Escape. (12)
I never thought I'd end up thinking like this.
Rather than being violated by a Beastman I've never seen before, it's better to be violated by the Hero.
At the thought I'd come up with myself, I let out a hollow laugh inwardly.
Out of all choices, I picked the Hero? How foolish.
'But...'
Because I knew what it felt like to be forcibly violated by a stranger.
That's why I had no choice but to pick the latter.
Rather than feeling that fear and pain again, it was better to do it with that disgusting but familiar guy.
"But Hero, there's a problem."
With my clothes half-removed, I hesitated for a moment.
Looking at me, the Hero, whose eyes were filled with melancholy, gave me a look as if asking what was wrong.
Right, so.
Uh, so...
"I don't have Hallibel's bodily fluid."
So far, I've conceived children through my relationship with the Hero a total of three times.
Two of those three times were accomplished by borrowing the power of bodily fluid.
The very first time was due to what Elli did to me while I was sleeping.
...No, perhaps that way is better?
"In that sense, I'll be sleeping, so how about violating me while I'm asleep?"
"...What."
"...Rather than hearing me utter curses, that would be better for you too—"
I felt a stifling sensation on my body.
It was because the Hero, who had been listening to me, tightly embraced my body.
In a desperate movement, as if trying to shut me up, my voice reflexively wouldn't come out.
From the embrace that held me tightly, I felt intermittent trembling.
...Why are you doing this?
"Please, please don't say such things."
"..."
"Please, cherish yourself a little more."
His desperate voice was choked with emotion.
I was the one who wanted to cry, but it seemed like the Hero was the one actually crying.
The tears of a culprit, perhaps.
Feeling the increasing pressure, I patted the Hero's back.
I get it, so let go for now.
When I said that, letting out a long breath, he obediently let go.
"Then what should I do...?"
There was no clear solution.
Of all things, I had to feel an orgasm to get pregnant.
With a body that didn't get wet at all even looking at the Hero's face, I didn't know what on earth I was supposed to do.
Something similar to the heat-inducing magic used by the Fox Beastman came to mind, but I shook my head.
Rather than getting help from that kind of bitch, it would be better to just masturbate—
"...Hiccup."
"Ariel?"
Come to think of it, I had experienced it before.
Soaked in Dantallion's bodily fluid, I had thoroughly fondled between my legs.
The moment I recalled that memory, hiccups burst out.
The feeling of being too far gone, to the point of fear, was a sensation I had felt for the first time back then.
"No, *hic*. It's nothing, really..."
I subtly turned my head away from the Hero, who was looking at me with a questioning gaze.
Masturbation, masturbation...
Could I do it well?
Originally, what happened back then was something that occurred from moving frantically.
I only vaguely remembered the fact that I had done it, but I couldn't recall what I had actually done.
"...Just for a moment, turn your head."
At my words, the Hero obediently turned his head.
I let out a small moan, then slowly moved my arm.
What lay where my hand gently descended was a bare mound with nothing on it.
And a small spring hidden within it touched my fingertip.
"...I don't feel anything particularly different."
I lightly touched the surface, but it wasn't particularly stimulating.
As expected, it's different from what I saw in erotic doujinshi.
No, if it were like in those, I would have already been conquered by the Hero's dick.
'...Ugh.'
Recalling myself burying my face between the Hero's legs, my stomach turned.
What would be better to imagine at a time like this?
Performing the act of masturbation felt like it had been too long.
In the first place, doing it with this body was practically the first time.
"Come to think of it, if I touch here— *Hngh*?!"
When I placed my finger on the small clitoris above the fissure, I felt something like an electrifying sensation.
Oh, something just...
When I blankly looked down between my legs, the space between my thighs was trembling.
"No, surely not..."
Was this body really so easy to feel pleasure with?
But why didn't I get wet when I was with the Hero?
Of course, it must have been due to the psychological repulsion stemming from the fact that the other party was a man.
But if I'm this sensitive, I should have definitely felt something when I was violated...
"*Hngh*, ahh...♥"
When I lightly pressed the protuberance with my fingertip, then gently kneaded it, a sweet moan burst from my lips.
It's lewd. It's my voice, but it's too lewd.
Just by hearing my own moans, my body began to heat up more and more.
So, uh...
"*Hiyah*, ahh♥ I, I feel so good...♥"
Th-this is strange.
