Great Rift (4)
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I opened the tumbler Kang Juhyuk had taken from me and breathed in the scent trapped inside.
A faint sweetness. It was definitely the smell of my breast milk.
There were a few black tumblers like this one. He must have put water in it, or thought he had.
That had to be it. It could only have been Chae Haeun.
Chae Haeun must have switched it while I was asleep, right?!
...
That goddamn bitch.
She kept her mouth shut only at times like this...!!
Stop making the situation complicated and just sitting back to watch from the sidelines!
What the hell kind of misunderstanding was he going to come up with this time...?
Fwoosh.
"Hik...?"
"Eunha, Nuna..."
"W-what, what, what, what is it...?"
Kang Juhyuk had... hugged me from behind.
He rested his face on my right shoulder and wrapped both arms around me from behind, his hands settling over my stomach... and rubbing gently.
Fuck, fuck, fuck, what the hell? What is he doing?
The moment his body touched mine, mine responded.
A warm sense of comfort welled up inside me.
The thought of wanting to stay like this came up on its own.
Even the urge to lean against him.
No. This wasn’t me. Don’t let your body’s reactions fool you.
I should shove him off right now and tell him not to touch my body without permission...
"Nuna..."
The instant I was about to push him away and pull myself free, his voice reached me right by my ear.
At that whisper, my body locked up.
"Are you... pregnant?"
"Hey... what, what the hell kind of creepy thing is that..."
"Here, in this stomach... could there maybe, maybe be...?"
Fuck.
That’s creepy.
What, what the fuck...
His voice had somehow turned sultry. No, warm.
While he stroked my stomach, he sounded dazed, but happy...!
Fuck, what the hell kind of bullshit...!!
No, this is supposed to be bullshit...!!
"Are you really an idiot? You don’t start leaking milk just because you got pregnant... you have to give birth before milk comes in!"
"...Give birth."
At that moment, Kang Juhyuk’s voice turned cold.
And with his voice gone cold, my body flinched in turn. Tensed. Froze up even harder.
My heart dropped as well. Well, not really my heart—my body was the one panicking. I didn’t care.
Because the mood had suddenly changed.
"Then, Nuna, you have a child?"
"No... that’s not it."
"You’re married? You have a husband?"
"Wait. Let me explain..."
That wasn’t it.
It wasn’t that.
I was just on my period. Ridiculous, but this body was basically an alien body.
During my period, it just leaked milk. That was my guess, anyway. I didn’t even really know myself.
The gentle touch on my stomach grew colder by the second.
Disgust, betrayal... hurt, disappointment... and a little resignation.
Then Kang Juhyuk yanked the hand from my stomach up to my chest in one rough motion.
Crush.
"Hngh...?! Y-you..."
I hadn’t given him permission.
I hadn’t said to do it, and yet he’d grabbed my chest.
He squeezed it...♡
"Then what is it? You said you weren’t playing with me...! You’ve got a kid, then that means you’ve got a husband too!"
"Aah...♡ L-let go... just, for now, l-let go..."
Over my clothes, Kang Juhyuk’s hand held my breast.
It was a different touch from before, cold now. No consideration, no softness, none of that careful warmth...
As if there was no point in pretending to like me anymore.
As if he were looking at someone who had betrayed him...
Ahhh♡
Chae Haeun let out a cry of delight through the stimulus in my body.
Ah, this feels good... I like being sexually harassed like this. I like Juhyuk’s masculine hands, his rough hands.
Being handled roughly, with him only using me to vent his feelings, with no courtesy for a woman at all... I like that kind of thing.
I hate it. No, I like it, but I still hate this. No, I like it, but I hate it.
This wasn’t good for either of us.
I wasn’t in the mood for sex.
But if he touched me like this, in a way like this, then I’d be forced to... forced into that mood.
I wasn’t even worked up, and yet... ah, ngh... I wanted it, I did.
Ah, it’s coming out. Milk, it’s coming out.
My bra was getting wet. I could feel it. It felt damp...
My nipples were getting wet along with my pussy...
Kang Juhyuk... you piece of trash...!
All that time with his mouth saying... he wouldn’t get greedy like that... that he only said he wanted me to be his, but he hadn’t meant it seriously... that he’d restrain himself... and then, the moment he misunderstood me a little, he went and did this again...
Again, I was being violated...♡
"Ngh..."
Then, all at once, Kang Juhyuk pulled his hand away.
He squeezed his eyes shut, withdrew from behind me with trembling hands, and took two steps back.
I, flushed hot all over, let out a heated breath and felt both regret and relief as his rough hands left my body.
Why, why did he let go? Why...
No, wait. No, of course he should let go!
"I-I’m sorry... Nuna. I, I overstepped again."
"Hngh... hngh... h... huff."
"For a moment... I got, uh, too excited, and then it was such a shock... I guess I couldn’t... sort my thoughts out properly."
Right.
So he’d been shocked to find out it wasn’t his own kid inside me, but someone else’s?
What an idiot. A stupid bastard...
Whether I cared or not, I just kept trying to calm the heat in my body while breathing hard.
My arousal had already been at rock bottom, and yet just one little stimulation had sent it surging sky-high.
Fuck... I’m on my period right now.I’m not even in a state where I can get pregnant, so why do I want this so badly...
Shouldn’t I naturally have less sex drive at a time like this?
"I’m sorry, whether Nuna’s married or not... it has nothing to do with me. Whether you have a kid or not..."
"...Haa."
"Come to think of it, maybe you couldn’t bring your husband into something this dangerous, having to cross the Great Rift and all. So... even if it’s messy, even if it looks bad, maybe you decided to keep a man close by for this separately..."
