Chapter 24 - Is it Christmas?
Is it Christmas?
Translator : Elizabeth
Chapter 24. Is it Christmas?
For now.
‘…I have to look again properly.’
What I did just now wasn't with sincerity.
Thought it was a light question so looked with ordinary Tarot. Of course I could obtain a lot of information with just that, but felt it was a little lacking.
I spoke to the anonymous querent.
“Excuse me, OO? 00? Ieung-Ieung (Yes-Yes)-nim? Can I pick cards anew?”
[‘OO’ has donated 1,000 won!]
- Yes it’s okay.
“Ah, and I will display chat history separately so please speak comfortably without donating.”
—[Chat Log of ‘OO’]—
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What appeared then was a cleanly empty chat window. He was a viewer who hadn't said a single word until now.
Other viewers expressed doubt.
- Picking cards again? Why?
- Is there something?
- Look at the chat history so clean.
- Yujin’s voice became serious is there something?
- Kindness that BunongBunong who conversed with donations couldn't experience…!
[‘Gigimyomyo’ has donated 1,000 won!]
- Tarot common sense) Originally Tarot doesn't pick cards again for one question. But seeing a skilled person like Yujin-nim do that… maybe there is a reason?;;
- Kind explanation admitted.
- (ﾟ∀ﾟ 三 ﾟ∀ﾟ) Exciting…!
Chwarereuk!
I returned cards to the deck and shuffled.
Chwak! Chwak! Chwak!
Picked three cards again and placed on table.
Then.
- ???
- It’s the same.
- Came out exactly same shudder.
- Kinda slightly goosebumps shudder.
Man and woman on bed and man behind curtain.
[THE LOVERS]
Two just immersed in act.
[THE DEVIL]
Semi-nude woman and skull, contrast of golden wheat field and black shadow.
[DEATH]
Yes.
Including Lovers coming out reversed, newly picked cards didn't change at all from before.
“….”
I chose words sinking in thought for a moment.
First.
‘Without additional explanation, if I just say he can do that… that person will die.’
Kim Seon-yu.
He was a person who made a certain resolution.
That he will do it once and die.
No.
That he will die after doing it once.
Meaning such inner thought was hidden in that person’s question.
—I decided to commit suicide after having sex. Can I possibly make the decision?
Still if there is one fortunate point.
‘The fact that he asked me itself, …was because he didn't want to die.’
Is it contradiction? No, I don't think so.
—Recognize me.
—Recognize how painful I am right now.
—…Save me.
Felt like hearing sound of such heart.
‘That must be so.’
Even if he believed only half of skill I showed so far, he could have expected at least that his inner thoughts would be caught.
If really wanted to die, wouldn't have had reason to draw attention in this way in the first place.
After organizing thoughts for a moment, I opened my mouth calmly.
“You lived an unfortunate life.”
- Unfortunate? What happened again.
- Tell me!!! I am curious!!!
- (;´Д｀)What is it? Huh? What is it?
Viewers curious what the hell happened.
And very fortunately for them….
“Ieung-Ieung-nim. Your story, is it okay if I unravel it?”
- [OO]: Mm yes.
Readily permission fell.
Honestly expected it.
He was a person wanting to receive empathy and comfort. Wanted to complain borrowing my mouth.
I nodded slightly, then thrust Lovers card in front of cam.
“First, if looking at Lovers of DecaXron Tarot. Difference in aggressiveness of two men and women, cat, man behind curtain etc. Elements not seen in popular Waite Tarot are placed.”
- Aggressiveness? Certainly woman looks relaxed.
- Tarot was seeing all such detailed things? shudder.
- Hearing it seems man is reading countenances (walking on eggshells) lol.
“Not seeing everything at once, but selecting appropriate symbol among them. Anyway in current Ieung-Ieung-nim’s case situation overlaps with this man behind curtain.”
- Voyeurism oh my oh my oh my.
- En vious!
Then chats rising fast.
I left warning quickly.
“We agreed to match atmosphere during Tarot broadcast right? For reference what will come out from now is not pleasant story. If cross line will ban unconditionally.”
- Ah.
- Yep.
- Really what kind of matter is it;;
- First time seeing Yujin that serious shudder.
Fortunately viewers didn't listen to warning vainly. I cleared throat for a moment then continued story.
“Hmm, hmm. Like appearance of this man behind curtain surprised seeing relationship of man and woman, Ieung-Ieung-nim also had problems arise in life while witnessing other people’s relationship by chance. That too, three times.”
