Episode 80. samsara and paramnesia 1
Episode 80. samsara and paramnesia 1
[April 21, Tuesday]
A sunny morning.
I woke up not feeling particularly refreshed.
Rubbing my cheek with my hand, I stepped out of my room and saw the living room in complete disarray. Last night, I kept throwing things around......
'Honestly, it was worth tossing aside.'
Still, the messy living room didn't look good, so I decided to just put things away anywhere.
First, I picked up the tail that was shoved in the corner of the living room. It was heavy, probably because it had ten beads attached to it. My lips pressed together on their own.
"Ha, seriously......"
I let out a hollow laugh, feeling absurd.
Seyeon wouldn't have just given this to me for no reason. Obviously... it probably means I should insert it someday.
No, but thinking logically, there's no way I would put this in my own back... hole and walk around with it.
So... there's no way I would slather sticky lube thickly all over the anal beads attached to the tail, then squirt gel deep into my anus to warm up and soften the intestinal wall until it's sticky and pliable, then forcefully push the round beads into my mushy, loose back pussy, causing me to squirt sticky, warm pussy water with a squelch and let out a vulgar moan of Ooooh♡ as I reach a cheap, lewd climax, right...?
"Ah, ugh, ooob......"
I lowered my head, feeling slightly nauseous. In my imagination just now, it felt like I came over ten times. Once for each bead going in...?
'No, what does it matter counting that number!'
Anyway, I shouldn't have thought about it!
My thoughts went on too long, and that strange way of thinking......
I need to be careful not to let my thoughts wander when looking at lewd objects. In an instant, I could lose my mind.
Holding the tail part of 'that object' rather than the beads, I averted my gaze and roughly shoved it into a drawer.
Next were the clothes.
"Haa, really."
I sighed as I picked up the clothes with two fingers, as if handling something filthy.
The clothes Seyeon gave me yesterday were none other than a maid uniform. And not just any maid uniform—the very otaku-like kind you only see in anime or games.
I haven't tried it on (and never will for the rest of my life), so I'm not completely sure, but the fabric seemed to have many gaps here and there. The entire upper chest and part of the back seemed completely exposed.
"So she really sees me as a slave now......"
Since she even gave me such a lewd maid uniform.
In Seyeon... keeps treating me like a stupid female dog like this.
If she keeps this up, I'll-
I'll......
...what can I even do to her?
"......"
I see... Even if I'm treated like a female dog, there's nothing I can do......
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I deliberately arrived at school right before morning assembly.
"Ah, Yubin-ah!"
As soon as I entered the classroom, Eunbyeol, who I happened to run into, grabbed my wrist and pulled me along, and I was dragged helplessly. All the girls here were stronger than me. Probably stronger than the average adult male, even. Well, they're Hunters, so that's natural.
'Huh? Then what does that make me, a Hunter who's weaker than the average adult male?'
Putting aside that self-deprecating thought, I went to my seat and sat down.
Seyeon, who was reading a book next to me, glanced at me.
"What are you looking at."
I snapped at Seyeon irritably.
Then Seyeon chuckled and just went back to what she was doing.
'I wonder what's going to happen today.'
What kind of thing will this weirdo next to me do to me......
If she puts her hand in my panties during class like last time, I might just get up and leave.
"......Hey."
During the short break between morning assembly and first period.
After staying quiet for a while, I suddenly opened my mouth and called Seyeon.
As if she didn't expect me to speak first, Seyeon looked at me with her red eyes gleaming.
"What is it, Yubin-ah?"
"No, never mind."
I was actually planning to ask how she was going to torment me today... but I stopped because I felt like I'd just get teased instead of an answer.
Seyeon leaned toward me, our shoulders touching, and persistently urged me for an answer.
"What? What is it?"
"I said never mind."
Poke poke.
Seyeon poked the back of my hand with her finger. Her nails were short so it didn't hurt... but it felt strange.
