Reflecting Seona
Reflecting Yu Seona. But… yesterday’s mistakes… is it only Yu Seona’s fault?
The title is honestly perfect. You’re telling me you won’t click in after seeing this? Then… that means it isn’t my fault.
My logic is crystal clear. You came in to look at the mistakes, right? If you don’t come in, that means there are no mistakes.
How about that? My logic. Amazing, right? All you lurkers out there must be dying to hop in now? Ahaha.
First I’ll reflect today… and once a little time passes, uh… what was it. I’ll promote Maru’s VTubers a bit. Gotta try all sorts of things.
I’ll put in the effort for Maru too.
I’m Maru’s loyal retainer. Number-one loyal retainer. For our Maru… I’ll be useful too.
So I’ve got to reflect. Okay. Reflect hard and eheheh.
“Hello everyone!! Today it’s reflecting Yu Seona!!”
Huh? This wasn’t the reaction I wanted. I really did mess up. Why are they treating me… like this?
This is disappointing in its own way. The aggro isn’t pulling at all.
Reflecting Yu Seona? Why the hell is she reflecting? Let’s see. Go on. Viewers who came in with that mindset are going to look at chat and bounce.
I’d rather you scold me. Spam the chat, swear at me, that would make it better to watch.
If it goes like this my whole script gets shredded.
“I’ll pull up YouTube first. Reflecting Yu Seona. Today you can cuss me out in chat… I’ll take it as genuine criticism.”
I put on yesterday’s VOD and clicked the links under the comments one by one.
Absolutely spectacular sexual harassment poured out.
And you’re saying even after seeing this it’s not my fault? These people…!! Even excessive stanning becomes a curse if it’s this bad!! Or something? Honestly I don’t really know.
You never stan me…!! You just hate-watch me every single day.
“Hmm… this is a problem. I did mess up. I’ll reflect. Look at this.”
I clicked another link.
My own voice poured out over the stream. A very intense, terrifying statement.
‘Nem-mo likes girls. She hates guys. She has a misandry concept. So don’t bring up boyfriend talk. Nem-mo is a misandrist!! Yu Seona will drop the official statement. Got it? From now on everything else is hate. Stop mentioning boyfriends already!! Nem-mo’s a lesbian. A lesbian!!’
No… I lost it. Yu Seona. You actually lost it.
I casually rewrote another person’s sexual orientation. Honestly… from my perspective I was trying to front-line it and break through.
Because the viewers kept going.
Just looking at the deleted chats you could feel how furious people were. So from my side I was desperately trying to grab the reins somehow.
But replaying it now, I really did something incredibly stupid.
There can be people who dislike homosexuality, you know.
I handed disappointment to the straight viewers.
On top of that I massively disappointed the dedicated fans in Nem-mo’s room. The ones going “I love Nem-mo. There’s only Nem-mo…” — and then “Actually Nem-mo is a misandrist?”
How crushing must that have been. I should have thought a little more.
“If this isn’t a mistake then what is it. I rewrote one woman’s sexual orientation. Yu Seona… I’m sorry.”
This isn’t it. Get roasted a bit, read the apology statement… then “reborn Seona, let’s begin.” That was my script, and it got scrapped before I could even start.
I didn’t expect them to be this favorable… still… I’ve still got to reflect.
Today is reflection day. I’ve got to reflect. The story has to continue.
“Hmm… still, I’ll proceed. I wrote a reflection statement. I’ll read it and reflect.”
I locked in the emotion. I’ll try a sincere reading once. I’m still lacking, so improvising off the prepared script is hard.
Improvising on the fly? I can somehow manage that.
But improvising the big framework? My growth stats aren’t there yet. Can’t do it.
“Hello. This is Yu Seona. After thinking about it yesterday… I believe I was rude to Nem-mo and Motteok. Rewatching the VOD, it was really bad. Honestly… before reflecting I briefly suspected whether the world had made Yu Seona this way. But… no matter how I look at it, it was my fault. However, since we said on stream that we wouldn’t pursue legal responsibility toward Nem-mo and me, I expect you’ll let it go with an apology.”
