I Also Felt a Sense of Relief
I Also Felt a Sense of Relief
In the tent next to us were Linda, Agnes, and Flora—heroines Kylon would have to conquer in the future. Yet, Kylon was pouring all his attention onto me, which left me feeling quite awkward.
Veronica was clearly a service character anyway, so I also thought it was a waste of time for him to pay so much attention to me just because I was inside her body.
"Quickly."
At Kylon's urging, I tightly clenched the hand that was holding my skirt and mumbled.
I quietly looked down at the crumpled front hem of my skirt, then slowly lifted my gaze after mumbling.
I knew well that having to take off my clothes in front of someone was an incredibly embarrassing act, and I was simply frustrated, not knowing what this was all about.
I frowned and slowly lifted my skirt, but Kylon said nothing more, only urging me on with his silence.
I groaned repeatedly, and as I lifted my skirt, what was revealed were stockings, and behind them, the straps of a Garter Belt came into view over the thick flesh consumed by the stockings.
Though it was my own body, it was an incredibly awkward sight, and I suddenly wondered how I had managed to walk around in such a state.
Because they were Saintess's Robes, and because I was the Saintess, I had been forced to wear them and slowly gotten used to them, so I hadn't realized. But thinking about how scary it was to get used to something, finally, white panties were revealed, and above the panties, white Garter Belt straps wrapped around my lower abdomen.
Suppressing the shame that made my face feel like it was burning, I looked at Kylon's face, which was staring intently at me.
"...Do I, do I have to?"
"Yes."
It seemed Kylon's mind wouldn't change.
Over the past few days, I had secretly brought a knife and made potions on my own twice, so I wondered if that was the reason.
My head throbbed. Unable to say anything, I mumbled, then exhaled a deep, trembling breath and slumped my shoulders.
It took a lot of courage just to lift my skirt, but now I had to take off my panties and masturbate? And even if I didn't climax, I had to get my hymen pierced?
"I won't self-harm, so can't you let it go?"
I pleaded desperately, feeling like I absolutely couldn't go that far, but what I got in return was Kylon's sharp gaze.
"You don't listen to what I say. Do you know your trauma is getting worse these days? Or not?"
"......."
"I never said I'd abandon you if you were useless, but you're trying to find your own usefulness, thinking what if you're abandoned, and even though I'm the one who actually cleared the game, you're the one insisting that a heroine is absolutely necessary on the way to the Ending. Why do you keep doing things on your own accord?"
"......."
I had nothing to say.
Was I that bad?
I didn't think it was that severe.
If Kylon perceived it that way, I had no argument, but I still felt unfairly treated, so I lowered my head again and bit my lip tightly.
I felt like I would die of shame. But just as I was trembling, thinking Kylon wouldn't let me go, his voice, driving the nail in, reached my ears.
"When I see you keep self-harming, it makes my heart ache too. Even if I always act like I'm crazy for women, if someone who came from the same world as me is doing that, there's a limit to how much I can watch and endure."
"...Sorry."
"I won't abandon you, I will never leave you behind, so hurry up and do it."
I had coaxed and comforted myself into self-harm countless times so that I wouldn't be abandoned, and I thought that making potions and distributing them was a way to maintain my place.
But if that was causing Kylon distress, I wondered if it was really okay.
I felt dazed, wondering if this wasn't breaking the reason for me to be by Kylon's side.
So, if I do this, I won't be abandoned?
Hesitating.
Kylon's voice awakened my mind.
"Truly, I'll take you with me whether you have abilities or not. I don't care if you have no abilities, just listen to me."
Hearing those words, I found myself resting my left hand, which had been holding up my skirt, against my solar plexus to hold it steady, and slowly lowering my right hand.
My hesitation repeated, but Kylon's words indicated he didn't want me to hesitate.
So, I groaned at Kylon's words, put my hand inside the lifted skirt, and touched my panties.
With trembling hands, I hooked my finger on the panty string and carefully untied it. The panties lost their hold and soon revealed my crotch.
The Garter Belt was intact, but taking off only my panties made for a somewhat maniacal sight, and a deep sense of shame emerged.
My vulva, my pussy, which I hadn't even looked at closely, was revealed without any hair, and because of that, I tensed up and my body flinched.
"...Ugh."
Wouldn't it be too much to put my finger inside there while someone was watching?
No, but Kylon said I had to let him see.
My hands trembled so much I wondered if I had essential tremor, as they moved towards my pussy, which formed a straight line. In that gap, I placed my finger.
A different sensation from when I touched it to wash pierced through my body.
I strongly felt a chilling sensation shoot up my back, over my shoulders, hwaak.
"Ugh!"
I was already so embarrassed that I buried my head, trying not to see Kylon's reaction, and was trembling as I tried to insert my hand. In the midst of that, Kylon's dick swelling came into the corner of my vision.
Well, of course, with a woman in stockings and a Garter Belt, but only her panties removed, it would be rare for a man to endure, I thought, but more than that, I just felt too perverted.
After parting the crack of my tightly closed pussy, I fumbled with my hand to find the hole, but I didn't properly know where it was, so I just fumbled with a furrowed brow. Kylon groaned, "Hmm."
And then, as if his patience had worn thin, he spoke first.
"What's wrong?"
"I, I don't, don't know where, where the hole is."
Suppressing my embarrassment, I furtively glanced at Kylon's face and told him. He groaned "kkeung," then carefully approached and grabbed my wrist.
"Point your finger, and relax your arm."
I was surprised by the sudden contact, but Kylon's voice, as if he was going to show me without touching me directly, made me follow as if possessed.
