Self-Awareness (2)
Barcelona is charging from the start! Thanks to Ryu Ha-neul's hat-trick, they finish the first half 3-0!
Ha-neul was really aggressive today, wasn't he? Although Ryu Ha-neul doesn't take many shots, he boasts an overwhelmingly high shooting accuracy of over 70%. Today, he attempted 7 shots in the first half alone, with 3 being on target and 2 actually shaking the goal net.
What do you think is the reason for this?
It's probably because of the scoring competition with Marisol. Up until today's match, Ryu Ha-neul had recorded 24 goals in 18 La Liga games, showing an incredible scoring streak. But Marisol is leading with 28 goals. It seems Ryu Ha-neul is conscious of that part.
I wonder if Ryu Ha-neul can close the gap in scoring records with Marisol in today's game. The second half is looking even more exciting.
“Ha-neul.”
“Eh…?!”
“Today’s a bit rushed. I got two goals, but let’s take it slowly, slowly.”
“Ah, sorry.”
After a quick shower, as soon as I entered the locker room, Angela pointed out my performance today. Honestly, I did score two goals, but as Angela said, I was a bit rushed today.
Someone might say why the coach is saying that to a player who scored two goals, but I understood Angela's feelings.
If the opponent wasn't a relatively weak team like Real Betis, but a much stronger one, my shots might have missed and led to a counterattack. And that direction didn't match our philosophy of dominating the game by increasing possession.
The result was good, but the process was not?
Since I knew what Angela meant, the moment I heard her words, I lowered my head. And in this situation where my head was lowered, I let out a sigh of relief inwardly.
Huu... If this happens, I might not be able to see it.
My current state was one where even a slight stimulus could make it explode. Most of the players in the locker room were in underwear only—some even removed their bras. At least, to consider me, they had covered their upper bodies with towels. The locker room filled with skin was like a minefield, so it was natural for me to sigh in relief.
Actually, the reason my play became rushed was also due to that. When the situation where I rub against the opposing players, if I feel like I can't hold it, and space opens up, I would rush to shoot. Among them, the balls kicked inside the penalty box did enter the goal net, but it could only be expressed as 'lucky was good'.
Anyway, since I couldn't let my state be exposed, I sat in my place with my face lowered, looking only at the floor.
“Ha-neul, are you okay?”
While Angela was explaining tactics, Camila whispered softly next to me. The hot breath from Camila's mouth brushed my ear, giving me a slight shiver. I clenched my tongue to endure that pleasant shiver and nodded.
Fortunately, seeing me not answering but only nodding, Camila seemed to want to give me private time and distanced herself.
Huu...
It had been four days since I realized my state, but I was still unstable.
When I looked at Camila, I recalled the scene where the thing that had popped out from the clothes I saw in the movie theater shyly met my eyes. And when I looked at Valentina, I imagined her white skin under her clothes.
And when I looked at Yuri, I recalled her soft skin that I felt when we played rough like headlocks and couldn't hold back my usual teasing.
Fortunately, when I saw Bruna, since I was always kicking the ball, my mind was stable.
Anyway, every time I saw my friends, bad imaginations came. It felt like garbage that I, who knew them since they were little, would have such thoughts.
Perhaps because I knew I would become like this, my unconscious mind had blocked thoughts about women all this time?
Once the dam broke, lust flooded my head. If I hadn't known, it wouldn't have mattered, but the feeling I had felt for the last time before dying was what I craved.
My head was in chaos.
...Should I say my condition was bad today?
If I pass today like this, will I be okay in the next match? Can time solve my state? If not, will I have to keep lowering my head like a sinner in the locker room?
Shit...
No answer. This situation, my heart.
“Ha-neul, Ha-neul.”
“Eh?! Ah, Coach.”
“Are you listening to what I'm saying?”
Angela, who always looked at me with warm eyes, scolded me with a stern look. Because of my confused head, I hadn't heard Angela's explanation.
“...Sorry.”
The only thing I could do for such Angela was a sincere apology.
“Is your condition bad? I haven't seen this kind of appearance...”
The back talk mixed with worry was muttered softly, but I heard it clearly.
Idiot, I can't control my emotions and ruin the match.
It's funny that I, who always told Camila she wasn't professional enough, ended up like this. The even funnier fact was that I didn't have the courage to raise my head and look around the locker room. In case my alter ego reacted.
...For now, let's rest today.
Although the process was not good, the score was 3-0, and I scored two goals, so my role today was done.
Just as I was about to muster a timid courage to say that my condition was bad today,
“Hmm... Then, Ha-neul will rest today. After all, there's a Copa del Rey quarterfinal in three days.”
Angela decided my substitution first. But it was essentially Angela, who knew my state as well as I did, deciding to replace me first to consider me.
The Copa del Rey quarterfinal three days later was against Granada, who were in the second division Segunda until last season.
“...Understood.”
“Then, Arnal takes Ha-neul's place, and Rautina takes Arnal's place...”
After Angela's substitution, she continued to talk about various things, and the tactical meeting ended. The players one by one got up from their seats and prepared to go to the field.
I, pretending to tie my shoelaces, secretly glanced at the other players.
Even if I was substituted and came out last, no one would look strangely, and as long as I didn't play in the match, even if my alter ego showed its presence, I had confidence to handle it. So, it was almost the only chance to check what my state was now.
First, the one I saw was Camila getting up from her seat while shaking off the towel she had on her head.
Of course, she was fully dressed, so no reaction came. If reacting to friends who were dressed, it meant there was a problem with the nervous system, but fortunately, I didn't seem to be at that level yet.
