Lost Confidence (1)
Chirp chirp chirp... The chirping of birds caresses my face with pleasant morning sunlight.
"Yaaawn... Ungh...!"
I stretch refreshingly. For some reason, it's an exceptionally invigorating morning. Glancing to the side, my husband isn't there.
Huh...? Did I oversleep...?!
"Whoa..! Oppa, breakfast!"
I rush into the living room, where toasted bread, butter, and jam are already set on the table. And there's someone rummaging in the fridge—my brother-in-law.
"Oppa~ Thanks for making breakfast~"
I wrap my arms tightly around his waist. The warmth of the person I love feels so good.
Hmm..? But something feels a bit slimmer...?
"Um... Hye-won, I'm the younger brother. My hyung already left for work."
The same voice, the same face—but it's the person I hate.
"Kyaa..! Sorry, I mistook you for Oppa in my sleepy haze..."
Startled, but honestly displeased, I quickly pull away. It's been ten days since Ha-jin moved in, and he's still pulling this nonsense... It pisses me off.
"No... It's fine... Um... I should head out now too."
Now that I look, he's already dressed.
"Huh? Where are you off to?"
Just casual curiosity.
"Ah... Off to my part-time job for now."
Unexpected. He hadn't even thought about going out for the past few days.
"I see. Well, take care."
I never imagined I'd say that to anyone but Oppa—let alone someone I dislike. But this is just politeness. And honestly, I wish he'd vanish from my sight ASAP. That dream from last time still haunts me... I can't even look at his face. Especially since it's identical to Oppa's... It gives me this weird feeling...
Hmm..? There's incense burning in the study...? Herbal scent... Purple is a bit unusual... How much does this Ha-jin guy love incense...?
"Dishes done, house cleaned, trash sorted, groceries bought—check."
Nothing left to do... My yoga studio is closed for remodeling, so there's really nothing... The house feels extra quiet today... Ever since Ha-jin moved in, Oppa's work has kept him so busy we haven't made love in ten days...
"Oppa..♡ Ungh..."
That's why I've been comforting myself like this so often lately. Just seeing Oppa's face makes my heart race. I want to have sex with Oppa so bad...
"Haah.. Oppa... there..♡"
Masturbating to Oppa... Every time I think of him...
'That snake-like tongue feels so good...'
Ah... That dream from before pops up again... In the dream, it felt so different from sex with Oppa—a novel sensation... Since Ha-jin looks just like Oppa, thinking of Oppa brings that dream back too.
"Hngh.. Haah..♡ Feels good..♡ Cumming...♡"
My fingers are soaked. Ah... The floor's wet... Better clean up and air it out before the smell lingers...
Beep... Beep... Beep... Ring ring...
Oppa won't be home for a while yet... Must be Ha-jin back.
"Ah... I just came to grab something and head out again. I'll probably eat dinner out."
Ha-jin eating out tonight...? This is the perfect chance...
"Sure~ Got it~"
Even I think that sounded cute. But ten days without sex with Oppa... I'm so excited... The moment Oppa gets home, I wanna pounce...
Sniff... What's this? He lit incense again? More herbal stuff...? Why so much this time... Green now...? No way... Did he smell my masturbation...?
Beep... Beep... Beep... Ring ring...
"Welcome home, Oppa!"
Finally, alone time with Oppa!
"Oppa, Ha-jin said he's eating out tonight!"
I even wore this bold new lingerie I splurged on and spritzed perfume!
"It's been so long just the two of us, right...?"
So...
"How about you eat me for dinner, Oppa...?"
Just once... One quick round before dinner... Uh... Oppa's eyes look scary... He's been holding back too, huh...
"Oppa, I... I can't wait anymore... Let's do it now..♡"
Showing him my slutty lingerie made his eyes even fiercer. We kiss hot and heavy. Ah... It's been forever... I can feel Oppa... Now I wanna lick Oppa's...
Quick, take it... off...
"Huh..? It's not... hard..? Uh...?"
It slipped out... No, if I stimulate it...
Lick... Slurp... Sluuurp...
"Sorry, Hye-won... I must be too tired today... Can we do it after dinner...?"
Ah... Even after licking and sucking... It's not getting hard... Yeah... Oppa must just be exhausted... Right... I'll hold out a bit... On his day off, he'll recover and be in top form—then we can go at it.
"...."
"...."
Our rare dinner together passed in heavy silence...
"It's okay, Oppa~ You've been so busy and tired lately~ Rest up tonight, and when work calms down, you can give it to me then."
I suggested heading to bed, but a strange shadow lingered on his face.
"Yeah... Thanks, Hye-won..."
Right... It's my fault for always getting so excited. Not Oppa's—he's tired...
Beep... Beep... Beep... That irritating guy comes home and it's pissing me off...
"Hah... So now he can't even get it up anymore?"
I was in the study, laughing my ass off quietly. Must be the steady incense—Hye-wonnie's getting hornier by the day, and hyung's probably even worse at getting erections after this shock. I check the hidden cam in the bedroom. As soon as I got home, I lit the green peppermint incense again. They're probably asleep by now.
