Chapter 68
Chapter 68
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Translator: MadScientist
Chapter: 68
Chapter Title: So Embarrassing...
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So embarrassing... So embarrassing... So embarrassing... So embarrassing... So embarrassing...!
Believe it or not, Lee Min-ji still considered her sexual identity to be male.
Sure, there was this massive lump of flesh on her chest that she couldn't even grasp with one hand, but the original owner of this body wasn't her.
She knew better than anyone that she was now the owner of that body and had ended up with a woman's form—
but since the change had happened out of nowhere without any explanation, there was always the possibility she could revert to her original body at any moment.
So, to avoid any unnecessary mishaps, she was clinging tightly to her male mindset.
And one of the key elements of that "male mindset" Lee Min-ji was holding onto was—
"Hic... Hwaaaang...!"
The old saying you hear all the time: "A man only cries three times in his life."
They say a man cries three times in his lifetime.
At birth,
when his parents pass away,
and finally, when his country falls.
In Lee Min-ji's case, she'd cried once at birth, and again when her parents died young.
There was no sign of South Korea falling anytime soon, so she'd been saving that final tear, planning to spend it only at the decisive moment—
but this sudden magical day had shattered her masculine pride in an instant.
And just like that, Lee Min-ji had used up all three tears allowed in a lifetime.
Which meant there was no reason left to cry, no opportunity anymore.
At least, that was the plan—
"Th-this is... too much...!"
Right now, she was bawling her eyes out just because a few game enhancements had failed in a row.
And not just quietly crying, either—she was practically wailing.
The ones thrown off by the sight were none other than the viewers watching her stream.
-Wait, for real??
-No joke
-Looks legit
-Yeah...?
What kind of image had Lee Min-ji—Saintess Nice on stream—shown so far?
Even amid the chaotic chats that would break most streamers' spirits, she'd always responded with unflinching resolve.
She had a steel mentality, turning the endless barrage of insults aimed at her for being from the community ho1 high-nick crowd into opportunities to raise her prices.
Hell, she'd even turn outright sexual harassment that would humiliate any woman into promotional pricing—
making it hard to tell if she was a girl or just some bold-as-hell manservant.
📰 Breaking News [Then die!] Hey, if you asked if that was normal coping, most would say no.
Anyway, Lee Min-ji's streamer image was that of an uncontrollable, unpredictable loose cannon who might explode anywhere.
The polar opposite of sobbing and pouring out tears like this.
For her viewers, it was a pretty disorienting moment, but their reactions were crystal clear.
Anonymous donated 1,000 won! Uh... hang in there... Pure, simple comfort.
-...;
-Uh... um...
-What do you even say...
-This is kinda rough;
Normally, they'd swallow their anger with empty threats like wanting to punch her in the gut or flick her forehead, but not this time.
"The truly fucked-up ones? You don't mess with them." Even among the trolls who lived on mockery, that was the bare-minimum line, an unwritten rule.
"No... hic... I didn't even ask for pity...!"
In mass media, a woman's tears are always beautiful.
Soft lighting, sparkling teardrops like glass beads, noble emotions.
But real tears have none of that staging.
Your face crumples, your breathing hitches, your eyes turn bloodshot.
Add snot to the mix, and it's actually pretty pathetic.
Luckily, Lee Min-ji wasn't streaming with her cam on, so the viewers couldn't see it.
And her voice was so good that just the audio made it sound like a pitiful girl's sobs.
Sure, blurting "damn, nice voice" while someone's crying their heart out would make you a psycho,
but humans react to audiovisual stimuli before rational thought kicks in.
💬 Comments — Anon This bitch's vibe is totally fucked today lol — Anon She's kinda pitiful but also... hot? — Anon Anyone sharing recordings of the big shots after they finish? As a result, not a single finger pointed at how ugly it was—Lee Min-ji's tears were turning into prime stream content.
Of course, the sleazier reactions were only spilling out in the communities, not the chat.
"This... this is just too much...!"
In conclusion, it was a streaming success, but Lee Min-ji still felt wronged.
What was the Legendary Aura system? A pity timer, yeah, a ceiling.
Compared to games where gear explodes after enhancements, you should be grateful for a ceiling at all—
"How many times is this now...!"
Unfortunately, humans are wired to be more sensitive to what they lack than what they have.
Thanks to the ceiling, you succeeded 10 times? It could've been worse?
What kind of consolation is that?
She'd already taken the maximum damage the system allowed.
Enhancement systems naturally have an "expected value."
Statistically, you succeed after a certain number of tries;
go way over, and you're unlucky;
succeed early, and you're lucky.
The problem was, Lee Min-ji was way off that "average."
Not just off—three or four times the resources poured in.
Even dumping way more materials than others, her enhancement levels were stuck in place.
"Hic... Why only meee?!"
