Chapter 32
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Translator: penny
Chapter: 32
Chapter Title: Yoon Si-yeon's Story
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After dropping my boyfriend off near his place and returning to my studio apartment, I quickly ditched my bag and clothes and headed straight for the bathroom.
Naked, I sat on the toilet and carefully rubbed between my drenched folds with slender fingers.
-Schlick... Schlick...
"Haa...♡ I held back so damn much..."
I could feel my pure, innocent face—the one everyone praised until they heard me speak—melting into something utterly slutty.
With my free hand kneading my breast, thumb and forefinger pinching my nipple.
-Schlick... Schlick...
My pussy grew slicker with arousal by the second, and I circled my clit to ramp up the pleasure.
"Hng... This feels so good...♡"
How the hell did I end up masturbating alone like this?
The day Ji-hoon and I started dating, I was buzzing with excitement, convinced we'd finally get some naughty skinship. My heart swelled at the thought of sex.
It had been four years of crushing on him.
Deep down, I figured it was mutual, but that nagging "what if" kept me too scared to confess for four whole years.
Then my boyfriend, Kim Ji-hoon, finally admitted he felt the same and poured his heart out to me.
Back in our first year of high school, the very first time we hung out together.
From that moment, Kim Ji-hoon was the one who caught my eye and stole my heart. He was smart, pretty good-looking, with a bright, fun personality.
Even watching him play it cool while looking out for our friends made me smile warmly without realizing it.
But back then, he loved group hangouts more than anything, so even though I was always watching him, dating never crossed my mind.
Just like that, we drifted along as friends—one year, two, three.
Maybe because I couldn't commit back in first year, I missed my shot. We graduated high school as nothing more than besties.
Our friends even teased us, asking "Aren't you two dating?" We'd just wave it off with "Nah, we're BFFs~," laughing it away.
Eventually, Ji-hoon and I ended up at different universities, and a pang hit my chest—I worried we'd each find someone else.
But.
College brought new experiences and people, yet I realized no guy measured up to Ji-hoon.
No one else matched my wild side so perfectly, cared about self-image on the sly, or stayed so considerate.
And like me, even though he was totally dateable, there was never any word of a girlfriend.
We kept texting constantly, grabbing meals and drinks like old times. We spent tons of time together, just like high school.
But it only stretched our "friends" phase longer. We were so close that bringing it up felt impossible.
Then came our second year of college.
"One of my cohort guys is a total volunteer nut. Want me to ask him? You always said you wanted to try it for real."
"Volunteer nut?"
"Dude's been at it with his mom since he was a kid. Bet he's logged thousands of hours by now."
"For real? How? That's insane~"
"Thousands might be a stretch, but definitely over a thousand. Anyway, want me to check for good opportunities?"
"That'd be awesome~ Thanks, Ji-hoon!"
One day, Ji-hoon remembered my offhand comment about wanting to volunteer someday and brought up his friend first.
Of course, I jumped at it. I did want to try, and it thrilled me that he'd remembered something so casual.
'Ah~ Kim Ji-hoon, pulling strings for a date under that volunteer excuse~'
Heart soaring, I met him Friday night under the pretense of planning our Sunday meetup.
But something felt off that day, different from usual.
Unlike me, who can hold my liquor, Ji-hoon enjoys drinks but isn't great with booze. With a slight flush, he got serious and asked,
"Hey, why no boyfriend?"
Hearing that, I knew if I blew this chance, we'd be friends forever.
A bit annoyed at his dumb question instead of a confession, but I was grateful he'd cracked the door open.
I wasn't some passive, boring girl just waiting around.
"Then what about you? Twenty-one and no girlfriend? Waiting for me?"
"What're you talking about?"
"You know it's true. Kim Ji-hoon, say it. Like me or not?"
"......"
"Last chance. Be straight."
"...I like you. Date me."
"Took you four years? Idiot!"
A bit sudden, kinda accidental. But we'd both been ready inside forever.
And just like that, we started dating.
Our friendship had been so long that we fumbled around and barely held hands before parting.
That night at home, I masturbated just like this.
Recalling Ji-hoon, taller and manlier than in high school.
Imagining our first time ahead.
