14. Body
14. Body
There was nothing bad about listening to the doctor.
Ever since receiving the diagnosis, I've been trying my best to suppress my delusions.
The reason was because of what he said about how a tolerance to stimulation develops within the trait.
"......."
Like this, whenever I sat quietly at home with a blank mind, delusions would slowly creep up.
Ever since Eunji's official debut, delusions of Eunji wearing her Suit and grinding her hips on top of Matthew-ssi became more frequent.
...On top of a man stronger than me, dressed in an outfit more obscene and wearing an expression even more lewd than what she ever showed me.
If I were to make a request with the same contents just to suppress this delusion... and if Eunji accepted that request.
Since I would end up craving even greater stimulation after that, I must endure it as much as possible.
It would be better to make another request with less stimulation instead... but no suitable delusion comes to mind.
Beep- ttik, ttik, ttik, ttik-
Eunji had returned.
Since I hadn't told her yet that the delusions had started again recently, I must act as calm as possible.
Having returned home today after finishing her daily routine as a Hero, Eunji clearly looked exhausted at a glance.
"Huaaa... My back feels like it's go, going to break..."
"Good work today. Want some coffee?"
"Mmm... First, let me ta, take this off...!"
Eunji groaned while peeling off her Suit.
Perhaps because she was sweaty, the Suit stuck to her skin and didn't seem to come off easily.
"Uuugh... Oppa, can you un-zipper the back for me...?"
"Sure. Hold on."
Since it was hard for her hands to reach her back, I had helped her out like this several times before.
As I pulled down the zipper and Eunji pulled the Suit from the front, her pure white, smooth back was revealed completely.
"How was today?"
"Today... there were no major mistakes! People seem to expect a lot since I'm S-Class, though..."
"That just means you're that strong, Eunji."
"I-I get embarrassed when you praise me like that! I'm still just... just Eunji. Not Hayes, but Eunji."
Even if she wasn't deployed to missions like suppressing or tracking Villains yet because she was a rookie, a Hero was still a Hero.
Jumping between rooftops while patrolling the downtown area was also still an awkward and unfamiliar job for Eunji.
"Haaaa... It's all off. I'll change quickly and be right back, Oppa?"
"Take your time."
The limp Suit held in Eunji's arms looked like a shell left behind after molting.
Slightly covering her body with that shell, Eunji quickly scampered into the bathroom.
Finishing her outfit change after a light shower was also quick.
"Phew! Now I finally feel alive."
"Want to eat if you're hungry? Or some coffee?"
"Mmm..."
Crossing her arms and contemplating deeply, the answer Eunji brought out was,
"A massage!"
"A massage? Where?"
"Just everywhere. My whole body is so stiff..."
It was an old story, but even before Eunji awakened, I used to give her massages often.
In truth, I had no certification and just kneaded and tapped here and there casually, but I had never done it half-heartedly.
Eunji had liked it quite a bit and asked for it from time to time... Hearing it after such a long time made me feel a little nostalgic.
"Alright, then."
"Hehehe... Hurry up, let's go."
Grabbing my hand and tugging me toward her room, I follow Eunji to the bed.
Eunji, who collapsed face down onto the bed with a plop, slightly rolled up her shirt and quietly waited for me.
I also get up onto the bed, place my hands on Eunji's lower back, and begin the massage while pressing down carefully.
"You know if you strain your back, you'll suffer for a long time, right? Be careful."
"Of course! Even when I work out at the Association, I do warm-up exercises super meticulously."
"Wearing that Suit means you can't even apply pain relief patches."
Sharing casual conversations, I gradually move the hands that were pressing her back further upward.
Next is... the shoulders.
I had heard before that women with large breasts often get stiff shoulders.
If so, Eunji must have suffered quite a bit.
"Relax your muscles."
"Ugh... U-Uh-huh... Huuu."
Every time I press between her neck and shoulder, a slightly erotic sound comes out of Eunji's mouth.
It's a completely normal sound that comes out during a massage. Let's not misunderstand.
"A-A little more... There, press harder there."
"Here?"
"N-Ngh."
My hands are on the smaller side.
Eunji used to like them, saying they were delicate and pretty hands... but at times like this, they aren't very helpful.
They can't even fully wrap around her shoulders, nor can they apply enough pressure to loosen Eunji's muscles.
"Knead my waist too, pleaseee..."
"Alright, alright. Got it."
The smooth, pure white lower back revealed when slightly rolling up her shirt.
And visible beside it... her breasts.
"......."
"...Oppa?"
I drifted off into another thought for a moment.
...It was a shameful, pathetic display, so much so that I didn't even want to recall what I was thinking about.
"S-Sorry. I'll keep going."
"...Mm."
Placing my hands on Eunji's waist, I feel a flinch and a subtle trembling motion.
Her skin is soft and warm.
"N-Not there, a bit higher."
"Here?"
"Hi-Higher... Higher up."
Eunji says, pulling her own shirt upward.
Then, she pulls it up so much that the shirt goes completely above her breasts, and buries her face deep into the pillow.