The sheer unfairness crushed her, and she couldn't hold back the tears.
The side effect of her body changing, testosterone turning to estrogen, played its part too.
Anonymous donated 1,000 won! Caalm... down... first... "Calm down my ass!"
At first, viewers found her crying just pitifully funny,
but as the sobs dragged on, the mood started sinking weirdly.
-Is the stream ending?
-(Grape Candy) No idea...
-She's crying so sadly
-But seeing that Legendary Gear pity counter? I'd cry too;
"What if... she quits streaming over this...?"
The Lee Min-ji viewers knew couldn't handle being teased, even if insults rolled off her back. She had a weird personality like that.
She'd even rage-quit her own stream before, so no need to doubt it.
That was the problem.
This Lee Min-ji wasn't her usual self.
This wailing would become eternal black material, and once she snapped out of it, she'd regret it for sure.
A truckload of viewers would clip it to mock her—could she handle that?
What if she self-destructed again? That was the worry.
"Hwaaaang!"
Before that happened, they just prayed she'd stop crying and pull herself together—
— — — —
Ah.
"Sniff..."
I want to die.
Why the hell did I do that...?
The first Legendary Gear fail message just annoyed me, but seeing them pile up turned it into this overwhelming sadness.
Can't I get one lucky streak, just once? Why only fails...?
Then I remembered messing up my logout yesterday, and suddenly the world felt like it hated only me, and before I knew it...
I mean... it was just... so... sad...
"Aaaack!"
So embarrassing... So embarrassing... So embarrassing... So embarrassing... So embarrassing...!
I'm really... really not someone with a weak mentality like this...
And I'm not the type to cry over a few enhancement fails.
This is all... Lee Min-ji's fault.
I wasn't this emotionally sensitive before, so the only culprit is this body.
Anyway, once I sorted my feelings, the stream vibe had gone completely off the rails.
I wanted a community-like atmosphere where viewers and I trolled and laughed together.
But no one could throw stones at someone crying pitifully,
so it shifted to "me bawling" and "viewers consoling me."
Already dying of shame, and hearing "You okay?" and "Hang in there" just made me slam the end stream button like a coward.
...Wait, no—like an actual coward.
Haha.
I shut down the PC, opened the booth door, and stepped out—eyes locked on me from everywhere.
No one said anything... but I'd wailed so loud, they must've all heard.
The part-timer said nothing... but that silence was worse.
From their side, some crazy girl suddenly bawling her eyes out—curious stares make sense...
...I get it. I understand.
But still... couldn't they just pretend not to notice?
No need to all sneak peeks like that...
If it's noise... yeah... my bad.
I admit that.
But... human hearts...
Sometimes you feel wronged even when you know...
Anyway, it'd been an hour since I got home, kicking my blanket and rolling on the floor.
At first, I desperately wanted a hole to crawl into...
But humans adapt, and my mind started clearing bit by bit.
Once the heat left my face, I could finally think straight.
Cold, rational thoughts like "What do I do now?"
"Haa..."
I have to stream tomorrow too.
How the hell do I handle this?
No need to check to know the community reaction.
Probably concept posts to comments, all buzzing—
about that moment I squeezed out the juice while bawling.
Yeah, that kind of bait spreads naturally there.
It'll blow over in a week anyway—
...That's only comforting if you don't have to stream tomorrow.
"Should I... take tomorrow off...? Nah, can't..."
The words slipped out, vanishing into thin air.
I wanted to no-show, go dark.
Pretend nothing happened, wait for time to bury it.
But reality wouldn't let me.
Tomorrow... is the ICK Round 2 prelims.
"Check... yeah, let's check at least..."
Since I have to stream anyway, might as well scope the Saintess Nice Gallery bait situation.
Maybe... just maybe... by pure coincidence, some new hot topic exploded.
My juice moment pushed aside, everyone tearing into something else.
Yeah, some games blow up with controversies in under a week—totally possible.
"...Gulp..."
The Saintess Nice Gallery right now exists in two states at once: spinning my juice bait or not.
The moment I enter to observe, one becomes reality.
Please, just a sliver of hope...!
💬 Saintess Nice Gallery ⭐ Hot Thread — Thread Title Gallery protag's vibe is totally fucked lately — Thread Title Why's she so cute lately? Even her trolling is adorably killing me — Thread Title Juice lolololololol — Thread Title What if she no-shows tomorrow? ⭐ Hot Thread — Thread Title No need to worry about no-show EU = Tomorrow's ICK lol — Thread Title Gallery protag juice viewer reaction.TXT — Thread Title Streamers reacting to Saintess Nice juice clip lololol.avi "Ah."
God, please turn back time.
To before I cried...!
Um...
Actually, better yet,
to before the enhancements!
No dice, huh?
Yeah...