I poured genuine emotion into it and spoke plaintively.
“Yes. I apologized. Now I have become a person of clean record. Starting the script I prepared. From now on I am reflecting Seona. I will reflect in reflection mode.”
Reflection mode.
Exactly as the words say: I will reflect.
Even if the viewers roast me, they don’t treat it as pure hate but as half-hate half-critique.
That’s how sincerely I mean to reflect.
“Everyone, throw your stones. I’ll take them all.”
Mean people.
I knew they’d throw some, but I didn’t think they’d actually rain them down… The line “first-time chatter” kept flooding up nonstop.
I never expected the shy ones to start throwing stones.
Because of that… I took heavy internal damage.
“I… reflected a lot.”
They’d just… been holding it in, huh. They’d been sharpening their blades the whole time. Extremely sharp.
Truly terrifying…!!
Anyway. It got resolved well. I got roasted plenty and I apologized, so now it’s over.
I reflected. I repented.
Since I reflected, now I’m good Seona. I am good Seona!!
“I’ve changed, so now good Seona is back. I have something to say today. Everyone, you know Maru is doing that thing, right? The VTuber project? She’s doing it. Please show lots of interest.”
Promotion… advertising… I almost never do it… but for Maru I absolutely have to.
“Everyone. Did you all watch?”
Ugh. You should watch. We need to boost the views. How great would it be if Maru’s VTubers do well!!
“Everyone please watch!! Boost the views!! If they go up is that… good…? Wait, didn’t recruitment already close?”
“Me? I didn’t apply!! I saw it late. Even if I could have, I didn’t!! Why? Official Yu Seona. Can’t even RP. Can’t sing well either. If I practiced I could manage, sure. But. There’s a wall, you know? You know that? Rather than straining and grunting to climb over a wall, finding what you’re good at is way better. That’s my Yu Seona mindset.”
I’m walking my own path. I can’t keep leaning on Maru forever… that won’t do.
I’ll work hard at what I can do and play tons of fun games with Maru.
Uh… without burdening Maru, you know. Really game and collab as equals.
That’s what I’ll do. If I just barge in going “Maru let’s game” then Maru takes the hit too.
In the end, being equals is what lets you have more fun.
“So today I’m doing reflecting Yu Seona, mention Maru’s thing a bit… and that’s it. I didn’t prepare anything. Script’s already over.”
Because I’m reflecting, I held back. If I weren’t reflecting I would’ve suppressed that.
But I am reflecting. Communicate with viewers. Keep communicating and rebuild trust.
That is the essence of reflecting Seona RP.
“I’ll answer one by one. What did I do. I read the script. Co-op game go go. I will become a hopeful Yu Seona who positively considers it. Judge…? There’s judging too?”
I can’t lie, but I even lied for Maru.
My conscience stabs me hard, but it can’t be helped.
There’s such a thing as an embargo. Absolute do-not-speak. I don’t know if it’s a law or not, but anyway if you break embargo on ads and stuff, big trouble.
“I. Really… don’t know… Yes. I don’t know. There are judges? Wow… that. Sounds. Fun.”
“I, I. Don’t know. It has nothing to do with me… Re.al.ly… For real.”
Aaagh. What do I do? I think I’m already caught. But… I tried hard too. Lying is hard, okay!!
I worked hard. Cut me some slack.
“I, I really don’t know. Please move on!!”
I denied it to the end. I absolutely must not get found out. Probably. It felt that way.
Until Maru says something I will never speak. I’ll protect it no matter what.
“Oh?! Really? I’m a judge. I got a message from Maru today.”
Ah, I’m screwed. Ah. It’s over. Damn. You idiot. Getting baited by something this easy, I’m finished.
What do I do? What do you mean what!! Contact Maru. Ugh. I’m so sorry Maru.
I sent Maru a text.
Thank goodness. Truly thank goodness!! Phew.