"Time to prep hard today too."
"Let's see... Metronome... Headset... Photos... All set."
I confirm the tools and approach hyung first. I slip the headset on him. It's pre-loaded with a recorded suggestion.
You must not have sex with Lee Hye-won, no matter how much desire you feel for her.
That's the suggestion I've implanted in hyung over the past ten days. It worked perfectly—he can't even get hard anymore, thanks to the suggestions and incense, no matter the stimulation.
So this time, I'm changing it.
You feel sexual desire from negative emotions toward Lee Hye-won.
Right now, it's even more useless than the previous one, but hyung's psychological shock means I won't even need the old suggestion anymore.
Next, Hye-won's turn.
Every time you see the person in this photo before you, that dream comes back, and you get aroused.
The photo I show her half-asleep eyes is a composite overlapping me and hyung. It's ambiguous, so the suggestion stays vague too. Just one photo, but she'll recall that sex every time she sees me or hyung.
Finally, I start the metronome.
Tick... Tock... Tick... Tock... Tick... Tock...
With the metronome ticking close by, I give her sleeping body—deep in hypnosis and incense-induced slumber—continuous teasing caresses.
"Hngh..♡ Haa...♡"
She's got such a sensitive body.
"Ungh..♡ Hnng...♡"
No climaxes allowed during the teasing. That would ruin my plan. Gotta focus.
"Hngh...♡ Haah♡"
I never touch her pussy. Nipples, ears, tongue, collarbone—that's the focus. Two hours of this... My fingers ache now.
"Whew... Tough day."
Time to clean up and crash... I'm beat.
Ten days later
"Have a safe trip to work today, Oppa~"
My beloved Oppa heads out.
"See you later."
He gives me a light kiss. Lately, Ha-jin's been doing night shifts, so he sleeps through the day. That means I can set the mood with Oppa at night. His big project will wrap up soon. Once he rests and recovers...
"Ah... Can't wait... But first, housewife duties—gotta get 'em done!"
Tick... Tock...
Huh..? What's that sound...?
Tick... Tock... Tick... Tock... Tick... Tock...
Haa..♡ Tick... Tock... Hngh..♡ Tick... Tock...
What is it... My nipples... They're hard...♡
Tick... Tock... Mmm..♡ Tick... Tock...
Yeah... I can't get any work done like this...
Tick... Tock... Haah...♡ Tick... Tock...
Just a little... Just a tiny bit... Comfort myself...
Tick... Tock... Squish♡ Squish♡ Slurp.. Squish♡
Tick... Tock... Squish♡ Squish♡ Squish♡
Tick... Tock...
"Ah... That tongue texture...♡ Just like in the dream...♡"
What am I doing? Why am I licking my fingers like...
Slurp.. Slurrrp..
"Hae..♡ Mmm...♡ Haa..♡ Hngh..♡"
Tick... Squish♡ Squish♡ Tock... Squish♡ Squish♡ Slurrp... Squish♡ Squish♡ Squish♡
......
How much time passed...? I ignored all the chores... Masturbating all day... Oppa... I think something's wrong with me... Oppa... I wanna feel good... Ah... Thinking of Oppa... Why does that dream come back too...
"But that's the best, most memorable pleasure right now..."
I crave that inner heat from the dream that night. Just once more, I comfort myself.
Now she gets aroused just from the metronome sound.
"Hye-wonnie has no idea she's turned into Pavlov's dog, excited by the metronome tick."
She's even hornier than expected. Success for sure. She was so lost in masturbation—thinking I was asleep—that she didn't notice me come out. That's how deep the metronome arousal has set in.
Ah... So fun... I can see her breaking down bit by bit. Now, time to blur the line between dream and reality. I'll shatter that boundary on purpose, creating cracks in her mind to slip in suggestions, melting her away...
But no rushing... Slowly... Plenty of time...
"So... you're having trouble getting erections now...?"
The doctor who seemed skeptical last time asks seriously.
"Yes... Last time with my wife... even with stimulation, it just wouldn't get hard..."
The worst for a man.
"Hmm... Did it feel good when stimulated?"
A bit odd question.
"Of course..."
I answer weakly.
"Then it's not anhedonia... I'll prescribe something. It won't feel like before, but you'll get erections at least."
Why is this happening lately...? I get excited seeing Hye-won, but deep down, it feels like something I shouldn't do...
"Um... Lately, when I try to be with my wife... It feels like I'm doing something wrong..."
The doctor glances quietly, scribbling notes.
"The meds should get you hard, but it won't feel the same. The key is confidence."
He hands me a business card.
Choi Ha-yul, Therapist
"Looks psychological to me. See her—she's well-known in the field."
Hypnotherapy... Feels suspicious. Is hypnosis even real...? I'll hold off.
"Got it. Thank you..."
Try the meds first and see...
No way it's psychological for me...