Episode 68. Everything You've Ever Daydreamed
Episode 68. Everything You've Ever Daydreamed
I woke up from bed with intense nausea. The alarm on my phone beside the pillow was blaring loudly.
My head felt foggy. Probably because I drank four cans of beer by myself while reading a book yesterday. After going to the bathroom and seeing my yellow urine, I checked the mirror. The area around my eyes looked hollow and dark.
The time was just past 6:30 AM. I had to get up because I had a class at 9 AM.
I wanted to jump right back into bed, but it was a major course class. I've been living my school life with the determination to maintain good grades in my major even if I mess up other things, so I turned on the faucet and washed my face with ice-cold water.
Just as I was drying my face roughly with a towel and entering my room again, another notification sounded. Muttering that I probably forgot to turn off the morning alarm, I looked at the screen and surprisingly, it was a phone call.
Since it started with 010, my suspicion decreased somewhat, but there was still something slightly questionable about it. There shouldn't be anyone who would call me anymore, so who could it be?
"Hello?"
The voice that came through when I answered belonged to a woman. Slightly low for a woman, like a strong whiskey tone.
Fortunately, it was someone I knew. A group member from a team project in a liberal arts class.
"Ah, um... I'm contacting you about our team project."
"Yes."
"There's been a continuous error in the part I'm responsible for......"
To summarize briefly: the liberal arts class was precisely a basic programming lecture, and the final assignment was for each team to construct one project and ultimately complete one program.
So we divided roles and proceeded on our own, but apparently it wasn't going well.
I felt relieved first but then fell into doubt again. Errors can happen. But why is she telling me this over the phone? There are other team members too, so asking in the group chat would be much better.
And most importantly, it wasn't even 7 AM yet.
Though I thought that, I didn't want to hurt the other person's feelings, so I just listened silently. Ultimately, the girl's request was whether I could meet in person to look at the code.
Honestly, I was nervous. Receiving such a private contact, being asked to meet just the two of us - all of it felt strange. My cheeks gradually warmed up and I could feel my heartbeat growing stronger.
I was about to say okay in a slightly trembling voice and hang up.
"Wait! There's one more thing I want to say."
"Ah, yes."
"Hoo."
The woman took a breath and opened her mouth.
"Pathetic bastard."
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"Ah."
I suddenly woke up.
"......"
It seemed like I had dreamed something.
What was it?
Even when I tried to recall it, the memory kept slipping through my fingers like trying to grasp transparent water.
Eventually giving up, I moved my stiff neck and looked around.
It was my house.
"What the...?"
Did I get home?
When?
Suddenly remembering my clothes, I immediately looked down. Then I saw a neat school uniform jacket and skirt.
"Hoo......"
That was a relief. I was worried that I might have walked home in that vulgar outfit.
'Seyeon must have dressed me properly while I was hypnotized and sent me home.'
Ah.
Hypnosis.
"......"
I clenched my fist tightly.
The memory of that time comes back vividly as if it's happening right now.
My other personality. That perverted child was toyed with by Seyeon's entire body and came multiple times. Chest, anus, lips, even armpits - exposing the secret and sensitive parts of the human body to another person without hesitation.
And I... could only watch that horrific spectacle while trapped in this unnecessarily feminine body.
The last memory was of my womb tightly wrapping around the tail that had entered all the way to the end of my large intestine before I passed out.
Even now when I think about it, it was a crazy spectacle.
Not even with the opposite sex, but two girls kissing and sharing lust with each other.
And all driven by one person's unilateral desires.
'Unilateral......'
That's how it was until then.
Suddenly I remember Seyeon's words.
If I came just one more time, the horny Yubin's ego would exceed 50%.
And it probably happened exactly as she said.
Personality.
The supreme spirit that proves one is human, not beast.
But now, more than half of me has been consumed by a subhuman personality that claims to be an animal.
"Ugh......"
Instantly, my stomach churned and nausea boiled up to my throat.
That perverted bastard becomes the default instead of me?
"Bull, bullshit......"
That will absolutely never happen.