R-really strange?
My limbs trembled as if I had caught some illness.
The thighs swaying left and right, the moment they overcame gravity and floated into the air, my back touched the floor with intense pleasure.
"...!!!"
As I surrendered my body to the continuous pleasure, my mind went blank shortly after.
The pleasure that climbed up from the clitoris and spread from my lower abdomen.
Unable to even make a sound, my body stiffened, and the space between my legs grew hot.
'Come to think of it, the Hero had never touched here.'
As a virgin, what would he know about women?
He looked like the protagonist of some harem story, yet his actions were those of an eternal virgin...
Somehow, I found myself ridiculous, and let out a hollow laugh.
Certainly, if that was the reason, it made sense that I felt nothing during my encounters with the Hero.
"Uh?!"
Then suddenly, realizing the Hero was next to me, I hastily sat up.
Crazy, crazy!
Did I just masturbate in front of the Hero?
Putting aside the self-loathing, what mattered was whether the Hero had seen such a sight.
"Hero, I'm sorry for making strange noises—"
His head was definitely turned away.
But what was attached below him.
His monstrously swollen dick was asserting its presence.
"..."
Even if he hadn't seen me masturbating, he must have heard my moans, of course.
No, at this point, I couldn't even be sure if he truly hadn't seen it.
"...You can turn your head now."
I felt unnecessarily embarrassed.
Feeling the heat rush to my face, I muttered in a timid voice.
To get angry at the Hero, it was indeed my fault, so I didn't bother.
"Uh, that, well..."
The Hero, who turned his head stiffly, kept clearing his throat.
Staring intently, not just his face, but even the tips of his ears were burning red.
It's the first time I've seen him this embarrassed.
Of course, I was just as mortified.
"Come to think of it, I must have been your first experience too."
"*Cough, cough*?! N-no, I wasn't?!"
"...You weren't?"
".......Actually, you're right."
When I retorted sharply to his pathetic lie, he became dejected.
To see a bastard like him dejected and not throw a punch, I really have become something else.
Even then, a small gasp of admiration escaped me at the Hero's crotch, which hadn't deflated.
His brain must definitely be located down there.
"Alright then, fine."
Feeling mischievous at his appearance, I moved closer to the Hero.
My chest pressed against the Hero's arm, getting thoroughly squashed, but for now, teasing him was the priority.
"Let's make a baby together, Arthur."
"..."
It was partly a line to hide my embarrassment, but for the Hero, whose mental state was that of a virgin, it seemed to have quite a strong effect.
At the arm stretched out towards me, I could guess what he was trying to do.
He was clearly going to push me down and violate me as he pleased—
—This trashy bastard.
"It's too, too stimulating, so please stop..."
But the answer I received was a refusal.
It wasn't an arm stretched out to push me down, but to push me away.
The Hero, who subtly turned his head back, began to slowly back away.
"When I said I didn't want it, he forcibly violated me."
"..."
"Why are you running away now?"
I reached out my hand, and grabbed the Hero's collar.
Because of whom did I do such a shameful thing, and now he's trying to run away?
The heat that had spread through my body had subsided, but the throbbing sensation in my lower abdomen remained.
"I think I'm too excited right now, so let's do it later, later."
"...There's no such thing as later."
To give birth to a million, it wouldn't be enough even if we started right now, let alone later.
By simple calculation, even if I gave birth to one person a day, it would take over 2000 years.
Unless you're going to live that long, you should know that time is precious.
"If you took away my first experience, which I didn't want to have that way, then take responsibility."
It was a cowardly thing to say, but I had the right to say it.
When I was forcibly violated, it was your will, so this time, it's by my will.
Perhaps I was trying to fill my satisfaction with the lives born from within my body.
Makina, and Kerum.
Though they were by my side, the faces of those precious beings who instantly left me still flickered before my eyes.
Such a great loss surely won't be easily forgotten in the future.
"So, Arthur."
Fill me, and don't let me be lonely.
One might ask if I feel lonely even with Elli or Hallibel, but it was a different kind of feeling.
A loneliness as if I had fallen into this world all alone.
Because there were beings connected by blood by my side, I was able to endure that loneliness.
"Don't let me be alone."
That was another reason why I wanted to give birth to children.
...Though I think it's ugly of me.