4. Lover
4. Lover
"...So this is the effect of the ability I gained."
A long explanation was necessary.
Sitting on the bed with Eunji, I confessed without hiding what kind of state I'm currently in.
The terrible thing is that even the process of confessing that I've become aroused by twisted delusions... was thrilling.
I've been talking for over five minutes, but the fact that I'm still rock hard is pathetic.
"S-so... Oppa, you keep thinking about painful situations?"
"Yeah."
"And in those delusions, there's always... me."
"...That's right."
Eunji seems a bit flustered, but she's thinking with a fairly serious expression.
She's probably trying to figure out how she can help me.
"Then, it's true that... doing it with me normally isn't as good for you as having those painful fantasies, right?"
"...Sorry."
"Y-you don't need to be sorry! It's not like you did anything wrong."
"At the hospital, it just ended with a delusion about touching breasts... but it seems to be getting worse little by little."
The degree of the delusions is gradually worsening.
I need to find a way, just as the doctor advised.
I must achieve a definitive release so I can stop these delusions filled with disgusting desires.
"...Oppa."
"Yeah?"
"I want to be of help to you, Oppa... but I know almost nothing about this kind of stuff."
"I know. About that."
"But still, I can do anything you ask, Oppa."
Eunji's expression as she holds my hand and looks up at me is quite serious.
Anything. Eunji isn't someone who doesn't know the weight of those words.
"The fact that I appear in all of your painful fantasies means you like me that much, right?"
"...Yeah."
"Because you don't want to lose me... like you said, because you don't want to be taken away."
At the word "taken," my heart thumps loudly once.
I don't want to lose Eunji... but the situation of being taken feels so incredibly attractive.
"So, Oppa, just be honest with me."
"About what?"
"Just, anything... what you're fantasizing about, what you want."
"You'll be disappointed if you hear it."
The answer came without hesitation.
My delusions are only on their third iteration.
And in just three times, my girlfriend in the delusion was taken by another man.
Comparing myself to that man, belittling myself as inferior.
"I won't be disappointed."
"......."
I couldn't respond to Eunji's incredibly serious answer.
"If anything, if you had tried to hide this from me... I would have been disappointed."
"Why?"
"That would mean you don't trust me! Even though you know how much I like you..."
Eunji, with her cheeks puffed out, is adorable.
Right. She's a lover who tries so hard for me... I should be honest too.
I can't resolve this alone. I need Eunji's help.
...Let's start by confessing the most shameful and embarrassing desire.
"A-anyway! What do you want me to do, Oppa?"
"You said... you could do anything?"
"Yeah!"
"...What if I said I wanted you to come back after getting fucked by Matthew-ssi?"
I squeezed my eyes shut.
To avoid Eunji's eyes as she looks at me affectionately? Of course, that's true too.
But the bigger reason was to face the delusions that rise up beyond the pitch-black darkness when I close my eyes.
"......."
"......."
Again, the delusion continues.
The miserable delusion that had been paused by the sound of Eunji calling me.
The painful, yet equally ecstatic delusion of Eunji being taken by a man stronger than me.
Paang-!
__ "Hi, geu-eup-♡ Huu, hu, hua-♡ Ha, haa-♡"
Eunji's breathing, as she lies prone on the bed pinned under Matthew-ssi, trembles erotically.
It's breathless and precarious. The feeling of her barely holding on is evident.
Every time Matthew-ssi's fingers, which have already grabbed and are clutching Eunji's breasts, dig inside, her breathing deepens.
While having such a delusion, I... tell the Eunji next to me what I am seeing.
"What if I wanted to see you... under Matthew-ssi, who is much stronger than me, having sex that feels much better than the sex you had with me, trying to hold back the pleasure but being unable to help but keep cumming because it feels too good?"
___Paang-! Paang, paang, paang-!_
Matthew-ssi's thrusts become faster and faster.
With him inserted so deeply that the soft flesh of her buttocks is pressed and squashed, as he presses down heavily on her waist,
"Oh-♡ O, oho-ooh♡ Oh♡ Oh♡ Oooo♡"
Eunji cums, letting out obscene and lewd moans I've never heard before.
She buried her face in the bed, but she can't hide her parrrr-♡ trembling waist and heaving buttocks.
She tries to run away from the unfamiliar pleasure, but Eunji, pinned down helplessly by the rough strength and weight, is... cumming.
