Chapter 2: Awakening of Taste
Chapter 2: Awakening of Taste
Ego-surfing refers to the act of a public figure or celebrity repeatedly checking the internet to see what people are saying about them.
The method is simple. You search for your own name or keywords related to yourself. It’s a way to satisfy one's vanity or check the public's perception—in simpler terms, to see how the "public sentiment" is faring.
At first, I wondered if there was any point in doing it. But after searching a few times before bed after finishing work, I gradually developed a taste for it. Now, it has become my routine to end the day.
That’s not to say I’m a frequent lurker or active member of these communities. I just search for my name. Since I haven't revealed my real name at all, I just look for posts related to "Magical Girl Floss."
After checking the Female Hero Gallery, I should go on patrol in the Magical Girl Floss Minor Gallery too.
The place where I was mentioned the most was the Female Hero Gallery—or "Yeohi-gal" for short. The Magical Girl Floss Minor Gallery was my fan gallery, but its population wasn't that large.
The Yeohi-gal was the second most populated community after "Hero Land," a general community where people talked about heroes as a whole. It was created specifically to discuss female heroes.
And to think my fanart was listed as a popular post on that very gallery!
For a rising hero who wasn't an S-Rank with celebrity-level popularity, it was a pretty good opportunity.
"……Ugh, aaack?!"
What I expected was fanart depicting my battle scenes with an atmospheric background and a cool composition. However, when I clicked the post, what suddenly popped up was a lewd drawing covered in flesh tones.
【 Drawing of a Magical Girl who lost as a woman to a blonde tanned delinquent and became a bitch... [72] 】
Only then did I check the title of the fanart post. Seeing that title, I understood why the "me" in the drawing was crouching in her underwear, panting with her tongue hanging out as if in submission.
"You—you crazy pervert...!"
Anyone could see this was a piece of pornographic art. The flushed face, the eyes that looked like they were possessed by something, and even the massive shadow cast over the face.
I knew exactly what that shadow represented because it was something that had been attached to my own body when I was a man.
Furthermore, the "me" in the drawing... the one who had "lost as a woman," had tossed her usual clothes aside and was wearing a dog-ear headband I had never worn during hero activities, while some man was stroking her head.
However, the man's face was unknown. The drawing was done from a first-person perspective, looking down at me as I acted cute like a bitch.
Report it... I have to report it right now!
I tried to flick the mouse scroll down to hit the report button. But logically, something was strange. It had already been several hours since this post was uploaded.
Right. Come to think of it, the Female Hero Gallery doesn't allow the free uploading of pornographic images. Whether a report is filed or not, the moderators usually delete porn directly while monitoring.
The fact that the post hadn't been deleted yet meant...
It's not being judged as porn?
Looking closely again, it was true. It had a lewd expression, a suggestive pose, and even the shadow of a male organ cast on the face, but there was no direct exposure of the genitals.
No breasts or nipples were visible, and the man's "thing" didn't make a vivid appearance. Rather than porn, should I call this a "teasingly lewd" image?
……One thing was for sure: it wasn't subject to sanctions.
"Whew……."
I calmed my racing heart and examined the drawing dispassionately.
Well, the art style itself was enough to justify it becoming a popular post. Even to me, who had been a man until six months ago, the art style was top-tier. I almost suspected the artist was a professional.
On top of that, once you combine that with something erotic, it's only natural for the upvotes to pour in. Since over 90% of the Female Hero Gallery's user base are likely men, high-quality suggestive art of a female hero is bound to hit the popular posts.
Right, let's think positively. I've seen suggestive art of other female heroes before, too.
This wasn't even that extreme. The proof was that it remained undeleted. Anything with a higher level of explicitness couldn't even be posted here.
In a way, this was a form of promotion... No, even so, it's not good for my image to be distorted like this. My mood plummeted to the floor at the thought that someone might be using my image as masturbation material.
Still, as a former man, I could understand to some extent... and crucially, the art wasn't a photo or a realistic drawing, but a Japanese manga-style "moe" illustration, so the impact wasn't that great.
I'll just let it slide.
Just as I thought that and scrolled down to the comment section...
"……Huh?"
The atmosphere was strange.
[To the Back Alley with this one]
[This is lethally delicious...!]
[Fuuuuuck, get over here lololol]
[I browse Yeohi-gal just to see stuff like this]
[Hmm... Back Alley pass confirmed]
[Can you give me your Twitter address? Or maybe your Pensive address?]
The word "Back Alley" appeared repeatedly in several comments.
