Are You Sane When You Say That?
Are You Sane When You Say That?
The journey back to the Holy Kingdom could be described as peaceful.
Because monsters rarely roamed near the Holy Kingdom.
After two tents were set up for camping, I was kneeling inside Kylon's tent, facing him.
As I stared blankly at him, he thought for a long time before cautiously opening his mouth.
"...Hey."
"What?"
"You said if you lose your virginity, the Saintess's power disappears, right?"
Why was he suddenly saying that?
Flustered by the sudden and out-of-the-blue remark, I looked at his eyes in surprise.
He didn't seem to be teasing, nor did he look like he was joking, so I immediately understood the situation.
Was he not satisfied with Linda and the other heroines? Thinking he might be subtly approaching me, I furrowed my glabellum, and he continued his words.
"If the Saintess's power were to disappear, wouldn't the King quickly lose interest too? And you would stop self-harming."
Listening to him, his words did seem to have a point.
I knew all along that the King's interest in me was because my body couldn't die even if killed, and he wanted to research it.
If I were to return to being a normal person, and then saw the King lose interest in me, I thought I might be able to escape the trauma to some extent.
But to even think about taking away my powers just to make me stop self-harming, didn't that seem too extreme?
And the means to do that was hymen piercing? Wait a minute.
"...Th-that's a bit much."
As I said that, I held my trembling breath and recoiled, but Kylon seemed to have no intention of letting me go, reaching out a long hand, he firmly grabbed my arm and showed no sign of releasing it.
After hearing those words and then having him grab my body, I couldn't help but gasp in fright, but Kylon, as if not caring what my reaction was, pulled me closer with a slight tug on his arm.
"If losing virginity simply means breaking the membrane, wouldn't my finger be enough?"
Well. I'd never contemplated virginity, so I had no idea what the criteria for being a virgin were. Come to think of it, if one lost their hymen through masturbation, would they no longer be a virgin? The thought made me wonder if it was simply a matter of perspective.
Why did I even have to debate virginity with someone like him in the first place?
"I don't know... Don't even think about touching me."
Ever since I woke up in this body, I'd had no intention of doing anything with it.
Of course, it wasn't that I wasn't curious about the pleasure one could gain from a woman's body.
But I felt that if I experienced it once, then twice, I would no longer be myself, so I couldn't bring myself to touch it.
Towards me, who was agonizing and enduring, Kylon, who wasn't enduring at all, confidently opened his mouth and told me.
"...Wouldn't it be enough if I protected you? Honestly, you don't really like me anyway, and then you wouldn't have to stick with me like this."
You say I dislike you, but it's because you keep trying to rub against me with a man's body, and I don't know when you'll try to screw me, that's why I keep my distance.
Besides, if I'm with Kylon, I want to avoid getting into a messy fight with the heroines Kylon is trying to conquer.
Honestly, aside from him using me as masturbation material, I didn't particularly dislike him.
Even if I disliked him, what could I do? I had to stick with Kylon for the ending anyway, and if I just got upset from unnecessary emotional expenditure, it clearly wouldn't lead to a good outcome.
Of course, I could say I couldn't dislike him, but it wasn't that I truly disliked him and was forced to stick with him, so I denied his words.
"...I don't... dislike you."
"......."
At my words, he kept his mouth shut and maintained silence, then let out a 'hmm' sound, and soon, as if embarrassed, he shifted his gaze that had been fixed on me.
And then, he cleared his throat with an 'ahem'.
"I'm happy you said that so suddenly, anyway, I've been thinking, you constantly cutting yourself and making potions isn't really a good thing. So, let's just try a little."
Whoosh.
My body, pulled in an instant, moved as if flying towards Kylon without being able to resist.
My body, which had flown in an instant, landed directly in Kylon's arms, and after regaining my senses and realizing this was Kylon's embrace, I quickly reached out my hands to stand up.
As I tried to push him away by pressing on Kylon's muscular abdomen, he instead wrapped his arms around my back and hugged me.
"H-hey...! If th-this is a joke, stop it right now."
"It's not a joke."
I, flustered, told him with a serious face, but Kylon merely replied in a voice devoid of playfulness.
Being embraced by a man's body was burdensome and uncomfortable, so I thumped his chest, looking for an opening to escape, but his chest was so firm that he showed no sign of backing away.
Then, holding me tightly, he extended his other arm, not the one around my waist, and brushed it over my body as if to touch my butt.
As I, flustered by the sensation of his hand sweeping over my body, held my breath, I could tell just how serious Kylon was at this moment.