What...?
What was he talking about?
What, exactly, was he saying? My mind was still so cloudy from the heat that I couldn’t think straight.
It sounded like total nonsense...
"I should probably... keep my line well, right. Yes. I’m only a dildo, after all. I mean, so that you can go back to your family after the curse is lifted. Come to think of it, you told me that once this was over, we’d draw a clean line between us. That was only natural, really. If you have a husband and a child, then keeping a man around whom you’ve let touch your body, even if only as a dildo, would make things complicated..."
Kang Juhyuk.
As he said that, he sat down on the floor and scratched the back of his head.
He’d been furious for a moment, convinced he’d been betrayed, but now he was slowly chewing over the situation and trying his hardest to stay calm.
Still, his face was filled with agitation, emptiness, disappointment... and a little sadness.
S-so... what?
What had he just said?
That I was a married woman with a husband and a kid...?
And that’s why I was producing milk...?
But then I’d been cursed... and turned into a lewd woman.
And because I needed a man to lift that curse, I’d chosen Kang Juhyuk.
But I couldn’t put my husband and child in danger... so I’d decided to keep my distance for now.
A married woman who planned to return to her family once the curse was lifted... something like that.
So once the curse was gone, I’d cut ties with Kang Juhyuk completely. I’d decided not even to keep him near me as an acquaintance.
He had talked himself into believing it.
Honestly.
Honestly, he was at it again.
Another bizarre delusion...
And while spinning that delusion, he was saying he’d give up.
He was even on his knees, apologizing for flying off the handle?
Seriously... he was an idiot.
I told him to listen to my explanation, you moron.
He shut me up himself, and then...
He dreamed up the whole thing alone,
reached a conclusion alone,
got hurt alone,
disappointed himself alone,
and gave up alone.
Loser.
Stop acting like some poor little animal just so I’ll look at you...
Shiver, shiver.
He was really getting on my nerves...
Something about it felt wrong. Pathetic, impossible to look at... that idiot, that loser...
I didn’t want to see him. I was supposed to hate seeing him. I was supposed to find him disgusting.
What is this?
Gulp.
Why.
For some reason.
I found myself remembering the way Kang Juhyuk had put his mouth on the tumbler filled with my breast milk.
It was almost as if that tumbler were being overlaid with my chest.
I could imagine Kang Juhyuk sucking on my breast.
Ngh,
Ughh...♡
"I was given something... I’m sorry for trying to cross the line again and again. I’ll get myself together too... I’ll stop expecting weird things and sort myself out."
"Hey. Shut your mouth."
"...Yes."
"...Shut up and come here...♡"
"...Pardon?"
I, I didn’t know either.
It was just... fuck.
Because you were turning me on.
Whenever I looked at your pathetic expression... I kept wanting to.
Stroke your head, make you suck on my breasts.
Make you drink, soothe you.
The urge swelled up violently inside me.
I wanted to lay him down right this instant. Right now.
I should be rejecting him.
Unlike sex...
Unlike the urge to shove my pussy full...
I just couldn’t bring myself to feel disgusted, and it was driving me insane.
It was hard to resist.
Maternal instinct.
It overflowed from me.
It wrapped around me.
By giving away the motherly warmth I had never received,
as if I were trying to comfort my own past self.
It whispered that I should comfort the Kang Juhyuk standing before me.
That convenient surrogate satisfaction I’d thought of before... the desire to do it kept growing, and growing. I couldn’t control it.
This was definitely weird.
There was no way this could be normal.
I shouldn’t be like this.
Anyway, for now...
It was because you touched my chest, my heat went up, and I got turned on.
And because I’m on my period.
Because of my period, this... this insane maternal instinct is...
pounding on my head.
Yeah... it’s better than sex drive, at least. Choi Eunho was weak to things like this, and Chae Eunha couldn’t exactly help it either.
It couldn’t be helped.
So for now, for now, you take responsibility...♡
"Nu, Nuna?"
I unzipped my top. When I pulled down the zipper of the black tracksuit top, a white T-shirt came into view.
The spots where the nipples on the white T-shirt should have been were slightly damp.
I rolled the white T-shirt up and over my chest. When my smooth stomach was exposed, Kang Juhyuk swallowed.
Easy.
His reaction was always the same.
Show him a little, and he’d get hard right away.
Pathetic. A man so easily swayed by a woman is pathetic.
Really... pathetic...♡
My bra came into view.
Unlike the T-shirt, the ends of the bra were plainly marked with traces of breast milk.
It was wet. More than wet, it was obvious something had been leaking from my nipples... the exact spots were damp with it.
Kang Juhyuk’s gaze was fixed on the stain.
My body trembled with a strange, shivery excitement. He was looking. Looking. He couldn’t tear his eyes away... he said he’d give up, but he couldn’t. He said he’d collect himself, but he still couldn’t.
I lifted my sports bra.
Slowly, and his eyes followed mine. Beneath the pulled-up bra, my breasts, lovely and full—once held between H and I, now swelled into an I and bared their shameful nipples.
White liquid tinged with yellow beaded at the tips of my nipples and dripped down in little drops of breast milk.
They were heavy, massive breasts, but my blessed body was more than capable of bearing them.
They didn’t sag. They stayed proudly rounded, maintaining a shape every bit as attractive as their size warranted. Even while obeying gravity, they remained alluring.
I slowly... lowered myself to my knees on the floor.
Then I looked at Kang Juhyuk, who was staring blankly at my chest... and with a smile in my eyes, I tapped my right knee twice with my hand.
"Come on, put your head here... and lie down♡"
A smile Chae Haeun might have made.
We had become one again.
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