Love Me, Love Me, Love Me
"Love Me, Love Me, Love Me"
by Kikuo
Bubble, bubble…
I tore open the packet of instant ramen and ripped apart the soup sachet.
Staring at the boiling noodles, I faced reality with a blank expression.
…So right now.
I’d brought a woman back to my tiny studio apartment?
“Jinwoo~ Aren’t you going to blow on the ramen?”
“…..”
…No, seriously?
Even so, after a decent stretch of being single, I knew exactly how these scenarios usually played out.
Eyes would meet, things would escalate…
Actually, the buses had probably stopped running by now. She must have decided to sleep over.
Objectively speaking, this was the moment I needed to keep my head on straight the most.
One mistake here could ruin my entire life.
‘…Just give her the ramen and send her home quickly. Once she’s gone, everything will be fine.’
‘Are you an idiot? This is your chance to graduate from virginity. Pass it up and you’ll stay a pathetic virgin forever.’
The angel and devil inside my head began to clash.
Honestly, the devil seemed overwhelmingly stronger… but I temporarily sealed it away by siding with reason.
“Ooh~ Wow. You’re actually good at boiling ramen.”
“…When you live alone, you end up getting good at it whether you want to or not.”
“Thanks for the meal~”
“…..”
I watched Jia slurp down the noodles and sank into a daze.
She was basically the Korean version of a gyaru character you’d see in manga. Not the fake-tan party-girl type exactly, but she had that older-sister-who-knows-how-to-have-fun vibe.
Of course I knew you shouldn’t judge people by appearances… but my first impression of her had been exactly that.
“….”
“…Then, mind if I use your shower?”
“…Y-yes?!”
“Why are you so surprised? You already knew what this was, right?
…Don’t tell me you’re a virgin?”
“…….”
“Holy shit, for real?”
“…Ah, no… that’s not…”
Jia burst out laughing for a long moment, then her expression shifted into something curious. She took my hand and began pulling me toward the bed.
“I think clumsy, awkward guys are pretty cute, actually.”
…W-wow…
My mouth fell open without permission.
Right in front of me unfolded a scene so violently curvaceous it seemed to defy gravity.
Mmm—
“…Hmm… Where should I start… touching you…?”
Twitch—
Every time her fingertips brushed me, my body reacted with embarrassing sensitivity.
She seemed to find it hilarious and kept poking me, then pulled something from her pocket.
‘…A c-condom?’
This was really happening.
Bzzz— Bzzz—
“…Tsk, who the hell keeps calling? I should just block them.”
Bzzz—
"Get the hell away from there right now, you fucking bitch."
“…..?”
Jia stared at the number for a long time, then finally pressed the answer button and held the phone to her ear.
“…What the hell? Who is this?”
"If you so much as touch him in that state, I swear—"
Beep— Beep— Beep—
“…What… was that?”
“Tsk, some crazy bitch. Must’ve dialed the wrong number.
Hehe… Jinwoo, you really shouldn’t be paying attention to that right now, should you?”
Jia smirked to herself.
Being born a woman was incredibly convenient.
As long as you weren’t completely unfortunate-looking, it was rare for a decent-looking guy to turn down a one-night stand.
The reverse could easily become a sexual assault accusation, but men rarely had their claims taken seriously even if the roles were reversed.
Of course, men who actually refused were extremely rare…
‘This guy’s so uptight… I’m literally offering to take his virginity. This is why virgins are so…’
Jia slowly reached for my waistband, but when she felt my resistance, she smiled and began unbuttoning her blouse instead.
“It’s okay. If you’re a virgin… well, you might feel nervous. Maybe even scared. But don’t worry—big sister will lead the whole way.”
“…..Ah.”
The hand resting on my chest was so soft.
So this was what a woman’s skin felt like—warm and smooth.
The defensive walls I’d built around myself were crumbling. The primitive part of my brain whispered that maybe it was fine to just let things happen.
Before I knew it, Jia had slipped out of my field of vision and was moving lower.
Riiiip—
“…We just met today… This is too sudden…”
“Hehe… You’re going to back out now? After bringing me all the way here? You’re joking, right?
You wanted this too, didn’t you?”
Beep— Beep— Beep— Beep—
“Come on… no need to pull away… You want this too, don’t you?”
“…W-wait… Someone might be outside…”
“Mmm… Stop changing the subject… Focus on me—”
“…..Hey.”
Squeeze.
“…Ugh, kuhk… Kehk…!!”
Thud—
Thud, thud—
“…N-noona?!”
“……Ugh, guh…!! …Uuuugh…!!”
Squeeze—
“…I told you to stay away.”
Jia was suddenly grabbed from behind by a mysterious intruder. She began flailing her arms wildly.
With an arm locked around her throat in a chokehold, her eyes started rolling back as she thrashed desperately.
One second.
Two seconds.
Three seconds.
Four…
Ten seconds passed.
Thump.
“……”
Twitch—
Twitch—
“…Haa.”
Splat—
“…Ugh.”
The full weight of a fifty-kilogram body collapsed onto me like a marionette with its strings cut.
