The World Ends, and I'm Still a Loser
My brain must be completely broken.
That thing about fixing a stick with a secret tip…
Is this what a towel sounds like? Slap!
It’s supposed to be the best dopamine you can get from a soccer field…
I’m just zoning out.
How many hours have I been at it?
I have no idea how many videos I’ve watched.
Why the hell am I even watching this?
What the fuck am I even seeing?
Is it even fun?
No, I’m just floating there without a single thought, like an apple dropping from a tree under gravity.
Tadadak, tadak!
While my fingers are furiously moving the character in the game.
……
Yeah.
I’m definitely broken.
The reason I wait for the cue ball to stop…
No, this is cheating…
Game over!
What the fuck am I even doing right now?
I have no clue why I’m doing this, I just can’t die… and I’m stuck as a slave to dopamine, just killing time.
I have no idea how I got to this point either.
It just suddenly hit me out of nowhere.
These thoughts kept coming one after another.
Did my brain really break?
I can’t even come up with the right words or phrases.
The keywords flooding my mind right now are “more dopamine” and “the emptiness or boredom of life.”
……
To be honest, if a criminal with instant teleportation showed up at my house right now and stabbed me in the neck with a kitchen knife, I wouldn’t even flinch.
I don’t know if I could actually stay calm, but…
That’s just how I feel.
Haa, really… why the hell do I even exist?
I left the orphanage.
I’ve been scraping by with game gold-farming.
No girlfriend.
No decent stats either.
I’m not even complaining about this life.
And I’m not the type to obsess over some huge thing.
……
So the only thing still going strong in me is… sex drive, right?
People say you strongly desire what you don’t have, but…
I’ve never had a girlfriend in my entire life.
Which means I’ve never had sex either.
And I’m still a virgin.
……
Ironically, the fact that I never had a girlfriend wasn’t even true.
Those were all super pretty girls with full eyeballs who would glance at me once or twice just walking past.
……I wonder if I could even call them friends anymore.
I guess I was just one-sided pickled radish… or a bread stander.
Well, they did stick to me every single day for years, so that part’s true.
And I even slept under the same roof as them.
—Beep beep beep beep, beep beep beep!
That was when the front door lock clicked and the door opened.
A black-haired girl wearing a mask stepped inside.
One of the “girlfriends” I mentioned earlier.
“Hey, pervert. You ready to go out? The others are already at the department store checking things out for a bit.”
Han Seolyu
#Height 147cm.
#Bintae.
#Twintails.
#Mask.
#Her cold, emotionless gaze while looking at the world, mixed with that look of pure contempt in her eyes… what a bitch.
Ah, I’m finally insane.
The moment I saw one of the girlfriends I’ve known for years, I start spouting this kind of crap.
#Somehow I bet her pussy is tiny as hell.
#Short girls say their pussies are really tight, right?
#With that small chest, can I even do a pussyjob?
Stop!
You crazy bastard.
What the hell are you even thinking?
The person is Han Seolyu, Han Seolyu!
If she notices any of this perverted stuff I’m thinking…
“Hey, fuck, you pervert.”
“……!”
That low, educated tone of hers made my heart drop like a trained dog.
“If someone asks, answer properly. Haa, fuck. In a year I haven’t seen her, how the hell did you get even more pathetic? Huh?”
“S-sorry.”
I lowered my head.
Shame and embarrassment… and that little bit of pleasure I can’t tell anyone about rose up.
Right now, this situation is too pathetic for me.
I said I’m fine even if I die right now.
My brain’s broken.
Life’s boring.
And then Han Seolyu’s sharp words make my heart beat however it wants.
‘That’s the kind of feeling it is.’
In a way, maybe my brain broke not from all the dopamine and shorts.
Maybe it was because of those girlfriends from the same orphanage who stuck to me every day as pickled radish or bread stander.
“So, are you ready?”
“Umm… not yet. There’s still time till the appointment, right?”
“Yeah, I guess. Tch.”
Han Seolyu clicked her tongue lightly, took off her shoes, and walked into the narrow one-room apartment.
She sat on the corner of my bed that hadn’t even been made and smelled like old cum, crossing her short legs with her small body looking completely different.
And with that indifferent look, I felt that sharp gaze watching me along with the surroundings.
“Hey, pervert.”
“Yeah.”
“Clean the house properly. It stinks to death.”
“……Yeah. Sorry.”
“It’s fine.”
Thud.
Han Seolyu stretched her short legs and lightly patted the back of my head.
“Hurry up and shower. There’s a little time till the appointment, but it’s better to go outside than stay here.”
“Yeah, got it.”
“Even though I’m wearing a mask, it feels gross!”
“……I’ll go shower.”
—Clank.
I ran to the bathroom like I was fleeing.
—Click.
And unlike usual, I locked the door.
Today, I’m not alone in this house.
“Huu—”
I took off my clothes and let out a deep sigh I didn’t know why.
“Kim Bintae this trash bastard……”
I cursed at myself.
I never thought.
Her panties were bulging and sticking out.
The moment I got patted on the back by Han Seolyu’s foot, it got hard.
Thanks to that, I had to be careful when I stood up.
To hide the erection.