"Wh-what are they going to do in the Back Alley? This is so creepy..."
At first, I thought they were just typical sexual harassment comments, but as I kept reading, something felt off. How should I put it? It felt like a slang term only they understood.
Since I didn't really "enjoy" the Female Hero Gallery and only searched for my name, there were many words I didn't know. This must be a culture unique to this community, but what on earth was the "Back Alley"?
Unable to contain my curiosity, I was about to search for "Back Alley" when I saw a new comment.
[(Author) I'm not originally a Yeohi-gal user, I just uploaded the fanart. By any chance, what is the Back Alley?]
[ㄴ Ah... you don't know?]
[ㄴ Come back once you can see it.]
[ㄴ Stop bullshitting and just tell him; the gatekeeping is real]
[ㄴㄴ You'll know when you see it. Check the link below. Let me know when you've checked so I can delete the comment.]
It seemed the person who drew this fanart was also unfamiliar with the culture of the gallery, just like me. I was lucky. Since I saw this comment being posted in real time, I was able to secure the link as well.
By the way, deleting the comment immediately after sharing it... just what was hidden there?
My question was resolved as soon as the site connected to the link appeared on the screen.
"……Female Hero Gallery Back Alley?"
It was written in large letters on the banner. The name of this site was the "Female Hero Gallery Back Alley." It seemed this was the place the people mentioning the "Back Alley" in my fanart comments were talking about.
Anyway, the "Female Hero Gallery Back Alley" had a UI design that was overall similar to the "Female Hero Gallery" yet different.
It had a darker, more ominous atmosphere. But instead of a community, it was a sort of archive categorized into boards for novels, comics, photos, videos, and audio.
What was most flustering was that no matter what I clicked, I couldn't enter easily because everything was password-protected.
An atmosphere that suggested one shouldn't dig too deep. The feeling of tracking down a tightly hidden secret. I was seized by a strange enthusiasm I didn't really need to have.
Found it!
It wasn't easy, but I finally figured out the password by using the comment search function back on the main gallery. It was thanks to the rare traces of users asking and answering the password for the "Back Alley."
Click.
The moment I entered the password and was truly able to see the materials in the Back Alley...
I was struck with horror.
"These crazy bastards...!"
Everything stored on this site, the Back Alley, was pornography. And it was all directly related to female heroes.
In the novel and comic tabs, stories were being drawn of proud female heroes being ambushed by villains, monsters, or ordinary people, falling into depravity, or being humiliated.
In the photo tab, embarrassing photos of female heroes in their daily lives or during battle were captured at the perfect moment and shared. In the audio tab, voice data was used to make female heroes say shameful lines they would never have uttered.
And in the video tab, deepfake technology was used to superimpose the faces of female heroes onto ordinary porn videos, which were circulating as if it were nothing.
So this is why they hid it so thoroughly……!
Only then could I understand the suspiciously intense security. If a real female hero found out about a site like this, it wouldn't be strange for them to be sued en masse, so they must have hidden it desperately.
Since I was a man once, I tried to think that I could tolerate them jerking off to my suggestive fanart, but this was really too much. They had crossed the line by a mile.
Just looking at the home screen, the female heroes I respected and cheered for were being violated at will.
[Novel) S-Rank Hero Black Queen: Raw Creampie Mating Press Gangbang Sex]
[Photo) B-Rank Hero Bear Girl... Candid shot of her panties (slightly leaked) exposed during villain suppression]
[Audio) I really worked hard to get this... A-Rank Hero turned Mommy, Cold Beam's Ejaculation Support Voice]
[Comic) C-Rank Rookie Dark Swan: Sleep Magic Senior-Junior Scissoring Rape]
"Haa...♡"
The heated breath escaping my lips surely contained the essence of anger.
Even if I was a man just like the guys who uploaded this, I no longer had a cock to get hard. Furthermore, there was no way I would be aroused by such lewd creations that destroyed my colleagues.
If they had humiliated even me, "Floss," like this, I would never forgive them.
……But why have my nipples become hard?
Tap, tap, tap….
I typed my name into the search bar. There was no other reason. I didn't want to know at all how much these bastards had vented their sexual desires using me as a target.
It was purely for investigation. I needed to confirm that there were materials made using me here so that I would have a justification to crush this place. Only with a justification could I properly take my revenge.
With a fluttering... no, trembling heart, I pressed the Enter key.
Click.
[Search: Floss]
Thump—!
[Search Results: 1 item]
"Whew, huuuuuuuu……."
