Possessed in "The World Is Already Under Hypnosis" (6)
"You crazy bastard! You fucking crazy bastard!"
"Why are you cursing like that? What the hell did I even do?"
He was playing innocent. As if I didn't know what kind of shit this guy was planning.
"You're thinking of fucking me! You'd totally do it!"
"I heard you don't fall under hypnosis."
"Yeah. So go fuck around with the women who are already hypnotized, you prick? Huh? I'm a woman only on the outside—my mind, personality, sexual orientation, everything's still a guy. Fucking someone like me would make you a total pervert."
"I see... Yeah, I don't like fucking guys either."
"R-right?"
One silver lining: Kim Hoyoung might be a total asshole, but his tastes were straight as an arrow. He was just insanely horny, not some freak with weird kinks. That might be his one redeeming quality.
"I'm not gay either."
"Exactly, exactly. Kim Hoyoung being gay? No way. You look good fucking women. Ahem. So, as a guy, I'll quietly exit the story—live well together, you two."
"So I just need to turn Seungyeon into a bitch in heat. Hmm. Problem solved."
Ah. This motherfucker.
"Hey, Kim Hoyoung. Did you hear a word I said? I know all about your powers and your past. The other women dealt with you without knowing shit, but I'm not falling for it when I know exactly what hypnosis you're gonna pull. Even the slickest con artist can't say, 'I'm about to scam you now,' and expect it to work, right? Get it? A top magician's trick looks lame once you know the secret."
"So my hypnosis won't work on you no matter what?"
"Even if it did, I'd feel the dissonance and just act against it."
The hypnosis this bastard pulls is probably obvious anyway. Something like 'get horny for me' or whatever. I don't get turned on by guys like Kim Hoyoung—men. That's the real me. If I suddenly start lusting after him, I'd know it's mind control right away. Once I realize it's hypnosis fucking with my head, no way I'd follow his orders.
For example, say I'm walking and spot some food trash on the ground that suddenly looks tasty. Ridiculous example, but that's how unreal it is for me to get wet for Kim Hoyoung—so let's use it. If I don't know why I'm drooling over garbage, I might try tasting it without thinking. But if I know it's hypnosis forcing it to seem delicious, I'd never touch it. I'd know it's something I shouldn't eat.
"You're nothing without hypnosis anyway, so you'll probably try it again. Go ahead, you fuck. There's a Korean saying: 'Even if you're dragged into a tiger's den, keep your wits and you'll live.' I'll endure with my superhuman willpower."
"Okay. Let's see you hold out. Here we go?"
"Ugh! That right hand... hypnosis waves or whatever, right?"
"Whoa, you really know everything."
Kim Hoyoung cupped my forehead with his right hand. The real showdown was starting now. Come on. I knew exactly what was coming—no idiot gets caught off guard.
I'll smash it head-on. Your hypnosis.
"Hypnosis waves, fire."
"Ugugegegugegeugeugegegugegek."
Fuck— what the hell is this!! My head— spinning, spinning. Spinning... spinning... Ah... this is impossible. Can't hold out. Not something willpower can beat.
"Geugegugeugeuagegegeuk."
"Whoa, your face looks seriously fucked up right now."
"Gu-gegu-geuwa-gegeuk."
I flashed back to the day my appendix burst and I was rushed to the ER for surgery. It hurt so bad I thought I'd lose my mind, then the doctor gave me anesthesia. "You'll fall asleep now," he said casually. Like hell—like I could sleep through this pain.
But moments after inhaling that nasty gas, my head spun, and next thing I knew, I was in recovery. Surgery took three hours, but I remembered nothing. Felt like a time machine.
That's when I learned: once a drug hits your body, willpower's got no say.
"Ugegeugegugegeugegek."
This was exactly that. Knowing the hypnosis wouldn't let me fight it? Bullshit. I couldn't fight or do jack shit. Who even am I? Can't tell. Everything's spinning—am I spinning or the world? The floor turned into an unreliable swamp sucking me in. Air, light, blood in my veins—all attacking me. Everything's the enemy. I felt so fragile, so pathetic.
Pitch-black darkness. The one shining beacon in it... the only thing I could trust and cling to.
"...Master Hoyoung."
—Calling his name turned the swamp back to floor, the vertigo gone. Back to reality.
"Thought I was gonna puke. Fuck. I can't even ride buses well, you bastard. Happy now?"
"Hey, Seungyeon. A girl shouldn't use such foul language."
