The Choice of Humiliation
After finishing her patrol, Han Sujin let out a sigh of relief. Thankfully, she hadn't bumped into anyone or been exposed during the process.
Returning to the office, she hurried toward the restroom, but Lee Han grabbed her arm, stopping her in her tracks.
"Where do you think you're going? Take it out right here."
Han Sujin gritted her teeth at his commanding tone. She wanted to hurl insults at him right then and there, but she bit her lip and forced herself to endure it.
With trembling hands, she lifted her skirt to remove the device from her underwear. Only then did she discover the fluid that had leaked down her thighs.
'Oh god... Did I really leak like this because I was aroused?'
Her face flushed with shame. Just as she tried to remove the device, her strength gave out, and she collapsed to the floor.
"Haa..."
She gasped for air, struggling to regain her composure. That was when Lee Han approached and scooped her up. She tried to resist, but she had no strength left.
He laid her down carefully on the office bed. With her skirt hiked up, he began to wipe away the fluid with wet wipes.
Han Sujin covered her face with both hands in utter despair. A sob escaped her lips. She shook with shame and misery, tears streaming down her face.
After wiping her clean, Lee Han set the wet wipes aside. He left the office, leaving behind only a cold instruction for her to rest for a while.
The sobs broke out in earnest. She wept until she felt like she was suffocating. Her situation felt so wretched.
'Please, someone, anyone... save me...'
She prayed desperately through her sobs. She swore she would do anything if only she could escape this humiliation.
After crying for a long time, Han Sujin finally calmed down. She stood up unsteadily and straightened her clothes. As she was adjusting her disheveled underwear and skirt, Lee Han walked back into the office.
"Are you feeling a bit better?"
When he asked, Han Sujin offered a desolate smile. She simply nodded instead of answering.
She stood up and walked toward the entrance with a staggering gait. She wanted to go home. She wanted to run away from all of this immediately.
Lee Han watched her back without a word. Only after Han Sujin opened the door and left the office did he finally break into a grin.
Walking with a gait that made her look like she might collapse at any moment, Han Sujin headed home. As soon as she opened the front door and stepped inside, she slumped to the floor. She felt like she couldn't breathe.
Tears spilled out again. She managed to stand up and crawled into the bathroom. She gripped the sink and gasped for air. Her reflection in the mirror looked utterly devastated.
'How... how did I end up like this?'
She wailed and pounded on the sink. But nothing was resolved by it. Only a sense of despair, as if she had fallen into a deep quagmire, consumed her entire body.
She barely managed to fill the bathtub and submerged herself. As she sank into the hot water, the throbbing from below eased slightly. However, the dirty feeling left by Lee Han's touch would not easily fade.
'Somehow... I have to escape this hell...'
She sighed while submerged in the tub. But there was no exit in sight. There was only darkness.
She slowly rose from the tub. She dried herself off carelessly with a towel and put on some clothes. After roughly drying her hair, she staggered toward the master bedroom.
She collapsed onto the bed. The empty house was pure silence. She closed her eyes. Overwhelmed by a sense of helplessness, she fell into a deep sleep.
Even in her dreams, Lee Han's image appeared. That smile, cunningly laughing as it bound her, was terrifyingly vivid.
'Please... let me wake up from this nightmare...'
She prayed desperately, but Han Sujin knew. She knew she had already fallen into a quagmire from which there was no return. She was plummeting into an abyss with no way out.
For her, having tasted hell, there would be no peace again. Soaking her pillow with tears, Han Sujin trembled on the bed.
Hope was nowhere to be found, and only despair was deeply coloring her future.
Han Sujin lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling. She had returned home after a painful day, but peace of mind did not come easily. She let out a heavy sigh and closed her eyes.
Just then, she heard the sound of the front door opening. Park Taeyoung had returned. Just as she hurried to sit up, the bedroom door opened.
"Honey, it's me..."
Park Taeyoung, with a tired face, looked at Han Sujin with worried eyes.
"Why are you lying down so early? Are you not feeling well?"
Han Sujin forced a smile. She didn't want to worry her husband.
"I'm just... a little tired, so I lay down for a moment. I'm fine."
She spoke as if she were calm, but her voice trembled. Perhaps noticing his wife's condition, Park Taeyoung approached with a worried expression.
"Are you really okay? You look like you're having a really hard time..."
He gently placed his hand on Han Sujin's forehead. His touch was so warm and affectionate that Han Sujin felt like she might cry.
At this very moment, she wanted to be held in Park Taeyoung's arms and forget everything. She desperately wanted to lean on him and be comforted.
"Honey, have you eaten dinner?"
Park Taeyoung smiled broadly and held his wife's hand tightly.
"I ate at the office. I'm going to go wash up."
He left a tender look behind and headed to the bathroom. Han Sujin lay on the bed, watching the bathroom door. The sound of the shower and the brushing of teeth felt peaceful.
A short while later, Park Taeyoung emerged from the bathroom with a bright smile. He immediately lay down gently beside Han Sujin.
"My dear, you've had a hard time, haven't you? Come here..."
He whispered affectionately and pulled Han Sujin into his arms. The warmth was good. It was the comfort she had longed for so much.
'Honey... please, just for today, hold me... I need you...'
Whispering with a desperate heart, Han Sujin moved even closer to Park Taeyoung. She wanted to bury her face in her husband's broad chest.
