Transition of Change 3: More Comments Than Expected
'There are more comments than I thought?'
It was obviously my first post, and given Heaven Net's nature, threads without provocative photos or videos were the kind most users would easily scroll past. Yet quite a few reactions had piled up.
My heart raced with an inexplicable thrill and anticipation as I slowly began reading through the comments on my post.
Whew…
Since there were no photos or videos, the usual raw, filthy comments I always saw were mostly missing, but it was still more than enough to set my body on fire.
'Tsk… Maybe I should stop here and get out. I don’t want to get caught by my wife again like last time.'
I closed the laptop and walked out to the living room. The drama my wife had been watching was nearly over, so I sat down beside her.
“All done, oppa?”
“Yeah. Looks like your drama’s finished too?”
“Mm, I should head to bed soon~ You have work tomorrow, right?”
“Ugh, don’t even remind me.”
“Anyway, I thought I was going to die from embarrassment because of you today.”
“Why?”
“What do you mean, why? Seriously, oppa… How could you spend the whole day grabbing my ass? Doesn’t your hand get tired?”
“Tired? If it’s your butt, Yu-jin, I could touch it for the rest of my life.”
“Geez~ You know you’ve been acting really weird lately, right? Isn’t it because of that Heaven Net site I saw you on last time?”
I flinched.
“What are you talking about? Why are you suddenly bringing that up?”
“No~ Last time when I caught you masturbating, you were watching that Heaven Net or some porn site, weren’t you? You never used to be this perverted… Don’t you think that’s what changed you?”
'She can be so sharp at times like this.'
My wife was usually calm, but she had her airheaded moments. Those tended to appear around people older than her, people she wasn’t close to, or people she was completely comfortable with. Maybe it was because she had always been kind and couldn’t easily turn down requests. Of course, since she had majored in mathematics, she could be incredibly sharp when she wanted to be—like right now.
“I didn’t say anything before… but you were in the study looking at Heaven Net again earlier, weren’t you?”
“Uh…”
Her words carried an unspoken pressure that said she already knew, so I might as well confess. There had been a few situations like this in the past where denying it had been pointless because she always saw through me. Lying now would only irritate her, so I decided to tell the truth.
“Actually… yeah. I was looking at Heaven Net.”
“I knew it… Does it really turn you on that much?”
“Yeah. When I look at Heaven Net, these feelings I never knew I had come rushing up… It gets me insanely excited.”
“You’re hopeless~ If it’s that good, then stop hiding it and watch it openly. Or better yet, show me too.”
“Show you, Yu-jin?”
“Why not? I’m an adult too, and I’ve always been curious why men like porn so much. Next time, watch it with me, oppa.”
“Uh… okay, got it.”
Her unexpected answer left me speechless for a moment. She glanced at me, then turned off the TV and disappeared into the bedroom.
“You should come to bed soon too. You have work tomorrow.”
“I know…”
I followed her into the bedroom, pushing my swirling, confused emotions aside for later.
Monday Lunch (Yu-jin POV)
“Yu-jin, what were you up to?”
“What else? Housework.”
After sending my husband Gyu-min off to work, I was in the middle of doing the laundry I hadn’t managed over the weekend when my close friend Ha-jung called. We usually kept in touch often, so I answered happily.
“Really? I figured you might be free so I gave you a ring.”
“Thanks. I was getting bored doing the same old laundry anyway…”
“Hehe. Hearing your voice makes me glad I called.”
“Aren’t you supposed to be working right now? I thought your translation jobs kept you busy?”
“I told you last time, remember? I’m freelancing now… so I can set my own schedule. Today’s a rest day, so I’m home alone too. I don’t have many Korean friends here, so I thought of you and decided to call.”
“You should’ve said something—I would’ve suggested we meet up…”
“It’s fine, girl~ We just saw each other recently. Sometimes I just want to chill at home, you know?”
“I see…”
“Yeah, so let’s just chat like this today.”
“Sounds good.”
Yu-jin and Ha-jung talked for over thirty minutes, catching up on everything. Then Yu-jin suddenly remembered she had been worrying alone about her husband Gyu-min’s recent changes. She thought Ha-jung might be the perfect person to confide in and decided to share her concerns.
“Um… Ha-jung?”
“Yeah? What’s with the sudden serious tone?”
“I’ve got something on my mind lately… Would you listen to my worries?”
“Worries? What kind of worries would make even your voice sound this down?”
“It’s not that huge, but it’s not the kind of thing I can talk to just anyone about… I thought you’d understand.”
“Okay~ Go ahead. You know I’m the expert worry counselor, right? Tell me everything, Yu-jin.”
“Alright, so…”
Yu-jin told Ha-jung everything that had happened with Gyu-min without leaving anything out—how he had started making dirty jokes and teasing her more often, how he kept buying her revealing clothes, and even the blatant outdoor skinship from just yesterday.
Ha-jung listened quietly and seriously until Yu-jin finished, then finally spoke.
“Hehe… When I saw Gyu-min last time he didn’t seem like that at all… He’s way hotter than I thought, huh?”
