Teaching the Subject, Part 5
“It’s a misunderstanding. Eunha-nuna isn’t like some other woman.”
What the hell did he mean, a misunderstanding?
And stop sending messages like that.
Don’t act like you got caught cheating or something.
Like I’d even care.
Like I care about you!
“Fuck off.”
I almost blocked him, but for some reason I didn’t want to do that, so I typed out a curse and sent it.
Truthfully, I found it hard to understand myself.
Fine. Right. We weren’t anything to each other. If we were, that would be an even bigger problem.
So what did it matter who Kang Juhyuk met?
In fact, if it was a man, then fuck, he should get laid a little.
I’d thought he was some idiot, but maybe he actually had a little skill after all.
Or maybe he already had a fuck buddy or a girlfriend he’d been seeing all along.
If he had a girlfriend, that would make him even trashier than I’d expected, but he was already a rapist anyway.
It was just, well, bruising to my pride.
He’d had me, and now he was forgetting me? No, he should be losing sleep over me day and night instead.
That was how it was supposed to be. He’d had the pleasure of sleeping with a woman like me. Besides, I’d been a virgin.
Of course the idea of some man looking at me that way was disgusting, but at the same time, it also irritated me to think he might be lumping me together with every other woman.
I would never tolerate being treated cheaply.
That, above all else, I couldn’t forgive. Even more than the disgust, I couldn’t forgive that.
I’m an S-class hunter...!
I would never be treated like that again.
Riiing.
[Juhyuk♡]
Fuck. He was calling.
I almost ignored it right away, but I couldn’t bring myself to because of the saved name.
Wait. When had I saved this bastard’s number? No, I hadn’t. I’d never done that.
And yet there were three call logs. Calls I’d made.
In the middle of the night. While I was asleep.
...No way.
“Hello, Eunha-nuna?!”
“...Hey. Answer me properly.”
“Y-yes, ma’am.”
“Last night. With me. What did you do?”
“Last night, Eunha-nuna... and I?”
“I’m asking what I called you for.”
Kang Juhyuk seemed to lose his voice for a moment and didn’t answer right away.
Just as I was about to snap at him for dragging it out, his voice came through.
“Uh, this might sound shocking, Eunha-nuna. It’s going to sound insane, but...”
“Spit it out. Don’t make me wait.”
“There’s a succubus inside Eunha-nuna.”
Insane.
...That was what I wanted to say, but the moment I heard him, something clicked in my head.
No, fuck. How could I not know?
That goddamn bitch. That filthy slut. That instinct-addled thing with sex stuffed into her brain and nothing else.
That thing had been... calling Kang Juhyuk behind my back. Probably while pretending to be me...?
I got chills.
“Y-you, you, you! What did you do with that bitch?!”
“N-nothing! I just... well, it’s...”
“Talk fast. Or I’ll kill you with my own hands. For real.”
“She got some sexy photos and... we did phone sex.”
“...What the fuck?”
That instinctive little bitch...
So it had been quiet lately, and now this.
As soon as the desire built up a little, it had slipped out while I was asleep.
And then, while I wasn’t looking, it had gone hunting for someone to fuck... and set its sights on Kang Juhyuk.
No, no. If it wanted sex, it should have gone outside, not dragged Kang Juhyuk into it. The reason it couldn’t was...
Right. Because some of my control was still left.
Just like I couldn’t mutilate my own femininity, or do something like cut my hair.
It couldn’t carry out actions I truly rejected, either.
So it had dragged Kang Juhyuk in and played with him instead, because there was nothing else it could do.
...Damn it.
This was bad.
If it was already acting like this the moment the urge built up a little, then once it piled up to the limit, that instinct thing might really replace me.
It might call in a bunch of men and make me watch from inside this body while they used it like dogs.
The whole plan to kill Chae Eunha and go back to Choi Eunho as if nothing had happened could collapse into nothing.
“So that Haeun bitch was... me?”
“...Yes. She told me to call her that.”
“And you actually did what that bitch told you to?”
“If I didn’t, she said she’d go out in Eunha-nuna’s body and have sex with some man I don’t know...”
“Hah.”
What the hell did that have to do with you?
It was creepy, sure, but calling that instinct thing Chae Haeun because of it?
From the start, that couldn’t have happened. If that thing, Chae Haeun or whatever she was, had really had that kind of freedom, she never would have called Kang Juhyuk in the first place.
She would’ve just run wild on her own.
This bastard had been used. By the instinct bitch’s masturbation. He’d been used as a side dish.
Christ.
What an idiot.
“Fine. So there’s no other woman.”
“Yes, yes! There isn’t!”
“Chae Haeun... Fine. If that fucking bitch calls again, hang up immediately. She can’t actually do anything anyway. Ignore her if she tries to threaten you with something weird.”
“Yes.”
I’d thought he was out.
Still, fine. If there was no one else... he could stay on the candidate list for now.
And anyway, I’d have to have sex soon. The urge was... getting dangerous. Not just that Haeun bitch, either.
It wasn’t far off before I’d be swayed by the heat of my own body.
I might be able to find another candidate later.
But for now, the only person I could sleep with immediately was him.
He knew about my situation.
Even while having sex... he probably wouldn’t entertain any strange thoughts.
He might, but at least he wouldn’t think it was my real will.
“Hey. Are you free tomorrow?”
“Ah. Tomorrow... yes, yes. I am. I’ll make time!”
“For what? What do you have tomorrow?”
“I-it’s a weekday, so I’ll have to get time off work. I need to ask if I can leave early as soon as I get in tomorrow.”
