Memories Worth Staying In Forever
The first day after being kidnapped by Zophy. … Though whether it truly was the first day, I couldn’t say. I had no way of knowing how viciously the sleep spell she had cast had been altered. Let’s simply call it the first day I opened my eyes.
I lay upon a bed unlike any I had seen in either of my lives. The lavish canopy of sheer fabric embroidered with intricate patterns overwhelmed my eyes, accustomed as they were to the modest life of an ordinary city-dweller—though it was clear this place was far from poor.
Since I had been kidnapped, I assumed I would be bound, so I tried to move. There was no sign of restraints. Confused, I looked around the room and spotted someone asleep at a research table piled high with books and papers, looking exhausted.
Her head was turned toward me, lying face-down and fast asleep. It wasn’t difficult to recognize her.
Zophy of Mittenburg……
The top graduate of our knight order, the first child whose life I had saved, and… the kidnapper who had come all the way to my workshop, put me to sleep, and brought me to this unknown place. Since I still couldn’t grasp her intentions, I had to be cautious.
“Ahem… ahem……”
I deliberately gave a small cough. Her sleep must have been light, because Zophy stirred at the sound and blinked her eyes open.
“Mmm……”
Our eyes met, yet the noble mage simply yawned without a care and stretched first.
“How was it? Did you sleep well, Hero Kaira? Was my bed comfortable?”
“Huh…?”
Zophy gave me a pitiful look and rose from the table.
“Not ‘huh,’ Hero. In situations like this, you’re supposed to say, ‘Yes, thank you for your consideration.’ Though expecting court etiquette from a baker’s daughter is asking too much.”
“Court…? My lady, where exactly is this……?”
At my words, Zophy lightly gathered the hem of her midnight-blue robe—clearly expensive at a glance—along with her ornate skirt and dipped into a small curtsy.
“Ah, how rude of me. Welcome to the Mittenburg ducal estate, Hero.”
I was speechless for a long while.
“So,”
I finally managed to speak after barely managing to swallow the cup of tea a maid had brought at Zophy’s order.
“You wanted to keep me by your side, so you… negotiated with Count Waldenheim to exchange court advisors… is that it?”
“Of course, Kaira. The one who went to Waldenheim may be in seclusion, but she’s an extraordinary archmage. I’m sure the count was persuaded.”
“But someone like me……”
“I told you, didn’t I?”
Zophy smiled a dangerous smile.
“Until I brought you here, it was only a guess, but after testing you and seeing your reaction, I became certain. Kaira, you can turn back time. I couldn’t bear to watch someone with such an ability rot away in a dangerous border region, in some insignificant count’s domain with no real military power. Here, in our house, your abilities would shine far more brilliantly.”
I took a few more sips of tea. The first taste was bitter, yet the aroma that rose from it was unlike anything I had encountered on Earth or here—seductive, intoxicating.
“If that’s what you wish, I’ll help you…… But I can’t do anything unreasonable.”
“Don’t worry. It will be far more productive than fixing farming tools. Still, Kaira.”
Zophy glanced at my face. Just as I tilted my head, wondering what she was about to say—
“Ugh……!!”
A heat bloomed from deep inside my body.
“Ah. Yes. The effect has taken hold.”
“Wh… what…? Eff… effect……?”
Zophy’s face split into two, then six. Her beautiful hair tangled like waterweeds in a current, and I saw a hallucination of it coiling around my neck.
“Indeed. You became a hero, grew a little stiff-necked, and after gaining a mysterious power, you secretly looked down on others. Arrogance is a disease. I researched it and created a medicine to cure it.”
“Wh… wh-wh-wh-what……? Th-that… can be… fixed… with… medicine……?”
Beyond my blurring vision, Zophy smiled thinly.
“Oh, it can be fixed. Judging by how badly your tongue is already twisting, you must have suspected as much.”
Dizzy and heavy-headed, I could no longer form proper replies.
“Hngh…… gyah…… ugh……”
“If I completely destroy your reason, arrogance and everything else will vanish, won’t it?”
After Zophy’s voice echoed dully in my ears—words I could barely understand—something came crashing down with the force to turn my brain and heart to ash.
“Hngh?! ”
This is……
A… a woman’s… f-fingers……? I-inside……?
I let out a short scream and wet myself right there on Zophy’s bed.
“Ah…… aah…… th-this…… I don’t…… know…… this……”
“My, the lower classes really are hopeless. You don’t even know how to use the lavatory?”
