Queen Bee and Queen Ant (3): I'm Really Not the Type to Get Mad
I'm seriously not the kind of person who gets angry. Cursing at someone you just met? That's not cool. We can talk things out like civilized people. Do we really have to resort to insults? If someone's messed up, just say it with words. We're not animals, right? I mean, sure, my IQ's on the low side, but I'm no animal. So someone with a higher IQ than me shouldn't stoop to that level. Pull that crap, and even I'll develop a rebellious streak out of spite. Do you really have to insult someone as mild-mannered and peaceful as me? What a rotten person.
Still, I'm a pacifist. If we can resolve this without fighting, I can wash away this humiliation... We can hug it out. I'll give you a chance. I've already got kick reflection activated. I'll loosen it up just this once. You know what kick reflection is, right? Use it, and it bounces back—you get kicked. Can't block it. What're you gonna do? You're cornered, huh? Big trouble.
In a situation where nobody dares speak up easily...
"Whoa, kick reflection's legit. No choice. Guess the healer's gotta go."
Jimmy knows his stuff. This guy's got some education, huh?
"Don't you like me or something? Why you picking on me?"
Minji immediately snaps back, all prickly.
"Nah, I don't."
"Sigh... Never mind."
"Then shut it~"
That's some mental warfare right there. A perfect example unfolding before my eyes. That condescending tone and attitude. Me? I'm all chill, never looking down on anyone.
But more importantly, I can't just sit here watching. I'm a pacifist.
"Everyone, no more fighting...! Stop the bickering. Let's get back to the dungeon. I'll try harder this time."
I jump in to actively stop Minji and Jimmy's argument. It's partly my fault too. I'm the root cause. Gotta reflect on that.
"Everyone, on three. Two. One!!!"
"Fighting!"
I shout the cheer. But I'm the only one. Hmm... No one's playing along. Is this a team? Sigh... This won't do. We're failing not just because of me, but because teamwork's total garbage. Even with someone like me trying to hype things up, if the vibe's still dead, that means the other members are the problem. This is serious. Everyone except me and the editor's from the same guild... Wait, minus the editor. Anyway, without cooperation like this... What's the point of a guild? Huh? Why even exist?! Sigh... Guess I gotta step up. Make 'em bond. I'll help. Show these lost souls what a guild's really for. Like... Cupid finding love... Hmm... Can't think of a good analogy. Whatever.
"The guild's in crisis right now. Needs consulting. I figured it out. Lemme tell ya."
Explaining logically's tough, but I know how to drop a conviction statement in tough times.
"What bullshit. It's your fault. No sense at all?"
Thud. Minji's response hits me like a hammer to the head. How'd she know I'm clueless? How'd she nail it on the first try? Whoa. Amazing. Pure female intuition? Impressive. Impressive. Wow... Minji. Thought she was dumb. She's a genius. Real respect. I admit it. You're the best. Thumbs up.
"Healer, real thumbs up. How'd you know? I hear that a lot. You're pure female power. Quick on the uptake. I admit it. You're not a guy. You're a girl."
"What the hell, this crazy bitch. Bro, do something about her. You just gonna watch?"
"Nah... Should we try again?"
"No, bro. Why retry? I said I'm out."
"Uh... But we gotta clear it... We've already done some... If we retry..."
"Hah. Bro, I'm seriously not doing it. Fine, do it without me."
"Huh? No, that's... I mean..."
No choice. Gotta wait till she cools off. Time heals all wounds. She might not wanna now, but that's okay. Give it time, she'll wanna later, right? Yeah. Cooling period now. Too emotional. She'll regret it under the covers later. Needs to regain reason.
"Then let's take a break. Wait till the... healer feels like it!"
Then Minji straight-up leaves the party.
"She's gone."
"Yeah. Too bad."
"Good riddance. Useless healer anyway—recruit another. What about Party Leader? Gotta go soothe her, kek. Ah~ If Party Leader's leaving, gimme leader. I'll recruit. Hahaha."
Jimmy says it with a mocking laugh. Guess some bad blood built up. I don't know the details, so I stay quiet. But honestly, kinda disappointed in Minji. Basic manners: say goodbye. She just bails without a word... A simple "I'm out" would've been nice. Goodbyes fix half the bad vibes. If we meet again by some coincidence later, I'd definitely have a bias against her. No goodbye. She's etched in my mind as the rude healer now. Can't fix that for her.
"Take care."
The empty spot she left... I'll miss it. Minji, be happy wherever you are.
"Uh... what now... Ah... that is..."
Party Leader's trembling voice pierces through my earphones. Sounds so heartbroken... Something's up, something.
Totally get it. Party's unavoidable. Love comes first. Yeah. Go.
"Party Leader, go soothe her."
"Huh?"
"Gotta... find love."
I pause a beat, then continue.
"When's the next chance? Don't look back. One missed dungeon ain't the end. Resets tomorrow, we can run it again. But a shot at building affection... Might never come twice."
I'm fully immersed, speaking from the heart. Then laughter from somewhere. Who's laughing?
"Right? I agree. First time seeing you, but it's obvious—you're into Minji."
Even the editor chimes in.
