Virgin
I poured my entire heart into the words.
"I love you, Siwoo."
"As expected, this is so fucking hot."
On the bed, I could see Siwoo completely naked, positioned above me. The prince-like abs carved across his stomach looked even better than when I'd first seen them. His physique was incredible, and the sight only aroused me more. Siwoo, proudly displaying that powerful body, loomed over me like a wolf preparing to devour its prey.
"Huuu♡ Hurry♡ Put it in meee♡"
But I wasn't afraid. I was with the person I loved—what was there to fear? If anything scared me, it was the thought that Siwoo might abandon me. Yet I could feel it with every fiber of my being. He clearly cherished me. Even though there were far more lovable women than someone like me, he'd chosen me anyway.
The fact that a man like Siwoo—who could have any woman he wanted—had picked me... it could only mean he truly loved me.
"Spread your legs."
I obeyed Siwoo's command, opening my thighs wide so his cock could slide easily into my pussy. The space between my legs was already flooded, practically overflowing.
"You're already dripping like a faucet."
"S-sorry, Siwoo..."
"That's a good thing, you idiot."
How kind could one person be? Just those few considerate words from Siwoo made my whole body tremble.
"Mmph♡..."
My body was already hypersensitive from the buildup of pleasure. Even though this wasn't real sex—just the act of receiving his cum inside me—it still felt incredibly tense. Maybe it was the mix of anticipation and fear that came with trying something new. Still... it didn't matter.
"Hweh?"
I knew Siwoo's cock was big, but actually imagining it going inside my pussy left me slightly shaken. I kept glancing back and forth between my pathetic little hole and his massive shaft. Could that thing really fit all the way inside me...?
"S-Siwoo..."
"What?"
"Th-that thing looks way too big. I don't think it'll fit in my pussy."
There were things people could do and things they couldn't. Of course I loved Siwoo, but... some things were simply impossible. No, I couldn't do it. If something that huge went into my pussy, I'd probably die. Sure, dying that way might be considered honorable, but I didn't have that kind of courage yet.
-Sniffle
I couldn't help resenting my own tiny body. If only I were a little taller... or if my hole were just a bit bigger. Then I could've taken Siwoo's cum properly... The guilt brought tears to my eyes.
"Pfft."
Siwoo let out a light chuckle, as if it were no big deal, brushing it off.
"I-I want to take your cum in my pussy too!"
Feeling like he was dismissing me, I protested in frustration. After all, who knew when I'd get another chance to take a cock like this? This might be my last opportunity in this lifetime. In this academy, Siwoo was the only man I knew. I might end up living the rest of my life without ever serving a man.
I didn't want that. I wanted to live like the other girls in the academy—pinned beneath a man, moaning and crying out in pleasure.
"Hahahahahaha!"
Siwoo burst into wild laughter.
"Hahaha... Don't worry, Sehee. Your pussy is so lewd it'll take it just fine."
"W-wait a sec—Hngh♡?"
Before I could say anything more, Siwoo's cock pushed into my body. It was on a completely different level from the vibrator Ha-eun had used on me before—in both thickness and length. His shaft completely filled my pussy.
"Hwaaaang♡!!! W-wait... Hngh♡! It hurts! It hurts so much♡!"
An overwhelming wave of agony crashed over me. Was it always supposed to hurt this badly? The pain was like electric shocks to my brain. I grabbed onto Siwoo's body and weakly pounded against him. I knew I was supposed to endure it. I knew how disappointed Siwoo would be if I couldn't. But it was a reflexive reaction—my body instinctively tried to push out the source of the pain.
"Sehee... you're a virgin?"
"Hngh...♡"
I felt so embarrassed, like I'd been caught being an immature woman. By my age, most girls had been fucked so thoroughly their pussies were ruined. The fact that I'd done nothing until now made me feel utterly pathetic.
"I-I'm not a virgin, hngh♡...!"