Zophy’s mocking voice rang faintly beyond the buzzing in my ears, but my mind had melted so thoroughly that I could no longer comprehend the words. With a foolish smile on my face, I brought my fingers toward my own sex, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
Of… of course…… I should……
“I thought you were the type to spread your legs everywhere with that pretty face, used like a portable hole by those so-called heroes. But apparently not. A virgin. How unexpectedly pure you are, Hero.”
“Hngh…… I-I’m…… K-Kaira…… is a good…… girl……”
I couldn’t even understand what Zophy was saying anymore. I only knew that
it felt so good to touch myself……
How could I have…… lived without knowing something this wonderful……
Ehehehe……
I couldn’t…… understand……
I desperately wanted to touch my breasts too……
“That tea’s effect is certainly reliable. Professor Melissa or Lady Viran could never have made something like this. How do you feel, Kaira?”
Ah, aah…… Right, Zophy gave it to me……
She taught me…… how to be happy……
Will she…… ehehe, keep giving it to me……?
“G-good…… so good…… Kaira…… is happy……”
“Excellent. If you promise to serve as our family’s exclusive magical advisor in public and spread your legs for the guests I summon in private, I’ll keep giving you that tea. How about it? There’s no downside for you. Refuse, and I’ll either kill you or turn you into a vegetable.”
Eh.
I…… would die……?
Th-then…… even if she promised…… not to kill me…… and let me go…… there’d be…… no reason…… to refuse……
This feels…… so good……
Fingers slick with my own fluids, I licked them clean and rolled onto my back, baring my belly to my new master in submission.
“Yesss…… Kaira…… will forever…… hehehehe…… serve Lady Zophy…… If you just…… give me the tea…… Kaira…… will become…… your dog……”
Zophy smiled brightly.
“How adorable, Kaira. It suits your origins. But let me correct one thing.”
“Y-yes…… hngh?! A-ah♡”
“Someone who gets this lost in her first masturbation even while talking to me doesn’t deserve a cute name like ‘dog.’ Bitch? Sow? Something along those lines.”
Tongue lolling, panting, I answered joyfully.
“Y-yes!! K-Kaira…… is…… Lady Zophy’s…… bitch…… sow……”
Zophy looked thoroughly satisfied, and I was glad.
“Good. Then……”
Zophy’s face drew closer. I flinched in surprise, but—
“Chup……”
She paid no mind and pressed her lips to mine.
“Mmph?!”
There was no time to understand what was happening. The moment her soft lips touched mine, a shock like an electric current raced through me, and my limbs trembled with climax.
“Hehe. How cute, Kaira. I’ve thought so ever since you touched me that day when I collapsed. I was simply too jealous to admit it honestly.”
“M-My lady……?”
With my reason nearly erased, I stared blankly at the beautiful noble mage before me.
“A sweet scent that stirs the deepest parts of memory. You were embarrassed, thinking it was only because you were a baker’s daughter, but it was more than that—something magical. It reminded me of the cookies my mother, the duchess, used to bake herself despite the maids’ protests when I was little.”
“Ehehe…… u-uh……”
“My, has your reason melted so completely you can’t even speak? Still, you’re adorable like this too, Kaira. Shall we begin, then?”
With those words, Zophy undid the front of my clothes.
“Hngh……?!”
Her hand touched the bare skin between my breasts, now exposed without resistance. Her pale fingers stroked gently between them. …Though there wasn’t much breast to speak of.
Zophy’s snow-white fingers were rougher than one would expect from a highborn noble daughter. Proof that she had worked hard as a wandering mage and continued researching various materials even while living in the estate.
“You’re too thin, Kaira. You should have been able to eat all the bread you wanted while growing up…… Is it your constitution?”
After saying that, Zophy casually shrugged off her expensive-looking robe and laid it on the bed. Then she loosened the laces of her dress.
Understanding what she intended, I reflexively squirmed and babbled.
“I-if you do that…… n-no…… I’m…… K-Kaira…… a lowly…… female……”
But Zophy only laughed softly, as if even my resistance was cute, and slipped her dress off her shoulders, baring her upper body. The top half of her dark, beautiful dress hung loosely from her waist ties. She struggled alone to remove her sturdy corset—clearly something that normally required several attendants—and once it was off, the delicate undergarments beneath were revealed. She removed those just as easily.
“Ah…… how beautiful……”
With my reason nearly gone, I spoke with pure admiration.
Two large, soft mounds—something I had never imagined on myself, let alone on my mother—filled my vision.
“Is that your impression? It’s rather plain, but…… honest, I suppose. As expected, our hero is kind and adorable.”
“Ehehehe. Thank you…… hngh……!!”