So that was it.
“Give me your address.”
“My address?”
“Yeah. You obviously don’t have a car, and I’m coming to pick you up, so tell me where to go.”
“...H-hehe. Yes, ma’am!”
Don’t laugh.
It’s not like I’m asking to see you because I miss you.
You saw what kind of state I was in at the gate, didn’t you? Use your head and get the point before I have to spell it out!
I sighed and hung up. He was already sending me his address by message.
I didn’t even check it before lying down on the bed.
If I fell asleep, would Chae Haeun come out again? Should I just stay awake?
But if I stayed awake, I’d start thinking about what kind of appointment I’d just made for tomorrow.
Are you insane, Choi Eunho? Do you know what you just arranged? You told a man to come out so you could use him as a fuck buddy.
And you even told him you’d come pick him up yourself.
To have sex.
Because you want to have sex.
Because you want that sticky, filthy experience again.
It’s because I need to.
No. It’s because I want to.
I do want to.
Because it feels good.
But it’s also true that I need it.
Are you even a man if you let this happen?
Fuck. Right now, are you a man? This body is a pussy, for fuck’s sake. That’s what it is.
What do you want me to do about it? I have to do it, and it feels good too.
How long are you going to keep running away from it because it’s fucking awful?
Do you want to really fall into the abyss? Let Chae Haeun steal your body? You said you’d rather do it yourself and keep it under control!
So why the fuck are you looking forward to it?
“...Nnh.”
It was wet.
My pussy... was too wet.
Lying there on the bed, I looked down at my lower body.
My chest was covered by my T-shirt, so I could barely even see my panties. I reached a hand down.
It was damp.
At my fingertips, a little slickness clung to me.
As if it wanted to be filled right this instant.
Kang Juhyuk’s cock floated into my mind.
Big, thick, hard, brown, lumpy, veined...
For some reason, it felt so vivid it was as if I’d seen it only yesterday.
“...Three in the afternoon.”
The appointment... time.
...
The next morning.
I took Ha Yujeong with me to the department store I usually used.
The clothes I normally wore were from the men’s section, and I didn’t really know women’s brands all that well either.
And Ha Yujeong, if not exactly as rich as I was, still made enough money to know her way around luxury stores.
She’d said she’d help, so I might as well make use of her.
“I didn’t expect you to call me after only a day.”
“I don’t know how to refuse things.”
“You really should.”
I used Ha Yujeong as my driver and took the car down to the underground parking lot of the department store.
I’d planned to get out right at the entrance, but Ha Yujeong started looking for an empty spot and driving the car instead.
“What, no valet?”
“How am I supposed to get valet service? I’m registered as a VIP here, yes, but I’m at the lowest tier, so the benefits are just three hours of free parking and two free takeout drinks.”
“That’s not VIP. That’s just a membership card. Is that all you use? The Association pays you plenty.”
“I get paid, but I don’t spend it here. It’s wasteful.”
Tsk.
Fine. I wasn’t the one driving.
Actually, because I’d lost the identity of Choi Eunho, I’d lost that treatment too.
I’d been able to become a VIP without spending money, just because I was an S-class hunter.
Now I’d even lost my name.
After parking in the underground lot, I left Ha Yujeong behind and strode into the building.
Even after the world had been thrown into half-decline by the gates, the vanity known as luxury had survived.
And it offered goods designed to make fat cats like me show off our wealth and power comfortably.
Convenient.
Just wearing things like this gave you weight and social power.
You could make people around you crawl without even displaying force.
And I had no intention of rejecting that. It was convenient, and I liked it.
Why bother tearing my hair out trying to win recognition when I could just buy it?
But what felt a little strange was that the store clerks didn’t approach me to ask what I was looking for.
And they didn’t guide me to a lounge, either.
In truth, that was only natural.
Some woman they’d never seen before had shown up in a cheap hoodie and jeans, dragging along slippers on her feet.
Sure, my looks and figure drew attention, but there was no reason to treat me like an important customer.
Had three years of being treated like that already dulled my senses?
But even so, I had no intention of combing through each store one by one and hunting for each item myself.
That was why I’d brought her.
“Pick out everything for me—summer, winter, spring, fall, outerwear, underwear, necklaces, rings, watches, bags, perfume, cosmetics... all of it.”
“Me?”
“If I walk into the store and show them that card, they’ll explain everything and show me all the options themselves.”
“Then just let them do that.”
“Dealing with people is a pain. I don’t want to go into every single store, either. Just take care of the annoying talk for me—stuff like ‘this is nice,’ ‘this one’s like this,’ ‘it’ll suit you,’ all that nonsense. You can pick whatever you want for yourself too. Don’t worry about the price. Take the card.”
“I really don’t care about luxury goods, you know.”
Though she sighed, Ha Yujeong still took my card.
If I really acted this rudely, she’d probably curse me out and leave, but today she was strangely obedient.
Right. If she’d always been like this, I wouldn’t have disliked her in the first place.
“Can I choose the design however I want?”
“Well, as long as it doesn’t look like total shit. If I like it, I’ll wear it; if I don’t, I’ll throw it away.”
“Yes, well. Understood.”
Ha Yujeong looked dazed, but she nodded and walked ahead of me.
She was probably spending money she’d never be able to touch in her whole life, but she’d dealt with S-class hunters before, so she was probably used to extravagance.
Just before she stepped into the store, I called out from behind her.
“I’ll wait in the lounge.”
“We can’t go into the lounge.”
“...Huh?”
Ah, right.
Not VIP.
My head started to throb.
At this rate, I should’ve just told her to go alone.