Fool
The sound of her wetting the blanket was raw and unfiltered, unmistakable.
“… Noona, you’ve really done it now. Once you taste this, you won’t be able to satisfy with any other guy… Now I have no choice but to live with you for the rest of my life.”
Her voice was thick with laughter, and her expression formed naturally. A bright smile as if the sky had cleared after rain. Her face was filled with joy, joy, and yet more joy—the pure happiness of her twisted love finally being fulfilled.
“Alright, noona. Two!”
“Twooo… ul!”
Even though she could never escape, the highly addictive drug only made it more certain. This pleasure could belong to no one but herself. Only I could witness her disheveled state like this.
Her twisted affection was evident in every cruel strike. She was a swamp once she fell in, and worse—she was an alligator living in that swamp. Trying to escape from within would mean the hunter cutting off her breath.
… Only after becoming addicted to the drug did I finally understand her true nature, and the realization was nothing but bitter and infuriating.
“Hold on well, noona. Alright, five!”
Thanks to the drug, I endured her beating with perfect smoothness, and it was precisely when the fifth strike landed.
Crack!
“Kuoooook!”
An intense pain so overwhelming I didn’t even consider enduring it, a shrill scream like a pig’s squeal tore from my throat. Consciousness fading, repeating, memories slipping away in horrifying agony.
I realized the drug’s effect was wearing off. I had sworn to myself it would only be used once, but in the face of such pain, my own vow meant nothing.
“Alright, noona. Six!”
“Alright, stop! Stop! Stop! Stop, stop, stop, stop!”
“… Why?”
Before the sound of the wind cutting through, I shouted at her.
She was irritated by the interrupted flow, her voice sharp, but it no longer mattered to me. The only thing that mattered was erasing the scorching heat as if lava had touched the front of her buttocks. It hurt enough to kill. Hot. Too hot.
“Ya, yaak, I’m tearing… Yaak, give it…”
“… This drug has a bit of addiction, so hitting you twice in a row might be a bit dangerous, but are you okay?”
On the subject of not knowing what to do because she wanted to set the drug down, she still spoke with concern.
I nodded my head madly at her acting. I felt the danger with my entire body. But the pain in my buttocks came first. I didn’t want to imagine receiving the remaining punishment without the injection.
“… Noona, the needle marks on your arm aren’t that bad. After today’s punishment ends, you shouldn’t do such things again.”
That was truly fortunate. If she injected me with drugs, I would have lived as a drug addict for the rest of my life. But if she didn’t, I wouldn’t have been able to endure it forcibly.
So only today. Using the drug’s energy to safely finish the punishment and enjoy the ecstasy I had never felt before.
Her needle pierced my vein once more, and the transparent liquid began flowing in.
“Haa… ugh…”
The pleasure was still wonderful. My head spun dizzily… It felt as if a cloud bed existed in the world and I had thrown my exhausted body onto it. Guiding my drowsy body into a warm hot spring, I felt gently massaged on my buttocks.
I knew this sensation was false, yet I refused to give up. I didn’t want the effect to wear off.
Her beating continued. I couldn’t move, receiving the strikes to my buttocks, and thanks to the drug I endured.
After the injection, one, two, three, four, five hits to the buttocks, the horrific pain I had felt earlier began seeping up from my buttocks as the drug effect faded.
Since I could no longer refuse the drug, I received it one more time and endured another beating. One drug per five strikes.
Later, tolerance set in and the effect began wearing off faster, so with one drug per three strikes I barely managed to finish the total thirty hits.
“………”
My appearance after the beating was so horrific it couldn’t even be described as tragic. It was no different from utter disgrace.
It wasn’t a major incident with blood, but the wounds were severe. My buttocks were already purple and swollen, and having been held in one position for so long, my joints were also not normal.
After the punishment ended, she released my restraints, but I still couldn’t loosen my posture. Like a stone, I couldn’t move.
There was no place where strength entered my body. I was so exhausted I wanted to faint, yet thanks to the drug my mind remained clear.
In the end, she who could do no better laid me down straight. Accepting that she had placed ice under my buttocks was either her kindness or, at the very least, minimal conscience.
… This curiosity was now unimportant.
I knew something.
Since the effect hadn’t worn off yet, I could accurately assess my situation. When this effect faded, I would become a fool. I had a conviction that my body would become unable to perform even simple addition and subtraction.
When the timer set for the time limit ended, my head would become a fool, and to maintain this state I would have to receive continuous drugs. But she would never do that.
…. She actually knew everything.
The fact that I didn’t love her.
She had known that fact for a long time, and finally she had pulled out the solution today.
No matter what means, she would make me love her.
If I didn’t get my buttocks beaten, she would rip out my eyeballs, subtly threatening, and pretending to help, she pulled out the drugs. I had no choice, but from the beginning her plan had been to administer the drugs.
“… Yes. Noona’s thoughts are all correct.”
Surprised by her reaction as if she had read my thoughts, I looked at her, and she was smiling subtly. It was a blatant winner’s smile. No matter the process, the victor could assume that posture.
It didn’t match her at all, who had always lived as if being chased by something.
“… Actually, I knew. That noona doesn’t love me. I couldn’t not know that you’re pretending to love me because you’re scared of me.”
I had thought she wouldn’t know. I had thought she was just a person—a rich house daughter with plenty of money but lacking common sense.
I had thought of her like that.
But now it seemed like a truly foolish thought. If she had been that simple, many people wouldn’t have followed her. Unusually many powers wouldn’t have rolled in by themselves to a simple person.
“… But… now it doesn’t matter. After today, noona will completely become a fool. She’ll be a vegetable. Actually, the drug noona hit me with isn’t a gentle drug. It’s a drug that intensively overheats the frontal lobe and hippocampus, so without me you’ll live a life where you can’t even tell shit from poop. Haa… Noona who can’t tell shit from poop without me… How thrilling is this… Ah… It seems like I’ll go crazy from ecstasy…”
“…. Crazy… years. You’ve gone crazy properly…”
“Yes. I’ve been properly crazy about noona for a long time.”
Even though she would never accept words she usually wouldn’t, she just laughed. It seemed she couldn’t stop the smile leaking out because the future was too exciting.
“What should I teach the fool noona first. Should I go towards the forbidden love between mom and daughter. Or should I turn the course towards the dangerous love between siblings. Ah… The reality that I can only choose one is too horrifying… If this was a game, I would press the save button here…”
“… You’ll receive punishment someday…”
“So, I’ll do everything I can as noona and die. Good noona will go to heaven and I’ll go to hell. So please get along with me as much as possible in this life.”
“… I’ll curse you.”
“… On such a good day, should I blush? If you don’t want to see ugly faces until the last day, it’s better to sleep, noona.”
I hated myself. I never wanted to sleep. I was already scared about what situation would come when I woke up with eyes open.
But the effect wasn’t eternal, and as it slowly faded, the hot pain from my buttocks rose, and the accumulated fatigue began strongly asserting itself.
… I can’t sleep… can’t sleep…
Somehow I tried to endure sleep, but it was the limit. My eyelids grew heavy as if a thousand pounds, and I couldn’t open my closed eyes.
“… Good night, loving noona.”
She naturally began stroking my hair as she always did.
The last memory before falling asleep.