"Yubin-ah, you should finish what you're saying. Hmm? You're making me curious."
"It's nothing. So stop- Huh?!"
Whoooosh-
Seyeon, who had been speaking gently, suddenly grabbed my shoulder and blew a hot breath right into my ear.
The sensation filled my ear canal, seeming to heat up beyond my eardrum into my head, making my body tremble instantly as I tightly gripped the desk.
At the strange sound I made, the other kids glanced over. I pretended to be completely fine and averted my gaze.
When I turned to look with a frown, Seyeon was there with a mocking smile.
"Hey, what are you doing!"
"You wouldn't tell me."
"It's really nothing... and get away from me. It feels fucking awful."
"It feels awful? Then should I make you feel good?"
"Ah, seriously!"
I finally pushed my chair back with a screech and just left the classroom.
After killing about three minutes, I returned.
"Hello, Yubin-ah. Long time no see."
"......"
Ignoring Seyeon's cheeky remark, I rummaged through the bookshelf under my desk to find my textbook.
'I hope nothing embarrassing happens today......'
I prayed inwardly like that.
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'As if it won't happen!'
Looking around me, I exploded with frustration inwardly.
It's that sparsely populated bathroom again. Isn't she tired of it?
"Why do we always come here."
"What, you don't like it here? Should we do it in a brighter place?"
"...Never mind."
As expected, we're not on the same wavelength.
Seyeon approached me as I stood awkwardly in front of her. Suddenly our faces were so close they were almost touching, making me instinctively step back.
Poke.
Seyeon extended her long, slender index finger and placed it under my chin.
"Yubin-ah, did you take good care of yesterday's present?"
"Pre, present... Ah."
The items from that shopping bag yesterday naturally came to mind.
I smacked Seyeon's hand away.
"Yeah. I took very good care of it."
When I retorted sarcastically, Seyeon chuckled as if finding it cute. What's with all the laughter......
"First, should we warm up a bit?"
"Warm up?"
"Yeah. Since Yubin gets all ticked off and curses even when I just touch her with my finger, I need to get her a little horny so she'll beg me with a cute voice."
"What, nonsense......"
My expression automatically contorted at the vulgar words coming so casually from that pretty face.
"Now, like this......"
"Ugh, huh...?!"
Seyeon slowly wrapped both arms around my body, then tightly embraced me completely.
"......"
I really, really hate to admit it, but Seyeon's body was warm and cozy as usual. It felt like my whole body was covered stickily in half-melted, warm marshmallows.
"Wow... Look how red your face is."
"...It's hot."
"What was that? Hmm?"
"I, I said it's because it's hoooot......"
"Hot? Pfft......"
Seyeon openly laughed at me.
'Ah, seriously.'
I don't want to make such pathetic excuses either.
But I have to deny it somehow......
Seyeon gradually brought her face closer to mine. Thinking she might try to kiss me, I tightly closed my eyes, but Seyeon's lips headed somewhere else. The warmth rising from Seyeon's lips transferred to the side of my face, and then-
Chuook...♡
"Ugh...?!"
A soft, warm sensation was felt on my ear. Seyeon had kissed my ear.
"Hup, heuut...?"
As something fluffy floated up in my heart, my vision momentarily blurred and my legs wobbled, about to give way, but I barely regained my composure and straightened my posture.
"Wow, that was just lips touching, not even a proper kiss... and your eyes already went blank."
"Th, that never happened. Don't talk nonsense."
"Really? Then one more time......"
Chuook♡
"Ah, heueu......♡"
Sure enough, as soon as Seyeon's lips touched, my vision turned pure white for a moment.
"See. Your expression is all mushy, so what do you mean it didn't happen?"
"...Anyway, it didn't."
I stubbornly insisted without thinking.
Actually, I know. The fact that my body rejoices every time Seyeon kisses me.
...Again, it's not me, but my body that's rejoicing.
"Let's start now. Getting Yubin horny."
