Chapter 33
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Translator: penny
Chapter: 33
Chapter Title: When I Think of My Boyfriend's Friend... My Body...
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I was troubled by the inexplicable direction of my lust and felt guilty toward Jihoon for not being able to properly enjoy the physical intimacy between lovers, but even so, every day was incredibly enjoyable.
After all, I'd finally started dating Jihoon, and our friends had blessed us with comments like, "Finally dating? Took you lo~ong enough~."
"Ta-da, who is it?"
"Judging by those thick fingers, it's Yoon Siyeon?"
"You wanna die?"
It was a bit like being friends, but that only made the excitement even more thrilling.
Like that, we spent our time on dates, holding hands tightly, and since midterms were coming up soon, I wanted to savor every day even more. I casually nudged Jihoon.
"Hey, let's grab a meal with you, me, and Seonha~ Go ask him."
"You really like Lee Seonha. Hang on. That guy's popular, so it's not easy to pin him down."
"Aren't you his closest friend in college?"
"Yeah, but he does volunteer work like crazy. Can't exactly stop him from going when I just wanna eat. Midterms are coming up anyway."
"True, but... how about after exams? Let's say right after they end."
"I'll mention it. He usually says yes to meals anyway."
From the first time we met, I'd wanted to get close to him, and that feeling only grew stronger with each passing day.
Thanks to my outgoing personality, I'd always had plenty of friends, but there were very few people I truly wanted to bond deeply with.
Amid all that, Lee Seonha was someone I genuinely wanted to stay close to for a long time.
In any case, even without sex or even kisses with my boyfriend, we enjoyed our platonic love until midterms finally wrapped up.
And at last, we were able to have that drinking party.
"Hello! I'm Ryu Seol! Seonha oppa's girlfriend!"
Including Lee Seonha's cute girlfriend.
All four of us together.
The drinking party was an absolute blast, no two ways about it. My boyfriend, who always clicked so well with me and was such a fun guy; Lee Seonha, who I'd wanted to get closer to; and his girlfriend, Ryu Seol, who made me instantly want to treat her like a little sister.
I liked them all. It had been ages since I'd had a drinking session where I could chat and laugh so freely.
I was getting tired of gatherings where women subtly sized each other up or groups mixed with guys throwing sly advances my way.
This was like a refreshing rain in a drought. Maybe it was even more comfortable because we all had partners already.
Then, wanting some girl talk for a bit, I followed Seol to the bathroom.
With alcohol warming my body, I unwittingly dove into some intimate sex talk.
To be honest, I didn't have much to share myself—I just wanted to hear her stories. Luckily, Seol didn't hesitate and happily spilled the details.
"Oppa’s is huge. When he goes in, it fills my belly right up...♡"
"R-Really? That big? Bigger than other guys?"
"I haven't seen other guys' up close, so I'm not sure, but it felt huge to me!"
"What about after? Does it really feel that good?"
"It hurt a little the first time, but after that, it's to die for every time. So good♡"
"......"
I swallowed hard without realizing it, watching Seol happily recount her sex stories with her boyfriend.
Here I was, idiotically turning him down with lame excuses, while this cute girl was already hooked on sex.
Looking back, hearing those stories from Seol might have been the start of all my problems.
A few hours later.
The super fun drinking party ended, and after putting Jihoon in a taxi, as I was about to slide into the seat next to him—
-A smile.
My heart pounded at Lee Seonha's smiling face as he looked at me.
And then.
The moment I got home, I ended up masturbating.
After that day.
Even in the trashy dramas I usually binged, I started paying more attention to the villainess having an affair behind her husband's back.
-Squish...
And feeling that itch between my legs while watching.
It was all because of Seol's stories.
On the weekend, I went on a date with Kim Jihoon. The date itself was fun.
Being next to him always filled me with butterflies and joy. Holding hands, linking arms, or getting a hug—nothing made my heart feel more at ease.
But still.
I didn't want to kiss Jihoon yet, and no sexual desire stirred for him. Yet the second I got home alone, lust would surge out of nowhere, leading me to masturbate.
And ridiculously, those sessions weren't about my boyfriend. I'd just mechanically fondle my breasts and pinch my clit for stimulation.
Then, in the early hours as Sunday turned to Monday.
I had a dream.
In the dream, a man kissed me. He pressed his lips to mine, kneaded my breasts, tormented my pussy—playing with my body for what felt like forever.
I was beyond aroused by every touch, and when I woke, I was panting without knowing it, checking my panties.
"Haa... haa...♡"
They were soaked.
Just like guys with wet dreams, I'd drenched my pussy and panties in my sleep, breathing heavily with arousal.
Overcome by my heated body and lust, I rushed to the bathroom and plunged my fingers into my pussy, masturbating furiously.
-Squelch...! Squelch! Squelch! Squelch! Squelch!
"Hrng... Nn♡ Haah...♡ Cumming...♡"
-Splurt...
"Haaaah...♡"
I climaxed in seconds. My body went limp from the peak excitement and that intense pleasure I hadn't felt in ages, soaking the bathroom floor with my juices.
It felt amazing, but I couldn't believe my own foolish behavior.
"I'm crazy... Are you insane, Yoon Siyeon...!"
Lately, masturbation had only given me half-hearted pleasure, so before the excitement faded, I unwittingly fantasized about the man from the dream and went at it again.
But the real problem was that the man in the dream was someone I knew all too well.
"How..."
I couldn't even masturbate to my boyfriend.
