Embracing Every Scar
"From today on, I've got a new goal."
"Wh-wh-wh-what the hell right now."
"Finding every bastard who did wicked shit to this beautiful, precious body and crushing them all."
"C-Captain! Eek!"
I moved my face. There wasn't a single spot without scars. So even a slight shift brought my lips to another kind of mark. I'd never done it before, but with the thought of leaving a hickey, I pressed my lips hard against the scarred skin and sucked.
Shae let out a scream.
"C-Captain. Why are you doing this? Huh? Did I do something wrong? Please stop."
"The ones who made these scars—they're the same bastards, right? Just tell me. I'll smash them all later."
"I-I'll tell you, so please stop!"
Shae pushed at my head. But I braced myself and didn't budge. She couldn't bring herself to slap my head away like it was the back of her hand, so she wasn't using her full strength. And when I wrapped both arms around her waist in a tight embrace, she had no room left to push.
"Please, please… don't make me feel any more pathetic… I beg you…."
"Why? Why is it pathetic? What's so pathetic about it?"
"You're asking because you don't know? Even after seeing this body?"
"It's pretty. It's beautiful."
"Lies… that's a lie. How could it not be, unless you're blind? This body… even I, its owner, find it repulsive and hideous, covered in these ugly scars…."
"No lie. I swear it."
I grasped her necklace in my hand. Our outfits and position were a bit awkward, but so what? It's the heart that matters, right?
"May light and fair justice shine upon my face. I swear to Justitia, without a shred of shame, that Shae's body is not hideous at all—that these words come from the depths of my heart. So please tell your daughter she has no need to feel pathetic, Justitia."
"Huh? What the—"
What kind of oath is that? Oaths and prayers are about the content, not the form, Shae. I wasn't even an official member of the church or a proper believer. My oath probably had no real power. In other words, it was a vow to myself.
But a soft silver glow emanated from the necklace, silencing us both in an instant.
The oath has been acknowledged.
"Justitia… heard my oath just now…?"
'For real? She actually heard it? My oath?'
Shae was stunned, but so was I. Yet I realized this was my chance.
A goddess-backed oath! What stronger proof could there be?
Seizing her hesitation, my lips roamed freely over her body. I swiftly conquered the vast plains of her abdomen and advanced toward the valley of her solar plexus without resistance. But when the assault turned to the grand mountain on her left, I had to halt.
"Captain…."
"Speak."
"I-I… I really don't know. Really, since the goddess says you see my body as beautiful, I have to believe it… but my heart can't accept it…."
"You think someone who finds your body repulsive would do this?"
"I still want to reject it. Push it away. Your lips feel sweet and soft right now, but I'm anxious—afraid they might turn into a blade slicing cruelly into me at any moment. Terrified of falling into that helpless void again."
"You want to stay trapped in that helplessness forever?"
"Of course not… no one would want that… I just want to eliminate even the possibility of feeling that helplessness again. Better to maintain the status quo than risk it once more…."
To ordinary eyes, Shae's body would indeed look grotesquely horrific. Her figure was great, but aside from her face, neck, and parts of her arms, her entire skin was… If I'd seen her nude illustration back on Earth, I'd have cursed "fuck" and skipped right past it.
And yet.
Right now, I genuinely found Shae's body beautiful. Was I going mad? Because I'd possessed Hendrick's body? Some unknown system buff? I didn't know.
But did it matter? Not right now, I could answer.
I saw beauty, I called it beautiful, and a goddess vouched for it. Therefore, it was truth.
I resumed my assault on the sweat-slicked grand mountain. The obstructing hand had long been brushed aside. And finally, as I claimed a portion—
"Hic!"
A short cry, almost a scream, came from above.
'The feeling was different.'
It wasn't a scream of pain. I pressed on, sucking at the elastic yet rough scarred skin with my lips. Then I reached out my idle hand and gently grasped the opposite breast.
"This is weird! Captain! This is weird!"
"It's fine. I won't hurt you."
"Still… still!"
Shae's breasts were huge. Maybe even a tad bigger than Kaya's, size-wise. And firm too. The rough skin was more than compensated by the soft, yielding texture. With my shallow knowledge, I teased the peak.
Shae, who had been quietly sniffling, freaked out again.
"Captain!! N-not there! No! It's weird!"
"How is it weird?"
"I mean… like…."
Knowing "weird" from Shae's lips wasn't negative gave me some leeway.
- I don't hate it, so.
A sly, voyeuristic part of me stirred. But I didn't let it run wild. Shae now wasn't fragile glass—she was a shattered bottle barely pieced back together. I needed to be more careful.
"Like… my heart's pounding. It tickles sometimes…."
"Not a bad feeling, right?"
"…Yeah."
"Then we're good."
Finally, the green light. One hand kept kneading the massive breast while the other caressed her whole body. Mindful of the scars, yet tenderly, as if cherishing something precious and pretty.
"Hngh, hng…."
Soon after I began fondling her breasts, we were both naked. Having caressed her everywhere, I finally brushed against her pussy.
Beneath a modest bush, it was tightly closed. Obscenely so—the sight made me swallow hard.
Gulp.
I wanted to touch it. So I did, stroking from bottom to top. My index finger came away sticky with her juices. Shae let out a "hng" and trembled.
