Shattered Illusions
The words hit me like a hammer to the glass of my delusions.
"Don't get the wrong idea, Sehee. You're nothing but a disposable toy to me."
That single sentence from Siwoo was more than enough to shatter every fantasy I'd built up.
"Why...?"
The only thing I could force out was that one simple word. It had to be a lie. There was no way. He was obviously just messing with me. The joke had gone too far...
"It's a lie... Just once... Hic... Give me one more chance to hear you say it again. I love you, don't I?"
"Sehee, something like you is just a toy I can replace anytime. I'm only playing with you right now because it's fun. You lost the bet, remember? So spread that cunt already before I really break you."
All of this... was just because of a bet?
Sure, he'd been cruel to me at times, but I'd trusted him. I really had. So how could he do this to me...?
"Th-then why did you even give me your cum?"
A man like Siwoo, with a massive cock like that, had let me drink his semen. He'd offered that precious dick of his just for someone like me. The Siwoo who'd been so kind... Even considering the bet, I couldn't understand it.
"Heh heh heh."
"Stop laughing! I'm... I'm being serious here...!"
I was nothing more than a rabbit standing before a predator, but I asked him with as much gravity as I could muster. My hands trembled violently from fear and shock, but I suppressed it as best I could so he wouldn't notice.
"Look here, Sehee."
"Huh...?"
[Releasing all hypnosis cast on Sehee until now]
The moment I saw the words on the phone screen, it wasn't hard to figure out what had gone wrong. Layer after layer of hypnosis that had been placed on me began peeling away. The line between what was common sense and what wasn't became clear. And I could more or less understand the current situation.
I'm fucked.
This was a total disaster. I had to be out of my mind. If I weren't crazy, how could I have declared that I'd lost the bet of my own free will just moments ago?
"Th-this is invalid. You tricked me with hypnosis!"
"Did I ever say that using hypnosis would be against the rules?"
"Ugh..."
He hadn't said anything like that, but... I had no comeback. I'd simply assumed, optimistically, that he wouldn't use hypnosis. And I'd been lured in by his promise to send me home. No, from the very beginning...
"Even if I refused, you weren't going to cancel the bet anyway... You were going to force it no matter what..."
"Obviously?"
Siwoo looked at me as if I'd asked the most natural question in the world.
"F-fuck..."
The curse slipped out on its own. What made it even more unfair was that even after this shitty hypnosis was lifted, the emotional aftertaste remained. I should have hated that bastard with every fiber of my being, yet a part of my heart still clung to the feeling that I loved Siwoo. That fact was utterly horrifying.
Wishing for that affection to disappear, I kept repeating the word fucker inside my head. To keep myself from drowning in my own emotions. To protect my heart from myself...
After repeating the word like a mantra, I spoke to Siwoo.
"L-let go of me."
"If you can get away, then go ahead and try."
"Hic... You think I can't escape just because you're gripping me this hard?"
I strained with everything I had, but no matter how tightly I pulled, my wrist trapped in Siwoo's hand wouldn't budge. And on top of that, his face showed nothing but perfect composure.
Drip. Drip.
It was so unfair. The fact that my emotions weren't matching what I thought I should feel was incredibly irritating, and I hated how pathetic I'd become in this situation. That's why tears welled up in my eyes.
"Hic... Why the hell... are you doing this to me...?"
I barely held back the sobs threatening to spill over as I asked him. What had I done wrong? I hadn't lived a perfect life, but at the very least, I hadn't gone around hurting others. This punishment was far too cruel. What was the difference between this and dying... What was it?
I at least wanted to know the reason. If I could understand why, maybe I could accept it to some degree.
"Just because?"
And Siwoo's answer... was painfully simple and direct. So simple that I couldn't even find words to respond. That reply slowly dragged me into despair, and my face began to twist in anguish.
"Pfft. As expected, that expression suits you so much better, Sehee."
It was as if my rage and despair brought him joy. No, the deeper I sank into anger and hopelessness, the more Siwoo clearly enjoyed it. More and more.
"You fucking psycho!"
I was going to kill him. Even if I had to kill that madman, I needed to take that smartphone from him. If I could just get my hands on that phone, somehow...
I screamed with every ounce of strength I had left in my body.
"Give it baaaaack... Hngh♡"
But Siwoo paid me no mind and began pushing his cock inside me.
