Episode 76. Thought You Were Setting a Serious Mood
Episode 76. Thought You Were Setting a Serious Mood
[April 20th, Monday]
The weekend passed by in the blink of an eye.
If anything happened during that time... I suppose it would be that I finally heard from the Director after so long.
I had been expecting her to contact me soon anyway, so I wasn't particularly surprised.
She said she would come pick me up at school at 7 PM on Tuesday, and I told her I understood. She mentioned they'll be doing similar tests this time too.
"I wish she'd just tell me to come today instead."
I found myself muttering that without thinking.
"Haaah."
I stopped abruptly on my way to school and let out a deep sigh.
Not a single message or call had come from Seyeon since she left that Saturday morning. No texts, no calls - nothing.
'What's her game?'
After confronting me so intensely right to my face...
Is she giving me time to sort out my thoughts?
I'm not sure if that's what Seyeon's silence means, but I've been thinking deeply about it anyway.
Until now, I clearly liked Seyeon. That was an undeniable fact. Honestly, I couldn't help but like her from the beginning.
What she was asking was why I hadn't expressed those feelings.
But the fact that she didn't press me on that point...
No, she probably had to let it go to say what she wanted to say anyway.
Staying silent out of fear of heartbreak - that's my way.
Charging ahead recklessly - that's Seyeon's way.
Though these two approaches are completely different, they ultimately reveal the same emotions.
Meaning.
She was saying that she likes me.
"......"
I thought about it.
After just toying with me all this time, what am I supposed to do now that she says something like that?
It could have just been a trick to get out of that situation with a lie.
She noticed I was clearly breaking down at that moment.
'But, if it's not...'
My chest felt tight. It was as if I only had one lung left, making it hard to breathe properly.
Honestly, I think it's a lie.
As I thought earlier, really? Now of all times?
It's just her way of taking care of her toy's mental state.
...That's what my rational mind concluded.
'But if it's really, truly not a lie...'
If by some chance, it turns out not to be a lie...
I'll have no choice but to lean on her.
Because I'm just so tired.
Honestly, entrusting my body and heart to her would obviously be good for me too.
If a beautiful, wealthy girl who's full of affection loves me, I could devote myself to her, pouring out even more emotion than what she gives me.
That's the hope Seyeon gave me in that moment.
And it affected me so profoundly.
But what's truly terrifying... is the possibility of being abandoned again.
The probability that I accept Seyeon's words as truth and give her my complete love, only for her to treat me as nothing more than a subhuman toy.
The scenario where I'm treated as something not even worth a shred of genuine emotion.
That thought terrifies me, and just imagining it makes me so angry that I can't make up my mind.
"Uuugh......"
I might be overthinking this.
Anyway, here's the conclusion I reached:
Regardless, I need to keep seeing Seyeon.
Seyeon said everyone has their own filter.
Filter.
Even with the same feelings, people express them in countless different ways.
And when those expressions are interpreted in countless different ways, the original meaning gets torn to shreds until nothing remains.
So what should we do?
How can I properly convey my feelings to someone else?
The answer is surprisingly simple.
Just keep talking and expressing yourself. Continuously.
Until my feelings are fully conveyed to her.
Until her feelings are fully conveyed to me.
That's exactly why I have to go to Seyeon at 7 every day, with a tail plugged in my butt, acting cute and affectionate.
'Oh fuck, that's not it.'
...Anyway, even though the outcome is scary, shouldn't I eventually find out?
Me, who wants to remain in this ambiguous state. Me, who doesn't want either outcome.
That's how I've been until now.
But if I could just muster a little more courage...
"......"
Now that I think about it... this is just like an abused wife.
Getting tormented severely every day, but completely melting at the words "I love you" (which might be a lie) and continuing to stay together...
"Ugh."
Feeling slightly disgusted at myself for using the word "wife," I continued walking the rest of the way to school.
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School was uneventful. If anything had changed, it was that midterms were approaching, creating a subtle atmosphere of studying?
Since it's technically a specialized high school, you wouldn't think people study that hard, but actually everyone except me is focused.
'The Possessed one doesn't study.'
But honestly, in this mental state, could I even study properly?
I'm just depressed, gloomy, and frustrated every day, only feeling sleepy.
"...But I have to do it anyway, regardless of how I feel."
The problem is that others are involved too, not just me.
I don't mind if my own life goes to shit.
I just feel guilty toward my homeroom teacher who's been diligently counseling this pathetic, worthless version of me, and toward my team members (except Seyeon) who fight hard alongside me.
'Ugh, this guilt......'
The triangular mechanism in my heart spun furiously.
Anyway, it's now 5 minutes to 7.
I'm obviously heading to school.
Honestly, I just want to turn off my phone and disappear... but I know I'll get punished even more severely if I do. Plus, I made that resolution this morning.
"Haaaaah......"
But honestly, even if I go now, I doubt I'll achieve the desired outcome.
Won't I just get humiliated a bunch and that'll be it?
