Episode 49. Doubt and Oath 4
Episode 49. Doubt and Oath 4
After sparring time ended.
"Yubin-ah, going to wash up?"
"Huh? Yeah......"
"Let's go together."
Covered in dirt, I nodded with a flustered expression.
Seyeon immediately grabbed my arm and walked while clinging to me.
"......"
Feeling Seyeon's large breasts against my forearm, I thought to myself.
'She's been like this all day today.'
From first period until now, Seyeon had been following me around all day long.
The hallway, school store, training ground, and bathroom... Well, we didn't go to the bathroom thanks to the bracelet.
Anyway, it was as if she wanted to keep me in her sight at all times. She always had a tendency to stick to me like gum, but today was a bit extreme.
Moreover, with all the subtle physical contact like hugging my arm, grabbing my wrist, or poking my thighs... Honestly, my heart felt like it would burst. For various reasons.
Of course, the excessive skinship wasn't the problem. The real issue was that if Seyeon kept doing this, I couldn't ask other people questions.
'Ah... I should ask her to give me some space.'
That way I could verify and clear my doubts.
But those words just wouldn't come out.
Or I could quickly get up as soon as break time starts and run to somewhere Seyeon isn't, but I couldn't do that either.
Why?
I don't really know the reason, but at least it didn't seem to be because of my intuition. This feeling.
Anyway, I put my dirty gym clothes in the washing machine and entered the shower room.
"Phew......"
As the warm water poured down, my restless mind calmed down a bit.
'Right, well... I don't necessarily have to ask face-to-face.'
No matter what, Seyeon probably wouldn't follow me all the way home.
So when I get home, I can just send a Katalk message to Eunbyeol, or Chaerin, or Minjeong... and test it out.
"Yubin-ah, what's this?"
The moment I thought that.
Seyeon suddenly approached me and asked in a clear voice. Suddenly the sound of water seemed muffled.
Seyeon's gaze was directed at my buttocks.
"Wh-what is?"
Seyeon didn't answer with words, but instead poked between my buttocks with her finger.
"Hyeet?!"
What Seyeon had poked was... the anal plug that had been inserted in my anus all this time. The moment Seyeon's finger touched it, the plug pushed inward and stimulated my intestinal wall, causing me to make a strange sound.
When I looked around with my face completely red, everyone was strangely focused only on washing themselves.
"Se-Seyeon-ah... what are you doing. Don't touch me in weird places."
"No, it's just that you have something interesting inserted."
"......?"
I tilted my head and stared intently at Seyeon.
"What do you mean 'something interesting'? It's an anal plug."
"Anal plug?"
"You really don't know?"
Seeing Seyeon shaking her head as if she genuinely didn't know, I let out a deep sigh.
'...Why doesn't she know this?'
"It's a tool to cover your anus... You really don't know?"
"Yeah. First time seeing it. Never used one either."
"Haa......"
Wow...
It was a tremendous shock. It felt like hearing someone say they're seeing panties or a bra for the first time.
What could she be thinking? Since the anus is an extremely embarrassing area, it's common sense to insert an anal plug to cover it.
"Seyeon-ah, then you're in real trouble......"
"Why?"
"If you go around without this, everyone can see...! Others might think you're a pervert."
"A pervert?"
Seyeon repeated the question, then suddenly covered her mouth and started giggling.
Why is she doing this? I stared at Seyeon with a bewildered expression.
"Pfft, heheu...... Ah, Yubin-ah. I think you're right."
"Of course...!"
"Yeah. I should buy one too after school ends."
I felt strange, as if I'd witnessed something contrary to common sense. Seyeon often had these kinds of clueless moments.
Is it because she's a succubus...? I wanted to ask but held back since it would be a racially discriminatory remark.
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After that little incident ended.
As closing assembly finished, the classmates poured out like a flood.
"Phew."
Another day half over.
All that's left now is meeting Seyeon at 7. Probably today we'll finish skill editing through meditation.
'No, before that......'
...When I get home, I should test it. By sending a Katalk message.
I gently bit my lower lip, slung my bag over my shoulder, and headed out of the classroom.
Then I felt a hand suddenly grab mine, so I turned around.
Of course, it was Seyeon. At this point, it felt expected.
Seyeon blinked her sparkling red eyes and gazed intently at me.
Even seeing her like that, I didn't say anything, and Seyeon silently held my hand and followed along.
In the hallway where everyone had already left, only the sound of our two pairs of footsteps echoed meaninglessly.
Suddenly, I thought it was strange. Doesn't Seyeon usually grab my wrist and lead the way? But now she's tightly holding my hand and obediently following behind me.
My hand felt damp. Was I already sweating?
We walked slowly in silence like that until we reached the school gate.
"...Well, I'll get going then. See you at 7, Seyeon-ah."
"......"
"Seyeon-ah...?"
Since the dormitory is in the opposite direction from the school gate, we should part ways here.
But for some reason, Seyeon kept tightly holding my hand and wouldn't let go.
"......"
We stood there quietly, looking at each other. But our feelings were probably completely different. I was extremely flustered, and while I didn't know about Seyeon... well, she was probably different from me.
The atmosphere was peculiar. In the late afternoon as evening approached, the fading twilight illuminated half of Seyeon's face.
