Episode 82. samsara and paramnesia 3
Episode 82. samsara and paramnesia 3
We soon arrived at our destination.
As we stepped outside, there it was again—the Research Institute. It wasn't a glamorous glass palace, but rather looked like a concrete block slathered with paint, appearing utterly bleak.
Goosebumps prickled slightly on my forearm. It was a building that gave off an inexplicable chill.
The Director, who was leading the way, turned her head to glance at me once before continuing to walk. I followed behind her, trotting along.
We slipped through the Research Institute's revolving door.
Walking timidly through the well-decorated, spacious lobby, I looked at the Director.
She was responding with light nods to the silent bows pouring in from everywhere.
'As expected, the head of an organization is different.'
Somehow, I felt like I had become an important person too, so I walked around looking around as if I were on an inspection.
After taking the elevator like that, I arrived at the Director's personal room (the Director's office).
'Huh, we came straight here.'
When I first came, I think the laboratory was first.
"Sit here."
The Director pointed to the chair across from her own as she spoke.
I plopped down into the seat—
"Ah...!"
Instantly, my spine tingled. I shouldn't have just sat down without thinking!
But it was already too late, and the moment my buttocks touched the chair.
"......"
'...Huh?'
Nothing happened.
I blinked my eyes like a fool, feeling puzzled.
'What's this?'
Normally, my uterus—no, my lower abdomen would have throbbed and I would have let out another strange moan.
Right now, I feel perfectly fine with no sensation at all.
"What's wrong?"
"Ah, it's nothing! I just, uh, sat down wrong."
The Director asked me with a puzzled tone as I showed a strange reaction. I let out an awkward laugh and hastily made an excuse.
"By the way, aren't we doing any psychological tests or something this time?"
"We are, but we'll do it in a slightly different way."
The Director pulled open her desk drawer with a rumble, took out a few sheets of paper, and handed them to me along with a mechanical pencil.
I leaned forward slightly to look at the papers.
As expected, it was a questionnaire. But instead of multiple choice, it was essay format.
The questions mostly felt like diary entries.
"Should I just write on this?"
"Yes, be honest."
After nodding, I started scribbling down answers one by one on the questionnaire.
It took about twenty to thirty minutes to complete.
When I submitted the answered questionnaire, the Director neatly organized it in one corner of her desk and took me outside.
The place we arrived at was the laboratory from last time.
Beyond the wide glass window, I could see the massive white Room and the Test Chamber I had entered last time.
"...I have to get undressed again, right?"
"Yes. Sorry about that, since you're a girl."
"Ah, no, you don't need to apologize......"
I scratched my cheek and began undressing clumsily. I hung my jacket on a lone chair in the corner, unbuttoned my blouse, and then pulled down my skirt zipper. Swoosh—the sound and sensation of the clothes sliding down felt almost tangible in my hand.
Somehow, my face felt like it was burning up. Last time I wasn't embarrassed at all, so why now......
The Director stared intently at me, now completely naked.
"......"
"D-Director?"
"Yubin-ah."
"Yes?"
"...Never mind, it's fine."
She seemed like she was about to say something serious but suddenly stopped.
Curious, I lifted my head a little and persistently asked.
"Why? Is, um, something about me looking strange...?"
"No, it's not that. It's just... you're a bit different from last time."
"Different how?"
"Last time, there was something off about your body, Yubin—a suspicious feeling, shall we say? But today you're clean."
"Ah......"
A suspicious feeling?
"Then was there something strange during the last examination?"
"No, there wasn't. It must have just been my eyes playing tricks on me. It doesn't happen often, so it was a bit odd."
"Aha."
"It's nothing major, so don't worry about it, Yubin. Okay?"
"Yep."
The Director smiled brightly as she said that.
I followed a female researcher in a protective suit, just like last time, and walked to the front of the Test Chamber.
'She couldn't sense anything off about me today? But she sensed it a few weeks ago?'
Hmm......
What was different from then that made the Director react like that?
As I slowly moved my steps, I pondered deeply.
'The differences from when I first came.'
Suddenly, it felt like a lightbulb went off in my head.
The last time I came to the Research Institute was when I was being toyed with by that bitch In Seyeon, without even knowing I was under her hypnosis.