‘She smells good.’
And that wasn’t all.
At 171 cm, I’m pretty short for a guy, but compared to tiny Han Seolyu, it just felt… cuter.
#Small breasts.
#Small height.
#Pussy that probably looks narrow.
#What sound will she make when I put my dick in with that mask on……?
“Haa, fuck. I should die like me.”
I said that, but…
Completely ignoring the hatred for myself.
—Sshaaaaah.
I immediately turned the shower to the strongest setting.
Inside the sound, I used my right hand to stroke my already hard dick up and down.
“Haa, haa……”
As expected.
The “tickle” I used was—
Han Seolyu who came to my house today.
“Hey, pervert.”
I chewed on Han Seolyu’s voice.
And I even imagined her outfit, and her smell.
Ah, of course, my name is not pervert, it’s “Bintae.”
But the girls who grew up with me in the orphanage all called me “pervert.”
Over time I realized they probably figured out I’m a real pervert.
“Ugh—”
Squish—
I splattered a bunch of cum on the bathroom wall.
Imagining her tight pussy cumming so much on me made the load come out pretty big.
And I felt a little satisfied.
A little letdown came, but…… with Han Seolyu, I could probably do it twice, three times in a row.
‘Later, after the appointment ends, I’ll have to pull out more.’
I washed my still-hard dick clean with the shower, roughly washed my hair, shaved, and used body wash.
Today was the once-a-year outing day.
Exactly, the day we all meet face to face with the girls from the orphanage.
Just the three girls plus me.
Only four of us.
Srrk, srrk srrk—
Normally I would run out of the bathroom naked, but today I wiped my body inside the bathroom, changed clothes, and came outside.
—Click.
I opened the door and saw Han Seolyu still sitting on the bed in her slippers, staring at her phone.
“……”
She heard my sound.
Han Seolyu’s head turned this way.
With that indifferent look she always has, she stared at me, and my heart started pounding just from that.
And…… it got hard again.
‘Did I get caught for getting a little close to myself while showering?’
Other girls would’ve been fine.
They’re not that observant.
But Han Seolyu is the only genius in the orphanage.
A very smart girl.
She’s quick to notice things.
“……Was it clean? You showered way too fast compared to what I thought.”
“Eh…?”
I felt my heart skip a little at her question, but I relaxed a little.
Thinking back.
Even back at the orphanage, it took the girls a while to shower.
“I showered as clean as possible.”
“Compared to that, you look way too ugly. Pervert.”
“……”
That one actually hurt.
But it was a fact.
If I had been born handsome enough to slap an actress’s cheek while walking by, or had superior physical stats or talent…
I would’ve immediately gone after Han Seolyu and the girls I use as girlfriends without hesitation.
And I’d probably make one of them spread her pussy for me.
“……”
But the reason I’ve stayed a virgin until now, even though I’m this lewd pervert who thinks such filthy thoughts…
Is because I’m ugly with a face that’s hard to get like from any woman.
And I also have zero sense of humor to make women happy.
“Wearing clothes like that.”
“……”
“Cut your hair too.”
She’s been saying that since the orphanage.
Other girls would just scold me purely.
But Han Seolyu always gave me advice that secretly helped me.
I just never listened once.
So she gave up on me too.
“Ugh, fine. With your lazy personality, when are you gonna choose clothes, and when are you going to the salon? Just getting a clean cut at a nearby salon would be lucky enough.”
“……”
“But at least dress up a little. That way I might feel like looking at you.”
“There’s no one to look at me anyway.”
“…That’s true too.”
Han Seolyu nodded.
Then she stood up and put her shoes back on.
“…What.”
Her platform heels were insanely high.
Not a lie, about 8… no, 11 centimeters…
“With this, it’s not a scam… kuh!”
“Shut up, you fucking pervert!”
It seemed hard for her to put the shoes on.
Han Seolyu pouted and stuck her foot out at me.
“Put them on for me.”
“Yeah.”
It was the familiar sight, the familiar procedure.
In a way, it was completely natural to me with Han Seolyu, and to me.
We grew up like that.
I was skilled at putting Han Seolyu’s shoes on, and while doing it, I secretly peeked up her black stockings and skirt to see her cute panties.
Of course, Han Seolyu has no idea.
She has no idea I even peeked at her panties.
Anyway, what kind of magic do women’s panties have to steal a man’s gaze so much……?
I wasn’t even putting panties in the assassination mission for nothing.
“Haa, let’s go.”
The department store with the movie theater isn’t that far.
15 minutes on the bus.
About an hour on foot.
So instead of the bus, we decided to walk while enjoying a slow stroll.
Saving on transport costs.
Getting some exercise.
And besides, even if we get there early, there’s nothing to shop for at the department store.
Whenever we four met, it always felt like this.
Me and Han Seolyu sticking together a lot, and the other two girls getting along perfectly.
That’s why I guess my feelings for Han Seolyu are even stronger.
‘Haa, fuck…… right now I want to tear Han Seolyu’s stockings, spread her legs, and rub my face in her pussy.’
Just as I was thinking that, the moment I stepped out of the front door.
[The world has ended.]
The world has ended.
Was it because of me?