One side sparkled with sunset colors, while the other was dark with backlighting. It looked divided by a soft yet definite boundary, like where freshwater meets the sea.
"Yubin-ah."
Seyeon called me. With no one around and only quiet stillness flowing between us, it felt like she was whispering in my ear.
I tried to part my lips to answer, but couldn't possibly do so. Because Seyeon was slowly approaching me.
I knew what she was trying to do. I thought I should step backward, but my feet felt glued to the ground and wouldn't move.
Why? Was it simply because I was overwhelmed by Seyeon's presence? Or......
As my unnecessary thoughts repeated, the distance between Seyeon and me gradually closed. I could only watch as Seyeon approached me with extremely slow steps.
Suddenly I thought.
Why isn't she acting like usual? Seyeon who always grabs my wrist without warning and hugs me from behind.
But why now, so slowly......
As if giving me a choice.
In the end, I remained still until the very end, and Seyeon wrapped her arms around my waist. It was a very soft and delicate movement.
My teeth clenched on their own, making a slight grinding sound. Seyeon's embrace smelled warm and sweet as always. As if I could stay hugged like this forever.
My heart pounded. Cold sweat ran down my spine, tickling my skin, and heat rose from my forehead. Though I never opened my mouth, I was speaking honestly.
Seyeon gradually pulled her arms toward herself, bringing our bodies even closer. As our chests pressed together, a tingling sensation spread throughout my entire body.
"Yubin-ah."
Seyeon, who's taller than me, buried her face in my shoulder and whispered softly.
It felt familiar.
'Clearly... I dreamed about this situation.'
I just kept swallowing the saliva pooling in my mouth and waited for Seyeon to continue speaking.
"You know... that I really like you, right?"
"......"
"Hmm? You know, right?"
No answer came out.
What could I possibly say here?
I just stiffly raised my head and stared into empty space.
"......"
My body felt like it was melting like soup. Though they were just a few short words saying she likes me, I couldn't discern their true meaning at all.
What was Seyeon hoping for by saying that?
I couldn't know that, and since I also had no idea what to say here or how to act later, I could only remain silent.
However, I slowly raised both arms and carefully hugged Seyeon back.
I heard laughter. It was a soft chuckle from Seyeon. Perhaps satisfied, Seyeon turned her head and lightly pressed her lips against my neck, then stayed still like that.
And then immediately pulled away and, as if it were a lie, turned her back and ran toward the dormitory.
It happened so quickly that even after Seyeon disappeared from view, I stood there in a daze.
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After returning home, I thought about what had just happened.
It felt unreal and sudden, like a dream.
Every time Seyeon made such sudden moves, I never knew how to react.
That's why I've been struggling in various ways until now.
Does Seyeon like me? Of course, not as a friend... but as a romantic interest.
But I'm... a girl just like her.
So does that mean she likes girls? Not boys?
Why... I couldn't ask. There probably isn't a reason for such things.
'That someone as perfect as Seyeon likes me......'
The feeling was extremely subtle. Until now, only family had ever expressed feelings of liking me.
However, it wasn't an unpleasant feeling at all.
But if you ask whether I should accept Seyeon's feelings... for some reason, a sense of unease swirls in my head.
It's not because I have a closed mind like a Christian believer. Nor am I concerned about what people around me might think.
'Then why......'
Before I knew it, I was staring at the smartphone I'd taken out of my pocket.
Why did I take out my phone when no one was going to contact me?
No, it was the opposite.
This time I needed to make contact. To verify Seyeon. To test my intuition.
With trembling fingers, I opened the messenger app. I scrolled down to find the name Lee Eunbyeol. I pressed her profile to open a 1:1 chat. I typed furiously on the keypad.
Now I just needed to tap once to send it. That question.
No, I didn't even need to send it. If I just moved my hand toward the send button... my intuition would judge. If it was dangerous, my finger would move somewhere else.
But I just stood there, gripping the desk tightly with both hands.
...I remembered something my older sister used to say like a motto.
That those who don't know are happier than those who do.
Only now did I feel like I understood what that meant.
This was the first time I'd felt this emotion. Having to doubt someone who loves me was truly sad. Even if it was just a tiny suspicion, no more than a speck of dust.
"......"
Then what if, if I turn off my phone here and don't think about anything... would I be happy?
If I believe Seyeon simply likes me without any malice, and I live foolishly while fully receiving that affection......
'...No.'
Though there was no basis, my heart screamed that it wasn't right.
I mentioned my sister earlier...
But even that sister, who said those words, persistently dug into her boyfriend's suspected infidelity until it was proven true, then cleanly broke up with him. Though she locked herself in her room and cried for ten days.
Even while acknowledging that ignorance is bliss, seeing myself about to press the send button made me think siblings really do resemble each other.
No, now we'd be sisters though......
Anyway, I took a deep breath.
I don't know if it's because I don't want to live in fantasy, or if I'm just very curious.
But whatever the reason, I have to press it.
"Yubin-ah. You know... that I really like you, right?"
Yes, I know.
That's why I have to do this.
I pressed the message send button, and the text was sent smoothly.
And immediately a call came.
Not from Eunbyeol, but from Seyeon.