- [OO]: Roughly knew but, really fascinating…
Admiring querent.
His reaction proved accuracy of Tarot.
- F*cking fascinating.
- Guessed again.
- Whenever seeing things like this I also want to ask to read once but little scared; lol.
- Real lol;; Have life with many shames so sor ry!
I unraveled Ieung-Ieung’s story one by one just calmly without giving gaze to chat waving with admiration.
“First was school. Time when class ended long ago, for some reason this person returned to classroom, and encountered Iljins (bullies) in relationship there. And became outcast.”
- ????
- Anything omitted in middle?
- Did he spread rumor or something?
- [OO]: No was flustered so ran as soon as saw but from then on they bullied me saying I peeped wildly.
- F*ck;; Like dog.
- That is 100% because they felt pricked (guilty).
- (っ｀Д´)っ･:∴●~*
Viewers immersed in his story criticized bullies wildly.
I closed mouth for a moment and waited.
And.
“Second is military. This is, mm. Shall just skip this?”
- [OO]: No it’s okay please tell everything even my wrongdoings.
“Wrongdoing, mm. Yes, well. Then.”
- Military;; Already something ominous feeling shudder.
- No f*ck saw tteok-ing (sex) but that place was military????
- ?????????????
- (゜ロ゜)……
I resumed story with tone excluding emotion as much as possible.
“This person… saw junior being sexually assaulted, and kept silence at pressure of perpetrator senior. And that junior committed suicide.”
[‘F*ck’ has donated 1,000 won!]
- F*ck.
- No;;;
- What can do if pressured about that and really shut mouth;;
- It’s military so what can do that place is like that well.
- F*ck if me would have beat that bastard like dog and went to brig.
- Stepped up for no reason and harmed self too.
- Perpetrator is most malicious but saying bystander is also sin doesn't exist for no reason.
I added explanation watching chat window heating up hot.
“For reference that senior was child of Star (General) so situation where even executives walked on eggshells, and seems many in unit already knew fact that person who committed suicide was usually being sexually assaulted.”
- No even more f*cked up.
- Ah f*ck know what incident that is.
- Main enemy is executive f*ck-ah.
- Just military is dog sh*t.
“…Ieung-Ieung-nim discharged from military became hikikomori due to guilt. At first parents also understood but as time got longer became conscious of them. Like that few years passed, and Ieung-Ieung-nim who barely stood up again succeeded in employment with difficulty. That is probably about a month ago matter.”
- …Month ago? Still incidents happened twice though?
- (;´Д｀)What remains more?
[‘OO’ has donated 1,000 won!]
- No f*ck just to question asking if can tteok (sex) a bit why is this kind of story popping out the hell???????
Viewers seeming very flustered.
Honestly I agreed too.
“And first day of work… Being newbie Ieung-Ieung-nim wanted to look good so went 1 hour early, and witnessed. Relationship of president and new female employee. Like that got fired from company.”
Up to here was Kim Seon-yu's past informed by Reversed Lovers.
- ……?
- Who got fired speak correctly.
- By any chance story omitted in middle?
- ????
- (;｀ ｴ ´)…………?
- Not ordinary small company (Jot-so);;;?
- [OO]: Yes I got fired.
- Ha sh*t what should I say.
- My head ringing f*cking hard right now.
- What is it why can't I understand.
- ( `_ゝ´)?
- Unfortunate;;; Unfortunate;;;
And from here story delivered by Devil Arcana.
“Problem is again from here… This person right now doesn't want to betray parents' expectation, so still cannot say fact that got fired from company.”
- No;; That can't be helped.
- Are parents very inflexible?
- The hell what to do;;
- [OO]: Thinking of parents rejoicing when I came out of house again and got employed can't possibly say it.
- No hey hey hey nothing happens doing that dude.
- What about salary;;;;
- (´∀｀;)Friend seems you are very confused right now.
I said thrusting Devil card in front of cam.
“Correct. Salary. If passes a month will become harder to hide gradually. Since not earning money at all. So Ieung-Ieung-nim currently feels approach of that day as if world is ending.”
- That thought isn't normal;;
- Think cool-headedly.
- Do loading/unloading (manual labor) at least;;
“Probably having all sorts of thoughts right now. Among them currently, occupying biggest part in Ieung-Ieung-nim’s head is. Just what is that sex thing so tormenting me like this. Then suddenly this thought must have occurred.”
Said tapping man and woman sticking close drawn on Devil card with finger.