“Girl… stop joking and be serious.”
“Hehe, okay okay. So Gyu-min’s sex drive has gotten a lot stronger than before, and like you said, he’s been doing all these naughty things to you lately?”
“Yeah… that’s right.”
“From your perspective, why do you think he changed so suddenly?”
“Well…”
Yu-jin had a strong hunch that the reason behind Gyu-min’s recent transformation was that Heaven Net site he had been looking at while masturbating. She had already inwardly concluded that the site was the cause. Still, she hesitated for a second about whether she should mention it to her friend. But she decided that only by revealing everything could she find a solution, so she opened up.
“Actually… my husband’s been visiting this one porn site lately. I think that’s why he’s changing.”
“A porn site? Do you know the name?”
“I think… it was Heaven Net.”
“Heaven Net…”
“Wait, Ha-jung, you know it too?”
“Oh? No, I was just thinking, ‘So there’s a site like that.’ Hehe. No matter how wild I am, would I watch porn at my age? I can get much better sex in real life.”
“Girl… where did that come from? So shameless.”
“Hehe. Anyway, you think Gyu-min’s been acting this way because of Heaven Net?”
“Yeah… I do.”
“Well… I don’t think you need to worry too much. You know how men are… their sex drives stay strong even as they get older. And didn’t you tell me on the phone before that the two of you barely had sex anymore and you were worried?”
“That was true back then… but now it’s happening so suddenly that… maybe he’s still normal and I’m the one overreacting.”
“Exactly~ From what I can see, it looks like your married life is only going to get better, so there’s no need to stress. Also, from what you told me earlier, you let him get away with those naughty jokes, right?”
“Let him? I told him to stop but he kept doing it, so I just gave up… He’s groping my ass in public and I’m the one looking around nervously. It feels like I’m the only one worrying.”
“Girl… so you actually enjoy it?”
“What? How can you say that?”
“It’s true~ If you really hated it, you would’ve gotten angry and told him firmly to stop. But the way I see it, you secretly enjoy those little games, don’t you?”
At Ha-jung’s question, Yu-jin fell silent for a moment.
“No, I don’t. If you keep talking like this I’m hanging up.”
“Okay okay~ My answer is that Gyu-min is just a normal guy in his thirties with a slightly stronger sex drive. And honestly, Yu-jin, when he plays those dirty pranks on you… doesn’t it turn you on even a little? You just don’t want to admit it, so you’re telling yourself you’re only putting up with it.”
“...”
Yu-jin started to argue but stopped. Maybe Ha-jung was right. Maybe she really did feel excited inside when her husband touched her body and made those naughty jokes… Since it was the first time such things had happened in her life, it was hard to accept, so she had been trying to rationalize it. In the end, she decided to be honest.
“Yeah… you’re right. At first I just went along with it because he’s my husband… but lately I think I’ve started enjoying those dirty jokes and pranks a little bit too…”
“See! I knew it~ So you do enjoy them. Ha… ahng…”
“What’s wrong? Are you hurting somewhere?”
“Ah… maybe my sitting posture while working has been bad, because my back’s been acting up. I bought a massage chair for the house recently. I’m using it right now and I guess the intensity is a bit strong…”
“Are you okay? Once your back goes bad it’s no joke… Have you been to the hospital?”
“Hng… mmm… I’m fine. It’s not that serious. The massage chair is enough for now~”
“You should take better care of yourself. Once your back is ruined, it doesn’t recover easily…”
“I know~ Anyway, there’s nothing wrong with your husband, so just enjoy it. When you get older you might want to but won’t be able to, you know?”
“Yeah… Oh, right. Gyu-min told me to set up a time to meet with you soon.”
“Haa… ngh… Huh? Gyu-min did? I’d love that~ Let’s meet up on the weekend when we’re all free then.”
“Sounds good~ Oh! You don’t have any worries of your own these days, do you?”
“Me? Nah… Oh! A friend I got close to during my working holiday in Australia is actually visiting Korea right now. I’ll introduce you later, Yu-jin. He’s a black guy and his face is a bit rough so he might look scary, but he’s actually really sweet.”
“Really? Then if the timing works, he can come along too. I don’t mind.”
“Got it. So I’ll keep that in… ngh… Ah!?”
“Are you okay?”
“Haang… ha… Sorry, the massage chair roller just hit a really sore spot on my lower back… That’s all.”
“I see…”
“Yu-jin, sorry but my stomach suddenly hurts and I think I need to run to the bathroom. Let’s end the call here and talk again soon, okay?”
“Sure, go ahead. Take care of your back, Ha-jung. Talk to you later.”
“Mmm… yeah… I’ll hang up then!”
'Ha-jung’s back must be really bad… I can’t believe I didn’t know when we’re so close. Next time I see her I should get her some good herbal medicine for her back.'
After learning from the call that her dear friend Ha-jung was suffering from severe back pain, Yu-jin felt a pang in her chest. She decided she would buy some herbal medicine good for the back and give it to her as a gift the next time they met. With that thought, she went back to her housework.