If so, the hypnosis I was under at that time was exactly......
'The Anal Plug is underwear, so you must wear it at all times!'
'Ah, fuck.'
So that means I walked around naked in front of the Director and all those researchers with a plug stuck in my back hole?
'Aaaaaaaaaah!!!!!'
An overwhelming sense of shame hit me belatedly, turning my face bright red as I screamed silently inside.
"...What's wrong? Is something uncomfortable—"
"No! It's just, no, ha... no. Let's keep going. Sorry."
"Ah, okay."
The researcher leading the way looked at me strangely, so I stammered and made an excuse.
'Fuck, fuck......'
Surely that hypnosis isn't still active, is it?
...It can't be. If it were, I wouldn't have been unaware of it just now.
'Or maybe another hypnosis has been brainwashed into me as common sense?'
As I walked, I rolled my eyes around, carefully scanning my body.
Nothing strange seemed apparent. My breasts being a bit bigger... well, that's also because of In Seyeon, but since they were thoroughly groped every single day, it's just my body changing naturally.
"Ugh, shit......"
I sighed quietly.
Anyway, let's get back on topic.
Last time, she felt something off because I was wearing the plug, and now she doesn't feel it because there's nothing?
Thinking deeply, that meant there was nothing wrong with my body now. Wasn't it because there was an abnormality that the Director felt something off?
"......"
And here's the terrifying fact.
The Anal Plug wasn't exactly small. When plugged into my soft back pussy, the heart-shaped handle stuck out cutely between my buttocks cheeks, blatantly showing that I was Seyeon-nim's dedicated masochistic female animal sex slave—no, not that.
Ha, really, fuck... Anyway, it was bound to be discovered.
Yet the fact that the Director didn't notice meant I had no choice but to assume that Seyeon, the one who cast the hypnosis, had used some kind of magic to make the plug invisible.
'...Then, is Seyeon's level above the Director's?'
I couldn't immediately conclude that. If the Director had held me down and examined me properly, it might have been a different story.
But anyway, it's also true that the Director couldn't see through Seyeon's magic at that time.
Goosebumps ran all over my body for a moment. I knew from personal experience that Seyeon was strong, but I never imagined to this extent.
"Hoo......"
I had felt self-loathing earlier for not being able to tell the Director, 'In Seyeon, that wicked bitch, is the culprit!' but actually, it was a good thing I didn't.
'A good thing, huh?'
Before I knew it, I was climbing up the ladder briskly to the Test Chamber filled with a sunset-orange-hued Test Solution.
Reaching the top, I looked down at the solution from above. It felt strange. Slightly more viscous than water, an unidentified liquid that felt sticky like carbonated drinks. It didn't smell like any everyday scent, nor did it smell like chemical agents—it had a very peculiar aroma.
Just before putting the Scale I received last time into my mouth, I thought.
Actually, I couldn't simply consider that a good thing. It was just... adding one more excuse that had no real impact on decision-making.
After putting the Scale in my mouth, I immediately jumped into the Test Chamber to avoid panicking like last time from not being able to breathe.
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Several years ago, when I was about nineteen. At that time, our family lived in a small Villa village located way out on the outskirts, attached like an appendix to the capital city. The roads were so narrow that everyone suffered during commute hours.
Perhaps because of that, my and my sibling's commute to school was quite arduous. Navigating through cars standing rock-still facing each other in pride battles to reach school felt more like solving a maze than going to school. It became commonplace to get yelled at for pushing our way through the gaps between walls and cars
That wasn't all. For some unknown reason, the sanitation in that Villa village was terribly poor. I asked other friends in similar situations, but judging by the strange looks they gave me, it seemed like only the place I lived was particularly bad.
Food waste bags placed on utility poles had split sides with contents leaking out, and they were left unattended on the street for a long time without being disposed of. They wouldn't wash away until it rained.
Of course, there were also lots of bugs. If I counted all the bugs I witnessed while living in that Villa village, it would be enough to fill an entire insect encyclopedia. So every single member of our family can catch cockroaches bare-handed.
But it was okay. There didn't seem to be any particular complaints or problems. After our family fortunes declined suddenly, we moved through several Rooms besides this Villa village, but I never really felt any inconvenience.