It felt as though all her pain would be washed away by his warm body heat and a single affectionate word.
However, soon Park Taeyoung fell into a deep sleep, his breathing becoming regular. He hadn't said a word, nor had he offered any comfort.
A wave of disappointment washed over her. It felt as if the desperation she had harbored all day was vanishing like bubbles.
Tears burst forth. She choked, trying to swallow her sobs.
'I really... I wanted to be comforted...'
Han Sujin bit her lower lip in sorrow. She had waited so eagerly, but it had all been in vain.
She had to soothe her heart while tossing and turning all night. She couldn't easily fall asleep.
When morning dawned, Han Sujin opened her eyes early. Looking in the mirror, she looked extremely tired. Her puffy eyelids were noticeable.
She sighed, washed her face, and headed to the kitchen. She made toast and fried eggs and set the table.
A while later, Park Taeyoung sat down with a disheveled face. While eating, he rubbed his eyes as if the fatigue from yesterday hadn't faded.
"Honey, was there anything... you wanted to say yesterday? I was so tired that I fell asleep right away, didn't I?"
Han Sujin shook her head with a bitter smile. She forced a bright voice.
"Honey, you've been having a hard time lately, right? Work seems too grueling."
A bitter expression clouded Park Taeyoung's face. But he soon laughed cheerfully and replied that he was fine.
"Having a hard time? What are you talking about? Not at all. If anything, it's fun!"
Han Sujin gave a bitter smile at that answer. He had been like that since they were dating. Even when something was difficult, he was the type to pretend to be calm and try to maintain a positive attitude.
Han Sujin knew well that he always acted that way just so he wouldn't make her worry.
She approached and held Park Taeyoung's hand tightly.
"Honey... don't overdo it. You have me. We're going to live by relying on each other."
At those words, Park Taeyoung hugged her. He kissed Han Sujin lightly on the forehead and whispered.
"Yes. I love you."
Han Sujin also kissed him and replied.
"I love you too."
'Honey... are you having a hard time because of me?'
Han Sujin stared blankly at Park Taeyoung's face. Long eyelashes, a straight nose, handsome features.
However, looking closely, a shadow of fatigue had settled deeply around his mouth. It broke her heart to see him becoming increasingly gaunt because he had lived so diligently.
'You threw everything away to marry me. You fought with my mother who opposed us, and you've only suffered while working day and night.'
Han Sujin's eyes grew hot. Even for her husband's sake, she had to endure this difficult situation well.
'The salary I earn now must be lightening the burden on your shoulders, even if just a little. For you, who sacrificed so much because of me...'
Han Sujin resolved to endure the humiliation and hold on tenaciously. Her heart ached with apology and gratitude toward her husband.
A few days of peaceful time passed. As promised, Lee Han made no demands of Han Sujin. They only exchanged necessary work-related conversations, and there was no special contact.
Han Sujin felt relieved by such a daily routine and gradually regained her peace of mind. A hope arose that perhaps she could live like this.
But that hope was short-lived, and soon reality crushed her again. The day they had promised had returned.
As Han Sujin arrived at work early in the morning, Lee Han smiled and spoke to her.
"Sujin, today is the day. You remember, don't you?"
Her stomach churned. She was suddenly terrified, but Han Sujin tried not to show it on the outside.
"...Yes."
"Well then, I'll give you two choices."
Lee Han's voice was tinged with ominousness.
"Today, will you just provide service like before, or will you wear it and go on patrol? Which would you prefer?"
Han Sujin's mind went blank. She already knew there was no other path than to choose as Lee Han ordered.
The option of not doing it wasn't even given in the first place. Refusal was something she couldn't even imagine.
'It's fortunate that I still have a choice...'
A bitter self-mockery welled up.
After agonizing for a long time, Han Sujin finally answered with a deep sigh.
"...I will wear the device."
She thought that would be better. Rather than having to put Lee Han's penis in her mouth.
Lee Han wore a satisfied smile. He took a small box out of a drawer and handed it to her.
Han Sujin took it with trembling hands. After hesitating for a moment, she gritted her teeth and made up her mind.
'Just... let's do it. Until all of this is over... let's endure a little longer.'
Encouraging herself, Han Sujin lifted her skirt. In front of Lee Han's watching eyes, she pulled down her underwear and carefully inserted the device.
Her lower body throbbed. She frowned at the foreign sensation, but she endured it.
"Are you very uncomfortable? It will take some time to get used to it, but it will be fine soon."
Han Sujin did not reply to Lee Han's words. She just silently adjusted her clothes.
Suddenly, a low vibration was felt from below. Surprised, she looked at him, and Lee Han was holding a remote control in his hand.
"Aren't I the one who adjusts the switch?"
Han Sujin gritted her teeth and snapped at Lee Han.
"Oh, right. Here you go."
Lee Han smiled and handed the switch to Han Sujin.
"Well then, work hard today too. There's still a lot of work left."
Lee Han grinned and cast a malicious look at her.
'Endure... I must endure it...'
She gritted her teeth and steeled her resolve. Until the day she overcomes this humiliation and wakes up from the nightmare.
The vibration became increasingly intense. Every step was painful.
However, Han Sujin could not give up. She had to fight until she escaped this hell.
To not let go of a single thread of hope even in the midst of despair. To regain her ordinary daily life with her beloved husband.