13. Name
13. Name
"...So, I was only able to take two pictures. S... Sorry, oppa."
"...It's okay."
I listened to Eunji's explanation.
Because of a tight schedule, once in the morning, and after receiving training, twice in the car during lunch.
After that, Matthew-ssi left on a business trip, and Eunji returned home after finishing the rest of her training.
There were no gaps in her story. Nothing awkward or contradictory.
However, there was no proof either.
"I guess I'm still not used to th-this kind of thing, so I forgot...."
"That can happen. I... understand."
I understood, but I couldn't fully believe it.
It wasn't that I didn't trust Eunji... it was because such a situation was even more distressing.
The two photos Eunji showed me were simple.
One showed the moment right before they started, and the other showed Eunji in the middle of sucking Matthew-ssi's dick.
An S-Class Hero summoned to the office first thing in the morning, sucking off the Branch Manager.
...All because of her boyfriend's request.
"...Ugh."
"W-what's wrong? Are you okay, oppa?"
I had no way of knowing what happened after that.
What Eunji said was surely true, but... what if it wasn't?
Eunji might have lied about forgetting to take photos because she didn't want to do this anymore.
Or conversely, because she wanted to do it more....
"......."
"...Are you feeling a bit better, oppa? That... delusion."
"...Yeah."
The delusions I had conjured up while waiting at home for Eunji to return had certainly calmed down.
Thanks to Eunji explaining in detail how and where she had buried her face between Matthew-ssi's legs to suck his dick,
and how she swallowed that thick, fishy semen without spilling a drop.
"Could you... tell me one more time?"
"Huh? What?"
"...How it was when you swallowed it in the car."
"......."
Eunji blushed, looking embarrassed.
Her shy appearance was certainly cute and lovely. But....
How ruined must that pretty face have been while eagerly sucking a thick dick inside a narrow car with just the two of them?
Was it painful for her? Or maybe... could she have enjoyed it even just a little?
...Just imagining it was painful enough.
"Th-that is... before Matthew-ssi comes, his dick wriggles and gets super hard."
"......."
"He said it'd be a problem if it spilled onto the car seat, so I slightly pursed my lips so it wouldn't spill..."
"...And then?"
"And then if I s-slightly move my tongue... it just pours into my mouth."
"......."
"Actually, rather than the mouth... it goes straight down my throat...?"
The thick, gooey semen climbing up the thick, long shaft filling Eunji's mouth poured straight into her throat.
Unable to lift her head, unable to part her lips. Eunji swallowed all of it... whole.
Even right now, who knows.
Inside the belly of Eunji as she talks to me, Matthew-ssi's thick semen might still be pooling in abundance.
Although the delusions had stopped, I couldn't stop my thoughts from spiraling in a miserable direction.
The only thing I could block was the agonizing scenes vivid in my head.
"It was hard to even breathe, so I kept... for a long time, just swallowing it like that, swallowing and swallowing."
"You did that in the car... twice?"
"Yeah. Twice."
"......."
"Huh? Why, oppa...?"
"Really... twice?"
"O-of course twice!"
Yeah. Of course she only did it twice.
But that wasn't the kind of honest answer I wanted to hear.
"...Eunji-ya."
"Hmm...?"
"Actually... try telling me... that you did it three times, no... even more than that?"
"...What do you mean?"
"I mean I want you to lie to me."
My desire was definitely satisfied right now.
And Eunji had properly fulfilled my request.
However, even if the delusion wasn't being visualised, it could easily branch out.
"N-no! Lying to you, oppa... I don't want to do that."
"...Please. Just this once."
"......."
"I'll stop with this for today."
"...Really just once, okay?"
Reluctantly accepting my request, Eunji narrowed the distance slightly and came closer.
The two of us sat glued to each other on the spacious sofa.
I closed my eyes, but I wasn't visualising a delusion.
I was waiting for the conclusion that would firmly suppress the delusion and my desire to suffer.
"...Y-you know. What I just told you, oppa."
"...Yeah."
"After doing it... twice in the car."
"......."
"M-Matthew-ssi's dick kept... staying hard."
"......."
"And by that point, I... I also got a little... w-wet."
"......."
"...So we did it. In the car."
It was a lie. I clearly knew it was a lie, even while understanding it with my brain....
My dick twitched and trembled as if it would ejaculate at any moment.
A chilling pleasure raced down my waist, enough to give me goosebumps.
"...Ah."
If, just if such a thing had really happened, who would have been the one to initiate it first?
Eunji, who secretly got subtly aroused without realizing it while swallowing thick semen three times?
Or perhaps Eunji, who felt responsible for getting Matthew-ssi so aroused over a request she asked of him?
"Satisfied? Th-that's the end! Ugh, uuu... a lie like this is really, really embarrassing...."
"......."
My dick hardened to the point where I couldn't hide my erection.
