Chapter 20. I'm not good enough.
Chapter 20. I'm not good enough.
It was naturally Seong Byeong-jin who greeted Choi Yeon-ju as she returned from work at the Association. With a desperate expression to boot.
"Waaah! Yeonju-emon!"
"Are you possessed by Satan?"
"It's not that! Hurry! Hurry up and modify me!"
Given that he had been hiding his anxiety whenever the topic of modification came up until just this morning, it was only natural to assume something had happened with Lim Seo-yoon while she was away, now that he was acting so proactive.
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"Did you say she touched your butt?"
"Not just my butt. She touched everything except my dick."
"I never imagined that woman, Lim Seo-yoon, was the type who knew how to train a man. Touching everything but your cock... was she planning on killing you by making you desperate?"
"Huck. Really?"
"Obviously, I'm joking."
Choi Yeon-ju said this to me with an indifferent expression, even though I was startled. To think she'd have the heart to tease me in this situation. My annoyance shot right up.
"This isn't the time for jokes. If things go on like this... I might end up becoming a eunuch due to blue balls."
"Blue balls? What is that?"
Choi Yeon-ju asked, tilting her head. She didn't know about the blue balls phenomenon? No matter how knowledgeable she was, it seemed she didn't know this, as she wasn't a man.
I guess even a renowned genius doctor has things she doesn't know.
Then I had no choice but to explain it to her.
"It's when a guy gets turned on but can't ejaculate, so his balls ache like fuuuucking crazy and get bruised. Your lower abdomen hurts, too. It's so distracting you can't even sleep."
"...That was information I really didn't want to know, but thank you for telling me."
Choi Yeon-ju replied with a look of utter disgust at my explanation. She even stuck her tongue out and made a gagging gesture, as if she were physically repulsed.
But I was serious right now.
"You think this is a joke? It's not. I'm still in pain right now."
"Didn't you masturbate?"
"I did! I fucking did! But this is a terrifying phenomenon where, once it triggers, the pain persists even if you ejaculate in a hurry afterward."
"Wait. You did?"
"Then what, I shouldn't? When that pretty woman is panting and groping my whole body? I think I deserve praise just for not ravaging her. I do."
I was serious about this. Lim Seo-yoon started by kneading my butt with a flushed face, and soon she brought her face so close I could feel her breath on my butt. I think she assumed I wouldn't notice since she was behind me.
But how could someone whose entire focus was on his butt not notice that?
That wasn't all. She touched my armpits, stroked my waist. She even rubbed her breasts against me while pretending not to care—how was I supposed to endure that?
In the end, she even climbed onto my back while I was lying face down, claiming she'd give me a massage she wasn't even doing.
If not for Choi Yeon-ju's warning that something terrible could happen if I touched Lim Seo-yoon before the modification, I definitely would have ravaged her.
[At the very least, you must absolutely not have sex, even if the opportunity arises, until the dick modification is complete.]
Because the comparison between my current dick and the modified dick later would be so stark, she said it would be faster to go to jail for illegal surgery than for Lim Seo-yoon to be conquered.
Training with Lim Seo-yoon is basically four hours a day. There were times we did more depending on her mood or schedule, but that was the baseline.
Lim Seo-yoon pulled that shit from the moment she drank the orange juice mixed with Goblin fluid until she left.
There was no extended class this time, so she had been sexually harassing me for a good three or four hours.
Because my balls started aching around the two-hour mark, the remaining two hours were absolute hell.
But Choi Yeon-ju seemed more interested in something else, as she asked this:
"You did it in the bathroom, right? The masturbation."
"I did it on the sofa."
"How did you dispose of the semen?"
"I wiped it with a tissue. I handle the cleanup well, so don't worry."
"Is that tissue, by any chance, in the trash can?"
"Yeah."
"The kitchen?"
"Yeah."
Choi Yeon-ju jumped up.
Then she strode to the kitchen, took the trash bag out of the half-full bin, and started tying it up.
I was speechless.
"Are you doing this because my semen is dirty or something?"
"Is that something someone who threw a semen-covered tissue just anywhere, while living with a woman, should be saying?"
"At least you think of us as a man and a woman living together, huh?"
"Isn't it obvious, since I'm living with someone who ordered me to show him my pussy from the very beginning?"
I had nothing to say.
Without caring about my self-esteem as I watched, Choi Yeon-ju took the roughly tied trash bag, ran outside, and threw it away. Then she came back in immediately and sat down with a relieved expression.
Living with this woman, my heart was destined to be covered in scars.
Choi Yeon-ju, not caring about my feelings at all, brushed off her hands and began to answer my initial request.
"There is one procedure possible by tomorrow or the day after."
"Oh. What is it?"
"It's a procedure to make your pre-cum the same composition as a Goblin's."
"Pre-cum? By that composition, you mean that Goblin fluid stuff, right?"
"That's right."