Because she seems to... deliberately enjoy this. My back-and-forth indecision.
'Tomorrow's off, tomorrow's off, tomorrow's off......'
Repeating those words to myself in search of hope, I suddenly found myself at the school gate.
"Yubin-ah!"
"......"
And of course, In Seyeon was there.
"Long time no see."
"What nonsense are you talking about, we saw each other at school..."
"Heheheh......"
Seyeon grabbed my wrist tightly and laughed like an idiot.
What followed was similar to usual. Eating, exercising.
No matter what happens, she always makes sure I get food and exercise.
'Not... that I'm grateful.'
Honestly, it's similar to selling my body for compensation.
'Fuck, selling my body...'
The fact that my thoughts keep going in that direction, and that it perfectly matches my current situation, was so humiliating that I slightly bit my lower lip.
After showering in the Main Building and changing back into our uniforms, we headed toward the Dormitory.
While climbing the hill toward the Dormitory, Seyeon spoke up.
"Yubin-ah."
"Hm?"
"Your period's over, right?"
"...No."
"So it's over. Good."
"You're asking that so blatantly, you crazy bitch......"
Despite her appearance, her word choice wasn't delicate at all, and I clicked my tongue. Seyeon just smiled as if she found my cursing amusing now.
"Let's make up for all the times we missed. Today, and tomorrow too."
"Not tomorrow though?"
"...What?"
Seyeon's expression suddenly darkened.
In contrast, I declared triumphantly:
"The Director called me, so I have to go to the Research Institute."
"......"
Based on last week's experience, she knows who the Director is. So I didn't bother explaining and just said it outright.
"So I can't come tomorrow. Unfortunately."
"Ah, I see."
"Look at your face. You've gone quiet all of a sudden."
Seyeon, who had been cheerfully chattering with a bright smile, looked completely sour after hearing my words.
"Hey, are you that upset about not seeing me for one day? How did you survive five days then?"
"......"
"Anyway, I'm really happy. Since I don't have to see your face."
"......"
"I've been holding back so much, what should I do about this frustration? In Seyeon, you-"
"Eun Yubin."
I froze immediately at Seyeon's cold voice that suddenly cut through.
...Did I go too far?
For some reason, cold sweat started forming on my back.
After stopping me with just my name, Seyeon immediately moved behind me.
"Hey, what, what are you doing......"
Then she wrapped her arms around me from behind as if hugging me.
"Eht......"
I let out a weak sound at the sensation of skin being pressed.
Sluurp......
Seyeon's hand creepily groped my side.
I wondered what she was doing, then suddenly realized something and immediately opened my mouth.
"Hey, are you right now-!"
But it was already too late.
Grrruuuuunch-!
Seyeon moved her hand instantly and pressed down hard on the center of my lower abdomen.
"Eh, hh, heeh...?"
Unable to process the sudden stimulation all at once, I could only make stupid sounds.
And shortly after.
"......Nngooooooh?!?!?"
Pshhshshshshut-! Sqqquiiiiish♡
With three fingers precisely striking my cervix, I immediately squirted sticky pussy Water onto the ground like a water gun, Sqqquiiiiish♡, while letting out the most pathetic moan imaginable.
"Uhhik, hek, hheeeeh.......♡"
Pssht, pshuut-
As if waiting for this moment, my pussy hole opened wide and squirted warm love juice several more times, Pssht pssht, openly revealing to the whole world that my body was completely going into female animal mode. My head and eyes jerked upward, my tongue went limp and sloppy, making me babble stupid nonsense.
"Nghuk?! Hek, uung, ooohk...♡"
Pssht, pshubut, dribbledribble-
With just that one press, pleasure spread from my aroused female dog uterus, making my legs go weak, and I collapsed right onto the puddle of my own pussy Water. And in a W-shaped sitting position too.
My mind went blank from the sudden shock as my brain melted sweetly. The smell of pussy Water rising from below made my body tremble Parrurr, and I drooled sticky saliva down my chin, Dribble. My hands repeatedly clenched and released my damp skirt hem, as if trying to grasp onto something.
'My, my thoughts are getting weird again...'
"Since you were going to end up like this anyway... why do you act like that."
"Ugh, hh, I, In Seyeon, hahuk......"
"Everyone must have heard those moans earlier. What kind of girl moans so vulgarly? You're not even a dog."
Even while my waist kept twitching and pussy Water dribbled out, I could tell Seyeon was subtly annoyed.
'Sh, she treats me like complete shit...'
But she gets this angry just because I teased her a little?
"Yubin-ah, get up. We need to go quickly."
"U, hhu, j, just help me up, nnguht, pleaseee......"
"I suppose I should."
Seyeon grabbed my wrist and immediately pulled me up, then dragged me along as if supporting me.
The whole time, I trembled like a baby learning to walk for the first time, still consumed by pleasure, dripping love juice onto the ground as I was forcibly dragged away.
...Conversation seems completely impossible.