The Idol's Declaration
The taste of semen was, as expected, fishy. I had smiled and told him it was delicious, but the lingering metallic tang in my throat and the bitter, numbing sensation on my tongue were far from pleasant. Still, I felt wonderful. The mere act of taking his member into my mouth and gulping down his seed made my brain feel like it was on fire.
“Haa… are you still hard?” I looked up at his cock, carefully kneading his testicles. I stuck out my tongue and licked from the base of his shaft all the way to the glans, where a droplet of semen clung like dew. I had been practicing while resting at the dorm. I’d watched two-hour compilations of fellatio, holding my lightstick in my mouth and thrusting it down my throat. I’d gagged and choked, enduring the agony just to practice swallowing Yujun-oppa’s massive cock in its entirety. But, as expected… his cock was bigger and longer than any lightstick.
Should I suck him off one more time? This time, I’d show him the results of my training. But my lower abdomen was throbbing, and I wanted him to ravage my insides with this magnificent rod. I wanted him to pound my pussy with it, over and over.
“Oppa… this time, should I suck you with my pussy…?”
I had even studied filthy lines. It wasn’t like I was preparing for an acting role, but I had scoured 19+ web novels and webtoons, organizing the dialogue and memorizing everything I could use. If I was the perverted idol Lee Su-a before, now I had become the filthy, perverted idol Su-a!
I undid the knot and pulled my pants halfway down. I was nervous about being outside, but the desire to be filled by his cock outweighed the fear. “Here. It’s the idol pussy that Oppa loves so much♡”
I pushed my hips back and tucked my panties to the side of my labia. The night air brushed against my pussy. Because I’d been keeping it hot and damp while sucking his cock, the lukewarm night air felt cold. My face flushed as if I had a fever.
It was shameful enough to do this in a private space, but to be exposing myself in a public city alleyway… if a paparazzo caught me, my life would be over. Fortunately, I didn’t feel the presence of any cameras.
“I… I’ll suck you with this…♡”
I leaned against the wall, stood on my tiptoes, and moved my hips with fluid grace, shaking my butt up and down as if I were twerking. His cock rubbed against my cheeks. My heart hammered against my ribs—it felt like I could actually hear the thumping in my ears. Unlike how he looked, Yujun-oppa seemed to love things like this. Ever since our first time, when he made me film those filthy videos, I knew his sexual tastes were quite deviant. So, he had to like this, right?
I wiggled my hips back and forth, gladly doing it for Yujun-oppa. “Don’t tease me… hurry up and fuck me.”
I grabbed my cheeks with both hands and spread them wide. I tensed my lower abdomen, making my pussy pulse, and rubbed it against his glans. Even I thought the act was so depraved it made me shiver, and my head felt dizzy, as if I’d downed half a bottle of soju. But for the person I loved… I could endure the shame and do this as much as he wanted. So, please, hurry up and fuck me, hurry♡
I had to do this quickly and get back. I was already past the point of no return. If someone went to the convenience store in front of the apartment to buy ice cream and didn’t return for over twenty minutes, they would definitely think it was strange. Besides, why wasn’t he fucking me yet?
I diligently wiggled my hips and glanced back. “...Eh?”
Yujun-oppa, whom I had expected to be thrusting into my pussy, was tucking his cock back into his underwear and pulling up his pants. “W-what are you doing?”
“No… doing it outside is a bit…”
What was this man saying? I was dumbfounded. The man who had cruelly taken my virginity like a monster blinded by lust from the very beginning was acting like a coward and hiding his dick here?
“What does that have to do with anything? It’s not like people are walking by.”
“They could.”
“If we’re quiet, we won’t get caught! I’ll hold back my moans, I promise!”
Yeah, that was the only problem—I just had to hold back my moans. I wasn’t sure if I could do it well, but… if I covered my mouth with both hands, I could suppress them somehow.
“That’s part of it, but… what if I accidentally hurt our baby?”
“Huh? Baby?”
Yujun-oppa wore a complicated expression. He gently stroked my lower abdomen. “You might be pregnant, you know?”
Was he serious? Was he just stupid, or was he that innocent? Regardless of whether I was pregnant or not—no, even assuming I was pregnant, there was no reason we couldn’t have sex. You can have sex during pregnancy. It’s not something you can do every day, but even a pregnant woman with a big, round belly can enjoy a sex life.
“I’ve been thinking about it really seriously. To be honest, I’m more worried than anything… but it’s right for me to take responsibility. Don’t worry. No matter what happens, I’ll take full responsibility. I’ve even made several plans depending on the situation!”
Yujun-oppa smiled brightly, like a puppy asking for praise after doing a trick. It was touching, really! No, it was genuinely touching, but… what am I supposed to do with this extreme man…! There was no middle ground with him.
I let out a sigh. “...I’m not pregnant.”
“Huh?”
“I said I’m not pregnant!”
