I Should've Done This Sooner ♥

"Haa... haaah..."

Back in my room, I replayed what had just happened.

The way he looked at me—like he genuinely wanted me dead. I had never seen that expression on Oppa's face before. I never imagined he could stare at me with that much hatred. I didn't even know if what I'd done was something to get ‍‍‌‌⁠​​⁠‌​​‍​​‍​‌​⁠‍‌‍⁠⁠‌⁠‌‍‌‍‌‌‌‍⁠​‌​‌​‌‍‌‌‌⁠‍​​‌‍⁠‌‌⁠⁠that angry about. Oppa was my toy. I thought he'd take whatever I did to him...

"What the hell... why is this happening...?"

Slick was leaking out of me so badly I couldn't hold it back. My panties were soaked through...

That fierce look in Oppa's eyes—the first I'd ever seen from him—and my body had gotten off on it.

Hnnngh... I came from that...? I don't get it...

Am I actually a pervert...?

I changed out of my soaked panties and thought about something Oppa had said a while back.

It was bullshit as far as I was concerned, but still...

Watching Oppa cry made my chest hurt a little, so I decided to try seeing another guy.

Twenty years old. New school year. I was a senior now, prepping for the Suneung.

After that day, Oppa wouldn't even look at me. He'd cook dinner and walk straight out of the house. He was probably hiding at the library or the College Prep Academy just to avoid me.

It pissed me off a little... but if I poked him now, things might get even worse, so I decided to wait it out. I got to school and headed for my newly assigned class.

A few kids I'd been friendly with were there, so I made some small talk, and before I knew it the whole class had clustered around me...

Talking to people like that was kind of a pain, but I needed to use them to some extent. So I even handed out my number—to guys and girls alike—which I never normally did.

Ugh, fuck... these pathetic assholes... so goddamn annoying...

My phone was on fire with messages. I killed the notifications on every group chat, and in the DMs... every kind of loser was hitting on me.

Some random psycho I didn't even know suddenly introduced himself and asked to meet. The girls would drag me around trying to use me as bait to meet decent-looking guys.

But there was one payoff. A guy the kids introduced me to. He was pretty handsome, played basketball so he was tall—185 centimeters? His personality was upbeat and fun, so I kept answering his texts. What was his name again... Shin something??

Anyway, around the time midterms ended, he suddenly called me out to a nearby park in the evening, his face tomato-red, and said he wanted to date me. I told him I needed time to think and went home... and while that pathetic bastard was probably losing sleep waiting for my answer, I texted him yes, laughing at him the whole time.

Then he called.

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Sure you will... idiot...

Late at night, I knocked on Oppa's door. After a moment he appeared, still half-asleep—but his eyes didn't look away. He looked right at me.

He's gotten so much taller lately... and he's getting hotter and hotter...♥ Hnngh!

Meeting his eyes after so long, I started getting wet down there. I composed myself, got my face under control, and spoke.

"...Can we talk."

"......"

Oppa let me into his room without a word. It had been a while since I'd been in here. Still neat. Still well-kept.

He sat in his chair, watching me, waiting for me to speak.

"I have a boyfriend now..."

"...What?"

"I said I got a boyfriend..."

"...Oh. Congrats...?"

Those eyes that had been full of hostility—at my words he looked startled at first, then actually happy, congratulating me. I felt pretty hurt. I still loved Oppa so much.

"So... stop avoiding me now. I've thought a lot about it. I've reflected..."

Obviously a lie. I hadn't done anything wrong. I'd just done what was natural.

"You keep avoiding me... and it's really hard on me... hic..."

I unleashed the tears I'd loaded up in advance. The effect was incredible.

"...Sigh. Fine. Come here."

Oppa opened his arms and pulled me in, patting my back.

Being in Oppa's arms after so long almost made me come... hnngh!

But yeah. Our Oppa is still a sucker.

That's fine. He's the toy I love most. I have no intention of letting anyone take him, and no intention of letting him go. Just wait a little longer, Oppa...♥

That night I fell asleep talking with Oppa about all the things we hadn't been able to say.

Did I make a mistake dating this guy...?

I left the house for school and there he was, waiting for me with that dumb grin plastered on his face. My mood was already shot first thing in the morning, but I asked what he was doing here.