It was news that could only fill me with joy. Since training with Lim Seo-yoon was done for today and I wasn't going to the Gate tomorrow, didn't that mean I could get my dick modified before her next visit if I was lucky?
Then, Choi Yeon-ju's words followed, plunging my soaring spirits into the abyss.
"However, even if we do that, you must refrain from sex. Therefore, I won't do it for you."
"What!? Why!?"
"Because if that idiot Lee Si-woo brings the materials, a much more dramatic change will occur. It could be dangerous if you only receive a part of the 1st modification right now."
"When is he supposed to bring it?"
"I wouldn't know. But it won't be more than a month. I'm quite a necessary existence to them."
"A month?"
"I'm just estimating that much; I didn't say it would take exactly a month. It could take longer."
"No. Why?"
"Since body modification is a field no one has touched. It means I'm practically a pioneer. Do you think a procedure can be done when research hasn't even started? Are you really asking because you want to cut off your existing cock and attach an Orc dick?"
"...It was an Orc dick?"
An Orc dick...
That's a name Elves would like.
If Elves actually existed, that is.
As I was thinking that, Choi Yeon-ju sneered at me. Since that woman looked so good with a sneering expression, it made me at least five times angrier than when someone else sneered.
"It's impossible even if you imagine it. Even if you survived with an Orc dick attached, you wouldn't even be able to walk if you had that on."
"I'm pretty impressive too, you know? You keep saying 'cock, cock' because I touched you when I wasn't turned on last time, do you want to get a taste of my cock?"
"An Orc dick is this big when erect."
When I shouted, Choi Yeon-ju spread both hands and held them in front of my face. I was pissed at first, but I had no choice but to shut my mouth when I realized the distance she spread her arms was no joke. Because the length she spread them was wider than Choi Yeon-ju's shoulder width.
I swallowed dryly and asked.
"Is it really that much?"
"It averages about 60cm. It's a bit shorter than your upper body. Do you want to attach it? Self-fellatio might even be possible. Since there's no one else to suck it off unless it's through hypnosis, drugs, and training, if you're interested, I'll try to devise a way to attach it without side effects."
"Cut it out!"
Self-fellatio. I was even angrier because I ended up imagining it. I don't know about pussies, but by my standards, a dick has to be sucked by a woman. For a pussy, it doesn't matter if a man or woman sucks it, as long as it turns you on. Among the truths I've learned in my twenty-three years of life, this one I could not concede.
"It will be a bit painful, but you must endure it. Once the 1st modification is over, you'll be moved when you see your changed dick. You, too. And Lim Seo-yoon."
"Are you going to make it that amazing?"
"Do you not trust me? I am Choi Yeon-ju. Choi Yeon-ju."
Choi Yeon-ju puffed out her chest confidently and triumphantly to show off, but it was impossible to shake off all my anxiety with that.
Because it was clear that if I weren't under hypnosis, I would never have trusted Choi Yeon-ju.
"But why the 1st modification?"
"Because there is up to a 3rd modification."
"...What are you planning to do with my dick?"
I had no idea why Choi Yeon-ju was deciding the future of my dick on her own.
When I asked with an anxious expression, Choi Yeon-ju sneered again.
"When that time comes, you'll become a body that begs me to perform the procedure."
"Don't talk like a NTR-genre tanned guy. I hate that stuff."
"This line actually appears in more genres than you think."
"That's just what comes to mind first for me."
"Understood for now."
Choi Yeon-ju nodded. Then she started telling me the blueprint for my dick.
I sat demurely like a patient at a urology clinic and listened to Choi Yeon-ju's explanation.
"There are a total of four characteristics that will be applied to your cock in the 1st modification. First, the Swamp Blue Frog."
"My dick needs a frog...?"
That's creepy.
"According to research, the Swamp Blue Frog is a monster that grows without rest for its entire life. Assuming that human growth periods, including both men and women, end around 12-18 years old, it's an absurd figure. Of course, there are individual differences in humans."
"So?"
"We'll use that to grow your dick first."
"Wasn't it supposed to grow into an Orc dick...?"
"The Orc dick is for the sake of the women. Because if a giant dick is shoved into a pussy, there's a high probability the pussy will be ruined. After all that hard work making a sow slave, how hollow and unmotivated would you feel if the pussy became loose? You don't want to shove it into a pussy that looks like bulgogi meat with flapping labia minora because it was shoved in too much, do you?"
"Where on earth do you learn expressions like that...? It's so realistic it makes me want to puke, so stop using expressions like that."
"Hmph. Anyway, after growing it like that, I'll make it produce pre-cum that has the characteristics of a Goblin and an Orc. You know about Goblins, right? Nothing is better than that for female estrus. You've already experienced it. Although it wasn't the proper efficacy."
Was she talking about when Lim Seo-yoon fainted? She did say that wasn't the proper efficacy. She said it was supposed to be received by the pussy.
If the pre-cum had the same effect, since the dick is a body part that can be used in both a woman's mouth and pussy, I could say I'd be using that effect one hundred percent.
