What the Hell Are You Doing?
“What the hell are you doing?”
I couldn’t even figure out what was going on at first.
The broadcast time had come, so I swapped my clothes and dropped into the chair in front of the monitor.
The moment I turned on the live stream, just like always, the familiar viewers started pouring in.
“Vitamin is live again… Tamin is streaming for you~”
The tight swimsuit made me pull my hoodie up and it burst through in seconds.
“Thank you.”
“Um… I’ll read you a fun erotic story today. The title is ‘SEX’.”
“Huh?”
Once I closed my mouth, the voice grew crystal clear.
-Aheung… ahung… ahuk
-Please…!
-Euhuk ehehek euhuk
-I’m dying… hey you bastard! Stop it! Haaang I like it
The dones started pouring in.
The noise leaking from next door was messing with my focus.
But since it was the manuscript I’d been paid for, I couldn’t stop the stream.
“I’ll read it.”
-Aheung… there… there… there
“My teacher said something to me.”
“You understand, right?”
“Have sex.”
-Ugeuk… it’s fine… keep going
“If you do something stupid and get arrested by the police, that won’t happen. I’ll watch that every single time.”
“Have sex.”
-Haaang… haaang… give it to me… uheuk… it’s so hot!
I ignored the comments telling me not to turn it off and the stream ended with a flood of viewers.
The dones kept pouring in and I earned a month’s income in a single day.
But I wasn’t happy at all.
The sound from next door still rang in my ears without stop.
-Ugeuk… ugeuk… I’m dying
-Uhehehek!
-Thanks… I was thirsty, I thought I was gonna die too?
-Ehuk… ehuk
-I’m sorry… my hole is so tight… huaaaang!
Even with insomnia making sleep impossible, I spent the night wide awake because of next door.
With tired eyes I tossed out the trash and headed home, unlocking the door only to find the villains standing in the hallway from my neighbor’s place.
“Ahwoo… I’m fine. I can walk home alone now.”
The woman’s face was streaked with dark circles all the way down to her chin.
She slapped her own cheek, then steadied herself.
“I’m okay. I feel like something good is going to happen. I’m going now!”
She walked away with a bright step, but the way her figure swayed down the hall stayed burned into my memory.
“Excuse me?”
“Yes?”
When I looked at the neighbor man, his face finally came into focus.
His eyes were a little unfocused.
Half-crazy, basically.
“This… tone it down. Everything’s being heard.”
I left that behind and stepped inside my apartment.
THUD!
The door slammed shut louder than I expected.
***
He was handsome, sure, but kind too.
Every time I carried heavy loads past his place, he’d come running to help.
He always smiled and greeted me warmly.
Except yesterday—he looked wrecked.
“Aheuk… I believed in you…!”
He shook his fingers furiously inside his ass.
“Ugeuk! Uep!”
FU-SHI-SHIT
He blew a load while jerking off on the toilet.
“Ahh… I must be crazy, ugh.”
Waiting for the aftershocks, he slowly rubbed his ass with his fingers.
Well, at least he was making up for lost time.
The resentment toward my neighbor man pierced the sky.
Tall and slim, soft eyes, sturdy shoulders, and a gentle heart.
Even after years of living here, the way he offered me tteok the first time I moved in still stuck in my head.
“That guy turned out rotten!”
“He brings women home and fucks them all night!”
The weird thrill made my fingers start rubbing my ass again.
The first time I posted the video, my management company called.
That was the start of the mess that ruined my life.
I took the advance money.
It was debt.
Chatting with viewers was hard enough for me.
So they told me to take everything off.
When I refused to strip, they said I could read the script instead.
I had no experience, but the knowledge just kept pouring in.
All kinds of filthy knowledge.
Someone moved in next door.
I was curious, so I went to take a look.
It was my style.
I wanted my neighbor man to rape me.
In my whole life, that was the only shocking thing that had ever happened to me.
But the neighbor man was too wholesome.
Even when I showed off my body, he just kindly handed me his outer jacket.
Idiot. A useless bastard.
But that bastard.
He brought women home and fucked them all night!
Reasonless betrayal made me thrust my fingers into my ass again.
“G, gueuaat!”
FU-SHI-SHIK!
Another climax as I came hard.
***
I opened the windows and spent the whole day cleaning the apartment.
Even though I kept sweeping away what looked like the karma I’d stacked up, the things kept piling up in my vision.
“Haa… haa. From now on I’ll clean while living.”
Alone with that resolution, I finished cleaning just as the sun was setting.