"Surprise~! Let's walk together from now on."

Fuck.... my head hurt.

"Huh? Is that your boyfriend...?"

Oppa had come out behind me on his way to the library and seen us.

"Ah... Oppa...?"

Worst possible timing. The boyfriend-idiot walked up to Oppa, bowed at a perfect ninety degrees, and said he'd treat me really well, please look after us.

"Sure, take good care of her~ Don't make my little sister cry!"

Oppa was smiling, blessing this asshole's relationship with me. I felt like shit, so I did something childish right in front of him. I linked arms with the boyfriend-idiot and leaned my head on his shoulder.

I'd done it in a fit of pique, hoping it'd make him jealous. But...

"Whoa, already~? Kids these days move fast."

Irritating... the grinning idiot next to me was irritating, and Oppa who couldn't even read my heart was irritating...

I flipped Oppa off and dragged the boyfriend-idiot away.

I'd been under a lot of stress lately.

First, the boyfriend-idiot actually thought I liked him for real, and started slowly groping my body. I got so fucking pissed I told him if he touched me one more time we were done. He got all gloomy and said he was sorry, he wouldn't do it again.

Haa...

And when I got home...

I'd ask Oppa, who came home later than me, to make dinner, and now he was nagging me to start cooking for myself. It pissed me off. I was already heated because of the boyfriend-idiot.

Still, it was a relief that we were close enough again that he could get mad at me like this. Oppa was trying to treat me like just a bratty little sister now... like any ordinary siblings in any ordinary family.

It hurt so much I said it to him.

"Oppa... would it really not bother you at all if I did something with another guy...?"

"...Why are you asking me that all of a sudden? Why would you ‍‍‌‌⁠​​⁠‌​​‍​​‍​‌​⁠‍‌‍⁠⁠‌⁠‌‍‌‍‌‌‌‍⁠​‌​‌​‌‍‌‌‌⁠‍​​‌‍⁠‌‌⁠⁠even ask me that..."

So now he doesn't even see me as a woman anymore...

I stormed back to my room and slammed the door.

I masturbate thinking about Oppa, and even when I always come like this, my fingers aren't enough. It feels so good when Oppa fucks me... why is he so dense...

Tonight I miss Oppa's cock so much.

Haa... I want to fuck Lee Ji-eun...♥

November was getting closer, so I told the boyfriend I wanted to break up. I used the excuse that I needed to focus on studying, and that he'd been nagging too much lately. Ah, the nagging.

Are you cheating on me. Why do you sigh so much. Why do you contact your brother so often. Is he even really your brother.

Every pathetic little thing, so goddamn annoying.

He had a decent enough face so I played with him a bit longer than I should have... but the clinginess was so fucking irritating. If he was just a tool to make Oppa jealous, he should've just dropped off already.

Then something finally blew up. This psycho showed up at our front door, bawling, begging me to get back together after the Suneung, please just think about it again... pleading with me, until Oppa barely managed to calm him down and send him home.

Oppa didn't say a word. He just patted my head once and went into his room.

He thinks I'm sad. He has it all wrong... this is so fucking annoying.

Suddenly I was pissed.

Fuck... why do I have to put up with this...

Oppa fucked me. That's a fact that doesn't go away. So I should use it. I threw open Oppa's door.

He was about to lie down to sleep. I ran at him, shoved him down, and climbed on top.

And I said it.

"...What are you talking about all of a sudden. We said we weren't doing this anymore. Don't start saying weird shit just because you broke up with your boyfriend..."

"Ha~! Boyfriend?! That was all an act to piss you off. You think I'd just let you go??"

"Hahh.... just stop it, Ji-yeon."

Who the hell does he think he is, trying to cut this off on his own?

"Wow~! That's fucking hilarious...! The guy who fucked his little sister wants to what? Wants to stop, you piece of shit...!!"

"..."

I screamed and mashed his berserk button, and he froze up again, unable to say a word.

"...Fine. Just don't."

Yes...!! Hehe♥. I should've done this from the start...!!

"Hooo.... always remember. Oppa, you did something really, really fucked up to me...."

I shoved my tongue into Oppa's mouth and ravaged it like a madwoman.

Haaaah...! Lee Ji-eun, you taste so fucking good...♥