Why Isn't It Working? (1)
"Shit, died again! What the hell is this guy doing?"
"Hey, hey. Take it easy. You'll break it."
"Ah, sorry, hyung! But I think this mouse is busted too."
Hyeonwoo scratches his head as he slams the mouse down repeatedly, muttering to himself. That bastard keeps messing with my stuff...
"Oh! But hitting it made it work!"
"You wanna quit that?"
"No, no. I won't. I'll be quiet, so keep resting, hyung~"
The guy playing games on my computer is Park Hyeonwoo. We met when he was my junior in the military. After discharge, I lost touch with most people, but Hyeonwoo and I kept in contact. Our places are close, and we just click when we hang out. Hyeonwoo, whose family has money, sometimes helps out at his dad's business, but otherwise, he just comes over to my place to chill or fool around with girls. He's tall, handsome, and loaded. He lives this carefree life without a worry in the world.
Compared to him, I'm about to graduate and haven't figured out what I want to do—total disaster. No standout certifications, no impressive extracurriculars, mediocre grades. You can only envy someone on your level. I'm average in height, looks, and family background, so I know I'll never be like Hyeonwoo. I just hang out with him like this, and sometimes scraps fall my way. Picking those up is enough to satisfy me.
"Ha. Lost again. Hyung! This is too hard—show me one round?"
"I'm busy checking my schedule docs. Told you, no games today."
"Why bother with that crap? Just say the word. I can get you a spot at my dad's company. I can do that much for you!"
"Nah. Play your game. Or watch some lecture videos."
"Aish, I don't get them even if I watch. I need to see someone do it live next to me."
I don't know if he's serious or not, but it counts as scraps. Pride keeps me from taking it outright. If things get really desperate, I'll swallow my ego and ask.
"Huh? Hyung! What's this?"
Hyeonwoo, who seemed to be quietly browsing videos, suddenly points at the monitor. On the screen is the porn I was watching last night before closing it. I panic a little but play it cool.
"...What, first time seeing porn?"
"Nah, I just didn't peg you for the type. What's this? Netorare? NTR?"
"Hey, close it, dumbass."
Having my tastes read out loud is embarrassing, even from a close dongsaeng like him.
"Isn't this the one where she gets stolen? Like, girlfriend taken by another guy. Right?"
"..."
"Whoa. I never got this fetish. But people actually watch it."
Hyeonwoo hits play, and three people appear on screen. A guy and girl piled on the bed. Another guy sitting on the sofa nearby, watching. The woman, getting pounded hard and moaning, barely manages to reach out a hand to the guy beside her. The watching guy, who was jerking off, grabs it. Her moans get louder. His hand speeds up on his dick.
That's exactly where it ended last night. I'd found some seriously hot porn after a long time and was saving it.
"What is this? The guy's sitting—is he the boyfriend? Then who's the one fucking her?"
"Eh, some random invitee, I guess."
"Whoa... Hyung, you get off on this? Wait, no—it is hot. I get why people watch."
Hyeonwoo smacks his lips, eyes on the guy thrusting away. He's getting turned on by the action itself. Me? It's the situation and the watching guy that hit my tastes, but I don't spell it out.
"...Gets you going if you watch."
"Yeah, guess so."
After a bit of commentary, Hyeonwoo closes the video.
"Hyung's got Seoyeon and still watches this stuff."
"Dude, having a girlfriend doesn't mean no porn."
"Then just do her. You always say you can't. Bet there are girlfriends on here with boyfriends."
He waves his phone like it's obvious. Probably true. He's got unread texts piling up from girls whose numbers he snagged. He mentioned trying with some crazy chicks lately, but I kept turning him down. Feels wrong to Seoyeon, and it's not my thing.
"You do plenty. And with Seoyeon around, that's a hard no."
"Then, hyungnim. Let this little bro recommend some porn."
He shrugs like it's no big deal and plays a video. Dog collar, leash, handcuffs, blindfold—SM play. Not my taste at all.
"Way hotter than the last one, right?"
"No."
"Why? It's fucking hot. Tried it with a few lately—insane. They all pretend to hate it at first, but after a couple times, they're begging for more..."
"..."
"Girls mostly love this shit. They've all got that hidden kink."
The girls Hyeonwoo hooks up with are all a bit unhinged, so maybe. Normal girls don't give their numbers to strangers and jump into bed.
"Makes me horny again after so long. Wanna do it tonight... Hyung! You said you had no time?"
"Yeah. Seoyeon's coming over later."
"Right. Nothing to do then—better call one up and play."
Hyeonwoo's great in every way except how he treats girls. Rough, careless, does whatever he wants. And they still flock to him...
"Haang... Eut, haa..."
Seoyeon's huge, pale breasts jiggle every which way from my pistoning. She looks up at me, face flushed pink. Her excited expression is so, so pretty. Cute yet beautiful face, down to her sexy, arousing body. For an average guy like me, she's way too good to be true.