Even though it was true, I denied it because I didn't want him to know. I wanted to tell him I could take it in my pussy just fine. I wanted to show him I could be a proper cumrag that would satisfy him.
"...... So the body resets to its initial state after each round?"
Siwoo muttered something to himself, but he spoke so quietly I couldn't quite catch it. Instead, my mind wandered.
'But... why am I still a virgin?'
Thinking about it, it was strange. Even though I was only a first-year at the academy, never having had any sexual experience at all was ridiculous. It was like saying I'd never had even the slightest interest in sex my entire life. It wasn't completely impossible, but for someone who prided herself on living an average life, I couldn't understand it.
"It'll feel better from now on."
Before I could even sort through the questions in my head, Siwoo prepared to push back into my pussy.
"Hngh....."
If I pushed him away again, I'd be the world's biggest bitch. No matter how kind Siwoo was, if I kept resisting, he might start to hate me. So I bit my lip hard, trying my best to endure the pain. For the person I loved... I could bear this much. No—I had to endure it so he wouldn't abandon me.
"Hah♡"
Unlike when I'd been bracing myself for pain, what I felt wasn't agony at all. I'd been so focused on the expected pain that I thought it would take time to process the new sensation, but I recognized it almost immediately.
"Hngh♡ Haah♡ What is thiiis♡"
It was pleasure on a completely different dimension from anything I'd experienced before—sucking Siwoo's cock, getting spanked, or using a vibrator. It felt so, so, so good.
"More♡ More♡ Fuck me harder pleaseee♡♡"
I begged him coquettishly. The restriction preventing me from orgasming didn't matter at all. Just... put it in deeper♡♡
"Hngh♡ Hooook♡ Uaaah~~♡"
-Squish, squelch
Every time his cock thrust into my pussy, obscene wet sounds filled my ears. The very restriction that kept me from cumming instead heightened my senses, letting me perceive every detail of what I was doing with Siwoo more clearly.
"Acting like such a tight little whore even though you're a virgin. What a total slut."
"Hooooh♡ Th-thank youuuu♡"
He kept thrusting into me while generously showering me with praise. I wanted to say something back, but with my limited vocabulary, all I could manage was to thank him. Even so, the way Siwoo smiled at me made my heart race.
"Sehee, don't you want to cum?"
"Hweh♡ Haah♡ Yes?"
Siwoo made the suggestion right then.
"I-It's fine. I can handle this much for you, Siwoo."
I could endure something like this. Besides, because I couldn't cum, I could consciously squeeze his cock even tighter, so it was okay. Not that I couldn't clench without thinking about it, but the fact that I could do something for Siwoo—even if it was just this—filled me with pride. That's why I actually liked this restraint. If I could cum, I'd definitely lose my mind from the pleasure and feel guilty about it.
"I like it better when you cum, Sehee."
He spoke to me so sweetly.
"But... then my memories..."
If I came like Siwoo said, my memories would completely disappear according to our original bet. Then there was a huge risk that I would stop being myself.
"It's okay."
Just those simple words. But with them, all my worries melted away like snow. Yes—if I could live with Siwoo, if I could live loving him, then reality, my memories, none of it mattered. I could just fill my mind with memories of Siwoo from now on, couldn't I...?
"Hngh♡ O-okay. Let me... let me cum."
I swallowed hard. Thinking about the future I'd live with Siwoo filled me with happiness. I cast aside the tiny speck of anxiety and prepared myself to accept everything.
"Siwoo... tell me you love me too... haah♡..."
If I could hear those words from him, I felt like I could cum even more happily. Of course, I already knew he loved me. Even though he'd never said it to me... I could tell. Still, just in case... just in case, I asked him. I waited for Siwoo to speak, dreaming of the happy house we would build together. Just those three words—that he loved me. That would be enough.
"Me? Love you? Don't get the wrong idea, Sehee. You're nothing but a toy for me to use and throw away."
And with those words... my fantasy was completely shattered.