Chapter 253
Chapter 253
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Translator: Ebonarch
Chapter: 253
Chapter Title: Chapter 12 - Emotions
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My current physical condition couldn't be called anything close to fine, no matter how generously I tried to describe it.
Even opening my mouth properly took every ounce of effort, and I lacked the strength to pull out the cock still buried inside me—how the hell could anyone call that okay?
This wasn't a joke; if I decided to collapse right now, I'd drop like a stone without a second thought.
The problem was the laundry list of reasons why I absolutely couldn't pass out at this moment.
For my future self to survive, I had to please the Heavenly Demon as best I could, but if I blacked out without satisfying her during her first time, our married life would kick off in hard mode immediately.
Of course, that wasn't the only reason. Not knowing what this clueless virgin might do with my unconscious body was another big one keeping me from fainting.
"...Sex where passing out is off-limits."
I couldn't even remember the last time I'd had sex like that.
For me, sex usually meant lying under a woman, writhing in pleasure until I collapsed into sleep.
It was farther from what anyone would call normal sex than I cared to admit.
Sometimes, I'd even entertain insane thoughts like maybe my knowledge was wrong and everyone else lived like this too.
No matter how sure I was that normal sex wasn't supposed to be like this, since all my experiences were exactly that, going a little mad about it wasn't surprising.
Anyway, this was the mess I was in.
In this body teetering on the edge of collapse, I had to somehow satisfy the Heavenly Demon's first time without a hitch.
Confident? Hell no.
"To begin with, how many times have I ever satisfied a woman myself?"
My role had always been limited to getting hard and throwing ridiculous tantrums.
If I passed out here, I'd fail even that bare minimum, so I was clinging to consciousness for dear life.
Anyway, the immediate issue was my cock, already starting to soften a bit.
This thing stood rock-hard no matter how much I begged it to give up and die, so for it to falter now meant my condition was truly dire—but there was no helping it this time.
"...Please, just this once, let's make it work."
The first button had been fastened wrong from the start.
Even at peak condition, I wasn't sure I could satisfy the Heavenly Demon. After being worked to the bone like that without any real rest, I'd jumped right back in.
It was like entering the final boss fight with 10% HP in a no-save game.
My chances of survival boiled down to exactly two.
One: desperately satisfy the Heavenly Demon somehow, fighting for my life.
The other: bet everything on the faint hope that she might have a low sex drive.
"Yeah. We're fucked."
Either way, it was hopeless.
"Is something wrong? You look like you're deep in thought."
"Ah, no, it's nothing."
"Now that you mention it, it does feel a bit softer than before. What do we do in a case like this?"
"Wh... when th... that hap...pens..."
...How did it go again?
No, seriously, I couldn't remember.
As I said, I'd passed out first plenty of times, but my cock giving out before me? Not so much experience there...
"..."
Nothing specific came to mind, but there was one thing that felt like it might work.
"...Would you try hugging me?"
"Very well."
It was a sudden request that could've thrown anyone off, but the Heavenly Demon showed no hesitation as she leaned down and wrapped me in her arms.
Her position was woman on top.
Leaning forward from there to hug me...
-squish
"Ngh...!"
"Like this?"
"Y-yeah...!"
...What more was there to say?
In an instant, we'd settled into that same position from before—my face buried in the Heavenly Demon's breasts.
I hated to admit it out of embarrassment, but my love for breasts was an undeniable fact.
"Ngh...!"
The soft flesh compressed against my face, pressing in with overwhelming sensation that spread across my entire visage, and I felt nonexistent energy surging back to life.
In the end, men really were that simple.
-stiff
...No matter what, after that level of abuse, for this body to rally back like this—what the hell was it made of? Terrifying, but if it worked, it worked.
I'd tried it on faith in this freakish body, never expecting it to actually pull through.
...But then.
-pat pat
"...Why are you petting my head?"
"It just felt right."
"..."
"Does it bother you?"
"Not at all, but..."
Was it some innate feminine instinct?
