Filming (4)
Using the short break time, I stepped out into the hotel lobby.
The guy I had dinner with Lee Ayoung earlier had been giving me signals to come down for a bit, but the woman beside him gave it so intensely that it was shocking.
“Hey, what’s going on? Why are you signaling me to come out?”
“Ah, you’re here? Just wondering what you’re doing.”
Even though I told him I was busy, he kept signaling me to come out. Is there no reason?”
“Hey, I’m busy. If there’s nothing to say, I’ll go back up.”
“Why? What are you doing?”
“I have to film at night because I didn’t film during the day.”
“Why?”
This guy only asks weird questions.
“Why would that be curious?”
“There’s something like that. Anyway, I’m going.”
“Wait, wait. Then did you already do it?”
“Ah…”
“Yeah, I did. Why?”
“Oh… crazy guy. He’s crazy about sex.”
“Shut up. So why did you call me?”
“I didn’t do anything earlier when I saw the civil servant who was in charge of you for dinner, but is it possible that she’s the one from the rumors?”
“Ha… What kind of question is that.”
“Okay. Just ask me something I’m curious about too.”
“Think for yourself. You crazy guy.”
“Hmm… I see.”
“Enough of that. What filming did you do today? Let me ask you something too.”
“Me? Just introductions, walked together along the Han River, ate lunch at a restaurant, divided time for 1-on-1 dates as decided by the filming crew, and came to the hotel?”
“…… You didn’t fight with each other?”
“Yeah? Not really? But there was definitely some mutual restraint.”
“You too?”
“Yeah… I expected it, but a bit more… how to put it… just more like that.”
We couldn’t talk more with each other.
We already knew everything, but facing it directly in reality made it ‘like dogs’ or something?
Probably all the men who met women today are thinking the same thing as us.
“Shall we be honest with each other too?”
“What?”
“After all, you and I already knew. Honestly, it’s not like we started purely. When we decided on wives and concubines, we said there was a reason for this situation.”
It wasn’t a relationship that started purely.
It wasn’t a relationship that deepened because we were purely attracted to each other.
Men, women, and society all have their own desires.
“Right.”
“It was just that our interests and social interests aligned, so let’s be honest about it.”
Men wanted to live well beyond just surviving in this crazy world, and women wanted to live in the world in a simpler way through having children.
And society needs children.
These three matched perfectly, so we men could hold the reins.
In that way, we created a world overwhelmingly advantageous to men.
Sex alone, I don’t know about honor, but a society where money and power are guaranteed.
Methods to cancel my wrong choices at any time.
I still don’t regret these choices.
There won’t be in the future either.
It’s just that it’s a bit distasteful that the women approaching us are all approaching for their own interests.
For those like Kang Hyein who spout nonsense today, I can cut them out like a knife.
For Olivia too, since she’s not the most important person who could make me and my child the center of the world, I could reject her.
But after a short time of having sex and talking, I understand.
Jeong Sujin and Park Yujin are clearly the type who want to live easily through me.
They didn’t approach because they liked and loved me.
No, they do like me.
They like the idea of having an easier, more comfortable life by having a child through sex with me.
It’s not that they like and love the person named me.
But it’s not like they’ll just have a child and abandon me.
It feels like they’ll take care of me like a precious treasure.
They don’t seem stupid.
…What about Park Yujin?
Anyway, since I knew the expected situation would happen and wouldn’t change, it’s fine.
Now, we just need to decide how we men will deal with this situation.
Since we know women can’t love us in the way we men want, shouldn’t we also love them accordingly?
From now on, women will approach us as life-easy mode tickets,
and we’ll choose and select only the pretty and mentally stable women to have sex with.
If I become the center of the world and a woman only looks at me, I’ll accept her as my wife.
It will be really tough, but it’s possible that they apply because they like the person named me,
or they come as life-easy mode tickets and then like the person named me.
It’s nice to summarize it.
Since these relationships are through social transactions, we who demand pure love in a corner of our hearts were foolish.