After a long while, the expression on Eunji's face as she barely lifts her head is a bit unfamiliar, yet horny.
...Yeah. Horny. Incredibly so.
"What if I wanted to see you cumming over and over again from Matthew-ssi's cock, to the point where the sex you had with me feels bland?"
"...Oppa."
I opened my eyes.
The delusion... is over. I belatedly discover myself with my mouth open, gasping for air.
And Eunji, sitting next to me... is blushing profusely, feeling embarrassed.
"I, the se... that I do with you, Oppa... that's the best."
"......."
"That will never change."
"...Sorry."
"I, I didn't mean to hear you say sorry, I mean... what I'm saying is..."
Eunji, hesitating, turns her body slightly and bows her head toward my ear.
It's just us here anyway, but she lowers her voice as if whispering and speaks in a small voice.
"Maybe doing it with me... could feel better for you than the delusion, too...?"
"......."
"...Because you have to compare it directly to know."
That's true.
I... had only been obsessing over the delusions, focused only on how that sense of defeat, pain, and inferiority turned into a chilling pleasure.
Forgetting that Eunji is right here, looking only at me.
Eunji, who mustered up all her courage to try her own way of seduction, quickly pulled her body back.
"If you keep having those delusions even after doing it with me..."
"Then?"
"...I'll seriously consider it. Doing it... like in your delusions."
"......."
"And the most important thing! Even if we do something like that, I'll still... be with you, Oppa."
It means she wants to help me resolve my painful delusions while still loving me and being loved by me.
I don't know if there's a better way than this.
Eunji... my lover, is the best.
"Thank you. Really."
"If you're thankful... a-are you aware? Oppa."
I might be a bit dense, but I'm not clueless.
I immediately grab Eunji and collapse onto the bed.
Whatever the reason, I had been erect for a long time, and there was no reason to hesitate.
I sit between Eunji's legs, as if kneeling.
"I-it's okay to do it right away, Oppa..."
"...Eunji."
Eunji, looking at me as if she's a bit nervous, but inwardly expectant.
Her appearance has changed a little, but Eunji is still my lovely lover.
Gently, slowly... I insert.
"Eu... eu, ung...♡ Ha, haa... hu, ah...♡"
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah... it feels so, so good...♡"
A warm and sticky sensation wraps around my cock.
The tight hole tightens to the fullest, biting me kwaaaak-♡ and wriggling slowly.
This pleasure, which grows as I continue to insert while gently thrusting my waist forward, is definitely on par with the delusions.
"Hu, hueu, eut...♡ Haa, ha..."
Listening to her breathing becoming more ragged, I continue to move my waist.
Every time I thrust my cock in, Eunji's breasts, swaying heavily, catch my gaze.
Still, what stands out the most is her expression, her gaze, her face.
"Huuu, hu, haa-♡ O, Oppa, hand, hand...♡"
"Yeah. Hand..."
Eunji has a habit of wanting to hold hands when she's about to feel good, that is, when her climax is near.
I've always thought it was a very cute habit... it's still the same.
Love shared while looking at each other, holding hands, fingers interlaced.
As expected, I need Eunji.
So, I must try not to become a pathetic man who wants to have Eunji taken away while being swayed by delusions.
"Oppa, I, I...♡ Heu, euut-♡ Ha, haeu, eup-♡"
"It's okay."
I continue to thrust slowly and carefully. With my flesh pressed against the body of my lover, whom I could never get tired of.
Then, when Eunji's climax is near, I thrust my waist deep down and then press down gently, kku-uuk-.
Looking at me until the end, Eunji's insides, as she gasps for breath, tremble as if convulsing.
"Hi, eup-♡ Ha, haa, ha-♡ Hu, hueu... eu, eut...♡"
"Keuk...."
The tightening that grips my cock jjoooook-♡ as if begging me to love her quickly is hard to endure.
Actually, there's no need to endure or hold back.
I ejaculate right inside Eunji, whose insides are softly loosened, filled with sticky love fluids.
"...Haa. Ha... haa."
"H, how was it... Oppa? W, was it good...?"
"...I think I'll know if I try one more time."
"...♡"
I move my waist again without letting go of her hand.
Which feels better, the delusion or now... I don't really want to compare right now.
Right now, I just want to focus solely on Eunji and love her.
So that this feeling of never wanting to have her taken away can become even more firm.