"What? Are you nuts? I said I'm a guy."
"You defying me right now?"
"—Ah."
Kim Hoyoung's face darkened instantly. Just that, and my legs went weak. Scary. Terrifying. Like the whole world crumbling. Why was I even born? If I hadn't, I wouldn't have pissed him off now. Mistake. My whole life was mistakes. Should've died before today. Scared, scared, scared. I'm done for.
"S-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-sorry... N-no, I-I'm s-s-s-s-sorry. P-p-p-please f-f-forgive m-me..."
My lips trembled like I'd been stranded in the snowy mountains. What the fuck? Why am I shaking like this? No idea. But fuck, I'm terrified. Just don't want him mad. I'd do anything.
"Speak properly from now on. Like a good girl."
"B-but I'm a g-guy..."
"Ugh, annoying."
"!!!"
Annoying.
Annoying.
Annoying...
Die. Gotta die now. How? Hanging? Jump off a bridge and drown? Seppuku? Whatever. Just leave this world.
Yeah, since Kim Hoyoung openly said he was annoyed, no place for me here. Had to die. Ah, my favorite mountain has a secret path only I know. My hideout even hikers don't find. Die there. Yeah, perfect.
"Saying it again, Han Seungyeon."
His voice low and grave. My body shrank on instinct. Couldn't stand straight in front of him. Damn.
"One more bit of nonsense that annoys me, and no mercy."
No nonsense. Never ever ever!
"Speak like a proper girl from now on."
"Y-yes! Got it..."
"No cursing."
"I won't."
"Good. Forgiven."
Ah. Forgiven. I... can live? Allowed to live?
Kim Hoyoung stroked my head. Wow. Just that, and my mind bloomed like a flower field. Happy. Warm. Safe. Allowed to be here. Like my existence was accepted... this cozy feeling. Reminded me of running away after fighting Mom as a kid, coming back after two days. She made a feast and said eat up and go to bed. Felt accepted, teared up. This was like that... no, a hundred times better. Fuck, why am I like this. Heart pounding like crazy. Logically, he just petted my head—am I overreacting? No, no. Should be thanking him profusely, what shameless thoughts. If I piss him off again, then what. Ahh. Head's a mess, can't think.
"For a girl like you, 100% hypnosis could've blown your mind, so I went light. But unlike before, you don't hate or resent me now, right? Actually kinda lovable?"
"…………."
Lovable... my ass. —Why can't I say it? Why am I just taking him nibbling my ear?
"Mm. Uhmm."
And why the moans? How long's this bastard gonna play with my earlobe?
"Has our Seungyeon ever done fellatio before?"
"N-no way!... I mean."
"Ever thought about trying?"
As if, asshole. You think I'm gay? A guy's dick is just gross to me.
...Gulp.
"Kukuku. Why swallow like that? Dick that hungry for mine?"
"Eh? W-when did I—gulp. Swallow?"
What? Saliva won't stop. Ever since he yanked down his pants and showed it.
This fucker really plans to fuck me. Even after I said I'm a guy!
Gulp.
Fuck, why keep salivating.
"Big, huh?"
"……."
"Hahaha. Nodding even now, cute little thing."
Don't pinch my cheeks.
"Compared to your male self?"
"……..."
I'm still male.
"Answer me. I asked."
Thump— Right. He asked, so answer. Why dodge?
"M-much bigger than mine..."
"How many cm were you?"
"Mine... even fully hard, about 9 cm..."
"What? 9 cm? Puhahaha!"
Damn. Why'd I answer honestly?
"That's rough. Maybe you had no talent as a man to begin with. Bitch corruption was your destiny."
"N-no way..."
"Shut up."
"Hngh!"
Can't breathe.
"Suck my dick, Han Seungyeon. First blowjob of your life—do it properly."
Suck dick. Suck dick. Fuck, suck a guy's dick. Kim Hoyoung's—that massive, thick, veiny monster throbbing like a heartbeat?
"Hesitate all you want—you're hypnotized, can't resist anyway. Stop wasting time, get on your knees."
"Knees...?"
"Gotta kneel for fellatio."
Right. Height-wise, kneel to suck it.
...Not that I want to. Hypnosis, so no choice. Yeah. Gotta kneel.
"...Phuha♡"
"Even more impressive up close, right?"
The monstrous glans filled my vision. Pungent musk stabbed my nose. Numbing it. And I... opened... my mouth. Saliva pooled inside suddenly poured from the roof like rain.