"How could I masturbate to my boyfriend's friend...?"
His friend.
Just thinking of the dream man, Lee Seonha, sent electric thrills through my whole body.
And even after cumming once already, the moment his face—Lee Seonha's face—came to mind.
-Twitch, twitch...♡
My pussy clenched. Begging for more touch, urging my body on.
"Seriously... I shouldn't..."
-Squelch...
I knew I shouldn't...
But that recent climax.
It had been so ecstatic, nearly blacking me out.
-Squelch... Squelch! Squelch!
My fingers started caressing my breasts and pussy again.
"Hnnng...♡"
At first, the masturbation was filled with regret and guilt, but just two days later, I'd grown accustomed and given in.
And why wouldn't I? There was no resisting that piercing pleasure shooting from my toes to the crown of my head.
Of course, that didn't mean I wanted to date Lee Seonha or break up with Kim Jihoon.
It was just...
My sexual excitement was directed that way.
"Hey, want some cotton candy? You love this stuff."
"Ooh~ Kim Jihoon! You even remember that?"
"We get it every time at the zoo... Just eat it."
"Thanks!"
My feelings for Jihoon hadn't changed one bit.
Today, too, basking in my boyfriend's thoughtfulness, we were enjoying our date when—
[Seonha: Wanna do volunteer work with me tomorrow and the day after? Two days.]
A message from Seonha. I flinched for a second, but I'd told him to let me know if there was anything worthwhile.
Besides, he was such a good friend—I wanted to see him anyway.
No way was I going to distance myself over my own embarrassing secret indulgences.
"Hey, Kim Jihoon. Can I do volunteer stuff with Seonha on Saturday and Sunday?"
"Like I need to give permission. He asked you?"
"Yeah. Something about donating fans to hillside homes and helping clean for the elderly?"
"Sounds rough... Go for it. I'm doing a short-term gig this weekend anyway."
"Cool, I'll text Seonha I'm in?"
"Yeah~ Oh, he texted me too. Said he'd do it with you. Why's he reporting everything to me?"
Jihoon acted like he didn't need to approve such things, but he seemed secretly pleased that both I and Seonha had checked with him first.
His lips were twitching with a smile.
'My boyfriend's kinda cute like that~'
I giggled and replied to Seonha.
Let's do it.
And as I sent the text—
-Squish...
I felt my panties dampen a little, but I ignored it.
"You'll probably just be cleaning with that group over there, and I'll be going around replacing fans with the others."
"Cleaning's my specialty! I'll work hard."
"Don't overdo it. From what I remember, it's a nice neighborhood—no weirdos."
Saturday.
Expecting lots of movement, I threw on comfy jeans and a round-neck tee before meeting up with Lee Seonha.
I'd masturbated last night too, but it actually left me in perfect shape.
Fired up with enthusiasm, I listened to him explain the day's tasks, then noticed something odd about his gaze.
Back when we met as a group of four, his eyes had stayed fixed on mine.
'Is he... staring at my chest right now?'
They were unmistakably aimed at my breasts. Blatantly so, like he wasn't even trying to hide it.
No way I'd misread it. I'd received plenty of compliments on my figure alongside my face, and I'd fielded countless guys' stares my whole life.
So I was certain.
Lee Seonha was staring at my chest right now.
Normally, I'd be disgusted by such overt looks from my boyfriend's friend, but strangely, no such feeling arose.
-Thump, thump...
My heart raced. A strange excitement bubbled up from deep inside at his gaze.
"See you later then."
"Y-Yeah... See you..."
Only after he turned and walked far away did my pounding heart finally calm a bit.
But with my head still a mess, I somehow forced a smile and cleaned all those rundown houses.
'What's up with him? Is he crazy? Why's he acting like that today of all days?!'
I was already uneasy from fantasizing about him every night during masturbation, and now seeing that made my body—my lower half—even hotter.
I had no idea why I was like this. My body felt way hotter now than when I'd once imagined sex with Jihoon.
Lost in confusion, I cleaned in a daze until, after about three hours, the food truck arrived, signaling the end of the day's volunteering.
"Come by 4 tomorrow. Another team will handle interior fixes before then, and we'll tidy up after. Same cleaning as today."
"O-Okay. See you tomorrow~"
"Good work. See you."
And even in that final moment of parting, Lee Seonha's eyes swept over my chest.
Fleeing that lewd gaze, I hurried home. The second I arrived, I collapsed into thought.
-Squish...
I knew.
My panties were a total mess inside.
But today, I held back the lust and kept thinking.
Not about why Lee Seonha was acting that way, but about what exactly was turning me on.
Did I like Lee Seonha? No, I could say with certainty that wasn't it. I loved Jihoon.
Sure, I had good feelings toward Seonha, but they weren't bigger than what I felt for Jihoon.
So why did thinking of him—or seeing him—make my body heat up? I slowly reflected.
Then, one hypothesis suddenly hit me.
'Wait, don't tell me...?'
In the trashy dramas I loved, the character I'd been most immersed in lately.
The villainess secretly cheating with her husband's friend, reveling in the near-miss thrill. Every trashy drama had at least one like her.
I'd always enjoyed them for that guilty pleasure vibe.
-Squelch... Squish...♡
The moment I thought of her, my body heated up unbearably.
I couldn't help imagining it.
Behind Jihoon's back.
Meeting Jihoon's close friend.
Meeting and...
-Squelch...
"Haah...♡"
Yoon Siyeon, you crazy bitch...!