The Story of Losing My Virginity to My Little Brother (2)
I have a little brother who's three years younger than me. Our parents divorced when we were young, and maybe because I took such good care of him, we were unusually close. Back then, him clinging to me felt completely natural. I thought we'd be like those sibling pairs you see in stories—warm and affectionate. But as we grew up, he started losing interest in me, just like everyone else. At some point he stopped listening to anything I said and even talked back to me. We drifted apart. I figured that was just how it went and moved on with life.
Then one day I snapped out of it and realized I'd gone through all-girls middle and high school. I had zero connection with boys. So even in college, I only hung out with female friends. Just talking to a guy started to feel awkward.
I don't remember exactly when, but it was probably when my brother was in high school. I got up in the middle of the night to get some water and heard this squeaking sound, like a chair creaking. I looked around—his door was the only one open. Mom's room only has a bed in it, so nothing else could have made that noise. I peeked through the slight gap in his door and… lol. He was jerking off.
He was pumping his hand up and down, and the chair was creaking in rhythm with it. It was honestly kind of funny. I masturbate too, but I don't go that hard. Anyway, we'd taken baths together when we were little, but I didn't remember any of that. So seeing his thing in real life was a first for me.
And damn… it was pretty big. If you subtract all the unrealistic twenty-to-thirty-centimeter monsters you see in porn, his was the biggest I'd ever seen. Like I said, I went to all-girls schools. At first I thought it looked grosser than I expected? But at the same time I wanted to touch it? This sudden sexual curiosity just hit me. In my head I was thinking I shouldn't be watching this… but my eyes were glued to the scene lol.
I kept watching in secret until he suddenly grabbed some tissues. Then his hips jerked and he came. The smell must have leaked through the crack in the door—did he notice? Anyway, since he'd never had a girlfriend either, I'd assumed he wasn't interested in girls. Turns out he was. Unlike me, he'd gone to co-ed schools.
From that day on, I couldn't get the image of his cock out of my head. What would it feel like if that actually went inside me? That was the biggest question. Plus he wasn't bad-looking. Something about him just… got to me. They say if you've never been with a guy, you end up looking for one close by. Haha.
And my friends were always talking about their boyfriends, subtly bragging. Every time that happened I felt like the only mute in the room, and I hated it. So I created this place, wondering if there were others like me. I was surprised by how many there were… Yeah.
Anyway. Then one day my brother suddenly announced he was going into the military. I told him to stop bullshitting me, but he said he was leaving the next week. Who the hell enlists with only a week’s notice? That day I was so shocked I didn’t even go see him off at the training camp. Sex? What sex? I graduated high school still a virgin, and after that I lost interest in men entirely. Hardly anyone visited the gallery, so I barely moderated it.
But when he came back from the army, he was insane. During his leave I saw him—he used to be a skinny dried anchovy, but now he was basically a movie-star body covered in muscle. Still, it was awkward to talk to him during his leave. Only after he was fully discharged could we actually have real conversations again. By then he’d stopped working out and put on a little weight…
So we just lived normally until… the day before yesterday. I came home after having dinner with a Pa-ttak and I just couldn’t hold back anymore. After talking about incest stuff together, I really wanted to lose my virginity to my own brother. Besides, everyone at my company is older than me anyway.
Somehow I ended up telling him… and we kissed. Even though I’d never done it before? Lol. Then his hand went to my chest, and I thought, Here it comes, and just… went with it. But I was worried we’d get caught if we did it at home, so we stopped there. Then yesterday I booked a hotel… and when I came to my senses, I’d done the exact same thing those other siblings had done. My back hurt so bad I had to put on a pain relief patch.
He said it was his first time too. How can someone last that long on their first time…? Anyway, that’s why I couldn’t manage the gallery. I’m sorry… I’ll moderate properly from now on…. [Cancel][Register]
I had a reason for telling her I was enlisting only a week in advance. I’d tried to extend my enlistment by staying in college, but I just sat there thinking the school would handle it, and ended up getting screwed. By the time I received my draft notice, it was already too late to take a leave of absence and I had no valid deferment reasons. I had no choice but to go.
Noona pressed her finger into my abs a few times, then shook her head. I’d actually flexed pretty hard.
Just how ripped had I been back then? I’d been so irritated that I only worked out. There weren’t even any pretty female officers, so no eye candy either. The only time I got to see any was during the brigade-wide sports day. My luck with women really is trash.
When I lifted Noona’s t-shirt, sure enough there was a pain relief patch stuck near her tailbone. I hadn’t noticed at all.
I decided not to argue anymore. No matter what I said, she was always right, so there was zero chance of winning.
I only recently started thinking Noona might be into me. But she’d been watching me for a long time. Come to think of it, I didn’t write about the Pa-ttak thing. That part was the real gem.
There was an incident back in middle school. There was one girl in class that everyone liked—the kind of girl who exists in every class. Thanks to a friend who was close with her, I got to do group projects and hang out with her too. Somehow I ended up paired with her a lot when we split into teams. It wasn’t exactly a fling, but it happened often.
Then one day during class:
The rumor that I liked her must have spread. The girls in my class were openly badmouthing me where I could hear. It was obviously about me. I wanted to say something, but I wasn’t anything special and I didn’t want to be rude to her, so I just sat there trembling.
After that day, I became scared to even talk to girls. Except for Noona, who approached me without any prejudice. Why did I ever hit a girl like her? Thinking about it again, I really am pathetic.
Still, I’m glad my first time was with Noona. No matter how hard I looked, there was no normal way for me to lose my virginity. This isn’t exactly normal either, though.
After we came twice yesterday, something in me switched on. Just like the time I jerked off five times in a row, my dick was hypersensitive but wouldn’t go down—an awakened state.
But the condoms I’d been recommended were the expensive kind with only two per box. I was regretting not buying another box when Noona pointed at her bag.
The condom Noona brought was the same expensive kind—two per box. Thanks to that, we were able to do it two more times until I literally couldn’t come anymore.
I slipped my hand into my pocket and subtly adjusted my hardening dick, then changed the subject.
…… …
If I’d posted it the way I originally wanted—saying I slept with the Ju-ttak—it wouldn’t have stopped at calling me a liar. It would’ve been flooded with every insult under the sun. It was better to write it like this, that the Ju-ttak slept with her little brother. And there wasn’t a single lie in that post.
In the end I forced her up. My hand accidentally brushed her breast, but she acted like nothing happened.
Now that I’d achieved my goal, it felt strangely empty. I thought there would be a sweeter atmosphere, but now that it had actually happened it just felt like a one-night stand.
It’s not enough…
Ending things with Noona like this wasn’t enough. As the Pa-ttak of the Incest Gallery, my dignity was seriously lacking.