Today's form feels good. If I keep this up, maybe today I'll...
"Oppa~, it feels so good... A little harder, harder!"
"Ugh. Harder...?"
"Heut! Y-Yes, so good...! A little moreee..."
I'm going as hard as I can, but she hugs me tight like it's still not enough. Her expressive face is so pretty and sexy, but... a queasy feeling stirs deep in my gut.
Seoyeon turns heads just walking down the street. Guys ask for her number, hit on her to hang out. And here I am, utterly average. Dating a girl like her feels unreal for someone so plain. Height and looks aside, my dick is average too. No—worse than average. Girth, length, hardness—all just a bit lacking.
Watching her cling to me desperately, begging for more, that queasiness grows.
"Heut...? O-Oppa? No... Look at my face!"
"Ugh."
"T-Touch me here too! Yeah? You love my tits, oppa...!"
Panicked, Seoyeon clamps down hard with her pussy and shoves her soft breast into my hand. She locks eyes with me, offers her chest freely, but the more she does, the weaker I feel. I love it all so much... Pretty Seoyeon, her breasts, her tight pussy gripping me...
"Ah......"
"..."
In the end, my dick shrivels up. I jolt at the disappointment in her voice and thrust faster, but it's no use. My small, limp dick slips out of her squeezing pussy. I really thought it'd work today... Why now?
I yank off the dangling condom and toss it.
"Seoyeon, sorry..."
I mumble apologetically, and she pats my back.
"N-No! Why are you sorry, oppa? I loved it. Yeah? Felt so good?"
"..."
I know better than anyone it's a lie. Her sweet words just make me feel more pathetic.
"Still sorry..."
"I hate when you apologize! Just being with you like this makes me so happy."
"..."
"Enough now—kiss me! Kiss~"
Is she trying to cheer me up with aegyo? She pouts her lips cutely. I grab her cheeks and kiss her deeply. Surprised by the intensity, she parts her lips slightly.
"Haa... Mm, mmpf! Churp..."
A kiss packing down the misery of another failure, another time I couldn't satisfy her. I feel her arousal through her whole body. She writhes, wraps her arms tight around my shoulders, lets out soft moans between kisses.
Makes me think I'm good at kissing. So why does it die the second we fuck...?
"Eut, chup, churp... Huee..."
The silver thread between us snaps. Seoyeon gazes up at me, face flushed with excitement.
"Oppa~..."
If this were sex instead of kissing, how great would that be? I imagine shoving in a rock-hard dick, pounding her rough, as I kiss and roll my tongue. My once-limp dick betrays me, stiffening again.
Feeling it, Seoyeon wraps her soft hand around it. She strokes slowly, gently.
"Oppa, one more round's no good, right...?"
"...Dunno."
I hate how unconfident I sound. Even if it's up now, it'll flop again once we start.
"No! Just kidding. You wanna cum, right? I'll do it with my mouth!"
I mumble uncertainly, and she smiles brightly like it's nothing.
She lays me down and crawls between my legs. Flashes a pretty smile, then kisses the tip of my dick.
"Cum whenever you want~"
She grips it with one hand and licks like a lollipop. Soon, she engulfs the head, swirling her tongue inside. Sharp pleasure shoots up my spine.
"Oppa, but one thing."
"Mm?"
"Just in case... really just in case... It's not that you're sick of me or don't wanna do it with me, right?"
"No, nothing like that. Just been tired lately, I guess..."
Even with my answer, she pouts a little.
"That's it, right? If not... I'd really cry."
"It's not. Really."
"Okay. Am I pretty?"
"Of course... Prettiest in the world."
"Heehee."
Seoyeon takes my dick back in her mouth and sucks noisily. Lately, these questions have ramped up. Am I pretty? Do you want me? Am I sexy? Do you love me? How much? I get why. Months of half-assed sex... Her pride must be wrecked.
She's tried hard too. Sexy cosplay, lingerie, events, roleplay, serious talks, watching porn together. Despite all that, I'm still like this. I have no idea what's wrong—driving me insane.
"Oh, right! I looked it up—could be the condom!"
"Condom?"
"Yeah. They say it dulls sensation?"
She taps the tip as she says it.
"Next time, let's try without."
"What...?"
"Birth control scares me a bit... But if we time it right, there are safe days!"
"Seoyeon, you were scared of no condom."
"But safe days exist... I want you to feel good too."
"..."
"Anyway, we'll try everything! I can do it all~"
Grateful for her suggestion, but bittersweet too. As my first boyfriend and first time, Seoyeon was always cautious. Especially about pregnancy—we always used condoms. For her to suggest bareback...
"Got it? After my period ends. So, two weeks from now—we'll try then? You sleep early too, no staying up late!"
"..."
She smiles prettily and resumes sucking. Grateful, sorry, pathetic. Ha. With a girlfriend this gorgeous, why the hell can't I make it work...?