Chapter 48
Chapter 48
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Translator: Ebonarch
Chapter: 48
Chapter Title: Leakage of Heavenly Secrets (IF) #2 - Treating the Illness 1
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"W-What the hell are you doing?!"
He opened his eyes wide and began thrashing about.
He still seemed to need a little more time to fully comprehend what had happened to him.
When his confused gaze landed on his stripped clothes and the part of him that had slipped inside me and was now out of sight...
"Th-This is... what the...?"
His face flushed with a riot of emotions.
Anger, panic, disgust, contempt.
In that brief moment, he seemed to have grasped the situation in his own way.
"Get out!! Get out of me!!"
Thinking that I had raped him.
His slender arms pounded against mine, and he even stretched out to shove my body away.
"C-Calm down. I'll explain everything in a second."
From the instant our eyes met, my mind had gone completely blank, leaving me paralyzed, but I had to rush and explain the situation to him.
To transfer energy to him, at least one ejaculation was necessary.
"What's there to explain about this?! Get out righ– *cough*! *Cough*!"
He was mounting a desperate resistance in his own way, but as a patient with such a frail body to begin with, it had no effect.
I steadied my trembling lips as best I could and spoke.
"Your condition is so dire right now that I had no choice but to transfer energy through dual cultivation. It's absolutely not the kind of situation you think it is..."
"You expect me to buy that ridiculous excuse...?"
His expression twisted even further with contempt.
Every time I saw that look, it felt like my heart was being ripped in two.
"You trash...! A Daoist preying on someone who's collapsed?! Are you even human?!"
"Urgh...!"
It felt like a dagger plunging straight into my heart.
His words overlapped with what I had once screamed at Soyeon.
"If I'd known it'd be like this, I never should've stuck around with you...! I thought you were a good person...!!"
"Ah... Uh..."
I needed to explain myself fast, but my mouth was locked shut.
My mind kept whitening out, offering no clue on how to respond.
"It's true... There's no other meaning to it... I really did this to save you..."
"Then where does a bullshit treatment like this even exist?!"
His emotions were flooding into me.
The fury of betrayal. The loathing for me raping his helpless, collapsed body.
Intangible feelings, yet they coiled around my throat like razor-sharp blades.
"And even if it did exist, shouldn't you have at least asked for my consent?! Even collapsed, I could've spoken up!! You just saw your chance and raped me!!"
*Thud*
It hit me like a hammer to the skull.
'...Me...?'
No.
Impossible.
To use his collapse as an opportunity to rape him?
No way.
It mustn't be.
No matter how deep my feelings for him ran, with the sin I'd already committed against him, I absolutely could not.
And yet... I had to...
*Shiver*
"Ah... Aah..."
I couldn't counter his words.
My lips refused to part.
It's not true. It mustn't be.
*Crack*
Something deep in my mind fractured.
Why hadn't I even tried to wake him before going through with it?
Why did I stop the doctor who offered to step in and take his place?
Was it really just because I couldn't bear to sacrifice her instead?
Not some personal desire of mine?
"Quit lying there and get out already...!"
What if... what if I really did this out of personal desire...?
What makes me any different from Soyeon?
*Crack crack*
What sets me apart from her—the one who wrecked a life with her warped love and carved an eternal scar?
Repaying my debt by picking up where his disciple left off?
'No...'
Absolutely not.
I did this... to repay my debt to him...
By raping him...?
"Urk...!"
The dam I'd barely held burst at last, unleashing waves of revulsion and self-hatred.
*Shiver shiver*
My hands and feet shook uncontrollably, my mouth babbling nonsense.
I couldn't rein in my emotions.
The feelings I'd desperately buried erupted like a tidal wave.
I disgusted myself. I loathed myself.
And worst of all, my body—still wringing pleasure from the piece of him inside me—only fueled the hatred.
'Is this what ten years was for...?'
Searching for him all those years just to finish what his disciple couldn't?
'No...'
To repay my debt. To make up for his wretched life. To give him a better one. That's why I'd tracked him down.
But now...?
"Eek... Why are you so damn strong...!"
He hurled disgust my way while shoving at me.
Trying to break free. Flee from me.
This wasn't the point.
'...Right.'
I'm coupling with him now to save his life.
Because he was so ill, I had no choice but to pass energy this way.
So hurry up and finish.
One ejaculation—that's all it takes for the transfer.
"Just one time... Just ejaculate once..."
"Don't spout that crazy shit!!"
Maybe because he felt such revulsion toward me, his member was softening inside.
No. That won't do.
Once. Just once.
*Stroke*
"Wh-What...? Why the hand...?"
My hand drifted toward his face.
And then...
*Grip*
"Kek...!"
I began to choke him.
Instinct kicks in when death looms— the primal drive to reproduce. Cut off the air...
"Guh... Kek...!"
"Just endure it a bit... I won't kill you, I swear..."
*Tap tap*
As he feebly slapped at my hand, the member inside hardened again.
Bigger, firmer than before, even.
Perfect.
More pleasure means he'll finish faster.
"No worries about aftereffects... I'm controlling my grip. It'll just hurt a little..."
"Gurgh..."
"Once... Just once..."
I tightened my grip on his throat and bucked my hips.
My body ached as the fullness withdrew.
*Slap*
"Grgh...!"
Our pelvises collided once more, stuffing me full again.
His groan got muffled by my hand, barely escaping.
Watching him writhe, I fretted—he might not feel pleasure through the strangling agony.
Goal: make him cum ASAP.
*Slap! Slap!*
"Kek...! Kek...!"
I pistoned my hips relentlessly, building his pleasure fast.
Shaking alone doesn't cut it for men, I'd heard—needs skill. Never cared to learn, so raw speed it was.
*Squeeze*
I clenched my insides hard, hoping it'd help.
"Gur..."
Still gagged, no clue if he liked it.
Ah. Got an idea.
"If that felt good, tap once. Bad, twice."
Seemed smart. His reply? Neither.
Nail marks raked the back of my hand.
'No idea if he likes it...'
Mix it up and keep going, then.
My stamina held; his didn't worry me less.
What if the pounding wrecked his hips?
Pulling back just shy of impact... then I felt it twitch.
Good sign. I amped the rhythm with my new trick.
*Spurt! Spurt!*
"Grhmmm...!!"
Yang energy flooded in. Duty first—I circulated the qi.
The moment he climaxed, I released his throat.
"Kek...! Kek...!"
As I transferred the energy and guided it through his body, he gulped air desperately.
Harsh process, but success.
Dantian wrecked or not, the qi spread fully—enough to shrug off a mere cold.
I approached as he rolled away, words of apology ready.
"I'm sorry. It all happened so fast I couldn't explain properly. I don't know what you think, but it really is legitimate treatment. You must feel your body improving alrea–"
Mid-sentence, he bolted without looking back.
*Thud*
Body moved on instinct.
Seized both his arms, yanked him to me.
"I was a hundred times wrong. Just give me a moment to explain, and I'll–"
I turned his body to face me.
"..."
Tears streamed from his obsidian eyes.
Still radiating contempt and loathing through his sobs.
The sight shattered me.
*Crunch*
The last piece broke.