“Yeah. It wasn’t like there was some special method or anything, it was just like this.”
“Right.”
“Right?”
“Is it human instinct or female instinct?”
Then, how can I make the women who apply because they like the person named me love me beyond liking me?”
I don’t know.
I don’t know again.
Why do only difficult problems keep coming up?”
A night where one doubt disappears and many new doubts arise.
The man who took me up and had me introduce myself, upon hearing that there was more time for the break, immediately asked for permission and went down.
I was called and moved for over an hour, so why are you leaving like this?
Of course, you should be more attentive, right?
Jeong Sujin, who had been staring at me the whole time, and the woman who introduced herself, after checking on the bad guy who went down, approached.
“I’ll ask honestly. What kind of relationship do you have with Seonghun?”
“Self?”
“Our self?”
“Already close enough to call him ‘self’?”
“Just a relationship between the assigned diplomat and the citizen.”
“They said you’re the only woman who can contact him? Just tell the truth?”
“False.”
“Is there no woman besides me that this guy who kisses so casually can contact?”
“This is definitely a lie.”
“I want to know too, can you tell me honestly?”
“Truly, there is no relationship beyond this.”
“Miss Ayoung! Then I’ll start the filming preparation.”
Fortunately, thanks to the woman who introduced herself as the writer, I could avoid the situation.
“Hmm… You haven’t been sleeping well lately? You have dark circles.”
“Yeah, but is it that bad?”
“Yes. You’ve already done some makeup, but if it’s showing like this, you’ll look more tired during filming, so I’ll do a bit more makeup.”
“Close your eyes for me.”
My life is full of work…
I told the team leader to ask for more support, but the answer is always that there are not enough people anywhere, so there’s nothing to say.
“What kind of filming am I doing?”
“Ah… You know that Seonghun is a hot topic, right?”
“Yes, I know.”
“So, the public is very curious about even small things.”
Since I said that on a stage watched by the whole nation and even overseas, I can’t help but be noticed…
What were they thinking going there.
“Yeah.”
“So, I’ll ask questions about the usual Seonghun you know.”
“About the bad guy?”
“I don’t know much either?”
“I don’t know much either, is it okay?”
“We don’t know anything at all, so it should be fine. If the broadcast amount isn’t enough, we’ll edit it, so please film comfortably. But, did you apply to Seonghun?”
“Yes? What application are you talking about?”
“The Bright Future Policy.”
“No. I didn’t apply.”
“I haven’t decided anything about marriage or pregnancy yet, what application?”
“And right now in this difficult situation, what about making a second child.”
“Eh? Then it’s not okay? Seonghun said he called the participants as a substitute, but you didn’t apply? This might cause problems later if it’s reported… What to do…”
“Truly… I don’t know what’s going on.”
“Without explaining, calling me and making it this awkward, what do I do!”
“Bad guy.”
“I… I only heard the words ‘come’ and don’t know much else, sorry.”
“Truly… I have to say something to Seonghun. Making people suffer is one thing, but making it too hard…”
“Truly correct.”
“Always making only difficult and annoying things and dumping them on others, bad guy.”
“Your makeup is done. Look in the mirror once, and if there’s anything you think is strange, tell me.”
“There’s no place to think is strange.”
“Just pretty.”
“I always felt difficult with makeup…
“I feel like I made the right choice this time.”
“As I mentioned, I’ll ask questions about Seonghun’s appearances that the public doesn’t know well.”
“Yes.”
“Then come in front of the camera. Yeah, yeah. There.”
“Yeah.”
“I don’t know what they’ll ask, and since I don’t know much, I’m unsure.”
I went and sat in the chair in front of the prepared camera.
The lights and gazes coming from the indirect lighting pour onto me.
Especially the two who introduced themselves earlier.
Jeong Sujin, Park Yujin.
Since earlier, they’ve been fixing their gaze on me without letting it go, it’s scary.
There’s more than three such women.
No, since I was a substitute, it’s two?
After all, I came for nothing…