Escape. (13)
Because it had always been either forced violations or sex done with the help of bodily fluids, this kind of experience was new to me.
We faced each other, fidgeting our fingers and avoiding eye contact.
If it weren't for the feel of the talisman stuck to my neck, it would have been at least a little better.
"Uh, um..."
"Here."
I grabbed the Hero's hesitant hand and slowly brought it between my crotch.
His flinching at the thought of his fingers touching my body was quite amusing.
He used to touch me so well, but now he's shy again.
"Here, hng, hey..."
"..."
"I just found out, but touching here makes me feel good... Eugh♥"
Every time the Hero's finger brushed my clitoris, my body trembled and twitched.
Touching myself was stimulating enough, but another person's touch was literally on another level.
What should I call it?
More sticky, perhaps, or more lewd...
The Hero tried to pull his hand away from my trembling, convulsing body.
But I couldn't just let that happen, so I held him tightly with both arms.
"Look."
"..."
After a few minutes, I held out my hand, drenched in clear fluid.
So it could have been like this.
If I had felt this sensation from the beginning, I would have surely fallen long ago.
It just took this long because the other person was a Mental Virgin.
"What do you think you've been doing until now?"
"...I'm sorry."
"It's fine for now. Anyway, that was also the Goddess's doing."
It would be a lie to say I had shaken it all off.
But to blame all those things solely on the Goddess, the wounds I received were too great.
More than anything, the Goddess was in a place I, in my current state, couldn't reach.
I needed someone to resent.
That's why I resented the Hero, but the more I resented him, the harder it became for me, so I eventually gave up.
What should I do with these dark emotions festering inside me?
"This time, I just need to do it differently than before."
Pleasure, especially pleasure one doesn't desire, was no different from torture.
But if I could acknowledge and accept it myself, it would be better.
Since I can't erase it with hatred, why not try to erase it with pleasure?
That was roughly the idea.
'Actually, my head is hazy, so I don't really know...'
Even though my body was on the ground, this might be what it felt like to float.
They say a man's orgasm is a single event, but a woman's can be continuous.
Oh, am I coming right now?
I felt like an idiot.
"But, uh, what should I do?"
Taking off clothes was easy, but what came after was the problem.
Kneeling naked in front of each other was much more embarrassing than I thought.
While facing each other, if our eyes met, one of us would subtly avert our gaze.
We had definitely been intimate many times, but this time, it felt especially strange.
"...For me to do it, it's a bit much."
"...Me too."
The Hero, because of the guilt of having forcibly violated me until now, and I, because I wasn't used to it.
If we kept hesitating, my heated body felt like it would cool down.
...Is there no other way then?
I bit my lip tightly and moved my body as it was.
As I pressed my chest against the Hero's, my round fruits were miserably squashed.
"For now, I'll go first."
I said it that way, but I didn't know how to move.
When I drank Hallibel's bodily fluid, my body moved half on its own, but now it wasn't obeying properly.
So, what should I do here?
As skin touched skin, the feeling was strange.
If I had to express it, I felt a little lewd.
"...I'll try to put it in."
Just stay still.
Saying that, I gently pushed the chest in front of me.
It wasn't much strength, but perhaps it was enough, as the Hero lay down on the floor.
He was clearly lying on his back, but only one thing was standing tall.
"Oh, ah..."
...Even looking at it again, it's an absurd size.
I was intimidated by the size of that thing, which no human could possess.
How did I ever put something like this inside my body until now?
'W-won't I tear?'
As I gently brought my body over his dick, which seemed angrier than usual, it flared up hotly as if heated by fire.
It's hot.
It's not some pillar of fire, what is this?
I started to feel scared.
I had a premonition that I absolutely couldn't do it like this and tried to force it in somehow, but perhaps because I was already scared stiff, my body wouldn't obey.
"Ah, I can't..."
Calm down a bit and later.
Later, for now!
With a trembling voice, I tried to raise my body, which had been sitting awkwardly.
...No, I tried to raise it.
I did, but then.
Sliiiip—
"Ah?"
Unbelievable.
"Hwaaaahhh?!?!♥♥♥"
Instantly, my vision turned white.