"Ah, wait...!"
Seyeon's right hand, which had been fidgeting with my thigh, gradually moved upward. It was an uncomfortable, ominous touch, like a snake crawling over my body.
"Yubin-ah. Are you going to the Research Institute today?"
"Eut, uu......"
Barely enduring Seyeon's hand groping my pelvis, I obediently nodded.
"Sadly, I haven't been able to do lewd things all this time. Right?"
"Wh, what are you trying to say......"
"Wear one lewd item when you go to the Research Institute. How about it?"
"Wh, what!"
"You have to make up for what you couldn't do, it's only fair."
Seyeon's words snapped me back to reality.
"Either wear the maid uniform I gave you yesterday, or put in the tail. It's up to you. But take a verification photo."
"What kind of absurd... No, I'll get caught!"
"That's for you to figure out."
"......"
I had nothing to say. The kid in front of me was too shameless.
"No. I won't do it."
"Well, suit yourself. But I'm not sure what will happen tomorrow."
"...Haa."
Blackmail again.
If it's going to be like this, just hypnotize me-
...No, even so, not hypnosis.
"Anyway, let's start again."
"Ugh, heueu......"
Seyeon moved her stopped hand again, slithering. Seyeon gently stroked my pelvis over my skirt, whispering in a seductive voice with her mouth so close it almost touched my ear.
The hand caressing my pelvis followed the curve up to my side. The more it did, goosebumps rose on the nape of my neck, and a creepy sensation enveloped my whole body.
I'm not unaware of where Seyeon's hand will eventually go.
Well... it would be my lower abdomen. Where the uterus is.
She clearly said she would make me go into heat.
Then stimulating the uterus, which has already been completely developed, is the best method.
Because I'm the kind of girl who squirts girl cum like a water fountain just from having any part of my uterus pressed firmly with a finger- no! It's, it's because she forcibly made it sensitive.
"I, In Seyeon, take your hand ooff...!"
"No."
Tap.
Finally, Seyeon's palm gently covered my lower abdomen.
"Ah...♡"
An immediate reaction.
I unintentionally jerked my head upward and let out a sigh filled with tender emotion.
"Pfft... So typical of Yubin."
"Hoo, huit...♡"
"If you get disarmed immediately just from having your uterus touched, then all that resistance earlier was meaningless."
Chuook♡
Again, the warm sensation felt on my ear.
This time my legs really gave way and my body was about to collapse instantly, so I reflexively tightly hugged Seyeon to support myself.
'Ah, I shouldn't do this......'
In my momentarily blurred vision, I faintly saw Seyeon making a satisfied smile.
"So good. You hugged me without me even ordering you to."
"Uu.. Ah, nooo......"
"Now, I'll stimulate you more."
Seyeon began to slowly, gently circle and caress the hand placed on my pathetic uterus- ...lower abdomen.
"Aheueuet...!"
A movement as gentle and careful as a mother stroking a child's stomach.
But even from that faint touch, I was trembling and feeling it.
"Yubin-ah, your nipples seem to be getting hard. I can see them through your blouse."
"Hueu, huit, haaa...♡"
"I'll touch you more."
Dribble dribble...♡
Before I knew it, sticky girl cum was trickling down from between my legs, flowing down my thighs to my calves, starting to wet my socks.
How long has it even been since we started, and already I'm rudely trembling my pussy and squirting girl cum.
But it's natural...? Ah, no, it's unavoidable. Because the Forcio felt from the uterus was a pleasure of a different caliber compared to areas like kisses, armpits, or anal.
When my uterus is caressed so gently like this, warm joy spreads through my lower abdomen along with the orgasm. That pure feeling of happiness...♡ that you can feel when eating delicious food, listening to favorite music, passing an exam, meeting a loved one...
'St, stop...!'
My thoughts accelerating on their own, against my will.
Happiness? What nonsense!
"Yubin-ah, you can get even hornier. Because you're a female."
