Vacation? No Freaking Way!
Vacation...? No way. No way no way no way no way no waaaaay...! I'm clawing at my hair today too, just like always. Pink strands tumble into my hands like fallen leaves, but I couldn't care less and keep ripping away.
There was one utterly despairing piece of news. For someone like me, scraping by on life through fantasies sparked by watching girls flirt and cuddle, it hit like a thunderbolt from a clear sky. Vacation was drawing near.
Well, yeah, of course. Finals are done, the summer heat's only getting worse, so naturally it's time for summer break. But even if it's inevitable, that doesn't make me hate it any less.
Over a month without seeing those fresh high school girls...? No high school girls? No watching them rub their pussies together? Huh? Huh? Haaaaah? Even if someone told me right now I couldn't breathe anymore, it wouldn't hit this hard.
What if, while I'm gone, they grind their pussies against each other like crazy, and when vacation ends, they show up all mysteriously grown-up and mature? I'd lose my mind wondering what the hell happened. Might as well die. Yeah. For real.
Lily jiggles? .... And, just saying it, I don't wanna be apart from the girls either. The girls meaning Alicia, Serina, and Dana.
"...."
Ah. If anyone overheard that, it'd be total misunderstanding material. Not like I'll miss them or anything. Just, y'know, friends. We've gotten super close lately. Don't get the wrong idea.
It's just that being physically apart from the three of them might feel a little lonely, leaving me kinda down. Who's this excuse even for?
I let out a deep sigh because I hate vacation so, so much. My endless soul-crushing exhales must've gotten to Dana, 'cause she looks bothered by it.
"Then just stay at school, duh?"
"What's the point if it's just me...?"
It's not the school I like—it's the girls who go here. More precisely, the sight of them going full yuri, antennas up and everything. So what good's me sticking around alone?
Even after I kinda snap at her like that, Dana doesn't bat an eye.
"I'll stay with you."
Then she just stares at me, dead serious.
Idiot. It's got nothing to do with you. I'm bummed 'cause I won't get to peep on any yuri action over break—not 'cause I hate being lonely or alone or whatever. What the hell are you even imagining?
And, and you... Lately, just a tiny bit, super tiny... you know you're being kinda weird, right...?
I roll the unsayable words around in my head. I know it's ridiculous, but my childhood friend of over ten years has started feeling... burdensome. No big dramatic event changed our relationship or anything. I just can't keep the same distance anymore. The second she gets a little close, I go hngh and suck in a breath without thinking. Instincts are screaming alarm bells. No. Absolutely not. If I let it happen, something's gonna go down for sure. It's like a premonition.
I've never had psychic powers or trained any, but somehow I just know.
So I whip my head away, breaking that tangled gaze.
"Don't wanna?"
I try to dodge her eyes, but bam—cat-like face right there again. Dana's scooted closer.
Her glassy black eyes roll around, locking onto me once more, and in that instant... "...Not like I hate it."
Not hating it. That's basically saying I like it. What did I just—
Shit, too late to take it back. I go all dazed.
Me and Dana, just the two of us in this huge school...? Like she won't let me back out now that I've said it, Dana drags me straight to the school admin office.
I end up blankly staring down at the form shoved into my hands—not a marriage certificate, but a summer dorm stay application.
"Huh. Rare for a first-year to apply..."
"Eh? Really?"
The one handling it looks like a third-year senior. Guess staying in the dorm during golden vacation time is weird to her. Makes sense for carefree first-years not chasing jobs or studies yet.
She eyes me up and down, then asks, "What's your name, cutie?"
"Lily...?"
"Eh?"
The second I say it, her eyes go wide like she's shocked. Makes me uneasy. What? Did I do something wrong? What's so surprising about "Lily"?
"Oh my. You..."
"Me?"
"Heard all these rumors about a super pretty first-year, been dying to see for myself."
Eh? News to me. With that love letter fiasco at the start of the year, maybe there's another Lily here? Gotta be—this senior's talking about someone else. Wanna see her face myself. How pretty to have third-years buzzing? Total lez queen, bet. Yeah, feels right.
"Definitely..."
She keeps eyeing me with this sly, smirky face. Doesn't feel bad at all—'cause she's got that total yuri vibe. Yuri vibe meaning, yeah, she's pretty. I always say it, but I'm such a sucker for beauty. Ends up staring all mesmerized, like admiring fine art.
If Dana hadn't barged between us, I'd probably still be at it.
"Hurry up and submit it, let's go."
"Ah. Yeah."
Senior flashes a mischievous grin at Dana, no regrets, waves us off cheerily.
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After the admin office, I'm telling Serina about it all.
"So yeah. Staying at school now."
"With Dana...?"
Serina, your face looks weird. Seems more hung up on Dana's name than me staying over break.
"Ah, not jealous or anything—if you wanna, go for it..."
She's saying that, but even oblivious me can tell she's bummed. Kinda sad seeing sweet her tiptoeing around my feelings like that. But her kindness is just in face and words—her grip on our clasped hands hurts like hell.
No words, so I stay quiet a sec, then nearby Alicia chimes in.
"Then lemme stay with you too."
"Huh?"
Don't push it. You're not even a dormer.
No way they'd let a non-dorm student hang during break.
"Bribe 'em."
Bribe who? Appropriate word here? And aren't you crazy busy lately...? Got time for a nobody like me?
Head starting to throb, I cradle it, and Alicia casually plops me on her lap. Nothing special anymore. Just happened one day. So natural now, nobody in class bats an eye.
Even as she hugs my waist and rocks me side to side, I'm still messing around with Serina's tightly gripped hand. Friends do this stuff. Normal skinship. Nobody cares.
Except Ruby, glaring like she's about to shoot lasers.
"...."
Maybe catching Ruby's stare, I suddenly scan the classroom. And, uncharacteristically, get a bit sentimental.
Too dazzling. Too good for me. Every day here is so precious, I desperately wish time would freeze like this.
And I know it. Whether I want it or not, time keeps flowing, and soon I'll have to answer the questions aimed at me.
But not yet. No courage. So I'll play dumb a little longer. Not playing dumb—I really know nothing. Yeah, that'll do.
At least till break ends, gimme time to prepare an answer. Okay? That's fine, right?
I smile at them like asking permission. Even at Dana, subtly watching from afar pretending not to.
They all smile back at me. Selfish, I know, but it feels like they're saying go ahead, so I relax a little.