Well, since I took after my father who had wanderer's blood and was the type to blend in easily, I could adapt quickly anywhere. You could say it was like water mixing with water.
But my sibling seemed to take more after our mother. I say "seemed" because I could only guess. Though my sibling was only two years younger, they were a child with no particular characteristics besides being quiet and timid.
A child with no particular characteristics.
A child with no particular characteristics.
A child with no particular characteristics.
"No particular characteristics, huh. I must have been fooled pretty well."
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"Huuuuk."
Suddenly, I came to my senses. Did I fall asleep again?
Staring blankly at the ceiling, I was sprawled on the laboratory floor. A pure white blanket was draped over my body.
"Yubin-ah."
"...Director? What happ—"
"The examination is all done. You fell asleep in the solution, so we just let you lie down to wake up naturally. Don't worry, there's nothing wrong."
At the Director's lengthy answer that resolved all my questions, I simply nodded.
The Director was looking down at me from right above my face, but I couldn't see her clearly. It felt like everything around was covered in an orange veil.
Probably because the solution that had entered my body was being discharged like tears. I could feel something trickling down my cheeks too.
And that was... the same between my legs. The thick, sticky solution was flowing out not just from the back but also from my pubic area... no, from my pussy.
'No, just now it was pubic area.'
I felt slightly creeped out.
'Ugh.'
Anyway, I lifted my head slightly and opened my mouth.
"Director, I'll go wash up now."
"Already? You can lie down a bit longer."
"No, it's okay. I'm not really dizzy or anything."
"Hmm, rather than that......"
The Director, who seemed to be making a slightly troubled expression (I couldn't see clearly so of course I couldn't distinguish her expression), brought her face close to mine and whispered.
"I thought it might be a bit embarrassing. Because of the solution."
"Ah."
I almost slapped my forehead.
If I go to the shower room with solution dripping between my legs, well, it would seem quite lewd.
Last time it was discharged after I entered the shower room, but today I fell asleep......
"...I'll wait until it all comes out."
"Do that."
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Afterward, having finished showering and neatly putting my school uniform back on, I went to the Director's personal room.
"Huh?"
But there was no one there.
She definitely told me to wait here after showering, so she must have stepped away for a moment.
I strolled leisurely around the spacious Director's office, passing time by looking at the specialized books organized on the bookshelves and desk decorations, when the Director arrived.
As soon as the door opened, a strong scent of fabric softener hit me. And behind that, I could detect a faintly hidden acrid smell.
"Did you wait long? Something came up."
"I just got here too, hehe."
I answered with an unintentionally foolish laugh.
After we both sat down, the Director flipped through the questionnaire I had answered, scanning it sheet by sheet. Seeing her reading it roughly now, she must have examined it thoroughly while I was showering.
"Yubin-ah."
"Yes?"
I was just fidgeting with my fingers when I jumped at the sudden sound of the Director's voice and looked up.
"I'm going to ask you a few questions based on the questionnaire you filled out. Answer however you feel comfortable. If you're uncomfortable, you can just say 'I can't talk about it' and move on."
"Ah, okay."
"Now, then-"
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The Q&A with the Director was something you'd really do in psychiatry. Just sitting comfortably, answering the Director's gentle questions, avoiding answers if they were a bit difficult......
Actually, I wasn't in a position to answer everything honestly. In the end, I inevitably had to mix in many lies, and I'm not sure how natural that seemed.
After finishing all procedures, I came outside the Research Institute with the Director. The night air wasn't chilly anymore.
"Yubin-ah, have you had dinner yet?"
The Director opened the door of the magnificent Mercedes-Benz S-Class.
"No, not yet."
"Really? Aren't you hungry? Wasn't School Meals at school the last thing you ate?"
"Yes, that's true."
After getting in the passenger seat and clicking the seatbelt shut, the Mercedes-Benz S-Class smoothly zoomed forward with a vroom—.
"What to do since you're hungry. Want to grab something to eat before going home?"
"Gasp, it's okay. I'd feel too sorry if you bought me food too."
"Since when did this ajumma say she'd buy? Of course we'll go Dutch."
"......"
"......"
"......"
"...Just kidding, Yubin-ah."
"Ah, I knew that. Hehe."
"If there's anything you want to eat, just say it."
I thought for a moment, then soon answered.