I only raised my index finger and relaxed my arm. He leaned in and stared intently at my crotch, then, using my hand, he began to wantonly probe the pussy flesh that formed a straight line.
Though it was my hand doing the probing, it wasn't moving as I wished, so I couldn't avoid the flinching sensation.
"Spread your legs wider. I can't see properly."
"Ugh, ugh..."
At Kylon's words, I spread my thighs wider, creating space for him to lean in further. Kylon then settled down and looked closely, then placed my finger with a 'thwack' on the pussy hole hidden within the crack.
"Heeik?!"
At that, a tingling sensation that vibrated from my crotch to my lower abdomen made me jump in surprise.
But as if it was just the beginning, Kylon, who made me feel that sensation repeatedly, fixed the angle of my finger this way and that, then probed deeply inside.
The tip of my finger, which had brushed past dry skin, now touched soft, hot, slippery skin, far from dry, and at the same time, my pussy was trembling as if convulsing.
"J-just, just a..."
"This is the hole."
Even while I was trembling and pleading due to the strange sensation in my lower abdomen, Kylon told me so indifferently, then slowly let go of my arm.
My index finger had just squeezed into the hole, but my pussy was tightly clenching around that one finger as if it couldn't go any further. Because of that, I could only groan, unable to put it in or take it out.
Perhaps because of this, the periodically felt sensation made my head throb.
Tingling, tingling.
"You have to put it in deeper."
"I, I can't, it won't go in any deeper..."
"Then you have to loosen it up. Stimulate it like this, left and right."
Kylon instructed me, making gestures of stirring it this way and that, as if he was already used to it. But even hearing his words, I couldn't do it, so I just stiffly stared at Kylon's face.
My mind went blank, so there was nothing more to be embarrassed about. I frowned and averted my gaze.
Then Kylon took another step closer, grabbed my wrist, and began to probe my hand this way and that.
"Oh, j-just a... Heeik!"
In an instant, I couldn't resist what was happening and swung my finger this way and that, which ended up probing and stimulating the vaginal walls this way and that.
It happened so suddenly that I met an orgasm without any mental preparation. I felt a thrilling sensation rising from my lower back, and my mind went blank to the point where I wondered if I was losing consciousness.
And at the same time, I felt the strength drain from my legs, unable to withstand the sudden pleasure.
Thump, I fell on my bottom with my legs spread, and exhaled, feeling my lungs tremble. I felt that fluid had been produced in my pussy, which had only been dry before.
"Now it should go in a bit easier."
"Hngh, haah..."
"Come on, I'm not telling you to cum, so quickly put it in deeper."
At Kylon's urging, I groaned and inserted my finger into my pussy, which could now be entered deeply even with a slight resistance.
Kylon's hand pushed my arm little by little, so there was also a feeling of being forced in.
It was so embarrassing to feel like I was being helped to masturbate with my legs spread, but the thought that this could prevent me from being abandoned made me forget everything and immerse myself in the act.
"Hngh, hngh."
"Your breathing is too erotic, try to hold it in a little."
"Ugh."
At Kylon's words, I tightly closed my mouth and tried to exhale only through my nose.
Suppressing the feeling that my head would tilt back from the procession of fingers digging into me, I finally found the resistance felt at the tip of my finger.
And Kylon, who was holding my arm and pushing it in, seemed to notice that sensation too, and brightened his eyes with an "Oh."
"This must be it."
"...Haa. J-just a moment..."
"If you delay too much, it'll hurt more."
"Oh, will it hurt?"
"A little."
He said it would hurt, so I felt like I would be less prepared mentally.
But since he said it would only hurt a little, I thought I could endure it, so I narrowed my eyes and repeatedly took deep breaths.
"Hoo, when you count to three, Kylon, you do it for me... I, I can't do it alone."
"Honestly, something like this, if you put your hand in too deep while masturbating, it could tear. Anyway, I understand, I'll count to three."
"Mhm."
My shoulders tensed up from the nervousness.
"One."
The moment I was preparing to take a deep breath, Kylon's hand suddenly came in.
"Two!"
Before he even reached three, at the command of "two," my finger dug into a deep place, and at that moment, a tingling, electric sensation seized me from within.
"Haah?!"
It didn't feel particularly painful, but there was a slightly stinging sensation.
It wasn't so much pain as it felt like I had received a sharp injection.
But a strange sensation closer to pleasure, stronger than pain, overwhelmed my mind, so I couldn't help but groan.
Moreover, it felt like vaginal fluid was flowing down my finger, and I felt like I was going to lose my mind.
Haa, I had deliberately avoided touching it until now, but facing the collapse of what I had protected so meaninglessly, I also felt a sense of emptiness.
"Hoo, now that you've lost your ability, you shouldn't self-harm, okay? And, let's slowly heal your trauma now."
Hearing those words, I blankly turned my eyes to follow his gaze, and I realized there was only a little vaginal fluid on my hand, and deflowering blood flowing down that finger.
My hymen was gone. Could I say I was no longer a virgin because of this?
I wasn't sure, but listening to Kylon say that my ability was gone because of this, I felt a sense of regret somewhere, but conversely, also a sense of relief.
I also felt relieved, thinking that I would just live under Kylon's protection like this.
At Kylon's words about healing my trauma, I gave a bitter smile and nodded.
"Mhm."
More than that, I didn't forget to let go of the hem of my skirt, which I had been holding with my left hand to hide my embarrassment, covering my crotch, and also closing my spread legs.
But Kylon grabbed me, not allowing me to pick up my panties. As if he couldn't control his dick that seemed like it would burst through his pants, he grabbed onto the moment that seemed like it was about to end and clung to it.
"But, I'm sorry... can't you show me your pussy just one more time?"
.......