Other women like my Master or Dang Ayoung had done the same plenty of times—stroking the back of my head when my face was buried like this.
It looked like being treated like a baby, which irked me at first, but the satisfaction from those gentle touches had turned it into one of my favorite things now.
...Naturally, it wasn't that I liked being babied.
This position was just fine.
"Looks like you've perked back up. Then, shall we—"
The Heavenly Demon sensed my renewed stiffness and started to lift her body, but
-squeeze
"...?"
"...Please stay like this."
I pulled her waist close, stopping her in place.
"Then I should just move like this?"
"...Yes."
"It doesn't matter to me... but won't it be uncomfortable for you?"
Our position had her completely pinning me down like a predator pouncing on prey, so her concern made sense.
My body didn't exactly scream "fragile."
"If it's you, Heavenly One, it's fine."
At a glance, her weight was noticeable but hardly crushing.
Excluding her breasts and hips, how heavy could a woman with no fat really be?
And from multiple prior experiences, it wasn't as tough on me as one might think.
I'd already instinctively mastered distributing the load maximally, no matter who rode on top...
"...Something feels off."
The nagging sense that something was wrong flashed through my mind, but I didn't have the bandwidth to pin it down.
"...Truly, you're a man I can't let my guard down around."
"...Pardon?"
"I thought I'd fallen for you plenty already, yet this pull keeps drawing me deeper. At this rate, you'll devour me whole."
"Ah, no way. How could I possibly dare to the Heavenly One of the Divine Cult..."
"Do you think I'm joking?"
-shift
As she spoke, she adjusted slightly, locking eyes with me.
"Don't mistake it for empty words. You actually scare me a little."
-flinch
Her gaze felt like staring into the depths of an ocean.
Impossibly deep, impossible to fathom what lay within.
Finite, surely, yet transcending perception—expressible only as infinite.
"Am I falling for you? Or you for me? Am I yours? Or you mine? I can't tell anymore."
"..."
"What do you think?"
I opened my mouth to respond, but it only twitched awkwardly before I shut it again.
I could feel that same tangible obsession blooming around her as before.
-gulp
Had I ever sensed obsession this intense since arriving in the murim?
I'd tangled with plenty of women, and it wasn't like I'd never felt obsession at all.
My own unwitting charm kept pulling women in, and women naturally obsess over their lovers to some degree.
I hadn't encountered truly dangerous levels yet, but I knew the concept existed.
The Heavenly Demon's, though, was an entirely different beast from anything I'd felt.
Yandere, right?
From my Earth memories, that's what they called women who loved so fiercely they wanted total possession, not even allowing their man to glance at another woman.
She seemed similar at first glance, but this woman was a touch different.
"...I am yours, Heavenly One of the Divine Cult."
From her perspective, it was just ordinary love.
If anything, she was simply loving me with everything she had.
And that's precisely why it hit me that way.
Love so excessive, so far beyond what I could handle, lumped together and appearing as obsession.
The closest match in my knowledge to describe it was still obsession.
"I truly love you. I can't pinpoint this unfamiliar emotion, so I'm not entirely certain, but no one in my life has delved so deeply into me as you have."
"I-is that so?"
"Yes... perhaps..."
"If I lost you now, I doubt I'd have the strength to endure this empty life again."
"..."
"It's as if meeting you and sharing this moment is the very reason I've pressed on through this tedium all these years... I'm feeling the utmost satisfaction right now."
What did this woman want from me, exactly?
Could I even withstand her love?
Even if I gave her the absolute maximum love I was capable of, as she described, could it fill the vast ocean within this woman?
Nothing was certain yet.
Just
-squeeze
"...Then come here."
I'd simply do what I was best at since arriving in this murim.
"You must not know much since it's your first time... but do whatever feels right. I'll take it all."
This was how I'd survived as a fortune teller in the murim up to now.
Just endure as the currents carried me, and someday, the future would arrive.
Even if a fortune teller couldn't see their own.