Illusion
Illusion
On the floor of the modern hotel room's entrance, overlooking the night view.
With trembling hands, I undid the button of my hot pants.
"Hahk...!"
The area between my thighs under the pants, even the bodysuit over my underwear, was soaked wet.
A pungent floral scent began to fill the room.
"Ugh, uuuh......."
I dragged the cumbersome pants down to my feet.
Even though the cold marble tile touched my thighs,
that coolness itself tormented me.
"Eut...!"
I pulled my arms out of my outerwear.
My breasts swayed beneath the bodysuit and touched the floor.
A breeze brushed over my bare skin, but
that alone couldn't cool down this feverish body.
Thud.
I reached a hand toward the distant bed, but I didn't even have the strength left to crawl.
Should I do it here?
"Hhuuk!"
Swallowing my ragged breath, I brought my trembling hand to the bodysuit over my crotch.
...Let's do it.
"Hik!"
As my fingertip touched the damp slit, my eyes flew wide open.
My back arched and I jerked up from the floor.
My finger sank into the sticky fluid.
I'm coming.
I'm coming..
I'm coming...!
"Hhuut... Haa, ah..."
I moved my finger, ignoring the sticky liquid.
Didn't I do this every night until two weeks ago?
Just poking like this with my finger.
Let me come.
Swoosh, swoosh.
In the soundproofed space, the squelching sound spread out.
Pleasure traveled up my spine and scrambled my head.
"Ah, uk! Haang...!"
My lower abdomen tightened with a zing—.
My toes curled inward.
My mind burned white, and the first wave was about to crash over me.
No.
I thought it was crashing.
"Haa... Haa...?"
At the threshold of climax, at that precarious border where it seemed within reach yet not, the pleasure abruptly stopped.
It couldn't go any further.
Something was wrong.
As if I had hit an invisible wall.
My body was already burning up as much as it could.
What is this?
I pushed the bodysuit and panties aside.
Cold air touched the hot pink petals.
I inserted my finger into the gap.
Squish, squish.
But.
"...Why."
Moisture welled up in the corners of my eyes.
My body was still like a ball of fire, and my secret place itched and ached maddeningly.
My insides wanted to come right now, but I couldn't.
What do I do?
I moved my finger faster.
I roughly churned the deep place.
Sway.
I pulled my breasts out through the gap in the bodysuit.
Cupping them with my palms, I twisted and pinched the nipples.
"Hut... Why won't it work!"
I kept slipping at that threshold.
"Eut, please... Hahut!"
My body was craving it like crazy, but I couldn't get over the wall at all.
Could it be?
In the endless thirst, my reason offered a guess it wasn't even sure of itself.
Does this not work anymore?
Do I need the real thing?
"Haa, hhuuk... No, no... Please... uk!"
I hate it!
By myself.
Somehow.
Plop.
A tear fell onto the floor.
***
I increased the number of fingers between my thighs.
Two, three.
I forced them in, wringing out pleasure.
"Aak! Hh, haa... Aaaat...!"
My thighs trembled violently, and my back arched as if it would break.
But I failed.
My nails dug into my breasts.
Sweat-drenched hair stuck to my face, and drool dripped from my mouth.
Still, I failed.
I had to cool this heat somehow.
Summoning the last of my strength, I crawled into the bathroom.
Shooo—.
Turning the faucet, I threw myself into the bathtub where cold water poured.
But even the flesh-biting cold water couldn't extinguish the heat boiling up from deep inside my body.
I just pressed my cheek against the cold bathtub, gasping for breath.
"Haa... Haa..."
I didn't even have the strength left to move my fingers.
My vision blurred and I felt suffocated.
Just when it seemed my consciousness would snap, not from pleasure, but from the endless heat.
Something appeared through the falling streams of water.
Under the faint bathroom light, a black silhouette stood.
Short blond hair.
A rugged, solid, muscular body.
My form from a few hours ago was standing there.
No.
Shaking my head, I curled up in the water.
"Th,this... isn't it."
Water streamed down, soaking the clothes.
It's impossible.
It's disgusting.
The 'me' under the light just silently looked down at me without a word.
But every time that intense gaze brushed over me, goosebumps rose on my skin.
From between my submerged thighs, something seemed to gush out.
Instinctively, I pulled my legs together, hiding my slit from that view.
"Please... don't look..."
At that moment, he took a step toward me.
"I am..."
One step.
"R, right now."
Two steps.
I don't need you!
I tried to muster the last of my strength and escape from the bathtub.
But my legs gave out and I sank back into the water.
A huge black shadow, blocking the bathroom light, covered over me as I sank in the water.
A large hand pulled me, submerged in the water, out and gently stroked my wet cheek.
[It's okay.]
A low, affectionate voice resonated in my head.
[It's not your fault.]
At that moment, the last defensive wall remaining inside me crumbled.
"But still... this is..."
Water droplets streamed down my face.
Was this shower water, or my tears?
He grabbed my arm and pulled me tightly into his embrace.
My soft breasts were crushed against his firm chest.
I resisted no more.
I just closed my eyes and buried my face in his chest.