“I was the one… I liked you first… I was first… I was the one who…”
The woman in front of me immediately shoved the unconscious Jia off my body.
She stared at me with the eyes of a madwoman for a long time, then began spitting venom at the collapsed Jia on the floor.
“…You filthy slut. After everything I waited for… I’ll kill you…”
“Are… are you insane? Who the hell are you… I’m calling the police!! Stay back!!!”
“…..Ah—”
I was screwed.
The mysterious woman—who might have been a robber or a lunatic—stared straight at me.
She wasn’t holding a weapon, so she probably wasn’t a murderer… but who was she?
Rustle—
“…Now… you’re finally looking at me…?”
The black mask came off.
In my dizzy vision, familiar eyes, a familiar face… and a familiar voice appeared.
“Sunbae-nim… Jinwoo sunbae… It’s me…”
….…What?
My mind went completely blank.
People say that when you face something too shocking, your head goes white. That was exactly what happened to me—my entire body froze solid.
“…Y-you… No way…?”
“Ahaha♡ What do you mean? It’s me… Yoo Soyeon, freshman in the MM Department…”
Suspicion turned to certainty. Déjà vu twisted into terror and goosebumps.
The encounter in the apartment elevator.
The junior from university.
The waiting room.
…Just how long had this been going on?
Her jet-black hair spilled over my body like a raven’s wings as her face filled my low-angle vision.
“Sun…bae…”
I couldn’t breathe properly.
I shook my spinning head and tried to push her away, struggling to get up from the bed and run.
“Ah, sunbae… sunbae… Jinwoo… Jinwoo sunbae…”
Squeeze…
‘…What the hell? Why can’t I move my body?!’
“…Ugh…!! Let go…!!”
“I’m right here… Why do you keep… trying to run away from me?”
“You told me to wait… You said you’d give me an answer… So I waited…
Then why… are you with another woman?”
“I’m older too… I can change my hair however you want, I can match everything to your tastes. I’ve waited thousands of years, done everything right, so why?”
“Why, why, why, why, why, why, why? Why? Why?”
Damn it, my body wouldn’t move.
Did I really lose in pure strength?
To these thin, pale wrists?
This was impossible… Was my body sluggish because I was drunk?
“…Hic… Ugh… What… do you want from me…”
“Oh my… Calm down, sunbae…
I’m not trying to hurt you… I’m doing what you once did for me… Yes.
I’m saving you.”
…She was completely insane.
This wasn’t something that could be healed or fixed. She was someone who should never have been touched in the first place.
I had to talk her down.
First, I needed to persuade her with words.
Whether it was treatment or anything else, I had to get out of this situation.
“…W-wait… Let’s talk about this.”
I twisted my body immediately, trying to escape, but—
Grab—
Yoo Soyeon instantly seized both my arms, sliding her knee between my legs as she climbed on top of me.
“…Ah, you’re trying to run away again…
You’re trying to disappear from me again…”
“…Let go of me…!!
I’d rather die than date someone like you!!!”
“……”
“……”
“…..Pardon?”
“…..Ah, t-that is.
What I meant was… well…”
A chill ran down my spine.
I stared blankly at Yoo Soyeon’s face.
Her pupils were unfocused, dyed pitch black.
This wasn’t the bright, shining mask she always wore—it was her true nature, her raw desire.
“…..Ah… ha… haha… Is that so…?”
“…W-wait a second.”
This was bad.
The number one rule for victims at a crime scene was to avoid provoking the perpetrator.
I had let my emotions take over and said something far too dramatic.
“…I don’t need it.
Your opinion, sunbae-nim, means nothing to me.”
Crack—!
“Kuhk—!!”
“…Hehe, hmm~ Could you wait just a moment?”
“…Cough, kuhk…!!”
She had struck my throat.
I couldn’t breathe properly.
While I writhed in pain, Yoo Soyeon wore a faint, eerie smile and slowly moved somewhere.
“…Hmm, ah. This should work…”
Along with a humming tune that tickled my ears, her dizzying scent and terrifying face drew closer.
What appeared in my blurring vision next was…
…an incredibly thin syringe.
“……U-ugh… w-wait—”
Slowly. Gently.
Dizzyingly.
The soft touch of her hands cupped both my cheeks.
“I love you…”
Shunk—
My vision grew hazy.
The pain in my throat, my sense of smell, hearing, sight… everything was fading.
“Hah… ugh…”
“There, there. You’re doing so well… Good boy… Mmm…”
“…S…save… me…”
I was terrified. Fuck.
I felt like I might wet myself.
I was scared of whatever strange drug was being pumped into my arm, scared of Yoo Soyeon’s behavior, scared of being overpowered and pinned down—everything was horrifying.
I thrashed wildly, but she simply smiled sweetly and began pressing light kisses against my neck.
“Make a ‘ko’ sound when you sleep… Mmm… Lean on me…”
Her final words grew more and more distant…
…and slowly.
My consciousness—
“Sleep deeply and wake up refreshed, sunbae…”
—scattered.