like Haeun unni. I'm not a lesbian, but I can't count how many times I've masturbated to the scene of unni being mercilessly pounded by Juhyuk oppa.
“What will you do? ...I'm opening the door in thirty seconds.”
“...”
It's not weird for a pretty female AV actress to like watching a muscular male AV actor have sex, right? ...So I want to see it. What kind of face a much better female than me makes when she's being pounded. Right in front of my nose. Directly.