Then, following Camila, I checked Yuri, Bruna, and Valentina. Thanks to considering me, my friends who had played together since childhood didn't have the habit of taking off their clothes in the locker room, so fortunately, no problem occurred.
But from now on, it might be a problem, so I clenched my tongue and muttered a prayer in my heart while raising my head.
The back of Albaria trying to put on her top was visible.
...Clear.
Albaria was the closest to me besides my friends, but fortunately, no reaction.
I turned my head again to check Lauren. Lauren was from La Masia but had Italian nationality, and as a country known for beautiful men and women, Lauren's appearance was quite good.
The sight of Lauren tying her shoelaces while wearing only a sports bra. The angle showed her upper chest clearly, but fortunately, no big problem this time either.
...This also clear.
But now, the last gate remained.
Tiana, who maintained the most open state in our locker room.
Tiana from Brazil always wore only underwear, no, panties, after showering while listening to tactical explanations. It was to cool the heat on her body to aid muscle recovery or something. Fortunately, thanks to me, she had the long hotel bath towel draped over her shoulder, so she was covering where she needed to, but she was a player who had strong stimuli even before my state.
How much so that when Tiana first transferred, Lucia playfully asked Tiana if she was taking off her clothes to show Ha-neul.
If this overflows...
I slowly turned my eyeballs and glanced at Tiana wearing her uniform pants. Tiana's pants were caught at the calves. When I slightly lifted my gaze, Tiana's gray panties, wet in places due to sweat, came into view.
No special decorations, just functional panties with high sweat absorption.
...As expected, it's nothing.
Since it was a scene I sometimes saw usually, no reaction came. As if usual.
I lifted my gaze higher. Tiana's abdomen with decent abs was visible. The water droplets were so visible that I could see them clinging, but it didn't particularly stir me. But from now on, this was the real problem.
This scene above was one I never wanted to see in the locker room because it might interfere with the match, so it was a sight I absolutely avoided.
Huu... The East Sea water and Baekdu Mountain...
Instead of finishing the prayer, I hummed the national anthem in my heart and shifted my gaze higher. The bathrobe draped over Tiana's shoulder was barely covering Tiana's chest. Precisely, only the lower breasts.
Seeing Tiana's lower breasts, it felt like the underboob that was popular in my previous life but not yet in this world. And seeing that appearance strangely covered by the towel, it gave a more stirring feeling.
...Of course, I couldn't beat the tongue-clenching and national anthem combo.
While Tiana was putting on her pants, her breasts shook and her areola slightly showed. But even so, I couldn't beat my combo.
...What is this?
It was just not so much 'lewd' but the feeling of seeing a woman's body who worked hard at exercise. Seeing such a sight in the locker room, unlike my worries, it felt like she was just putting on clothes to prepare for the match, not lewd.
Tiana put on the sports bra she had prepared behind her. If a woman who had finished one affair on the bed did this action, I would have laid her on the bed again and enjoyed the pleasant time, but seeing this sight in the locker room, I didn't feel that feeling.
...Now that I think about it, I heard that women are influenced more by atmosphere than visual stimuli?
Where did I hear this? Ah, it was when I was receiving a massage.
I couldn't have studied this, so while listening to the massage, I must have heard it in my sleep.
Actually, most of the trivia knowledge I knew was from that uncle, and even if I didn't respond, the masseur kept bringing out the trivia knowledge he knew.
And sometimes, there were times when it flashed and came to mind. Every time, most of what that uncle said turned out to be facts.
It was the same now. Even if I saw Tiana's body that was almost naked, it didn't matter, so probably my body was a body that was affected by atmosphere rather than visual stimuli.
Huu... Was I worried for nothing.
I had thought that if the state became more serious, I might need to get a prescription for medicine, but fortunately, it wasn't at that level.
No, apart from not being at that level, I was just the same as usual. I just had too many unnecessary worries.
I confidently got up from my seat.
I couldn't ask for substitution, but today's harvest was enough with this.
And at that time,
“Ha-neul, are you not hurt anywhere?”
Yuri looked at me with a worried expression and spoke. It was also next to my ear.
“Hah...”
Unknowingly, I made a groan and stopped at Yuri's breath touching my ear.
“Really, are you hurt somewhere? Shall I check your pulse?”
Yuri, with a different state from usual, bent her body and touched my ankle. When Yuri's appropriately warm touch reached my ankle, a pleasant shiver ran through my body.
“N-no, it's fine.”
I pushed Yuri's head away with my hand because of my strange state. And, as her head went back, Yuri's upper chest appeared between the loose uniform top.
This girl doesn't care about caution...
Seeing that, it was natural that a reaction came from below, which I had been trying to hold back.
Clenching my tongue hard enough to leave bite marks, I replayed the national anthem in my head.
“By the way, it's not swollen, right? Really, it's fine, right?”
“...Yeah.”
Fortunately, the crisis was over, and I walked as if nothing happened.
If this...
Even if I saw Tiana's body that was almost naked, it didn't matter, but my body reacted to Camila, Valentina, and Yuri...
...Then, today's harvest is two?
One was that I wasn't a trash who got lustful while looking at my teammates during the match. This alone was a big harvest, and it seemed that I wouldn't have to worry much in the future that I might get erect during the match.
But the problem was another fact I had found out.
Perhaps I might be able to like my friends more than friends.
...But this is not yet confirmed.
First, since the latter fact was not certain, it seemed I still needed to confirm my heart a bit more.