"Then what about the Orc?"
"That's also pre-cum. Orcs also increase their population through cross-breeding without female individuals. But the difference is that the pre-cum has a different effect than the Goblin's."
"What's that?"
"It improves the durability and elasticity of the female vagina."
..........
What?
"Is it going to get loose...?"
I asked, shocked. Choi Yeon-ju frowned at my question. Seeing that, I could immediately tell I had asked the wrong thing.
"It's not getting loose, 'becoming chewy/sticky' would be the more accurate expression. As I mentioned earlier, the Orc dick is big. Unlike Goblins, the Orc's physical strength is stronger than most female organisms, so it's not a structure that can escape just because the female struggles. It's better to view it as having evolved into a different part."
"Because it's too big and tears that area, it evolved in a direction to prevent tearing?"
"Correct."
"Isn't it a more convenient method to just evolve in a direction where the dick gets smaller?"
"Orcs are also big. If they get pregnant, the fetus is also incomparably larger than a human baby. It has to come out of the pussy, so what's the point if the dick size gets smaller? The pussy has to become sturdy."
"Aha."
That made perfect sense.
"Anyway, your pre-cum will contain those two characteristics. One is estrus, one is vaginal protection. How is it? I'm aiming for a size of about 23cm in length and 19cm in circumference."
"...Then the last one is...?"
"Iron Lizard."
"...A lizard is going in after the frog? In my dick?"
"The Iron Lizard's skin becomes hard like steel as it absorbs blood. Can you guess? It's rigidity. Your dick will become hard like steel when erect. And..."
"And...?"
"It will become a bit bumpy."
"Bu...bumpy...?"
"Do you know what a sunflower is?"
"...Shit."
It's a dizzying explanation the more I listen to it...
"But I have a question."
"What is it?"
"I do look things up on the internet, you know. Dildos that women like are 15-17cm. Doesn't that mean that length is just the right amount of pleasure?"
I thought my question was reasonable. Since surveys on women's dildo length preferences showed that more than half preferred dildos of that size. I thought it would just be uncomfortable to move if it were any bigger.
But when Choi Yeon-ju heard my question, she didn't hide her look of contempt and even started clicking her tongue.
"Tsk tsk tsk. You know one thing but not the other."
"Hu...huh?"
"Let's assume you have a pussy."
"...Then I would have committed suicide."
Because it seemed like the difficulty of life would only go up if I had a pussy on my face.
"I'm giving an example. If you want to masturbate with that pussy, do you have the nerve to shove a dildo over 18cm directly into your own pussy?"
"Huh?"
"If you assume 18cm goes in, the total size of the dildo would be about this much. Because you have to attach a handle too."
Choi Yeon-ju said that while lifting her forearm to show me. Meaning a large dildo is the size of a forearm. Including the handle.
It wasn't quite the Orc dick size she showed me earlier, but this was also a size that made me gasp.
"How do you do that?"
"It's the same for women. Do you know this line? 'Th...there's no way something that big could fit inside me...!'"
"How do you know that."
I asked. Choi Yeon-ju lightly ignored my question and just said what she wanted to say.
"But it goes in, doesn't it? And the woman goes crazy."
"That's true."
"Sizes over 18cm are sizes you wouldn't dare put in yourself while sober. You have to have someone else put it in to know the pleasure."
"Ah...!"
I realized.
Why Choi Yeon-ju holds the title of Doctor.
If that woman had been born in the Middle Ages, wouldn't she have held the title of Sage?
"Did you understand?"
"I understood very well. Doctor."
"Excellent. It must have been a long, boring explanation, but I'm proud that you listened well."
Choi Yeon-ju said. I shook my head. Boring? Choi Yeon-ju was a recognized beauty, if not for the words that popped out of her mouth and her gaze that looked at people like they were bugs. How could a conversation where words like dick, pussy, dildo, and sex were popping out of a beauty's mouth be boring?
"It might be painful now, but you must endure even if the opportunity to have sex with Lim Seo-yoon arises before the 1st modification is over. Pain that doesn't kill you makes you stronger. The blue balls phenomenon won't kill you either. In the end, your future will be brilliant."
"Yeah. Thank you so much. I'll try to hang in there a little longer."
"It is correct that you must hang in there perfectly so as not to ruin the plan."
"...Yeah."
A bitch with no blood or tears.
Is there no such word as compassion in that woman's heart?
"Look at the time already. Let's go to sleep. I wasted all your sweet rest time on you, but I'm proud of myself for giving a lecture that even a moron like you could easily understand."
"...I'm going to wash up."
"You can scrub yourself clean."
"Ah. And don't say 'cock, cock'. It really hurts my pride."
"Once you receive the 1st modification, I will call it a dick from then on."
"........"
Bad bitch.
I'll make sure to make those cherry-like lips call my junior a dick eventually.
Of course, that was also something Choi Yeon-ju would be doing.
I headed to the bathroom to wash up.