“Shall just do it and die?”
Honestly wasn't flow of normal thinking. Probably querent himself knows too.
Human mind is like that. If floundering in painful imagination while isolated, tend to reach strange conclusion.
- No, wait.
- ????
- Then fck question asking if can have sex what meaning was it asked really what intention was it fck-ah.
- ;;;;;
I said pointing to part where various objects scattered on floor depicted in Devil card.
“For current you sexual act means, choice discarding everything else. All sorts of expectations and lingering attachments holding you so you cannot escape from life, choice ignoring all that. Meaning….”
And placed last card, Death on top of Devil.
“Soon is death.”
Then.
Before viewers' violent reaction popped out.
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- Fcking bitch if want to die just die why try to pass that trigger to other secretly fcking like sh*t bastard.
Donation appearing bit, no quite a lot angry floated up.
Viewers starting to empathize with that.
- Mm? Thinking about it true?
- Uh? Angry?
- ( ・`д・´)You?
Since content wasn't just groundless criticism didn't ban for now.
Instead hurriedly stepped up and calmed down viewers right before vomiting anger.
“Stop! Everyone calm down! Different! That person didn't apply for consultation to die, but applied asking to save him!”
- Want to kill that f*cking bastard.
- ??
- To live?
- What nonsense.
“That person knows current own thinking isn't normal. Furthermore seeing reaction of you guys hearing story so far probably realized that more.”
Reason he applied consultation to me.
That is for suicide resolution.
So speaking little more specifically.
For resolution ‘not to’ commit suicide.
- [OO]: Honestly I thought I was making fuss clinging to past trivial things already passed felt like too weak bug.
He started confessing his inner heart.
- ?
- That again what kind of mental patient like words.
- But really seems mental illness came?
- Say you want to live!!!
- [OO]: But thanks to Yujin-nim and everyone could understand that current situation is indeed something for me to be really hard thank you have to try living somehow.
【‘I Am Invincible 2’ sent 1,000 KB!】
- Ah, really? Then I cancel words said earlier too.
- Can cel.
- Lololol.
- ???: Are you kidding right now!!
- Right thought well so don't forget this grace and if get employed and earn money donate to Yujin and sprinkle subscription tickets to us and do so yes yes.
- (´･∀･｀)With this one case solved?!
- Now let’s go to next~~~!
I watched viewers chatting excitedly among themselves, then threw words tuk.
“…What are you trying to end at your will?”
- Still something remaining?
- Come to think of it last card was Death surely die???
“Surely not! Future seen at first is correct that it’s almost solved as long as that person regained reason to some extent!”
For the time being, that is.
Swallowing last words inside I put DecaXron Tarot aside for a moment, and brought basic deck.
“Immediate problem is solved, but honestly since Ieung-Ieung-nim’s mental state isn't totally okay right now possibility is high that hard situation will continue in future. So.”
- Ah true.
- Honestly not like something got better;;
- Reality is cold.
Chwarereuk! Tak!
Placing shuffled deck on table I said confidently.
“What you have to do to live better life, I will inform you that.”
- Oh?
- Kya lololol.
- Cool shudder.
- ヽ(o´3`o)ﾉCool!
- [OO]: No for someone like me.
No need to go complicated this and that.
One Spread.
I picked just one card from deck and put down.
That is.
[THREE of PENTACLES]
3 of Pentacles.
Arcana signifying cooperation and success etc.
‘…This is?’
I seeing fortune was slightly surprised, but didn't show it outside.
First explanation was first.
“Ieung-Ieung-nim, you draw pictures a little right?”
- [OO]: Uh yes.
“Better to focus on picture rather than looking for other work. Work will come in within early time.”
- [OO]: To me?????? I am guy who failed art college and couldn't go??????
Then.
- What?
- Fail at art college???????
- ＼(ﾟ_ﾟ＼(ﾟ_ﾟ＼(ﾟ_ﾟ＼(ﾟ_ﾟ＼(ﾟ_ﾟ )
- No wait a sec.
- No!!!!!! You M U S T D R A W pictures!!!!!
- Heil…! Eup…! Eup…!
- Ah f*ck lolololol First time bursting because of that emoticon bastard lolololol.
[‘SSOctopusSS’ has donated 1,000 won!]
- Yujin-ah you! You were actually German! That rumor was true! Came to Korea to find him! …To find!!! ‘His’! Reincarnation!!!!!!
I shouted yelling.
“N, now what nonsense are you saying the hell!”