Can't you tell? I've got the story plotted out. Party Leader's heart pounding for Minji right now. We're the Cupids making it happen. Where else you gonna find Cupids this wholesome? Party Leader's too nice—that's why karma brought her me, the best Cupid.
Thought only Party Leader would leave, but one more dips too. And so... over 10 minutes pass without filling the party. I try recruiting crafters, but where are they? Are Raft users that rare? Everyone bails hearing no Raft. Aigoo. For real. Just play anyway. Sigh. Sigh. No helping it? Gotta use the ultimate move? But... Jimmy doesn't know I'm streaming. If I say it sudden-like, he'll freak. How to bring it up? Ah! Right.
"Jimmy... Party won't fill... Mind if I call some friends?"
"Yeah. Call 'em."
"Thanks."
Jimmy coolly approves. No choice—calling in the angels. Kept recruiting, but no people. What to do?
I mute in-game mic quick.
"Anyone wanna join?"
Chat explodes outta nowhere. Kinda scary. Gut screaming to stop. No, I trust my angels! My angels are good kids. Quick-witted, kind, perfect. Gotta trust.
"I really trust you guys. For real, right? Come on in."
I trust my angels and make the room public. Angels swarm in immediately. But... mic quality sucks. Static crackle. Crackle.
"JimmyGay, good job. Nice. Let's do well next time too."
Ah. Face burning up. Didn't open public for aggro like this! For dungeon fillers! I slap my red ears and kick 'em. More trolls pouring in.
"Gay, shut up a bit."
Ugh. What the. Troll angels, what gives. Kick.
"Jimmy, call out IDs. Bro's feeling generous. Gifting subs."
You too, kick.
"TrollEditor, upload vids or..."
Kick. No normal viewers at all?
"Hi there."
This one looks legit. Greets first, specs high. Might carry? Kinda hyped?
"One thing, Seon-ah. Your class sucks balls. DPS drops. Switch jobs."
"Switch? To what?"
"Tank. You're a tank. Ignore the hater healers. You win mind games anyway. Tank once, ignore haters. Frustrating watching."
"Tank..."
Been ages since words fired me up like this. Yeah. Tank fits.
"If you were tank, you wouldn't die. Bluntly, dying nonstop as shitty DPS mage is boring. Remember: tanks never die. Anyone forcing mage on your control's psycho—ban 'em."
Can't argue. Folks like me gotta tank. Sturdy tank that takes hits without dying. Saying it straight makes tanking tempting...
"Anyway, I'm out."
"Wait, the dungeon?"
"Me? Homework done. Sorry."
"Dude...?"
The viewer who advised tanking says his piece and bounces coolly. Dude? Dude?! If you're like that, use the cafe. Finally scraped a party and cleared!! No joke, never dreamed it'd take an hour. Thanks to good angels. Almost failed 'cause of me.
"Everyone, good work."
"Yep~ You too."
"Jjang-ah... Short version. Good job."
"Good good. Ignore healers."
Truth: my control's not great... Bottom 1% coldly speaking... Excuse? Visibility sucks. Like racehorse vision—patterns hard to see. Not my fault, right? Everyone can understand... Nah. Nobody does. All busy flaming me.
"SeonTankDak. Yup yup."
One leaves after that stab. Real dagger.
"Thrush, Dagger, BadLuck. Not doing?"
What curse is this? Anyway, everyone drops a line and goes. Even if they call themselves fans, can't play? No mercy. Sad but true. Maybe follow that advice. Tank might be right. Deep in thought now. Mouse cursor lost. No funds for tanking. Spent wild, can't whale. But public opinion says tank. They don't know my wallet! Broke!
Didn't wanna expect, but... Expectations rise. Human nature. Especially familiar name...
"For real?"
I check mailbox pronto. Gasp. No way. 10,000,000 gold. Sender: Rose. Not from shady site~ Earned at auction house hehe
"Eek."
Joy squeaks out.
"Thank you! This huge sum okay? Thanks."
Why viewers thanking...? Anyway.
"I'll use it well. Tank it is?"
Truth: wanted to, but short on cash. Costs a ton upfront... Even after Moteok's donation, dipped into my own. But with this? Straight tank. No dilemma. Why give me so much tho? Hope... not borrowed?
"But... your own money, right?"
"Not like that. Just... doesn't it hurt giving away so much? I... I'm broke... might not be able to repay."
Truth: Never even subbed to Maru or Moteok. Kinda stingy with that cash. Ads are free... Right?
"Just curious! No bad vibes!"
"Whoa. Trader, huh."
I dreamed of it once. Getting rich on stocks or coins. Way too hard for me. Folks say even monkeys do better. Click and profit, they said... Jumped in, lost a ton. Monkey-level brain, but couldn't monkey-profit, bounced out. YouTube full of 10-bil coin rich, 100-bil coin rich. Jealous af.
"Jealous... Tried it, lost everything!"
"How much? Uh... 2 mil won? 3 mil won maybe."
Question marks flood chat. Why? Did I say something wrong? Lost 3 mil won fr. Why? What's wrong? What's the beef?
"No... 300k ain't money? Huh? That's full character pull money. Ah!!"
No more. Time to whale. I'm mad!! Pulling characters!! Don't stop me. Ehehe. Not really mad, just wanna pull!!