The Courageous Announcement

After notifying even Haram, I created a group chat so the kids could talk among themselves. [Invited Loving Jiwoo, Loving Minu, Haram, and Kitsu.] [Me: I'm free anytime, so you guys coordinate and talk... I'm going to start streaming early today]

"...I must look so irresponsible."

Still, since I'd woken up early today, I really did want to spend time with my viewers. 'It should be fine to act a little spoiled, right?'

My head understood that, but my body clearly didn't. My pupils ‍‍‌‌⁠​​⁠‌​​‍​​‍​‌​⁠‍‌‍⁠⁠‌⁠‌‍‌‍‌‌‌‍⁠​‌​‌​‌‍‌‌‌⁠‍​​‌‍⁠‌‌⁠⁠trembled and my heart began racing. Honestly, I was terrified. We'd only just started mending our relationships. If I acted this selfishly, wouldn't they end up hating me?

"...Maybe Jiwoo would be better? I could always stream in the evening instead."

Once again, I found myself defaulting to what would be easiest for Jiwoo. It was pathetic that I couldn't even voice my own opinion properly. Whenever I did whatever I wanted, the result was almost always being abandoned. So just as I was about to delete the message—

Jiwoo and Yeona. Both of them gave me courage and let me go. It felt like they were telling me this wasn't abandonment—just a short separation. My painfully racing heart began to beat again, cautiously. My spinning eyes steadied, and the cold sweat stopped.

"...They're not the kind of kids who would do that."

Yeah. It was fine. The Jiwoo, Minu, Haram, and Yeona I knew weren't like that. It felt good to have my trust confirmed once more.

While I wore a faint smile, the others began greeting each other and chatting. Staring blankly at the screen, I quickly closed my phone and turned on the computer.

"...Time to spill some stories."

I had to share some stories. I wanted to quickly let everyone know the wonderful news that I was finally going to take ‍‍‌‌⁠​​⁠‌​​‍​​‍​‌​⁠‍‌‍⁠⁠‌⁠‌‍‌‍‌‌‌‍⁠​‌​‌​‌‍‌‌‌⁠‍​​‌‍⁠‌‌⁠⁠that great step outside.

Right before starting the stream, I went online for the first time in a while and wandered through VTuber-related communities, searching for "Vam," "Snake," "Suhyun," and the like.

"...It feels good to be acknowledged."

The internet was full of people who liked and accepted me. Before taking that step outside, I wanted to do some prep work online first.

"Here it is... Most of them are posts linking me with Yeona......"

Made sense. Yeona's aggro power was ridiculous. She probably had at least ten VTuber-related titles by now. Chain-smoker VTuber, idol trainee, Mizuame Akari's first daughter, and so on.

"Maybe someday... I could shine like that too."

Like Yeona, who was shining even brighter like the sun after meeting me. I wanted to shine beside her, even if it was just by reflecting her light. Even if it wasn't my own light.

"...This isn't the time to get sentimental. I should check quickly and start streaming."

With that thought, I hurriedly began looking up reactions from yesterday's stream.

There were posts surprised by my relationship with Yeona. And comments shocked by the panties......

"...Those really are panties. Everyone must have been uncomfortable seeing that."

It wasn't particularly embarrassing. My panties held no value anyway. With a body covered in scars, gloomy, prone to crying, bad at conversation, and completely lacking in sexual appeal, there was no way anyone would like it.

"Honestly... even I think it's kind of gross... starting with the hair color."

With a sigh, I moved on to the next post.

There were also posts that evaluated me quite highly. Someone who thought I was beyond saving.

"...What an amazing person. Living so positively... I hope they succeed."

As expected, ego-searching was endlessly enjoyable. Partly because, due to my special circumstances, there was literally no one badmouthing me.

"Just one more... then today I'll organize the fan cafe and chat......"

With a natural smile on my lips, I clicked into the final post.

"...Oh my god, they found out?"

I'd clicked in because of the provocative title, and now I squeezed my eyes shut at the definitely provocative situation.

"I just hope it doesn't cause any harm......"

Since Yeona was so pretty and far from being a delinquent, it probably wouldn't turn into anything serious. Still, I prayed that Yeona would be okay as I started the stream.

Without turning on the waiting screen, I just played background music, turned off the mic, and checked my chubby cheeks and facial expression.

"...Okay, confirmed."

After checking everything including my expression, I quickly turned on the mic and greeted the people who had joined.

"H-hello...! I'm here... heheh."

"Kitsu made pasta before leaving, so I ate that......"

People expressed admiration at the mention of Yeona. I stared blankly at the chat window, waiting for a chance to tell my own story.

'I need to drop this bomb when as many people as possible are watching.'

That was how huge my going outside was. Then, finally finding the right timing, I brought the mic close to my mouth and confessed to my viewers like I was making a confession.

"...Um, I'm going outside tomorrow...! I'm going out! I-I-I, it's been half a year?"

People who knew my previous story began lifting me up with those words. I smiled faintly in response.