Even after saving one person from suicide I continued consultation.
Like that time flowed and flowed before I knew it.
“Khm… khm…. Throat hurts slowly. Seems time for ending broadcast came.”
- Ah.
- Ahㅠㅠ.
- Still today broadcast was fruitful.
- OBangAl OBangAl (Today Broadcast Fruity/Good).
- Regrettable but can't be helped.
- Yujin-nim take care of throat well.
- (≧ω≦。)=b Today was also… good!
Viewers poured out poignant parting chat while regretting.
It was when trying to end broadcast like that.
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- Yujin-nim watching broadcast well so I’m saying if you turn on broadcast morning lunch dinner on Christmas think I will feel good enough to suck even Yujin-nim’s feet.
“…Yes?”
- ????What why are you trying to suck that alone???
- Are you trying trick to suck Yujin’s feet right now???
- But excluding sucking Yujin’s feet isn't that dog f*cking right words.
- Real lol.
- Christmas!!!!! Full room!!!!!! Gazua!!!!!!!!!
One viewer lit fire with donation.
Saying once again I knew well why they obsess over Christmas broadcast.
Naturally I had no business meeting men, so trying to affirm readily….
“Yes. On Christmas… Ah, wait a moment.”
…At the instant.
Suddenly work received from Professor Lee Seon-woo came to mind.
- ??????
- Wait a moment?????? Wait a moment ooooh???????
- Don't make me laugh.
- You choose words well.
- But why being like this to streamer who didn't reveal face nor body right now???
- (ФωФ)…. …. ….
I made excuse hurriedly.
“I, I have work doing other than broadcast. Think have to focus on that for time being….”
- You f*ck calling that excuse right now??????
- How much money earning with broadcast but doing other work more?????????
- Yujin is not baby anymore… Dog f*ck n o t !!!!!!!!!
- Doing what? Let’s listen for now.
- No f*ck bitch turning on broadcast every day meanwhile when the hell did other work now?????
- While resting injured what the hell did no what work did so got injured enough to rest broadcast????
- Kyak lololol SM lololol Our Yujin was M lolololol.
Chat window burning up in an instant.
Watching that appearance I couldn't help but think this.
‘No, but why…?’
Just when…? Did these people fall this deep into me…?
Seemed like some serious narcissism, but really only that thought occurred.
So keeping silence for a moment, opened mouth to calm them down.
“No, really. Haa…. Work I do is like side job doing at home so no particular business going out.”
Moment spitting out those words.
Slightly….
Creepily.
- Ah really?
- Then do turning on cam^^.
- Is that so?
- Then turning on broadcast?
…Typed chat with completely different atmosphere.
Felt like feeling of what Gamyun (Mask) means stuck bbak in head.
“…Turn on cam and do?”
- Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes.
- Plzㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ.
- That is enough don't need anything else.
- (^-^)
“…Probably boring since tapping keyboard only all day?”
- Okay yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes.
- Then rather better to turn on cam just turn on keyboard only.
They tried very hard to persuade me. …A little feeling bad.
[‘GodOfStudy’ has donated 1,000 won!]
- Yujin-nim^^ Would you try searching Study Broadcast?^^
“…Study Broadcast?”
Tadak, tak.
Searching what Study Broadcast is on internet at such donation….
“…No, what is this?”
I could feel feeling like witnessing tremendous creative economy.
…Can earn money like that too?
- No need to reveal upper body you just make voice sometimes.
- Real real just need to show hands yes yes yes yes yes yes.
- You also good this is true Two Barracks (Dual tasking) yes yes yes yes yes yes.
- Just turn on broadcast and donation comes in??? This is level where you are culled if don't do?????
“No, haa.”
Something….
Something very hard to understand but. For now their demand wasn't particularly difficult.
No, honestly easy demand enough to wonder if this is okay.
So, I.
“Yes, well. Good. Since nothing much. Instead if complain not fun turn off broadcast immediately?”
- Kkya-ho-woo!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Sex Sex Sex Sex Sex Sex Sex Sex Sex Sex (Not sex lol).
- U-hyo-oooooht!!!!!!
Eventually reached agreement with them to work turning on cam on Christmas.
“E-hyu (Sigh)…. I really going now.”
- Yu-Ba Yu-Ba (Yujin Bye)~
- Yujin Bye Bye~~~~~
- (^-^)/.｡*･ﾟﾟBye Bye~~~
- Tt Tt Y (Masturbation correct lol).
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Return broadcast concluded successfully like that.