That sound, that reaction—it sent chills down my spine, the good kind. Riding the momentum, I carefully slipped one finger in.
The pressure was no joke; I grimaced without thinking.
"Ahh…."
Squelch—
Overcoming the soft squeeze, I moved my finger like scraping, and the sticky fluids made lewd sounds. A musky scent wafted up, the kind that drove men wild.
'Can't hold back anymore.'
Foreplay was plenty. I shifted position, spreading her stiff legs and settling between them. Her thighs parted wide, releasing an even stronger lewd aroma. I pressed down over her body.
"Eek!"
When my cock touched her skin, Shae panicked, but I reassured her repeatedly.
"This isn't the blade that carved your body. Sure, it'll hurt at first, but later…."
"I hate pain… and besides…."
Shae covered her eyes with her arms and sobbed.
"You already have… Kaya sis…."
I froze mid-aim.
"This is enough. Your feelings, your sincerity, your comfort—I get it. Thank you so much. A man like you, Captain—it's the first time. It makes me happy too. But no more than this."
"Shae."
"…Yes?"
"You can call it my selfishness. Hate me as a bastard. Don't forgive me. Whatever."
I rubbed against her entrance, teasing the girl already in tears. She shook her head no, but each up-and-down stroke drew out moans. Did she know? Those forced-back moans only made me harder. That I wanted to thrust in right here.
"No, Captain. No… sis…."
"Forget Kaya. Shae—what do you want?"
"Th-that's…."
Her eyes shook wildly. I didn't miss the opening, pushing my hips forward.
"Ngh!"
"Hahk!"
A single finger had barely fit; my much thicker cock naturally met resistance.
"Ah, ah, ah."
"Answer me. Shae, you. Your thoughts!"
"I-I… Captain… hng!"
Slurp—
Smooch—slurp—!
I claimed her untouched lips with mine. Sucking fiercely, as if devouring all negative thoughts, distractions. Think only of this moment. Forget the past. Not Kaya's feelings—your pure desires. Discard everything else to me.
My tongue ravaged her mouth wildly. Having done this once before, my technique felt somewhat skilled. Shae's tongue was rigid, no response, but I didn't mind. Licked, tugged, sucked it stiff as it was.
Her breathing grew ragged.
"Answer. Your thoughts."
"I…."
"You?"
"Captain…."
"Me?"
Thanks to the devouring deep kiss, my cock slipped further—the head fully in. With my hands blocking both sides of her head, Shae finally looked straight up at me.
Her voice was ant-small, but with my full focus, I heard it clear.
"If it's you, Captain… I want to believe. That even someone like me is okay—that you'd really hold me. Just this once, the first and last time, I want to believe it."
"Perfect answer."
"I don't want to feel powerless again…."
No words—instead, I thrust with my cock. Slowly, without startling her. As painlessly as possible. Savoring the moment fully.
"Haaahk…!"
I hilted to the root. A click snag, yet I instinctively pushed deeper. Pubes ground together, hairs tangled messily. Fully sheathed, but I craved more.
Shae's insides were hot.
"Does it hurt a lot?"
"It's okay… really…."
Tears spilled from Shae's shaking head. But she was smiling.
"Compared to before, it's nothing. Hehe."
I stroked her hair, her cheek. Once she settled, I pulled back.
"Hng… haaahk!"
Thrusting in again, her head tilted back slightly. Not intentional, but the exposed throat was devastatingly erotic. Clinging to her neck, I began pistoning.
"Hahk, hak, hawng, hng, ha, ha, ah, ah, ah, aaah!"
"Hah, hah, hah."
The tantalizingly slow pace accelerated—from country road to highway, from Mugunghwa to KTX. Juices splashed at the junction, soaking us, clotting stickily in our pubes. Position? No time or thought to change.
Her insides, lips, moans, and now her thighs clamping my waist—they drove me insane. In this moment, she was the world's most beautiful, seductive woman.
"Shae, Shae…!"
"Hahk, haew, nyaa, Captain…!"
Captain. A title I heard often, yet hearing it from her pinned beneath me—with that face, those eyes, that voice, arms tight around my back—it was critical heart damage, no doubt.
My pistoning raced toward the end.
"Haaang—!!!"
At climax's peak, I tried pulling out to finish outside—but her limbs locked me in. I erupted inside her.
Spurt, spurt—each pulse made us twitch together… Even after ecstatic release, we stayed locked, entwined.
"…Captain."
"Listening."
For the first time, Shae gently stroked the back of my head.
Her voice was slightly hoarse.
"I… really can't go anywhere else now. Won't."
"Yeah?"
"Where else would a man exist who affirms a body like mine this much? And a captain who vows to a goddess to save a crusader lost to terror and helplessness."
"Haha… yeah, true."
"Hehe. So."
Mmch—!
Shae surprised me with a quick peck.
"I'll try hard again. Won't collapse. If I do, I'll get right back up. Even if it hurts, with you here, I'll endure more. And…."
"And?"
"Take care of sis too. Please. She's scared right now too…."
Shae smiled, gently pushing my chest. Mentality wouldn't rise yet, the 'Impotence' debuff wouldn't vanish.
But it was her brightest smile ever.