So, it was good that he was thinking of me, but since it led to the issue of hymen piercing, it didn't seem very welcome.
Furthermore, to be pierced by Kylon's hand?
Honestly, even with the trauma, having an immortal body always had great advantages.
If someone was in danger, I could act as a meat shield, and if manpower was tight, I could say there was no need to protect me.
Of course, it would eat into the food expenses, but it still had its own advantages, and telling me to give that up was no different.
"H-huh, w-wait a minute...!"
"Why?"
"I-if I really do this, I'll just become a normal nun, won't I...?"
"I'll get you a black nun's habit."
"That's not the point!"
"Shh. Unless you want to publicly display the Saintess's Hymen Piercing Show, be quiet."
This crazy bastard....
What was this person, who wanted to witness the Saintess's Hymen Piercing Show firsthand, even saying?
Watching Kylon, who was showing his resolve not to back down, I felt like my mind was going blank.
Desperately, I racked my brain, thinking many thoughts even in a fleeting second.
To come up with a way to persuade Kylon, to calculate the pros and cons of gaining and losing this body's powers.
If I lost my powers, I would be no different from a helpless person who needed to be helped first when attacked next. No, not just no different, I would clearly be helplessness itself.
Furthermore, since I couldn't even make potions, there would be nothing I could do to help.
Instead, my trauma might fade, and I wouldn't have to stick with Kylon anymore, so it might not be so bad.
I thought about it for a long time, but still, no answer came.
Because the thought occurred to me: wouldn't having my powers be a greater advantage?
Not dying meant that, if there was a chance, I could reach the ending again.
"K-Kylon. Listen."
After agonizing over it countless times until my head throbbed, I opened my mouth to persuade him, and cautiously raised my trembling gaze to look at Kylon.
Being held by a man and looking up at him wasn't a very pleasant feeling, but since he was about to pierce my virginity right now, what was there to hide? So, rather than pushing him away, I just tried to persuade him.
At my words, he stopped his hand on my butt, lowered his head, and looked into my eyes.
The gaze felt too close, and the breath so near made me unable to suppress my fluster, but I continued to speak.
"I-if I'm no longer the Saintess, it could be dangerous, couldn't it?"
"Being the Saintess is more dangerous."
"...If we go on an adventure, I'll have to stick with you longer and fight monsters, even then?"
"It's fine. I'll protect you."
Has he completely made up his mind?
No matter what I did, there was no escape route, and seeing Kylon exude such resolute will to just solve everything himself, I felt like my mind was going blank.
Feeling cold sweat trickle down, I finally squeezed my eyes shut, and mumbled with trembling lips.
"I-I'll do it myself."
Seeing Kylon's determination to not let go and to pierce my hymen with his finger no matter what I said, I finally thought it might be better to do it voluntarily rather than involuntarily, and so I told him.
At that, Kylon smoothly removed the hand he had placed on my butt, and relaxed the arm that had been holding my lower back.
With the freedom I gained in an instant, I immediately pushed Kylon's chest and stepped back.
No sooner had I let out a sigh of relief, than Kylon stared intently at me.
"Then, do that."
"Y-yeah, mm-hmm."
Fortunately, it seemed that me doing it myself was also okay.
I felt truly relieved. If I carelessly entrusted my body to this crazy lesbian, who knows how far she might go without restraint?
Linda, too, was somewhat tempted yesterday, and seeing how quickly it led to sex even with me sleeping next to them, I couldn't shake off that unease either, so I felt tense.
Having overcome the immediate crisis, I composed myself and tried to get up to cautiously leave the spot.
But that was only for a moment, as Kylon stopped me, who was trying to crawl out to leave.
"...Where are you going?"
"Uh, what? It's about time to sleep, so..."
"You have to do it and then leave. If you say you secretly did it where I can't see, how would I know? It's better to just pierce it right in front of me than to get a hymen check."
"......."
Is he in his right mind? I glared at him, my glabellum furrowed, but seeing his expression, I understood.
He was genuinely telling me to masturbate in front of him, mentioning hymen checks and whatnot.
"...Are you serious?"
"Before I do it, hurry up and sit back down."
"......."
How did it come to this?
I tried to clear my dazed mind, but the situation was so surreal that even when I came to my senses, I felt like I'd been hit over the head, so I groaned and sat properly in front of Kylon again.
"I'm not telling you to go all the way, just pierce your hymen and leave."
You crazy bastard....
Whatever it was, I wondered how it was different from just telling me to spread my legs, so I frowned.