"......."
Eunji doesn't say a word, but her ears are bright red.
Is this... her own kind of seduction, or something?
"...U-Ugh!"
"...?"
Suddenly making a strange sound, Eunji sits up abruptly, flips her body around, and lies back down with her back against the bed.
With her shirt still hitched up above her breasts, Eunji looks straight at me.
"...Y-You can touch them however you want, Oppa..."
"......."
"Since it seemed like you were st-staring at them continuously."
...I obviously knew that Eunji's breasts belonged on the fairly large side.
They were breasts any man would want to touch.
I, of course, am also a man.
"N-Ngh...♡ Hu, huuu...♡"
"......."
Eunji has rather sensitive breasts.
Just by softly grasping her breasts like this, Eunji lets out slow, deep, and sweet breaths.
Feeling the squishy, soft flesh against my hands feels good enough, but...
If these breasts, which any man would want to touch as I thought earlier, were presented in front of Matthew-ssi.
"...Haaah."
His palms are larger, wider, and firmer than mine.
His grip strength would be at an embarrassing level to even compare.
Just having such a hand land firmly on top of these breasts would make Eunji tense up, feeling that something is different.
"......."
But the real thing is the moment her breasts are caught in that powerful grasp, squeezed and kneaded to the point of crumpling.
Crushed and squashed by a power she couldn't feel from my hands, Eunji's breasts... would definitely feel pleasure.
Even now, she gets a subtle sense of pleasure just from me touching her so gently like this.
What if Matthew-ssi's firm, thick fingers dig deep into the flesh of her breasts, crushing Eunji's chest?
"O-♡ O-Ooh, ohh-♡ Hu♡ Hu, huuu-♡"
...Panting heavily, she would jerk her hips. Cumming pathetically, with her pretty face completely distorted.
After having her breasts kneaded and tormented like that, if she returned to me... and I touched her in this exact same way.
Would Eunji really be able to feel as good as she does now?
"O... Oppa?"
"...Ah."
Eunji, who had been trembling while having her breasts held by Matthew-ssi's large hands, vanishes,
and instead, Eunji lying in front of me, blinking her big eyes and looking up at me, returns into my view.
"Did you... get weird thoughts again?"
"...Sorry."
"A-Ah, no! I told you that you don't need to be sorry..."
"......."
"What were you thinking about...? You pr-promised to tell me without hiding anything."
"...Imagining what it would be like if it were Matthew-ssi touching your breasts instead of me."
I confess honestly without hiding it.
Ever since before, whenever I confessed my hideous delusions, a sharp, tingling, yet addictive pain began to be felt.
"M-My breasts?"
"Yeah."
"......."
When I made the request at first... back then, nothing happened thanks to Eunji and Matthew-ssi's lie, but.
Back then, Eunji set a condition that there would be no unnecessary physical contact.
But now, the situation has changed.
Eunji had already sucked Matthew-ssi's dick five times in two days, and even swallowed all of his semen.
"Your breasts are very... sensitive, aren't they?"
"Th-That's true..."
"How it feels different when I touch them versus when Matthew-ssi touches them... who makes you feel better."
"Th-That's obviously better with you, Oppa!"
The possibility of that might be extremely small... but still, I want to hear it. The difference.
...And one more thing.
"One more thing... I'd like you to check for me."
"...What is it?"
"When touching your breasts, if Matthew-ssi...."
"I-I'm just considering it like getting a massage! Got it?"
"Right."
"Just like when Oppa does it for me... Muscles that got knotted from exercising! Stiff areas!"
"I understand."
Today is a day when Eunji doesn't go out on downtown patrol, but receives training at the Association.
That means it's a day with the right conditions to fulfill the request I made yesterday.
"...When I come back today, I'm going to get one from Oppa again."
"Get what?"
"A massage!"
Would doing that really make her forget being touched by Matthew-ssi?
If anything, it feels like it would become a time of comparison that makes me even more pathetic.
"...Then, I'll be back."
"See you later."
"......."
"Why?"
"Ah... No. See you later, Oppa! I love you!"
"I love you too."
Once Eunji leaves for work, my time alone begins.
Left at home, I must now fight against my delusions.
As the doctor said, this is the first step toward slowly and gradually raising the stimulation.
Eunji, who said at first that there would be no touching of her body, accepted the request to have her breasts touched and come back.
Bit by bit, I increase the intensity of skinship. I increase the intensity of stimulation.
Bit by bit... I permit and lend my lover's body to another man.
Eunji, whose breasts are especially sensitive—what does an orgasm brought by the hands of a man who isn't me feel like?
"Huuu... ha."
Truthfully, in my heart, I want to ask her to go have sex with Matthew-ssi while wearing her Suit, just like in the first delusion I saw.
But if I tasted such torment already, I, and we... would be ruined into a mess before long.
So for now, just this much. With this degree of delusion and this degree of request.
Until Eunji returns after having her breasts and parts of her body touched... no, massaged by Matthew-ssi's hands, I wait.