This Time, Sober
Even though I had suggested we pretend it never happened,
“Haa… Mmm…”
the truth was I couldn’t pretend at all.
“Mmm… Please…”
Every night when I lay down to sleep, memories of that day kept resurfacing and setting my body on fire. When I couldn’t fall asleep because of it, eventually—
“Ah… Damn it…”
I couldn’t stop my hand from sliding downward. The aftermath of experiencing a woman’s sexuality through the most intense shock imaginable had done strange things to my body. To put it bluntly, I had become someone who went into heat without warning. But the real problem was—
“Why… why the hell…!”
I couldn’t feel anything with my own fingers. No matter how hard I thrust or how deep I went, only a mechanical sensation registered. Just the information that my finger was inside. No sexual satisfaction, no pleasure whatsoever.
“Please… I just want to sleep…”
Whenever I fingered myself, I couldn’t help comparing it to his cock. His thick, long, hot length was nothing like my thin, cold fingers. The only thing that could truly soothe this body’s heat.
“I’m losing my mind…”
In the end I deliberately recalled the memories of that day again. His scent, his voice, his warmth, those sensations rose vividly in my mind. And then—
“Hngh! Haa… Maru…! More…!”
Unlike before, pleasure began to climb. It was nowhere near what I had felt that time, but this wasn’t the moment to be picky. Whatever it took, I had to cool the fever in this body and fall asleep. I kneaded my breasts and pussy while replaying the memory of his hands on me, of him thrusting inside me. And then—
“Maru…! Hnghhh!!!”
I finally reached the peak. I had bitten down on the blanket in time, so no sound escaped. The room’s soundproofing wasn’t very good, so I had to cover my mouth just in case Maru heard.
“Haa… Hoo…”
I breathed out slowly. It felt good, sure… but I couldn’t recapture the same pleasure he had given me or the sense of security I had felt in his arms. For some reason the space beside me felt painfully empty.
“…Let’s just sleep.”
At least now I thought I could. I decided to wash up after waking tomorrow and drifted off.
…I had no idea at the time that this house’s soundproofing was far worse than I imagined.
Maru calmly stripped the clothes from me as I leaned against the wall. Every time his slightly cool touch brushed my skin, my body instinctively shrank back. My underwear was revealed. Unlike last time, today I wore a slightly fancy white set.
“What’s this? Were you expecting something?”
“No! It’s just what I had on… Hic!”
His hand moved over my bra. When he squeezed my breast with just the right pressure, a small moan slipped out. From our last experience I already knew—my body was way too sensitive, wasn’t it? I’d heard women almost never climax during their first time. And since it had been his first time too, he couldn’t have had some incredible technique.
Meanwhile Maru began pulling down my pants. My jeans slid away, fully exposing the white underwear.
“You really were expecting it.”
“Ughhh…”
I knew it too, of course. That I was already soaked down there. And that the white fabric would show every trace of wetness. There was no way I could claim I hadn’t been anticipating this.
“Hii!”
Maru’s hand slipped inside my damp underwear and began stroking my clit. Unlike last time when he had fumbled, he found it accurately.
“W-wait! Please!”
“Why? Are you telling me to stop now?”
“No! If we’re doing this, at least on the bed…”
At this point stopping was impossible anyway. So I at least wanted to do it on the bed. This was where we held our study group; if we did it here, every time I tried to study that memory would resurface. Then how could I look Kim Chaeeun or my sister in the eye…
“Fine. That much is okay.”
With permission granted, I picked up the fallen jeans and walked to the bed in nothing but my underwear.
Carrying both anxiety and excitement at the same time.
When we reached the bed we undressed each other. Soon Maru and I were completely naked. Unlike before, this time we were stone-cold sober.
“…”
“…”
I knelt on the bed while Maru sat cross-legged. I was blushing and avoiding his gaze, but he watched me with a faint, gentle smile.
“You can sit however you like.”
“This is comfortable for me…”
It was surprisingly true. Back when I was a man I could barely hold a kneeling position for a minute, but after becoming a woman, sitting cross-legged felt worse. When sitting on the floor, this posture was far more natural.
“Is that so?”