Never.
'...By the way.'
I'm concerned about what Seyeon said about intuition.
She said intuition is nothing but a sophisticated program, not a person.
Therefore, it considers the personality that occupies more of the mind as the real one and activates accordingly.
'That means......'
Now even intuition thinks that strange Yubin is the owner of this body.
"......"
Huh.
I thought something was a bit strange.
'If intuition considers her to be the real one, why am I still controlling the body?'
Just as I, who was the default until now, controlled this body more dominantly, shouldn't that vulgar girl now take the initiative?
"Hmmmmmm......"
I pondered for about 10 minutes, then soon found the answer.
'It has nothing to do with intuition.'
Regardless of what percentage of my mind is occupied or what intuition does, switching personalities was the responsibility of Seyeon, the one who cast the hypnosis.
From the very first day, she said she cast hypnosis, and at that time, that Yubin's percentage probably wasn't even 10%.
Yet Seyeon made her completely take over my body.
Therefore, the authority to turn personalities on and off lies entirely with Seyeon, not me.
'Fuck......'
Why is someone else controlling my mind instead of me?
I was angry, but there was nothing I could do.
Anyway, then what does intuition do?
Intuition... was just helping me. Making me run away as much as possible when it seemed like I'd be caught by Seyeon, or deliberately making me vomit at specific times to help me notice something suspicious.
Those efforts of intuition were to keep me being myself.
But now...... the true me that intuition thinks of is that vulgar Yubin.
What that means is.
Intuition is no longer on my side.
It will forcibly control my body to make me flirt with Seyeon, and encourage me to behave like a female animal - no, to behave in feminine ways.
"Ah......"
Thinking like that gave me chills.
Intuition will make me wear only flowy skirts, occasionally make cute expressions, act cute, and use girly speech?
An S-grade Skill of all things?
My both hands tremble with fear.
'Crazy, this is crazy, it's insane......'
Thinking that, I jumped up but suddenly my vision went dark, so I sat back down.
'...First, what time is it now?'
Since I seemed to have roughly sorted out the situation by now, I looked at the clock.
It was midnight.
'So I left Seyeon's dormitory, returned home, slept a bit, and now I've woken up.'
Judging by the nice scent coming from my body, it seems I also washed up.
I changed into pajamas, brushed my teeth, and went into my room.
Click.
"......"
After turning off the light, I looked around.
Whenever the room got dark, I always felt a strange sense of unease, but now there was none of that.
Anyway, I plopped down onto the neatly made bed.
The sound of fabric rustling and fluttering lasted only a moment, then the surroundings became frighteningly quiet. Only my shallow breathing and the chirping of crickets could be heard. The moonlight coming through the window was as clear as spring water.
"Sigh."
What happened today came to mind. It's truly a bad memory, but it keeps resurfacing.
'Why?'
Why does she do such things to me?
Here, "such things" doesn't mean those vulgar acts like biting my clit, developing my nipples, or anal conditioning.
It's that she turned her back on me.
That was the saddest thing.
That child betrayed me.
She betrayed my heart.
Even though I poured out my heart enough to feel like dying, enough for my chest to feel empty from laughing and crying.
The result was as it is now.
Seyeon clearly said she liked me. Clearly. She confessed that with her own mouth.
But as if she completely forgot that she said such weighty words, she mercilessly trampled on me without regard.
Things like rape or hypnosis weren't the important points.
The weight of emotions was different from the start. Even if an ornamental fish loves a human, would they even glance at that heart? The other party only treats me as a toy.
It was like that from the beginning. From the beginning, the feelings were different, from the beginning the attitude was different, from the beginning what was pursued was different.
So it was so sad.
I did everything possible to be loved by someone, but in the end, it's come to this again.
Relationships connected like thread can be cut at any time, and I was always the one who had the scissors taken away. It was natural. I didn't have fingers to hold scissors in the first place.
So I've lived always prioritizing others to prevent being cut off. But apparently, it doesn't seem to be working well.
I failed once more today, and it's been like this until now.
Probably it will be like this in the future too.