The moment I laughed at the praise, Zophy’s body pressed against mine—her chest, far larger than my own boyish frame, meeting my skin.
“M-My lady…… th-this……!! Hngh♡”
“Sorry, but I checked while you were asleep. Our hero doesn’t seem to have any experience with men. Good. Very good. In that case……”
Zophy’s lips covered mine once more. Her soft tongue lightly licked my lips before pulling away. Then came her sweet voice.
“You may not be a man…… but I’ll take your first time.”
Another long, sweet kiss followed. With each teasing flick of Zophy’s tongue inside my mouth, my consciousness, my will, every future I had once wanted to live alone melted away.
Zophy’s fingers slowly traced down my bare chest and stomach, moving toward the place still shyly closed. I knew I should feel ashamed—and I did, my face burning—yet
It’s so sweet……
Too sweet to bear. This pleasure that turned my body to liquid and made me spill so freely between my legs—I could never endure it with a clear mind.
Like this…… I wanted to cast off every restraint and simply stay here……
That would be the greatest happiness……
“Ungh…… u-uh…… hngh……”
I saw a small girl, her wrists and ankles bound to two wooden frames, completely robbed of freedom. A young woman around my age with slightly darker light-brown hair. Her eyes were covered, her mouth gagged.
I lightly stroked the girl’s pink nipples, standing stiff as if trying to seduce me. At that single touch she convulsed as though struck by lightning and let out a cry.
“Hngiiiih?! Hngh…… u-uh……♡”
I moved my fingers in slow circles over her smooth chest, tickling her.
“Ehehe…… You’re making such pretty sounds now.”
“Hngh…… u-uh……”
The girl’s face, streaked with tears and drool, looked so adorable that I pressed my cheek to hers and whispered.
“Isn’t that right…… Mother?”
“Hngh……!!”
Mother—Pirel—winced as if in pain and shook her head. I gently stroked her hair.
One day, Zophy had kidnapped Mother. Something about eliminating future troubles. Whatever the reason, it didn’t matter. The only person left in this world who felt like family to me was Zophy, the one who gave me that sweet tea.
Because Zophy ordered it, I turned Mother’s time back about twenty years, making her the same age as me. Zophy said it would be nice if Mother served alongside me, entertaining the guests who came in the dark.
So now—
“Hngh……!! U-uh…… hngh……!!”
—I was tormenting her nipples and licking between her legs, training the woman who had once been my mother, Pirel, into an obedient bitch who would serve Zophy without question.
By now Pirel’s will must have been in tatters, but it still wasn’t enough. …I had never asked for her consent, but it still wasn’t enough. She wasn’t yet worthy of drinking the tea Zophy provided.
A little more…… Yes, I needed to break her down to the point I had been when I returned from the Demon King.
Inside Pirel’s struggling sex I had inserted a smoothly carved wooden phallus that Zophy had commissioned.
“Hngh……!! Mmph……!! Uuugh…… hngh♡”
Whether from pain or pleasure, Pirel thrashed and wept. Her cries, once only screams, were gradually turning sweet, and I felt proud of how Pirel was slowly learning to behave like a proper sow.
Soon she would receive guests together with me. She would live as an eternal flesh-hole that needed neither menstruation nor abortion thanks to time reversal, endlessly tasting that happiness. It was a gift I wanted to give to the person who had brought me into this world.
“Haa…… Enjoy yourself, then. Mother♡”
After saying that, I left the room where Pirel was confined.
Tonight, another guest Zophy had to entertain would arrive. I would cast Kaira’s Secret Diary on that guest, turn their time back, and spread my legs if they demanded it. That was my duty.
Once the duty was done, Zophy would reward me with tea and sometimes press her beautiful skin against mine.
What kind of guest would come tonight? Just thinking about it made me wet.
Wearing a collar around my neck and obscene clothing that left me nearly naked, I walked toward Zophy’s room to greet the guest. Imagining who I would receive tonight.
At the door to my master Zophy’s room, a blond boy attending to her gave me a light bow.
“Good work, Lady Kaira. The lady is waiting inside with the guest.”
“Yeah. Thanks for everything.”
I smiled at the boy and greeted him. Heart pounding, I reached for the door behind which Zophy and the guest she had summoned waited, and remembered to call his name.
“……Rasail. Then tonight, after the guest leaves…… shall we…… do it too?”
The boy swallowed hard.
“Y-yes.”
“……Something like that, I guess.”
“This isn’t helping me write an autobiography, Mom……”
“I know, but the memories just won’t focus properly. And besides……”
I slumped back, staring blankly at the ceiling.
“That possibility…… might not have been so bad either……”
Father……