It was a shame. I had thought about teasing him with this. I’d even bought a pregnancy test. I’d happily drawn a line on it just to mess with him.
“Did you… did you get tested?”
“I got tested, and I’ve been taking birth control pills.”
I had gone to an OB-GYN well-known among female idols to get checked. The director there had scolded me. She said that while it was my freedom to enjoy a sex life, I was only twenty and had a bright future ahead, so I had to use contraception. She especially told me that since I’d likely be an idol for at least another ten years, I should always use condoms, and she even gave me a box of them. Ultra-thin ones.
“Really?”
“Really.”
“For real?”
“For real.”
Yujun-oppa let out a long, shaky breath. “Thank god… thank god… I had made up my mind, but honestly, I was so worried. To be a head of a household at this age… and I was scared of society’s gaze, too.”
“I know, I know.”
I patted Yujun-oppa to comfort him. Yeah, if he hadn’t been worried, I would have been disappointed. I knew I wouldn’t get pregnant because I was taking the pill, but Yujun-oppa didn’t know anything and must have been biting his nails, agonizing over it all by himself. Looking at his jagged thumbs, I could tell immediately that he’d been chewing on them. His nails, which had been slightly long just a few days ago, were bitten down so short that the skin underneath was visible. He probably even made them bleed.
“So, are you going to use my pussy now?”
“No.”
“Y-yes?”
I, who had been exposing my butt again, froze in an awkward position. His answer was too firm.
“After that day, I truly reflected on myself. Let’s not lose our minds to lust. Let’s never forget the promise to protect our idol in any situation. I was too rough back then, wasn’t I? You asked me to be gentle, but I ignored you… I’m really sorry.”
“………….”
“If we do it from now on, I’ll make sure to be gentle. On a soft bed, so it doesn’t strain your waist, and so it doesn’t hurt.”
Han Yujun smiled kindly. In a normal situation, this was the right thing to do. Yeah, Yujun-oppa wasn’t wrong. It wasn’t wrong to reflect on one’s actions.
“It felt good, but… this kind of thing isn’t good, right? Being serviced orally in an alleyway. I lost my head and made a mistake again, haha.”
This wasn’t the development I wanted. Gentle? That’s fine. But having learned the sweetness of masochistic pleasure, it was impossible for me to forget the sensation of becoming a female animal and having my pussy used. How could I forget being pounded so hard by that massive rod that I couldn’t even breathe? I could never forget it.
“I’ll be really careful from now on.”
“Fuck me.”
“Huh? What did you say?”
“Fuck me.”
“With what?”
“Fuck my pussy with your cock, you idiot!!”
My voice rang out loudly through the alley.
“Ugh…!”
Startled, Yujun-oppa covered my mouth with his hand. “W-what are you saying…?”
Yujun-oppa slowly pulled his hand away.
“Since it’s come to this, I’ll say it clearly. When it’s just the two of us, don’t think of me as an idol.”
“No. Once an idol, always an idol, anytime, anywhere.”
“Fine. Then keep thinking of me as an idol.”
“Of course.”
“Your personal female idol.”
“Uh…?”
“I’ll be a female idol who sings while moaning for you, and dances while shaking her butt, so from now on, do whatever you want, Oppa. If you want to fuck, fuck me. If you want to suck, suck me.”
“Uh… uh-huh?”
“In return, you have to support me properly.”
I grabbed Yujun-oppa’s cock tightly. “By waving this lightstick hard.”
Oppa’s cock, hidden beneath his underwear, grew instantly. We stared at each other in silence. We blinked slowly, capturing each other’s reflections in our eyes.
“Really… I can do whatever I want?”
“Yes.”
Hmm, Yujun-oppa fell into thought. After agonizing for a long time, he smiled softly. “Okay.”
Honestly. It’s so hard to train a fan.
—*SMACK!!*
As I was sighing internally, a stinging pain erupted on my left buttock.
“Eek!”
A scream escaped my lips. Yujun-oppa had slapped my butt.
“What are you doing?” Yujun-oppa said with a gentle smile. “I’ll support you. Stick your butt out and dance.”
This man was truly too polarized. When he was timid, he was completely timid, and when he was aggressive, he was completely aggressive. I felt like I finally understood why such a handsome man had been single for twenty-seven years. Still, I liked it. I was already so infatuated that I loved both sides of his personality. Angel Han Yujun. Devil Han Yujun. I loved them both. I’d just have to train him well and mix the two appropriately.
“Haa… as soon as you gave me permission…” I sighed.
“Ah… sorry… did I go too far?”
To Yujun-oppa, who was mumbling and trying to return to his angelic self, I showed him by sticking my butt out and shaking it vigorously. I bowed my head and bit my lower lip hard. Enduring the embarrassment, I performed a ridiculous twerk.
“Please hurry up and support Su-a’s pussy♡”
The moment he gave me permission, he revealed his male desire. I love it so much♡