I let out a long sigh filled with disappointment... no, relief.
In times like this, is being less famous actually a bit of a help? If they had made novels, comics... videos, photos, or even audio using me, my anger would have reached the ceiling.
Suppressing my somewhat frustrated heart, I decided to check the one result that did come up.
If it's disappointing, it's disappointing, but for now, I'll just sue this one guy…….
【 Drawing of Floss who was messed up by a blonde tanned delinquent and became a bitch... [Modified Version] 】
Huh?
It was definitely the title I saw in the popular posts of the gallery. The guy who drew the suggestive art that I entered thinking it was normal fanart.
Just like me, he must have just found out about the existence of the Back Alley and entered. Since there were many comments saying he passed the Back Alley criteria, it seemed he uploaded it here for archival purposes.
But wait…… "Modified Version"?
Unable to contain my curiosity, I clicked on that post once more.
"Ha, hah……."
A high-pitched moan, unbelievable for someone who used to be a man, escaped my lips.
Not to mention the art style, the composition and background of the drawing were the same as before. The only parts that had changed were the chest and the crotch.
The bra that had been properly covering the breasts was gone, exposing erect pink nipples provocatively. Similarly, the panties were gone, and the plump "clamshell" that was clearly visible was oozing with sticky juices.
"Hng... haa... what is this, really... nng..."
It was a drawing, just a drawing. At a glance, it was hard to even recognize it as a drawing of me.
Because I don't make such a bitch-like face. Because I don't crouch with my legs spread, soaking my crotch while someone's thick hand strokes my head... or have my nipples stand erect.
With that conviction, I looked down at my own body.
"Uhe……?"
The white T-shirt was damp with sweat and kept clinging to my bare skin. My nipples were poking out like rockets, as if they were about to launch forward.
My thighs, which I had been rubbing together unconsciously for a while now. The slippery sensation felt between my legs. The trembling that started from my lower abdomen and spread throughout my entire body.
While I was checking myself here and there, startled by the bizarre changes in my body, the monitor went into power-saving mode. My face reflected on that black screen—though I hadn't transformed—was certainly no different from the R-19 fanart.
……No, the face of a female melting away even more lewdly was reflected there.
The finishing touch that this drawing failed to capture was the very expression I was wearing right now.
"Ugh, hng... I feel... strange..."
I bit my lip hard and scrolled all the way down. I felt like I would become even stranger if I kept looking at this drawing. I could roughly grasp the state of my body right now.
Is this... masturbation? N-No. I haven't put my fingers in yet... so it's not masturbation...
Even though the door was closed, as if someone might see, I secretly swayed my upper body left and right, letting the fabric chafe my nipples. I squeezed my legs tight and then released them, rubbing my itching thighs together.
It was a gesture intended to gain pleasure and relieve desire in its own way, but as a result, it only ended up teasing myself.
"Huuuuuu……."
Just then, the screen changed as I scrolled down. The lewd art of me was no longer visible, but the comments that had just been posted were clear to see.
[This guy calls Floss 'Floss' even in the Back Alley]
[If you don't call Floss 'Floss,' what do you call her? Magical Girl?]
[ㄴ Ugh, you newbie, if you don't know, memorize it: 'Masochist Whore']
……Wait, what?
[Masochist Whore? Where did such a vulgar nickname come from?]
[ㄴ She knows her tits are huge and fights while jiggling them on purpose to tempt people lol]
[If that's not a whore, what is?]
[Magical Girl of Justice Floss X Masochist Whore with a lewd body O]
Thinking that it couldn't be, surely it couldn't be, I placed my hands on the keyboard.
Though I often thought it was embarrassing, it was true that my bust size was larger than the average woman's. Since I was a physical-type hero, my style involved moving my body intensely while fighting.
But even so, wasn't I the hero "Magical Girl Floss," who always stood on the side of justice?
Right, there's no way the good citizens would do that. No matter what kind of site this is, there's no way they'd call me by such a vulgar nickname…….
With a pounding heart, I pressed the Enter key.
Click.
[Search: Masochist Whore]
Thump—!
[Search Results: 47 items]
Forty-seven. Seeing that number, I placed both hands over my red lips to keep from making a sound.
With my legs spread wide, my body shuddered as I sprayed water from my crotch.
Pyoot—♡
I merely vented warm breaths into my palms repeatedly; since it was late at night, I couldn't let even a small moan escape.
"Hu, huuuuung...♡"
This was the first climax I experienced as a woman.