In terms of time, perhaps about 2 seconds.
Drooling from my mouth, as I lowered my head, a bulging belly came into view.
It wasn't just that something was inside, but it looked as if what was inside was about to burst out.
"S-surely not... Hwek♥"
I tried to pull it out quickly, but it wouldn't come out, as if caught on something.
I-I'm not holding it!
No, I am holding it, but it's not that kind of situation?!
"...Arthur."
"Uh, yeah..."
The Hero seemed to be struggling just by holding back his ejaculation.
His dick, so large it not only filled my vagina but overflowed, I realized how far his glans had penetrated.
"I-it came in, all the way to my Uterus♥"
Unable to overcome the pleasure, my body moved on its own, but because I was impaled on the Hero's dick, I couldn't fully bend over.
...Can I move?
No, do I even need to move?
Just staying sane was difficult.
If I slipped even a little, I felt like I would completely fall off.
"Don't overdo it."
"..."
As my body trembled from the intense pleasure, the Hero slowly embraced me.
I, who had a colder body than humans, and the Hero, who had a hotter body than ordinary people.
He was hot as if burned by fire, but for some reason, I felt at ease.
'A human body, it was this warm.'
It was something I couldn't have even in the Previous World.
That the other person was the Hero was a bit ironic, but it didn't matter.
For now, it seems better to just stay like this.
"I said you were precious, didn't I?"
"...Yeah."
In what sense did you say that?
But I needed certainty.
What 'precious' meant, I wanted to hear the answer to that.
Was it preciousness towards the only possibility of reviving his Childhood Friend, or was he cherishing me myself?
Such a simple certainty.
"You,"
"...Me?"
I swallowed dry.
I didn't know why I was nervous, but it was an important answer.
I felt that everything might change with this one answer.
Me, or the Hero, or perhaps our relationship, things like that.
"I love you."
"..."
My eyes widened.
Wondering if what I just heard was true, as I tried to move my body, the heat filling me spread towards my head.
It's real.
I hadn't misheard.
I didn't know why, but it felt like tears would come out.
"You said you hated me before."
You said you detested me. You said you wanted to kill me.
The Hero's expression remained unchanged.
With unwavering eyes, he was just looking at me.
What, what should I say?
"What's the reason?"
It wasn't a question.
It was just a question born of pure curiosity.
The Hero loves me? Why?
Perhaps he has some ulterior motive.
Or is it because he's afflicted by the Goddess's Curse?
Or he might be mistaken due to something else.
"If you love me, the Goddess will revive your Childhood Friend?"
The Hero shook his head.
"Or if not that, is it for atonement for what you did to me?"
It was the most likely assumption.
Although I still hadn't admitted it, it wasn't a lie that the Hero felt sorry for me.
If it was love created that way, I didn't particularly want to accept it.
But the Hero shook his head again this time.
He hesitated for a moment, but it was a definite sign of denial.
"It's because I've kept you in my heart."
Because your smile when you look at the children is beautiful.
Because the defenseless expression you show when you sleep is cute.
Because the face you sometimes show, looking into the distance, is so distant.
Because your gaze towards Elli and Hallibel is so warm.
Because the melancholy you show every time you go to Reina's grave is so heartbreaking.
And, every time you look at me, the corners of your mouth, wet with sadness, hurt so much.
So, so, so.
Because of those reasons.
"Just because of such reasons,"
You love me?
"I love you."
I blinked slowly for a moment, then slowly raised my head.
I don't know why, but my vision was blurry.
Oh, why is my vision like this?
As I closed and opened my eyes, hot drops of water fell.
I should say I hate it, but I can't say it.
I should say that someone like him is still so disgusting I could die, but I can't say it.
"...Okay."
"..."
"Just this once, I'll let it slide."
I tightly embraced the Hero's body as it was.
Our pounding heartbeats intertwined and soon created a single rhythm.
In a rhythm so identical it was impossible to tell whose was whose, the Hero's 'thing' began to swell even more.
"I-I'm coming...♥♥"
With the heat filling my Uterus, I closed my eyes as it was.