“I hope Sohee’s doing well…”
I didn’t have to worry, but I couldn’t even imagine how devastated she’d be if she failed the audition.
She’d lost sleep because of me for an audition that probably had nothing to do with her.
But I only wanted her future to be happy.
After cleaning, the once-dirty space looked spotless.
It was the exact same look I had when I signed the contract.
“Now it’s time to go home…”
That space had been our shared youth.
After the military, I pushed my mom to come to the capital and stayed there.
Seeing it clean made me remember the past, and I realized how dirty I’d lived, but I forced myself to ignore it.
Even if I didn’t know if Sohee would come, I decided to prepare a small party.
A celebration party if she passed.
A comfort party if she failed.
I ordered only easy-to-eat dishes since time was short and waited for her.
With the doorbell, she walked in.
“Wow! What is this?”
“A party for you.”
“You don’t even know the result yet?”
“Doesn’t matter. It’s a celebration for how hard you worked.”
“You bastard, you’re making me emotional!”
Sohee hugged me tight.
“Thank you.”
I looked down at her as she buried her face in my chest and held me close.
Today was going to be a comfort party.
“You worked hard, you worked hard.”
I patted her back with nothing but those words.
“Hoo… hic… hic… hic…”
I held her as she cried in my arms.
It seemed she’d really fallen.
The food was getting cold.
***
“So… what are you going to do?”
“Huh? What do you mean, what am I going to do?”
I pulled the half-eaten piece of pizza out of her mouth and asked again.
“Are you going back home?”
“Huh? I got accepted?”
“Huh?”
“Huh?”
“Aaaaah, it hurts!”
I grabbed her cheek and shouted.
“Why the hell are you telling me this now!”
“I didn’t ask!”
“Huh?”
“Huh. I didn’t ask.”
I pulled my hand off her cheek and checked.
“Then… you passed?”
“Yes! This is my first big role!”
“Waaah! Congratulations!”
I picked her up and spun her around.
“Wow! Thank you! Stop… stop! You bastard, I almost threw up.”
When I set her down, I felt a little dizzy too.
“Um… sleep. Listen to me.”
“Huh?”
“Since it’s hard to bring it up, just listen for a minute.”
She was choosing her words while thinking.
“I’ll tell you my conclusion. Just listen, okay?”
“Alright.”
“I said just listen!”
“Uep uep!”
“It’s stupid, but okay.”
She took a breath and spoke.
“The Taebok Effect is real.”
“Actually, I thought there was no chance I’d pass the audition today. But the moment I woke up, I started thinking ‘Is it doable?’”
“And the result? Congratulations!”
CLAP CLAP CLAP
Since I couldn’t speak, I clapped to celebrate her.
“When I think about your reaction, you don’t know how that ability even appeared, do you?”
“That’s right. It’s too unbelievable and it’s only the second time, so it might just be coincidence.”
Sohee had already decided I was the one bringing luck.
“No. It’s real. The problem is…”
“Someone might know and come looking. Even if they don’t hide it from you.”
“Then what do we do about that?”
I started thinking while listening to her words.
“What if someone comes begging in a hurry? Or they might force you to rape them. What if a ugly woman comes and tramples you with force?”
I expressed my worries with my hands and body.
“What are you doing? You don’t know sign language. Just say it.”
I opened my mouth only after getting her permission.
“Is it okay? I’m so scared. I’m getting goosebumps right now.”
I rubbed my goosebumped arm while listening to her.
“So then you have to take the lead that time.”
“Lead?”
“You can’t just give it to any woman for free.”
“Then?”
“Decide for yourself, and receive money.”
“Money?”
“You need someone to protect you. That means you need money.”
That was her point.
If you didn’t want to be used by some ugly or old powerful person who knows about your ability, you should raise your power.
That meant you needed money.
“It feels like I’ve become a host, but I get it. But how much should I charge?”
“Well, look at the other person’s situation and charge accordingly.”
“You’re not telling me not to do it.”
“You don’t look like someone I’d refuse.”
I’d lived a pretty wholesome life, but once I accepted that my ability was real, lewd thoughts wouldn’t leave my head.
“Sohee, are you staying over tonight again?”
“Please save me. My lower body is aching right now.”
“Oh, really? Sorry.”
“I’ll come back when there’s something important.”
She was treating me like a charm now. It hurt my heart.
“Then what do I do? I can’t post an ad either.”
I thought about ways to gather customers.
***
The woman next door had her ear pressed tightly against the wall and was listening.
She muttered to herself.
“If you sleep with someone for money, luck comes?”