Splash.
I settled in the bathtub and spread my legs.
He lay on top of me.
At that moment.
"Ah...!"
An electric current tingled up my spine.
Just imagining his touch on my skin, a crack, appeared in the blocked wall.
My head spun.
"Slowly..."
[Yeah.]
Matching the movement of his waist, I gently moved my fingers in the water.
Bubble, bubble.
"Hhuuk."
That which I couldn't reach no matter how much I poked.
Exploded with just the addition of imagination.
"Haa..."
A sweet breath naturally leaked from my mouth.
"A little more..."
I grabbed my breasts floating on the water with both hands and rolled the nipples with my fingers.
The bathtub water sloshed as if about to overflow.
"Haa, haa."
Something thick and hot, incomparable to my current slender fingers.
Violently pierced the empty place I had been desperately waiting for.
"Hhuuk!"
I tried to hold back, but it was futile.
The true feelings I had been suppressing finally burst out.
"Yunha! Ah, uk! Harder, harder......!"
The heat coiled in my lower abdomen spread throughout my body.
A flash exploded before my eyes,
My whole body trembled violently, and hot love juice erupted in the water.
"Aaat! Aaaang...!"
I couldn't breathe.
"Haak!"
I spread my legs wider.
Imagining him pouring his hot essence endlessly inside me,
I moved my fingers like crazy again.
"Haat, ah! I'm coming, again... Aaaang!"
I'm scared.
I feel like I'm going to lose myself.
"Uuun... Haa, ah..."
But.
My body, this woman's flesh, kept wanting him.
"More, do it more!"
Guilt and pleasure mingled, shattering my mind to pieces.
Every time the imaginary Yunha's waist moved,
My body also twitched inside the bathtub in response.
"Ah, aaat...! Aaaa!"
Squeeeak.
Along with convulsions that felt like my whole body was breaking,
Love juice flowed from the secret slit that had jutted out of the bathtub.
***
I couldn't even remember how many times I came.
"Haa... Ha..."
My ragged breathing gradually calmed.
Summoning the last of my energy, I raised my body from the bathtub.
I threw off the completely soaked bodysuit that was still covering my body,
And staggered naked toward the bed.
I lay down on the bed just like that.
Plop.
Sweat and moisture immediately seeped into the blanket, but I had no mind to care.
On the bed, I pulled my knees to my chest like a baby.
My vision gradually blurred and my eyes began to close.
It felt like thick, firm arms were pulling me in and embracing me in their arms.
"...Uuun."
I buried my face in the blanket.
[Sleep well.]
A rough but warm voice seemed to be patting me.
The heat that had been churning my stomach now covered my whole body warmly, as if it had become a tame lamb.
A deep sense of relief, as if a lie, washed over me and embraced me in the darkness.
This warmth felt as if that fantasy version of me was holding me in his arms.
In the end, I lost consciousness, falling into a deep, deep darkness as if fainting.
***
The morning sun stabbed my eyes.
"Uuum..."
When I lifted my heavy eyelids, the first thing I felt was
The clammy texture of the blanket sticking to my skin.
And the smell, vibrating enough to numb my sense of smell.
The thick Evening Primrose scent my body had poured out all night was saturated throughout the room.
"..."
I did a dry wash of my face.
Memories from last night flooded in.
What the hell did I do?
Looking at the fantasy of myself as a man, I spread my own legs.
I even called my own name with my own mouth as I came.
The firm arms that had held me,
And the hot sensation that had ravaged me like a beast remained vividly on my skin.
"Aaaak...!"
My face burned as if about to burst.
From shame, I wanted to open the window and jump out right now.
I got up from the bed as if fleeing and headed to the bathroom.
My reflection in the mirror was miserable.
Flushed red cheeks, unfocused pupils, and messily tangled silver hair.
I turned my body and entered the shower stall.
I turned on the warm water and stood under the showerhead.
I loaded the shower ball with body wash and scrubbed my body.
"It's all because of this Trait.
Because of this damn Trait."
I muttered incessantly, denying reality.
I neurotically washed away the traces from last night clinging to the inside of my thighs.
My white skin turned red and inflamed.
Wash it, wash it all away and forget it.
"I'm never doing it again..."
Finally, holding the showerhead, I poured a stream of water toward my secret place.
The traces I had spilled all night flowed down the drain with the water.
But, the moment the water stream touched the slit.
'...Yunha, harder, harder...!'
The moans I had uttered with my own mouth last night surfaced in my mind.
The gestures of the man in the fantasy who had mercilessly pierced me struck my brain vividly.
"Eut...!"
At that moment, my waist involuntarily twitched on its own.
"Eh...?"
My mind was clearly disgusted.
But my body was different.
From the place the shower water was washing away,
A prickling electric current began to bloom again, scraping at my lower abdomen.
Trickle.
From the secret slit I had just washed clean.
A transparent, slippery liquid seeped out and streamed down my white thighs.
"...Haa."
Leaning my forehead against the wet tile wall, I let out a deep sigh.
Shoooaaa.
Amidst the sound of the pouring shower water, only my pitiful breathing scattered.