“…”
As I had noticed before, he was way too calm. Given how he couldn’t even aim properly last time, it really must have been his first time—yet where did that composure come from? Was it because he was a Geumtaeyang to the core? Born to be an alpha male or something?
“Come here.”
“…Why don’t you come over?”
I tried to push back a little out of pride. But that tiny act of defiance crumbled the moment his eyes settled on me.
When I obediently approached, he lifted me onto his lap. Sitting on the knees of a man perched on the edge of the bed, I couldn’t hide my flustered reaction.
Because his massively erect cock was nestled between my thighs. The moment I registered its heavy presence there—
“Hya! Hup!”
He gently cupped my breast and pinched the nipple. Hugging me from behind let him knead my chest more comfortably than before. But then wouldn’t he miss seeing me? Men need visual stimulation too…
Just as that thought crossed my mind, I spotted the mirror in front of us. The dressing-table mirror whose purpose I had never understood. Through that mirror—holding only basic sunscreen and lotion, no cosmetics at all—our eyes met.
“Ah. Busted.”
“!!!”
The first time I had been drunk and we had faced each other, so I never saw myself. But now my reflection was laid completely bare in the glass.
Flushed crimson cheeks. Arms pressed tight against my body in tension. My breasts being mercilessly toyed with by his hands. And above all, my white tail wrapped around him like I was clinging to his body. Every detail was… undeniably sensual.
He’s so big…
Seeing myself nestled against him made me acutely aware of our size difference once again.
“Haa… Hng…”
When my body began heating up from my breasts alone, Maru’s hand moved between my legs. Last time he had only teased my clit, but now a finger slid properly inside. It was only one, yet I felt strangely full. The sensation I could never achieve with my own fingers came easily with his.
“You’re gripping so tightly. I don’t know how my cock even fit last time.”
The inside of my pussy was being ruthlessly stretched by a single finger. Deciding I had loosened a little, he added a second finger, stirring me thoroughly.
“Huuu… Hng… Hup!”
I had been calmly savoring the pleasure until the sudden spike made me panic. Was this the famous G-spot? It felt strange to have an unknown weakness of my body exploited like this.
“Hup! Hngh!!”
He must have noticed the change in my reaction, because he began attacking that spot relentlessly. The continuous waves of pleasure made my body curl inward on instinct.
“Didn’t I tell you not to hold your voice back?”
“Hup! Hik! Hyaang!!”
His low, resonant voice pierced straight through my ear into my brain. The hand covering my mouth fell away against my will.
“I-I’m coming! I can’t hold it!!”
“It’s fine. Come if you want to.”
He said I could come whenever I wanted tonight. So without holding back—
“Haaaaang!!!”
I came in a clean, refreshing rush. Then I leaned back against his chest. The warmth against my back and the arms holding me brought an overwhelming sense of security.
“Haa… Aah…”
Even the tail that had been coiled around him lost its strength and drooped onto the bed. My ragged breathing filled the room. But one problem still remained unsolved…
“Did it feel good?”
“Yes… But, um…”
His cock hadn’t come even once. Maybe seeing my shameful display had excited him, because it had grown even larger and hotter. It now pressed against my pussy, flaunting its presence. While I felt both fear and arousal at that heavy weight, I heard words I should never have heard.
“That’s a relief. Looks like I satisfied you more than when you did it alone.”
“…?”
I couldn’t speak. How did he—?
“You didn’t know? The soundproofing in this house is terrible.”
My brain went blank. He had heard everything…? Every moment I had called Maru’s name while touching myself…?
“So can I feel good now too?”
I couldn’t possibly refuse. Though we had never said it aloud, this was a relationship meant to satisfy each other’s desires. I couldn’t be the only one who got off and called it done. Besides, the fact that he had heard me doing it alone—while moaning his name—had already short-circuited my mind.
I moved according to his words and touch. When I finally regained some sense, the position I found myself in was…
Doggy style?
Rear-entry position. A posture that left my pussy and even my ass completely exposed to him. I could feel his cock resting against my backside. The rubbery texture told me he had put on a condom properly this time.
No, that wasn’t important right now. Flustered, I tried to stop him, but—
“Wait a se— Hngh?!”
The moment his cock pushed inside me, both my words and thoughts were cut off at once.