The delusion I had dispelled thanks to Eunji's efforts forcefully pushed its way back in, showing me just a single moment, a single scene.
The sight of Eunji riding on top of Matthew-ssi in the cramped car, painstakingly bouncing her hips.
Of course, that delusion vanished completely without a trace right after.
...Eunji said she needed a little preparation.
Then when would be the moment this comes not as a delusion, but as reality....
"...Oppa."
"...Yeah."
"By any chance... do you want to do it with your mouth too, oppa...?"
Eunji glanced down at the front of my pants, then quietly shifted her eyes up to meet mine.
The fact that my arousal had been caught was shameful, but at the same time... somehow thrilling.
"Sh-should I do it for you...?"
"......."
"No, it's just that... as we kept talking, it seemed like you liked it, oppa, so...."
Eunji was making a slight misunderstanding.
I wasn't aroused by talking about fellatio.
I was aroused by the fact that you, my girlfriend, spent half the day sucking Matthew-ssi's dick three times.
"I'm fine."
"Really? Ah... okay."
"...It's not because I don't want you doing it."
Right now, I get aroused by suffering. And I love Eunji.
That's why I get turned on by situations where Eunji surrenders her body to another man.
I anticipate whether Eunji might be taken away by Matthew-ssi, who is superior to me in every way.
...As expected, I want to get rid of this trait as soon as possible.
"O-of course I know, oppa! I... even though it's embarrassing, until you get cured, I'll keep... trying hard."
"......."
Before long, I felt like I would delude myself into something even worse than today, and end up wanting it.
If I bring it up before Eunji gets mentally prepared like she said, how would she react?
Would she be disappointed in me?
...Or maybe I want to see even that side of her.
Today was finally the day Eunji made her official debut as a hero.
I heard she would be holding a press conference together with the Branch Manager, Matthew-ssi.
I wanted to attend as well, but I was dissuaded under the premise that the villain from last time might reappear.
"Seungyoon-ssi. Your regular check-up date is still far off, but you came a bit early."
"...Yes. The trait is... harsher than I thought."
Instead, I came to the treatment center attached to the Association.
Because I doubted myself on whether I was truly enduring it well.
Not to mention, I kind of... hated myself for growing more and more lustful even while making such requests to Eunji.
"Hmm... Actually, there's nothing strange about the symptoms you mentioned."
"Then... it's normal?"
"Yes. The name 'Delusion - Masochism' itself contains the word masochism, after all."
Masochism. Enjoying suffering.
Should I be thankful that it hasn't reached the level of enjoying physical suffering yet?
"Anyway, looking at today's test results, there are two notable points."
"...Please tell me."
"First, one good news. The mental contamination level from the delusions has decreased."
"Then...."
"Yes. I don't know what method you found, Seungyoon-ssi, but in any case, it means it's working."
Saying that it's working is equivalent to saying I'll have to keep repeating this act in the future.
It was terrible, yet good news.
"Then the other one is...."
"This one is closer to bad news, so I'm hesitant to say it."
"......."
"Regarding your trait, Seungyoon-ssi, a resistance that wasn't discovered during the last test has been found."
"What does that mean?"
"It means it will gradually become harder to suppress the delusions with the same stimulus."
It certainly wasn't good news, but it wasn't particularly surprising either.
While it was true that the delusions calmed down after hearing the story Eunji shared yesterday,
I had also harbored a tiny expectation right after, wondering if we would end up doing something even worse next.
Not me, but this... this trait.
"So, while continuing to use your method, Seungyoon-ssi, I recommend gradually increasing the intensity to add more stimulation."
"My... method."
"Yes. You said it was difficult to talk about, but that you found a way to suppress the delusions, right? And it actually works."
"...I understand."
"Great. Feel free to drop by anytime, even if there are no special symptoms."
When I finished the consultation and stepped out into the waiting room, I saw a TV hanging on the wall for people to watch while waiting.
The ongoing news happened to be broadcasting the moment Eunji and Matthew-ssi stood before countless cameras.
'Hero Association Seoul Branch Officially Announces New S-Class Hero - Code Name: "Hayes"'
The news caption announced Eunji's new name.
Dressed in new clothes, alongside a new name, tension and excitement could be seen on Eunji's face as she prepares to live the life of a hero.
Beside her, Matthew-ssi wore a solemn expression filled with dignity, as always.
"......."
Could the reporters over there even imagine?
That just yesterday, that new hero sucked off the Branch Manager standing beside her three whole times.
"The outfit suits you well...."
A muttered word that slipped out unconsciously.
I truly thought it suited her well. Both the new clothes and the new name.
Then, sex while wearing those new clothes and having that new name... who would it suit better to have it with?
Me? Or that man standing right beside her?
"...Ha."
I want to know.
All delusions begin somewhere between suspicion and curiosity.