In Real Life
The reality that existed right now, the one that was actually happening.
In a dictionary sense, it was exactly that.
Yet somehow the word “reality” had started to sound so pessimistic to me.
I was sure it was because every single thing that had happened to me in real life was utterly despairing.
It had been like that since I was a child.
My grades weren’t great, and I didn’t have any other talents either. Whenever the school questionnaire asked what I was good at, the only thing that appeared in the blank was always “gaming.”
My parents never looked down on me for it, nor did they force me to study.
“Just keep growing up healthy and stay with us for a long time, our pretty daughter.”
I still remembered those words they both said.
The promise of “stay with us for a long time” had been broken in a way I could never fix, no matter how I tried.
After the funeral and seeing my parents off for the final time, my entire world collapsed in an instant.
I had no close friends, no reliable adults I could turn to.
To me, my parents had been everything.
The reality of this world.
I didn’t pick up a computer or eat properly until about three months after they passed away.
From then on, I started doing what I was best at—and what I was the only one who knew how to do.
Gaming.
I threw myself into it completely, ignoring reality, and hid in the online world.
Before I knew it, I had climbed into the ranking ranks, won various competitions, and my gaming skill had skyrocketed.
Now I was famous enough that almost no one in the community didn’t know my name.
But the more famous I became, the more powerless my real self became.
Other players with similar playtimes had already leveled up to mid-level, or even high-level.
The one staring at me right now was…
Well…
She was a high-level player I didn’t even deserve to compete with.
Completely the opposite of what I was like in gaming.
I, who used to harass her by sniping her in the game, was now about to be sniped and tormented in real life.
…
Seolgam forcibly moved me, who was struggling weakly, onto the bed.
My body was drained of strength, and I was breathing heavily as I looked up at her who had climbed on top of me.
Seolgam’s hand started from my calf without warning and slowly stroked all the way up my thigh.
Even though I squirmed in discomfort and embarrassment, her own legs had trapped mine tightly, so I had no choice but to accept every touch.
“You were wrong, huh? It really was your first time?”
She looked at my reaction and spoke with her usual cool tone, but her face was flushed with embarrassment.
My mind was spinning in dizzy circles, while she was calmly smiling down at me with a tiny smile.
My heart was pounding like crazy.
My voice just made broken, involuntary sounds—“ah…” “…ahh…”
I tried to reach out and push her away as hard as I could.
But the moment my hand stretched toward her, she rolled me over, pinning me beneath her.
My hand remained trapped between my stomach and her body.
The heat of her skin made my cold hand feel warm.
I wiggled my fingers and felt the soft, elastic flesh of her thigh.
I suddenly froze.
She let out a graceful, “Hehe,” and laughed.
“It tickles, so stop already, okay?”
“…”
She pressed down a little more, adding her full weight.
Seolgam’s soft, plump breasts covered my chest.
The area around my chest felt extremely suffocating.
Even my already difficult breathing grew tighter.
The flesh that her bra hadn’t covered was sticking out, protruding.
She casually slid both hands down and pulled my pants off my shoulders.
My shoulders tensed with shame.
My collarbone, shoulders, and the upper part of my chest were completely exposed.
Her eyes, like blue jewels, sparkled faintly.
“…I’m going to eat this for the first time…”
She looked like she couldn’t hold back her excitement anymore.
With practiced movements, she slowly pulled my clothes down.
Now my upper body was completely bare.
She who had taken off my clothes was still lying on top of me as she undressed her own shirt.
The buttons of her shirt came undone one by one.
Soon, Seolgam’s breasts—white enough to be called pale—were revealed.
The size was roughly the same as mine, or perhaps a little smaller.
I couldn’t tear my eyes away.
The huge breasts in front of me were heaving with her subtle trembling, fully revealing her presence.
Delicate veins could be seen on her white skin.
…Honestly, it was too erotic.
Seeing my eyes wide with shock and swallowing hard, she smiled.
Seolgam noticed my gaze and moved up a little higher on me.