-Schlick...! Schlick...
"Hng...♡ That was back then..."
I'd pleasured myself picturing a steamy night with my boyfriend.
But from some point on, something changed.
The first day I met Ji-hoon's college friend.
The amazing, kind guy Ji-hoon hyped up.
After laying eyes on Lee Sun-ha.
"...Feels awkward, right?"
"Gotta get used to it. Can't stay friends forever."
"Heh, true."
Shaking off the awkwardness, hand in hand with Ji-hoon, we stopped by the orphanage.
A staff member led us to the playroom where kids gathered. Holding our breath, we watched a man playing with one of the children.
"Here! Straw goes in!"
"Stick it there to drink?"
"Yeah! Right here!"
"Min-woo, you try. Then hyung will copy."
"Here!"
"Want hyung to do it?"
"Heeere!"
"Hyung's great at it. Watch."
Patient with the frustratingly unclear kid, never showing annoyance, guiding the conversation step by step.
We stared blankly until a nearby staffer chimed in.
"You said you're Sun-ha's friends? Hope you keep hanging out. No one's as kind and helpful as him. Every visit makes such a difference..."
Apparently, he zeroed in on a kid with intellectual disabilities right away and stuck by his side the whole time. I was floored inwardly.
I'd heard Ji-hoon call him kind and great, but chalked it up to friend bias. If anything, it undersold him.
Ji-hoon next to me gaped, clearly shocked too.
Moments later, our first face-to-face with Lee Sun-ha.
"Hi! Lee Sun-ha, right? Heard so much~"
"Hey. Knew you were a friend, not the girlfriend."
His kind eyes alone cheered me up, paired with that soft smile and greeting.
I liked him instantly. Thanked Ji-hoon again—my boyfriend had hooked me up with a great connection.
And that day.
I poured everything into playing with the kids, supporting them, feeling true fulfillment from volunteering for the first time.
"Next time, dinner for three~ Shame we ran out of time today. See ya, Sun-ha!"
Swapped numbers with my boyfriend's generous friend Sun-ha, promised more, and parted.
I was resolved.
I'd planned our first kiss and first time for tonight, something I'd mulled over on the way out.
We'd barely started dating, but we were twenty-one. No reason or need to wait. I was done with solo sessions at home.
Heart pounding, after dinner on the way home.
My boyfriend saw me off nearby, and under the streetlight, he leaned in for a romantic kiss.
-Smack!
I blocked it without thinking. Suddenly, it felt wrong—now wasn't the time.
Just yesterday, this morning even, Ji-hoon had me all worked up, but now... nothing.
"...Too soon? Don't like it?"
"N-no... It's not that..."
To my hurt-looking boyfriend, I panicked and scrambled for words.
"I... I've been looking forward to it... but I wanna save it, y'know? Ugh...! What am I even saying?!"
I still loved Kim Ji-hoon, but my feelings for skinship flipped completely.
"Not 'cause you hate me?"
"No! I love you! Love you... but... I know it's dumb in this day and age, but since we're late already... wanna save it for something special..."
"Fine then. Thought you suddenly hated my guts. Freaked me out."
"Ughhh! Not that!"
"Got it. Hug okay at least?"
-Squeeze
As I babbled incoherently, spouting nonsense in confusion.
Ji-hoon just laughed and pulled me into a hug. It felt so comforting, so safe.
I hugged back, wrapping my arms around my longtime-friend-turned-boyfriend's waist, apologizing again.
"Sorry... We took forever, and here I am being weird."
"It's fine. If that's how you feel, I can wait. You think I skipped other girls for four years by accident?"
"Hehe, same~ I didn't date anyone else either... Yeah. Wait for me, Kim Ji-hoon!"
"Bold as hell rejecting your boyfriend's kiss."
"Sorrrry~"
I was so grateful. My love for him swelled. He was perfect, trying to understand even my baffling self.
And when I got home after parting with Ji-hoon.
"Haa..."
-Schlick...♡
Only then did my body finally heat up.
My libido had always been overflowing, and no one anticipated our intimate time—time with Ji-hoon—more than me.
But the moment he was gone, it started whipping me into a frenzy.