"Haeu, huit, hueueuet...♡"
"Eun Yubin is a female who loooves her Master so much, right? So you should get horny as Master says. Right?"
Whoooosh-
"Heik...♡"
Again, Seyeon's breath filling my ear.
My head melted sweetly, making me feel light-headed.
Saliva quickly pooled in my mouth, dripping down below my lips.
Chuook, chook♡
Every time I hear the word "female," my uterus goes kyung♡kyung♡ and releases sticky pleasure hormones- ah, no, not that......
"Yubin-ah, actually, whether you admit it yourself or not, it doesn't seem to matter at all. Because the truth doesn't change anyway."
"Uung, huit, haa... hik♡"
"Pfft... You're going to faint like this. You're sweating so much too."
"St, stoop... don't do it......"
"Your pronunciation is so slurred I can't tell what you're saying, Yubin-ah."
I desperately shook my head back and forth, trying to regain my senses. The sanity that returned like that flew far away again every time Seyeon stroked my lower abdomen once and kissed my ear.
"Your ovaries too, like this, circling......"
"Heup, hit, oyuk...♡"
Seyeon, who had subdued me with one hand, began to fondle the area where my ovaries would be with her index finger.
As the most sensitive erogenous zone in my uterus was touched, I could only helplessly tightly hug Seyeon and hang on so my legs wouldn't give way.
"Aah... So adorable, Yubin-ah. The more you feel, the tighter you hug me, it's like you're begging, Master, make me feel even better, and I like it so, so much."
"Ma, Master... Ah, nooo......"
"No? If it's no, you can push me away and run right now."
"Uu, uuu......"
Because I love Master- no, Seyeon...? My heart... heart pops up in my eyes with love hearts... as I look at Master... no, Seyeon, in front of me, ah, eut...♡
"You're completely out of it, hoho......"
"Hehi, hit, heup...♡"
With my mind fuzzy-, I, ah, no, I...? Well, I... hugged Master- Seyeon, tightly♡, fully taking in the sweet and fluffy scent... eut, haa...♡
Gguuuk......
"Ungooook...♡"
Pshooshoshut-!
At the sensation of the entrance to my baby room being poked firmly♡ with a fingertip, I- no, I, threw my head back, spread my pussy, and squirted sticky girl cum with a squeeeaak♡, didn't I...?
"Oh my, I was just planning to prepare, but you came already...?"
"Heek, heuk, hehe, hehii......"
"From now on, let's live more like my female dog? Wear maid uniforms, wear sailor uniforms, try wearing dress shoes, high heels......"
Hoo, hoo......
In the hot air heating up my head, I nodded with my mind gone.
But... what did Seyeon say? Is it okay to nod...?
'Ah, doesn't matter......'
Since she'll do as she pleases anyway, my opinion isn't very important. Just like how I do to other people.
Just, only in my heart... I'll keep denying it. That I won't surrender to Master, ah, no, to Seyeon.
"Let's keep going until lunchtime is over."
Saying that, Seyeon led me into a bathroom stall, and I followed obediently, staggering while tightly holding onto Seyeon's clothes.
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...This is what happened at school.
"Fuck......"
On the way home from school.
I unnecessarily kicked a pebble rolling on the roadside and muttered in a frustrated voice.
These thoughts progressing on their own, it's really absurd. I'm completely in my own personality, so why am I spouting nonsense about being a female or Master!
Is it because of my intuition, or that strange personality?
Anyway, I don't like it. No, not just don't like it—I hate it so, so much.
"......"
While doing that, I looked up. The days had gotten quite long, so the sky was still faintly blue like blood vessels barely visible under skin.
Let me think a little more... deeply.
Actually, I'm not sure what exactly I hate.
It could be Seyeon playing with me, it could be my body that's become unnecessarily sensitive, it could be that personality that does perverted things without hesitation.
Or maybe... it's my unnecessarily stubborn pride.