Soon her breasts filled my entire field of vision.
The sweet, fragrant scent of her made my head dizzy.
She hugged my head. She tucked it between her breasts and held it tightly so I couldn’t escape.
The soft flesh of her breasts brushed my cheeks, and the thick, comforting scent that was even richer than before stabbed at my nose.
Her throbbing heartbeat could also be felt.
“You look so good struggling to breathe hot air desperately.”
She stroked my head and said.
At some point, I could feel my hands moving freely.
No, not freely.
I could only move, but I couldn’t resist her.
My body had completely given up under her seductive temptation.
In this state, my hands were no longer resisting; they were just fidgeting, desperately trying to grab something.
Since I couldn’t move and was trying to grab something, I ended up clenching the blanket.
Seeing my hand clutching the blanket tightly, Seolgam’s lips curled up.
“Huhuhu, that’s all you’ve got? Here.”
She hugged me with one arm and used the other to grab my wrist and pull it over her back.
“Ugh… haa…”
I could barely calm down, and even breathing was difficult.
To calm down a little, I raised my left hand and put it on her back, hugging her.
“That feels better, doesn’t it?”
She was right.
I was calming down little by little.
She was looking completely through me, as if she could see inside my soul.
I didn’t understand myself either.
Just a moment ago, I had been unable to find a place to hide from shame.
But now, it was no longer shame that occupied me; I was just busy feeling her body.
Seolgam felt that my rough breathing was calming and released the arm she had wrapped around me.
She carefully laid my head back on the pillow again.
I stared at her.
I didn’t recognize anything else.
Only her appearance.
Only that one thing had shape in my blurry vision.
Because of that, I didn’t notice until she took out her phone and started taking photos.
Click—
“…!”
“Whoa, got one. I’ll have to look at this expression again and again.”
I reflexively raised my hand to cover my face.
But she had already gotten what she wanted and put the phone back in her pocket without any hesitation.
“…Are you embarrassed because there’s a camera in front? You hugged me so much already…”
“…”
Th-that’s…
She climbed back on top of me again.
Her breath swept across my stomach and chest and soon reached right in front of my face.
She brushed her hair behind her ear, looking at me with a flushed expression.
She slowly, very slowly, lowered her head between my right collarbone and neck.
The end of her hair tickled my neck and shoulder, then the hot breath that reached my neck gave a bizarre, unendurable sensation.
I twisted my body slightly, trying to get away from her a little.
“Mmm, your neck is so weak.”
Her lips on my neck teased it as she spoke.
My shoulders, which were extremely sensitive to the movement of her lips, twitched slightly.
The more I squirmed, the more she dug into my neck.
Lick—
“…”
Seolgam suddenly stuck out her tongue and licked my neck.
It seemed to amuse her, and she licked my neck several times.
Every time, my body showed the reaction she wanted without me meaning to.
She slowly raised her head.
Her cold eyes had softened, and her slightly loosened, hazy eyes looked into mine.
It felt as if there were hearts inside her pupils.
I met her eyes in hers as well.
“I’m sorry. I got too carried away by myself.”
She said that and reached out to pull down my pants.
I looked down in shock.
The pants were of course soaked with my own fluids, and the blanket beneath them was drenched as well.
“…You pretended to be reluctant on the outside, but your body has been honest since the beginning.”
The line that I’d normally only hear in adult comics was reproduced in her voice.
I had decided that I wouldn’t resist anymore.
She had been reminding me repeatedly that it was meaningless to try, and I was already exhausted and had no strength left to resist.
Seolgam, who ruled over me and did as she pleased.
…Now I finally understood what it felt like to be ruled by her.
Seolgam still hadn’t even started, and she was still energetic.
After pulling off my pants, she finally slid off the powerless last piece of clothing that protected my virginity and continued.
“I’ll try to be as kind as possible… I’ll do my best… Just follow me. Okay?”
…Even when I told her to stop, I didn’t stop…
She would never stop, of course.