No. I can't let that bastard fuck me.
My memories... my memories would disappear. I would stop being myself. I was certain of it.
"Hngh♡ Haah♡ Haaahk♡ Hngaaah♡"
Squelch. Squelch. Siwoo drove his dick deep into my body. Even in a situation where my very existence could vanish, my body was clearly feeling it. Even now, it was experiencing pleasure. And that fact was unbearable to me.
"Haah♡ Please... I'll do anything... Hngh♡... Just please..."
"Nah. I really want to see what you'll look like after you've completely lost your memories. Should I make you our house maid? Or maybe keep you as a bitch in the garden? I could even make you forget how to speak entirely."
"Please..."
In the face of overwhelming force, the only thing a weak human could do was beg. We could only wait for a being of immense power to show mercy. There was nothing else I could do.
"Hngh♡ W-wait♡ If you keep going like this... Haaang♡ I'll die♡ I'll really dieee♡!"
"It's fine. You'll come back to life anyway. Of course, you'll forget everything about meeting me until now."
"I d-don't want thaaat♡ Haaaaaaaaaang♡♡♡♡♡♡"
The moment the restraints on my body that had been holding me back were released, it erupted in a magnificent climax. It wasn't just white flashes before my eyes. Everything simply turned pure white. Thinking? The very idea of doing something like that was impossible. My body was being controlled by Siwoo's power, yet even so, it began to thrash wildly.
"Haaahk♡ Haaahk♡ Hooooooohk♡♡"
My body moved like a spring gone mad. If I didn't move, I would surely die. Instinctively fighting for survival, my body was going into a frenzy.
"Hngae♡ Haaeu♡ Huuu...♡"
I bit down hard on my lip, desperately trying to suppress the pleasure. My mind felt distant. It was as if I'd experienced an out-of-body experience. My body didn't feel like my own anymore. That floating sensation. I clenched my teeth, struggling to regain my senses, to escape this place.
"You've always said one thing with that mouth of yours. Want to test it? Sehee, are you a man? Or a woman?"
Siwoo, who didn't care one bit about my efforts, asked the question with perfect leisure. Here I was, barely holding on for dear life, and that bastard was casually asking something like that. I wanted to get angry, but my body, which had just come spectacularly, didn't even have the strength to lift a finger. I could only breathe raggedly as I answered him.
"Haaeu♡... Of course... I'm a woman... Hic♡"
It was the most obvious thing in the world. If I'd been a man from the start, I wouldn't have a pussy or breasts like this. No matter what, after living as a woman for over twenty years, just looking at my current body made it obvious. I couldn't even understand the intent behind the question.
"Haha, that's right. Of course Sehee is a woman. Where in this appearance could anyone see a man?"
Siwoo laughed in that unpleasant way. The fact that he was laughing so heartily made me even more anxious. Was there something I was missing? No matter how much I racked my brain, I couldn't figure it out.
That's not it...
It wasn't that I didn't know. I simply couldn't remember at all. How I'd lived until now, none of those memories came to mind. It was as if the fragments of my memories had been ground into sand. No matter how hard I tried to grasp them, they slipped through my fingers.
This is dangerous.
If things continued like this, I was really going to lose myself. It was even more dangerous because I couldn't even tell what memories I'd lost.
"Hngh♡ I don't want this♡ Let me go♡ Haahk♡ Please... Please..."
I begged mercilessly toward Siwoo as he thrust his cock without mercy.
"But your body is so honest, Sehee. Look, your pussy is clenching so tightly like it wants me to go even deeper."
It was true. My body was squeezing his cock as if begging for more. Why was my body so sensitive? Had I lost memories of having a lot of sexual experience? Even in this hopeless situation, the way my body only craved pleasure left me dumbfounded.
"Haaang♡ I don't want this♡ My memories... my memories... Haaaaaaaaang♡"
My memories were disappearing. Little by little. Sometimes in huge chunks. It felt like a shovel was scooping them out, leaving not even a handful behind.
"Haaah... No♡ You can't♡"
Resistance was impossible. Like some predetermined fate, I could only follow along.
"Haaaaaaaaaaaaang♡♡♡♡♡♡♡"
The last thing I saw was Siwoo's face smiling with satisfaction before my vision was swallowed by complete darkness.